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[thegirlwholovescoffee]

RIGHT PLACE, RIGHT TIME

Kahit 'yung mga small favor from the Lord,

Hindi masikip ang upuan sa jeep

Hindi mahaba ang pila sa counter

Walang ulan pag-uwi mo from work

Because God knew where to send you exactly in what you need. I remember, almost 9 months a go when i dropped out of school, i told myself na, "Lord masakit kung hindi ako para sa campus, pero tanggap ko kung ire-redirect mo ako"

I don't know where. I plan to get a work, pero pakiramdam ko kahit alam kong kaya ko ay babawian ako ng katawan ko in the future. So i have no choice but to stayed at house "tambay na maganda" lang. 😆

I spent those 9 months in church; Serving. I've been on fire, shaken in the middle, plan to backslide, surrendered and trust in Him. Hindi naging madali, kasi pakiramdam ko napag iiwanan ako.

Pero tingnan mo naman, isa na akong ganap na estudyante! In my desired course. I thanked God for the people who pushed me to go through this. Mahina ang loob ko in the first place but my confidence is God's faithfulness.

Yung nga buwan na, na sa church ako, nag se-serve ay naging training ground ko to go in the campus. God prepared me to where exactly He wants me to be. Hindi ko gusto una ang school ko, but eventually after i realized how the favor of the Lord flows in me, love comes after.

I'm holding on to His plan to give me a hope and a future, a plan that prosper me and not to harm me. 🤎

To BCP, i wrote this letter for you

I don't know what's ahead of me, i just pray for the strength and consistency for my new season.

Truly, it's His word that work in the end. I remember the promise i received last January on Isaiah 60:22 - When the time is right, I, the Lord, will make it happen.

Right place, right time.

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

DVBS '23

It's a wrap!! 💙💛 (tapos na rin ang powerpoint presentation ko sa stories niyo 😆)

I received a love letter from one of our students kanina, sabi niya "Thank you for teaching me, teacher Keziah" at hindi ko maiwasang hindi maiyak, kasi bakit nga naman hindi. Limang araw lang pero parang ang tagal. Huling araw na nang maka-adjust at mag karoon sila ng character development and i consider that a small win kasi, knowing me sobrang iksi ng pasensya ko sa mga bata.

And i'll always look back on these photo to remind my self that Jesus allowed me to serve and teach to these young generation. What a fulfillment of my purpose and passion.

TYL for the great one week experience na babauin ko kapag na sa field na ako ng teaching at campus ministry. Let's do it again Lord 🌱

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

COME AND FIND REST HERE

Hebrews 4:10-12 ESV "for whoever has entered God’s rest has also rested from his works as God did from his. Let us therefore strive to enter that rest, so that no one may fall by the same sort of disobedience. For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart."

Have you come to the end where you find yourself easily irritated, getting mad for no reason, or something that has no energy for everything you are doing? Well, we're on the same page.

Living in a time like this is really draining. Parang you need to strive for everything that's good to make you feel valued, worthy and loved. Seeking validations, saying yes to every responsibilities, trabaho sa umaga, trabaho sa gabi. Study here, study there, until we forget to that we need to rest. Robot ka ba? Hahaha

I came from that moment last months of April to mid of July, feeling ko full timer na ako sa dami kong ginagawa sa Church. I mean, i'm not blaiming the opportunies but i blamed myself for not taking a pause and pushing myself too much to the end of my limitations. Of course, napagod ako nang sobra. Burn out.

At ang pagod na 'yon, pakiramdam ko walang nakakakita. Kasi naman, admit it or not there's still part of ourselves that's seeking "good job" after a long tiring work. Kahit na hindi naman natin ginagawa para sa kanila, sometimes, "tap" and appreciation lang ang kailangan ng tao para lumakas.

I choose not to serve, kahit sobrang daming opportunities. Ang daming event noong mga buwan na 'yon, but i choose not to kasi pakiramdam ko, i am not worthy enough to stand and serve again. But when did i become worthy tho?

And I come to a realization na, pagod na pagod pala ako. Physically, emotionally, spiritually. And it reflects to my character, behavior, and heart. Dumating ako sa puntong, lahat kinagagalitan ko. Pakiramdam ko tama ako kasi 'ito' ang nakikita ko. My bad habits produces bad living.

I fall from sins - unforgiveness, self-righteousness, pride, anger, and gossips. At pakiramdam ko, i am strong enough to handle those, kasi "ako na 'to eh" without even realizing na dahil sa pagod ko, naging mali ang puso at karakter ko.

That's it. Minsan akala natin, God's punishing us kasi nag kasala tayo i mean yes He can actually do that if gusto Niya but because of Jesus Christ - He paid everything. He died on the Cross and provided it so that we can cross. Pero ang totoo, kaya tayo nahihirapan because we don't rest. We're too focused on the work that we forget to rest on His finished work.

The scriptures says "for whoever has entered God’s rest has also rested from his works as God did from his." See? Resting is actually part of God's will in our life. Hindi naman kasi pwedeng trabaho lang tayo ng trabaho dahil mauubos tayo. Even God rested in His seven days of work in the Beginning. So, sino ka para hindi mag pahinga hahahaha kimi.

But how can we enter to His rest?

1. Strive - ito 'yung pinaka magandang gawain. That we need to be desperate to enter in His presence. Dahil may kapahingahan sa presensya ng Panginoon. And by that, we will not fall by the same sort of disobedience. Dahil kapag may pahinga ang puso't kaluluwa natin, character aligns.

2. Seek His Word - For the word of God is living and active. At kung may pinang hahawakan tayong salita Niya, we will not fall. Because we knew, His words are sharper than any two-edge sword.

Seeking His word requires time and sacrifice. You need to do your devotional, read your Bible, spend time in worship and in prayer. Because, revival built in sacrifice.

At kung talagang gusto mo nang kapahingahan, surrender it to the Lord. Dahil kahit anong strive and seek mo, if you do not surrender, everything is nonsense. I know it takes a lot of humility and courage to do that pero if we really desire the presence of the Lord to come, surrender and let go then rest will follow.

Hindi madali but, one step at a time. And i am writing this because i came from that too. Take your time but don't waste it. Don't dwell on it. Remember, your identity is not define by your tiredness and work - it's on Jesus when He finished the work on the Cross. We just need to accept it and live by Him, once again.

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

JULY MEMORIES 🤎

Youth Connect Group -

The importance of invitation, integration, intamacy and influence.

Light NC Volleyball Team -

Communities!! | Young-pro | Teens | Youth

With our Dearest ate Dairally -

First time ko kumain sa mamahaling restaurant, infairness masarap. Pero the best pa rin luto ni Mama ko 😆

Thanks ate Dai, this will remain in my core memory. Libre kita SB kapag mayaman na ako 😂

Light NC Teens Connect Group

Remembering our identity. Leading them to remember who they are do that everytime they go out of their campuses, houses or everywhere, they'll have the full confidence to win people to Jesus.

Finally, a new regular dancers after two years of training!

Ang daming nangyari bago kami dumating sa puntong ito. At tanging Diyos lang ang nag bigay nang lakas at biyaya para makatawid kami sa mga next seasons ng aming pag serve.

Consideration to every commitment is a must.

#WeDanceToWorship

Asia Pacific Media Interview

I get a sensitive spirit of almost a week before this happened. At talaga namang praise the Lord for every word that i said, every wild stories are part of my story to share it to the world that Jesus heals, forgive ans sets free.

#TYL

Pray-parations for DVBS 2023

Our generous director Tita Maricris. 🤎 Thank you for blessing us with your finances.

And that's wrap for July highlights and the rest is history. May this serve as a reminder that serving Jesus is not a waste of time but it's investment for His kingdom and our future. GenerationS after GenerationS indeed. TYL for the productive month of July, more to come this August, let's do it again Lord!

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

THE OTHER SIDE OF THE LAKE

Alam kong madalas niyo na marinig ang story na 'to sa Bible. Pero ewan ko, nag scroll kasi ako sa notes ko tapos nakita ko 'tong verse na 'to. Timely lang sa season na 'to.

Luke 8:22‭-‬25 GNT

This was the moment na pupunta na sila sa Sea of Galilee. Jesus is about to perform miracle. Pero nung na sa byahe na sila, nakatulog si Jesus. Tapos biglang umulan nang sobrang lakas at napaka lalaki ng alon at itong mga disciples ni Jesus nataranta, kasi sino ba namang hindi? Kahit ako eh liit liit ng bangka tapos laki ng alon hahahaha

Nung nagising na si Jesus, He gave order to the wind and storm and they quieted down and there was a great calm.

Then Jesus questioned the faith of His disciples.

At ewan ko, i am really convicted na may pinapasabi ang Panginoon sa story na 'to.

Let me start by saying, It's never easy to fight the good fight of faith. Maraming down falls and breakings. At totoo na minsan hindi natin nakikita o nararamdaman pero nandyan lang si Jesus; fighting for you (over me) staying behind the scene. Waiting for us to surrender and allow Him to calm every storm. Watching us running through every wind and waters.

And it's okay to cry out for help – While it is true that the disciples panicked when the storm arose but they had enough faith to do something very productive – they asked Jesus to help them. Worry is always useless, but prayer is always effective. Although we may not get exactly what we want but we will get what we need.

After that storm story, nakapunta na sila sa other side of the lake which is the Teritory of Gerasa. And there, Jesus perfomed many miracles. And the disciples was with Him.

Jesus is the restorer of all things broken, the healer of all things sick.

Magaling ka na, okay ka na. Pero baka pagod ka na, and i encourage you tonight na okay lang mag pahinga. Natulog din si Jesus. And after that, He restores.

You glorified God by resting. Hindi ka naman human robot beh, tulog tulog din, 'wag masyadong i push kung antok na talaga. Pero ewan ko bakit ko nasingit 'yan pero matulog ka na *says by the small petite girl na nasusulat nito at 12 midnight* 🤣

Pero seryoso,

Kapag dumaan tayo sa mga problema don't focus on what we see. Because there is a behind a scene, which is power.

The behind the scene of our problems, sabi nga sa John 10:10 diba the enemy will try to kill, steal and destroy. Because the enemy is looking at your future with prosperity, grace and integrity.

We have the power to overcome, power to continue the fight because Jesus is with us. And storms will bow down by His name. Just fight the good fight of faith.. Mahirap but the spirit of victory is within you.

You will get there - to the other side of the lake, makakarating ka sa kung saan ka dadalhin ng Panginoon dahil lumaban ka.

It's always faith, trust and process.

At kapag dumating na ang araw na we passed through the other side of the lake don't forget someone that is on the other side.

They are also lost that waiting for someone na tutulong sa kanila, lalaban para sa kanila, at mananalangin para sa kanila. And that's your ministry. To win, but not your responsibility to save.

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

YOU WERE MADE BY THE ONE WHO'S PERFECT

Hi, i'm the girl who loves sunflowers and so i'am also the girl who has this emotional damage about being insecure about how i look.

Okay, wait lang. It's normal, it's okay. Reminder to everyone who read this, it's okay to feel sad and feel your emotions. But don't dwell on it.

Let me vulnerable to you tonight, I don't think if people know about 10 seconds rule. It's something that you saw to someone about their pimples, acnes, that they gained weight, they're too skinny, they have ugly teeth, ugly nose, that they're not studying, and so on. People who have these, knows they have it. You don't have to remind them.

The 10 seconds rule is: Don't say what you saw when they already knew it.

Yup, i've been insecure about how i look lately. I hate it kasi na sa point ako kung saan i'm trying to hold it esp i have this toxic habit of deleting everything on my social media whenever i feel ugly.

I'm trying to invest on myself after i ruin everything 8 years ago. It's not easy guys. Naiiyak ako sa tuwing titingnan ko sarili ko at hindi ko makita kung paano ako makita ng mga taong nag sasabing maganda ako.

And tonight, as i write this. I pray to everyone who has experiencing this kind of struggle as mine, to remember that we are made by Someone who is PERFECT.

Hindi ko hinuhusgahan ang tao kung feeling niya talaga ay pangit siya. Because i know there's a root why they feel that way. Pero base on my experience, madalas ko kasi ikumpara ang sarili ko sa iba.

The way we look at ourselves is much beyond the way how God looks at us. He looks on our hearts, our conducts, and on we choose to love Him.

Alam kong halos karamihan sa atin knows that we are fearfully and wonderfully made by God. And this serve as a reminder that, we never I or you feel ugly, we can always run to Him.

But this is not always about being "beautiful" i know that the Lord blessed me with pretty face, pretty sense of humor and cute curly hair. But what i meant is, i am insecure on how my life is going. I feel like i am being left out.

"Sila, umuusad na. Ako nandito pa rin"

"Napapagod sila habang may nagagawa, samantalang ako napapagod lang"

Those are my lines lately. Seeing all my batchmates are already on their third year makes me think that i am still stuck on a situation that i never wanted.

And it's so suffocating.

But what i learned is, i know I am made by Someone who is Perfect.

Perfect on His doings - His timing, plans, creatures, miracles and healing.

The enemy may try to deceive me by throwing bad thinkings but God said is to renew my mind. To think that He can do better things beyond i can imagine.

My advised is, feel it but don't dwell on it.

The enemy may try to use those wrong idea of yours to make it a foothold na habang buhay kang matatali sa maling pag iisip.

Don't open doors to Satan. When you are tempted to question God, even if it's hard, worship Him.

Give your thanks, praise, and read His word. This may be the basic but without it we are sick - Being sick of comparing ourselves to others, wanting to earn validations, compliments and attention.

Tonight, God extend His grace and mercy for you to forgive yourself. Stop telling that you're ugly. Look at the stars, flowers, sunsets, cats, and look at yourself. You're one of His beautiful creation. Hindi kita gina-gaslight o inuuto ha!! I'm telling the fact that you're actually beautiful. Kaya mo lang nararamdaman yan kasi iniisip mo, and the way you think of yourself is the way other people will think of you.

And to someone na insecure sa kaniyang timeline. Run your own race. Hindi paunahan at iba iba ang finish line natin. Hindi rin nag mamadali kasi maniwala ka, you're on time.

Hindi ka late dahil lang mas pinili mong makatulong sa pamilya mo.

Hindi ka late dahil mas pinili mong mag alaga nang hindi mo anak.

Hindi ka late dahil kailangan mong mag pahinga sa nakakapagod na lugar.

Hindi ka late dahil mas pinili mong unahin ang Kingdom Niya.

Sinabi ko na 'to pero uulitin ko ulit. You are made by Someone who is Perfect, and His name J E S U S

Purket hindi pa nangyayari ay hindi na talaga magyayari. Forget the promise and hold onto the promise keeper. Dahil ang tibay ng pangako hindi nakadepende sa kung ano ang pangako, it depends on Who promised.

Maganda ka, kasi hindi naman nila alam na nasaktan ka, na lumaban ka at na lumalaban ka pa.

And i think the most beautiful creation is someone that still choose to love God even if she don't feel loving herself.

I pray that as i end this blog entry. You get it yourself that you're on time. Your life is beautiful, just look on it in a different perspective.

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

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If i were to describe this week, i will say it's grace under pressure

Wala naman akong ginawang major, pero ma co-consider kong productive ako kasi hindi ako nag Naruto (isang linggo na!! Ems)

I was able to speak infront of the congregation without fear. It was God's confidence after all. Sulit 'yung pakikipag usap ko sa sarili ko habang nag re-report. 'yung hindi ko pag nood nang anime buong week, at mas lalong sulit ang pag yes ko.

Hindi ko man alam, pero alam ng Panginoon kung sino ang na bless, na encourage at na empower that time.

But this serve as a reminder (and memories) to me that our story can help other people to breakthrough. 'yung mga napagdaanan natin, siguradong pinagdadaan ng iba ngayon. At ikaw, ang instrument ni Lord to help them. Kaya, protect your testimony.

May nakapag sabi sa akin na, hindi man tayo mahalin ng mga tao sa paligid natin pero si Lord kayang kaya tayong mahalin. Clichè na pakinggan pero ang seasonal lang.

'yung word sa preaching, tithes at connect group it all connects to one thing:

W O R S H I P.

How i wish i can put everything into one post. Kung mag deep talks na kaya tayo? Hahaha

Let's do it again Lord!

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

I ASKED GOD TO HELP ME GROW -

And it started to rain

Marami siguro sa atin ang nakapag hingi ng ganitong klaseng tulong kay Lord.

Lalo na sa lahat ng aspeto sa buhay natin. Marami kasing kailangang baguhin. Kaya naniniwala talaga ako sa sinasabi nilang mahirap maging Christian. Kasi you will live a life full of surrender at marami kang kailangan i-sacrifice.

Growing is actually painful. Akala ko dati kapag lumalago ka parang ano lang "glow-up" physical, tipong cute ka dati tapos model ka na ngayon. Akala ko din kapag growing tumatangkad ka lang eh, kaya minsan naiisip ko, nag go-grow kaya ako eh 'yung height ko nung 12 ako height ko pa rin ngayon na almost 21 na ako eme lang.

I believe na kapag may growing season may pruning season din. May mga aalisin ang Lord sa buhay natin for us to grow: either your dreams, job, friends or loved ones - na mag aayos sa character natin, sa puso natin pati narin sa pakikitungo natin sa iba.

Ang bulaklak ba lumalago kapag hindi nadidiligan? Syempre hindi, para maging maganda ang bulaklak kailangan ng daily source of water, sunlight and care. And katulad mo, kailangan mo rin ng daily source of strength, love and grace.

Strength to continue the fight

Love to present to the people around you and

Grace to extend to the people who hurt you

At makukuha mo ang source na 'yon sa Someone that is perfect - Jesus. You can always run to Him lalo na kapag pakiramdam mo ubos na ubos ka na.

Masasabing nag go-grow ka kapag kaya mo nang mahalin yung mga pangit na ugali ng pamilya mo. Kapag kaya mo na tanggapin ang mga pag kakamali mo. At mas lalong kapag kaya mo ng hindi mag panggap na malakas ka sa mga oras na talagang mahina ka.

At mas naniniwala akong there is growth in every rain.

Hindi naman sayang lahat ng pinag dadaanan natin. Yung mga struggles na akala natin, hangganan na - may breakthrough pa pala. Because the Lord can do so much more in our painful season.

Isa sa pinaka natutunan ko in serving the Lord ay ang tinuro sa akin ng isa sa mga leader ko. Malalaman mong nag go-grow ka kapag may natututunan ka sa ginagawa mo. Payag ka bang you're stuck on a place na hindi mo ikalalago? Kahit anong galing o talino mo, kung hindi ka natututo, wala ring saysay.

Naalala ko yung sinabi ni Job sa chapter 2 verse 10 "when God send us something good we welcome it, but how can we complain when he send us troubles?"

That's when the time that he is tested for being the good servant of God. Tipong, namatay ang mga angkan niya, nawala ang mga ari-arian niya, nagka-sakit siya, pero at the end of the day - he never blame God for what happened.

And yes, growth starts when we accept those rains or troubles: failures, rejections, disappointments, regrets and sins. Hindi naman kasi kahinaan kung aaminin natin na nanghihina tayo.

Also growth flows after faithfulness hindi mo lang alam na yung pag papatuloy mo sa ministry mo ay part ng faithfulness mo kay Lord.

Yung pag obey mo sa parents mo kahit nasasaktan ka na

Yung pag yes mo sa mga commitment mo kahit napapagod ka na

Yung pag aaral mo ng mabuti

That's count as your faithfulness to the Lord. And surely, it will never be in vain.

So today i challenge you, try to welcome those rains or troubles. And i tell you, mas makikilala mo ang Panginoon - on how He works the impossible to possible things.

And when you pass through deep waters surely He is with you. Magugulat ka na lang, hindi ka na nasasaktan kasi sigurado kang the Lord got you.

Nag sisimula talaga ang growth kapag may pinagdadaan ka lalo na kung may natututunan ka.

At proud ako sa mga small faithfull steps mo. Tama 'yan, lakaran mo lang. Daanan mo lang. Hindi naman habang buhay talo ka.

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

KUMAIN KA NA BA?

Sana all, char. Siguro napapapaisip ka bakit 'yan title natin ngayon 'no. Hmmmm 🤔 whaahhaha gusto ko lang kasi tanungin beng kung kumain ka na ba kasi ako hindi pa eh, wala kasing taga eat well 😞 CHARING HAHAHAHAHA

Nakakawalang gana kaya minsan kumain kapag pagod ka (oh ako lang? Haha) kasi gusto mo nalang mag pahinga. Tapos hindi ka makakatulog kasi nga gustom ka so ending mag iisip ka, dahil nga tinatamad ka nalipasan ka na gutom and then boom hindi ka na okay, oh diba? 🤣🤣

Pero sa totoo lang may nakita kasi akong post sa ig sabi don "Physical health is deeply intertwined with spiritual heath and mental health"

Tapos bigla kong naalala si Prophet Elijah. Kilala niyo ba siya? Kung hindi, basahin niyo sa 1 Kings 17 & 19

At dahil nandito ka nalang rin, ikwento ko na diba? Si Elijah, prophet siya. And he denounced foreign cults and defeated 450 'prophets' of Baal (na diyos diyosan nila)

May contest kasi na dapat sasagot ang totoong Diyos sa pamamagitan ng pag apoy nang mga alay sa altar by doing praying.

Ayon na nga, pinauna ni Elijah ang mga tauhan ni Baal since madami sila. So ang ginagwa netong mga team Baal (🤣) kumanta kanta sila tapos sumayaw, nag sisisgaw na paapuyin ang alay nila pero inabot na sila ng ilang oras wala pa din.

So nung turn na ni Elijah, nakaready na lahat ganyan. Nag start na siya mag pray wholeheartedly at sumagot ang Panginoon sa prayer ni Elijah through firing up the altar.

Edi ayun na nga napatunayan na nila na totoo ang Panginoon at legit Prophet si Elijah. Ang ginawa nung mga tauhan ni Baal, nag sitakasan kaya sabi ni Elijah ipapatay silang lahat.

To cut the long story short. Sinabihan ni Elijah ang tauhan niya na sabihin kay Ahab na uulan na at mag punta na sila sa Jezreel. Tapos nung nandon na sila alam niyo ba guys si Jezebel (asawa ni Ahab) pinagbataan ang buhay ni Elijah. Sabi niya “Lubusan sana akong parusahan ng mga dios kung sa ganitong oras bukas ay hindi pa kita napapatay, tulad ng ginawa mo sa mga propeta.” (1 Hari 19:2 ASND )

Mga teh, partida prophet na si Elijah pero natakot pa rin siya. Kaya ang ginawa niya tumakas siya at iniwan ang mga tauhan niya at nag lakad nang napakalayo papunta sa Beershaba.

Syempre super pagod na niya umupo siya sa ilalim ng puno. Punong puno na siya ng emotions, kasi nga natatakot siya tapos wala pa siyang kain and for sure nauuhaw pa siya, kaya nag pray siya.

Nakakawarshock nga prayer niya eh. Prayer na sana bawiin na ng Panginoon ang buhay niya. AND ITO PLOT TWIST

After niya mag pray nakatulog siya. Tapos pag gising niya sabi niya "ay buhay pa rin ako?" CHARINGGG 🤣🤣 hindi 'yan yung nangyari ok hahahaha

Nung nagising na siya sabi nung Angel na nakakita sa kaniya "Bumangon ka at kumain dahil malayo pa ang iyong lalakbayin" tapos kumain nga si Elijah and then naging okay siya. (Basahin niyo nalang kasunod ng chapter 19 para hindi na ako mag kwento ems)

And that's it. Kaya ko tinatanong kung kumain ka na ba eh kasi baka mamaya gutom ka lang tapos gusto mo na agad mamatay (kabag lang 'yan beng)

Nkatulog ka na ba? Kasi baka mamaya tulog lang need mo para maging okay ka eh.

Dahil walang exception sa takot. Kahit na si Elijah na propeta ay nakaramdaman din. And that's okay. But don't dwell in it. Don't live in fear. Sabi nga nung Angel kay Elijah diba "malayo pa ang iyong lalakbayin"

And yes, malayo ka na at lalayo ka pa. God is on your side and He knows where to send you exactly in what you need.

Pero wait lang beng, hindi pa ako tapos. (Dami kwento kimdei 🤣) kasi nga beng mayroon ding miracle na ginawa si Jesus na related din sa story ni Elijah.

Sa Luke 8 naman 'to. Kung saan Jesus heals the death little girl. Siguro madami na nakakaalam ng kwento na 'to. Pero ito nga,

Si Jairus 'yung daddy nung bata. Since famous si Jesus dati (i mean hanggang ngayon naman lol) nag ask siya na puntahan 'yung bata sa bahay para pagalingin.

To cut the long story short, nabuhay nga 'yung bata tapos alam niyo ba sabi ni Jesus "give her something to eat"

Kaya tatanungin ulit kita, kumain ka na ba love? (Hahahahahahaha practice lang)

Dahil totoo na kapag hindi ka okay physical ay affected ang spiritual. Katulad ni Elijah na pagod physical at emotionally takot ay damay din ang kaniyang spiritual kaya gusto na niya mamatay.

Katulad nung bata na mahina physical (patay na nga eh) ay mahina rin spiritual.

At katulad mo na baka kulang sa tulog kaya tinatamad mag devotion o kaya naman kulang sa kain kasi malungkot at natatakot.

Tingnan niyo kung gaano kaaffected ang tatlo kapag ang isa hindi okay. And i tell you today

The Lord see's all your labors and fears.

And He's telling you na mag pahinga ka. Naiintinidhan ko beng na minsan talaga ay may mga pahinga na hindi na dadaan sa tulog at kain.

Pero one thing that is for sure, kapag lumapit ka sa Presence ni Lord nang ikaw, walang halong pag papanggap, marerealize mong may peace pa rin pala basta align ka sa Presence Niya kahit super hirap ng life.

Hmmm, how i wish i could hug everyone that's not okay today. Kung pwede lang sabay sabay tayo kumain eh why not. Eh kaso kumakain lang ako kapag nahihilo na sa gutom charot 🤣

And may points lang ako na gustong ibigay sa inyo ok

It's okay to take a nap -

iba pa rin kasi kapag may tulog kang kumpleto. May natural blush on hahaha joke. I mean, diba, iba feeling kapag may tulog ka hindi ka irritated tapos sobrang ganda ng tingin mo sa paligid mo kasi nga napahinga mo ang physical body mo.

Kumain ka -

I'm not forcing you to eat right now kung hindi mo talaga kaya. Pero don't forget to eat once you're good okay?

Kapag gutom tayo diba ang hirap tumawa kahit na sobrang funny naman talaga ang joke ng kaibigan mo?

And same goes to, hindi mo maiintindihan ang gustong sabihin sayo ni Lord kapag gutom ka spiritual. Do your devotional, talk to God, read your Bible and pray. Alam kong mahirap makabalik agad sa momentum pero beng, you don't have to understand everything. And that's okay (John 13:7) 🤍

Simpleng points lang 'yan pero sobrang halaga. Kasi kapag okay ka spiritual nag rereflect physical and emotional. And sa mga story na, naishare ko we can receive an assurance who God is and what more He can do to our life once we rest.

Today i pray that you will not feel guilty everytime you rest. Go treat yourself, have fun being alone, honor your small wins. But please acknowledge that God is always on your side

Tuloy ang buhay kahit mapait. Matulog tayo okay? 🤍

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

His Grace can be shape in Human too.

Hi, good evening. Just a random thoughts, i am writing this at 12 midnight 🤣 siguro kung friend niyo ako sa dumps ko, mauumay na talaga kayo. Pero gusto ko lang sabihin na, His grace can be found in people too.

Akala ko kasi kapag grace iikot lang siya sa salitang 'forgiveness' o 'di kaya naman 'love' which is tama naman. (Ay wait, walang english tonight, pagod na grammarly ko, eme)

Amazing that it also works through people. Napadalas nga din ang pag post ko ng pictures ko kasi i also found grace in confidence. Akalain mo 'yun?

How can i say this,

1. Nandyan sila, malungkot ka man o masaya

Unfair naman kasi kung nakikita ka nilang tumatawa ka pero hindi mo ina-allow na makita nilang umiyak ka.

Alam niyo ugali ko din 'yan, i isolate myself a lot kasi naging comfort zone ko na eh, takot ako makita nilang malungkot kasi i am known as a funny person. But i learned na hindi naman purke umiyak mahina na agad. Minsan, umiiyak tayo hindi para ma solve 'yung problem (wala naman kasing formula diba?? Haha) kundi para maka release tayo.

And the people who listen to your tears are the people that God presented to extend His grace that it's okay to cry when everything gets heavy. Tandaan: ulap nga umiiyak kapag sobrang dilim na ng langit diba? (Ewan ko kung may connect, nalimutan ko kasi english qoute eh 🤣)

2. Willing to correct you

Offensive kaya kapag feeling ko 'yung joke ko sobrang funny tapos hindi ko ka-humor 'yung nasabihan ko. Lalo na kapag dark humor kasi nauuwi sa explanation tapos ending, ma-cocorrect ako. Oh diba

But i also found it grace kasi minsan sa sobrang hyper ko, nagiging insensitive ako. And ayon ang gusto kong i point.

Value those people na nakikitaan ka ng mali pero willing kang mag grow. Hindi ka hahayaan sa place or situation na mapapahiya ka dahil sa ginagawa mo.

It takes a lot of humility para aminin na mali ka alam ko 'yan, but it also teaches us to open our heart for the new learnings na pwede nating ikalago. Payag ka bang ganyan ka na forever? Hello, you are more than that.

3. Nandyan sila in different season

Ang sakit kaya kapag kaibigan ka lang nila kapag may pera ka. O 'di kaya naman nandyan lang sila kapag kailangan ka nila, kapag magagamit ka nila.

I've been there ih, a lot of times na-feel kong sobrang naapakan ang pagkatao ko dahil lang akala ko kapag nag put ka ng so much effort, babalik sayo. Kapag nag mahal ka, mamahalin ka din (*plays Eme by Moira* 🥲)

Kidding aside, nakakawasak ng puso na kapag 'yung mga taong akala mong tutulong sayo ay sila pa mismo ang hahatak sayo pababa (ay wait, baka isipin niyo may imaginary haters ako ha 😭 testimony kasi, and sana one day God will allow me to share it to everyone)

Kaya value those people who stay with you through ups and down. 'yung tipong pinag pe-pray ka sa mga times na hindi mo kayang ipagpray ang sarili mo. 'yung mga moments na kaya mo maging totoo sa sarili mo kasi hindi ka takot na mahusgahan. 'yung mga time na you are able to cry out loud nang hindi ka nahihiya.

Kasi you know deep down in your heart na totoo sila sayo, and they have Jesus in their hearts too. Sarap kaya sa feeling na may kasama kang mag pray kapag hindi ka crinush back ng crush mo (kimmy 🤣)

Naalala ko 'yung story sa bible ng paralyzed man. (Mark 2.1-17) since hindi nga siya makalakad, 'yung mga friends niya ang bumuhat sa kaniya kahit napakaraming tao ang nakapalibot kay Jesus that moment, 'yung mga friends niya ang gumawa ng paraan para mapansin sila. And the moment Jesus noticed them, sabi Niya "Son, your sins are forgiven" at nakalakad siya, hindi dahil sa faith na mayroon siya kundi dahil sa dedication ng friends niya na mapagaling siya.

And we need that kind of friends too.

Those friends that has faith na mas malalim pa sayo

Those friends who are willing to do everything just to help you

Those friends that encourage you when you feel down

Those friends that stays through ups and downs, and help you bloom in different seasons.

And 'yun lang. I am grateful for my friends, tagal ko nag pray na magkaroon ng matatawag kong kaibigan ko. Sa wakas, natapos na din ang phase ng life ko na palagi akong ginagamit, binubully at binabalewala.

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

SURRENDER: with faith, humility and trust

May story sa Bible na alam kong alam na nating lahat. Ayun ay 'yung 'the bleeding woman for 12 years' and ayan ng pag uusapan natin ngayon.

We can see this story in the Gospel of Matthew, Mark, and Luke. But the version na gusto kong i share ay nasa

Mark 5:26-34 and I highlighted these verses: "If I touch His clothes, I will get well." And she touch His cloak and her bleeding stopped at once; and she had the feeling inside herself that she was healed of her trouble" (v. 28-29) GNT

12 years of bleeding that even doctors can't cure. At kahit na sinong babae ang makaranas nito, ay talagang mawawalan ng pagasa. But this woman is SOMETHING.

Jesus came to heal, forgive and save. Dahil bago ang story ng babaeng ito, Jairus' daughter who was also sick died. Kaya naman papunta si Jesus sa bahay nila. (Mark 5:21)

And to cut the long story short, bago makarating si Jesus sa bahay nila Jairus, the bleeding woman was already healed.

Maybe ikaw rin. You're bleeding for years, not literally but emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. At sa sobrang tagal mo nang nahihirapan, nawalan ka na ng pagasa. And I want to tell you what this woman did.

Her faith healed her! Dahil sabi niya "I can only touch the hem of His garment and I will be healed"

She was healed, saved, and forgiven.

There are times that we all need is one touch then we'll be okay. And sometimes to believe is all we need to be free. Yes, it's hard, but when we look back on how the Lord Jesus saved us many times even in our small decisions in life, it will be easy to put our trust in His hands.

Believe me when I say that He is El Roi (the God who sees) the Lord sees you and all your efforts. All the pain, fears, and doubts are counted. It will never be in vain.

Kahit na sobrang daming tao ang humahawak sa damit ni Jesus habang naglalakad sila, He only felt the hand of the bleeding woman. (v. 30-31)

Jesus still sensed the faith of the woman because of her faith and trust. Again, she was healed. Not only physically but also emotionally and spiritually, she is forgiven!

And I want to tell you today, once you surrender everything with faith and trust. Even the impossible will happen because for the human it is impossible but for God everything is possible.

So I pray that you will let go of the things that hinder you to surrender whatever is in your heart. Mabigat kapag nilabanan mo mag isa. Don't box the power of the Lord and don't limit your faith dahil lang hindi pa nasasagot ang mga panalangin mo.

Sabi ni Pastor Noah sa akin "Lakaran mo lang Keziah, kahit mahirap at masakit dahil it will be a great harvest 'pag tapos ng season mo." And I was very encouraged to fight and walk more with the Lord.

So to you, that is reading this; Just keep walking habang naka-align ka sa direction ni Lord. Dahil soon, it will be worth it.

Just let go and surrender; with faith, humility, and trust.

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

GREAT LOVE: FORGIVESS

Matagal tagal din nang huli akong nag sulat. I did ask Jesus if i'm allowed to write today, kasi ang ganda ng revelation na, na received ko.

"I tell you, then, the great love she has shown proves that her many sins have been forgiven. But whoever has been forgiven little shows only a little love.” Luke 7:47 GNT

If you know the woman behind this story then good, pero kung hindi, I tell you, she has a great love.

Jesus was having a dinner with Simon that time when this woman who lived a sinful life heared that Jesus was there. So she brought an alabaster jar full of expensive perfume and stood behind Jesus. She kissed His feet and dried it with her hair and poured the perfume on them.

Pinakita niya ang pagmamahal niya kay Jesus kahit na alam niyang makasalanan siya by giving her all, specially her alabaster jar.

Simon was with Jesus, but he did not welcome Him with water or even kissed him. Alam niyang pinatawad na siya but he didn't show any love nor effort to acknowledge Jesus kahit habang kumakain na sila.

And ito ang sinasabi ni Jesus sa verse na "But whoever is forgiven a little, shows a little love"

Yes, sometimes we are like Simon, who is over familiar with the presence of God. Who knew that we are free, forgiven and saved yet we have little effort and love for the Lord.

Why? Because we are too "okay" na nandyan Siya, and don't acknowledge Him.

But the woman with the alabaster jar, kahit na alam niyang makasalanan siya, she showed that she loves Jesus  and because of her faith she is forgiven.

She shows love by pouring the expensive perfume on His feet. At gusto kong i-highlight ang salitang expensive here.

Her alabaster jar has the most expensive perfume yet hindi siya nag dalawang isip na ibuhos ito kay Jesus. Why? Because she knew that Jesus will acknowledge her kahit na ang mga tao sa paligid niya ay magalit.

If we have a big revelation on how God forgave our sins I tell you, even that empty heart, dead dreams, fears, disappointments, and failures can be an alabaster jar too.

Hindi expensive yet if we have the right heart to give it up for the Lord: it will never be in vain. Kasi nakikita ni Lord ang efforts mo. He hears your cries. He is with you and never forsaken you.

Our life must ba a constant surrender. Those dreams, jobs, or even a person will be an offering to Him if we have a great revelation on how God forgave our sins. Maiintindihan natin kung bakit kaya nating i-give up lahat para sa Kaniya.

Hindi tayo matatakot i give up kahit ang pinakamahal nating tao kasi alam natin na ang Lord na inalayan natin ay nakakakita. He is El Roi (the God who sees)

And because of her faith, she was forgiven. At sana maalala din natin 'yon. Naniwala at nag tiwala tayo kaya nandito tayo sa buhay kung saan nakaalign sa plano Niya.

Yes minsan hindi maganda, hindi masaya, nakakatakot at parang walang kasiguraduhan pero sinabi ng Lord na we must live in peace because our faith saved us. And i challenge you, ano ang kaya mong ibigay kay Lord para sa kalayaan na kailangan mo?

And i pray that we will never neglect the great love that we have received: His forgiveness. Dahil sa kapatawaran Niya, we are free to love Him, to worship Him, to gave all the things He deserve because before we pour out our hearts to Him, He already poured His love to us, through the Cross.

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

WHEN EVERYTHING IS FALLING APART

Will you still stay?

'yan din ang tanong ko sa sarili ko. Because life is not good lately, para akong punching bag tapos ni-roller coaster ang feelings ko then pinagtatapon kung saan saan, gets niyo? Haha ako din hindi +_+

It seems like there is no hope after putting every effort and desire to a dream and plan tapos bugsh, wala na, patay na naman.

To give you a short background on what happened last two weeks ago, na burn out talaga ako. Alam niyo 'yung feeling na after mong mag serve, you gave all your best, tapos kinabukasan you felt empty. Parang sa sobrang bigay, naubusan ka tapos hirap ka na tumayo.

Lately ko lang nasabi sa sarili kong napapagod pala talaga ako. Kasi nag kasakit ako eh, and still recovering from it. Bumabawi pa lang 'yung katawan ko tapos biglang ito na ulit, may sad news na naman.

Wala na kaming scholarship, sadly hindi na approve sa senate ang budget for 2nd yr and 1st yr allowance sa unifast, so walang choice ang school but to let the student decide whether to stay or continue.

As i experience the leadership and quality teaching from my (not so previous) school, i act as a step of faith not to continue. I drop out.

Kahit alam kong maiiwan ulit ako, sayang ang mga naumpisahan ko at bago na naman ang mga pakikisamahan ko ay i decided to stop.

Here's why: other people will never understand the value of choosing practicality over passion. Kahit alam kong kapag pinagpatuloy ko ang schooling nang walang babayaran, i know i still need something to give para makagain ako which is ayon ang hindi ko pa kayang ibigay sa ngayon.

I feel like i am not yet ready. After ni papa na ma stroke nawala na ang gana ko, wala na'ng passion to teach, wala na ang puso to study kasi gusto kong makatulong but it frustrate me na masyado akong mahina physically so i can't do anything but to continue kahit i am not mentally ready.

Then i asked the Lord, 'what's next?'

Kasi ito na ako ngayon, recovering from sick, moving on kasi i drop out, seeking answers and healing spiritualy. Ano na kasunod? Hindi ko alam +___+

But kung mayroon mang nag iisang tiyak na napakarami kong takot at duda, iyon ay ang pangako ni Lord.

Even if everything is falling apart, i will stay.

Even if the things i want is no for the Lord, i will stay.

Even if the plans i have are not moving into one place, i will still stay.

Magulo man ngayon, hindi ko man sigurado kung ano ang kasunod, but i am fully surrendered.

Always these two; Mission & Passion

Hindi ko kailangan mauna, hindi ko kailangan na maging mas magaling sa iba— ang kailangan ko lang umusad sa sarili kong karera habang ini-embrace ang failure at success ng buhay.

And this post serve as a reminder that i am on time. Hindi ko kailangan madaliin lahat ng bagay para lang mauna. I am not late, my Lord is not late - His timeline not mine.

"What I say is this: let the Spirit direct your lives, and you will not satisfy the desires of the human nature." Galatians 5:16 GNT

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

ISAIAH 60:22

Scripture: "Even your smallest and humblest family Will become as great as a powerful nation. When the right time comes, I will make this happen quickly. I am the Lord!”

Alam ko, madami sa atin ang nakakaalam ng verse na 'to. Kumbaga "gamit na gamit" na ang word in different revelations. But tonight, I write because i think it's time.

Lately, i'm too focused on the pressure and stress na binibigay sa akin ng mundo. "Nahuhuli ka na kasi." - pero palagi ko binibiro sarili ko na okay lang 'yon kasi everyone has a timeline, but there is this time i felt lost after seeing many of my batchmates getting their progress while achieving something.

Meanwhile, me, was just sitting down and breathing. Never did i realized na 'yung tipong pag kain ko sa tamang oras ay progress din.

Ang dami kong pangarap na gusto kong makuha pero dahil sa certain situation and with just one snap, namatay lahay nang 'yon.

The passion in my heart to teach; is something heavy that i recently given up to the Lord.

Here's why: first is i stop my first year in college. The enthussiam i have that time went away.

Secondly, thou i have full scholarship pakiramdam ko ay may kulang lang pa rin.

Probably because up until now ang regret sa puso ko na hindi ko ginalingan noon ay siyang nag ho-hold back sa akin. That is why i am getting stressed over the things that i don't have control.

I remember nabasa ko sa book ni Ate Joena (one of my fav authors, y'all know that🤪 lol) "Pray so big that your Heavenly Father will welcome you in His kingdom and say "My kid, you made me so very busy"

Trusting the Lord is one of the hardest thing to do, lalo na kung hindi mo nakikitang, umuusad ka.

And tonight remembering those moment were i felt lost after surrending my dreams, passion and health to Him is really something i am proud of.

Kasi nakakalakas ang pagsuko,

Nakakalakas ang pag amin,

Nakakalakas ang pagtitiwala, at

Nakakalakas ang pag mamahal Niya

His grace is sufficient to the point na ikaw na lang susuko sa lawak ng understanding Niya.

Sabi ni Tatay, "ang pangarap mananatiling pangarap kung mangangarap ka lang" and that speak the power of TRUST.

Kahit mahirap, nakakapagod, sobrang imposible, walang progress, at nakakaubos ay tiwala pa rin.

Kaya hiling ko palagi hindi lang sa sarili ko, na sana ang mga pangarap natin ay hindi manatiling 'ala-ala' lang na nangarap ka noon.

Maybe the Lord said no today kasi His plan are better than us (Proverbs 16:9) and we have this assurance na after submitting our goals or dreams to Him ay Siya naman ang kikilos at pipili kung ano ang tutuparin Niya sa mga 'to na makakabuti sa atin.

Mahirap tingnan ang plano ng Lord lalo na kung titingin ka sa achievment ng mundo. But what I have learned in this word is; He has the right time.

I know the Lord will say Yes kapag

Tama na ang puso ko

Tama na ang purpose ko

Tama na ang plano ko

At tama na ang panahon

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

2022 IS A ROLLER COASTER

A lot of things to be grateful for this year from January to December because the Lord kept His words and promises.

How can I imagine myself without the grace of the Lord? Siguro iba na ang landas ng buhay ko, malayo sa mga plano Niya at malayo sa totoong ibig sabihin ng malaya.

Hindi ko alam paano ako mag uumpisa kasi I am writing this with full of disappointments and failures. But pwede mo ba akong samahan until I figure out kung ano ang kalalabas ng blog na 'to? Of course you don't have a choice. Ehehehe

But let me describe who I am today.

I'm an ocean - I may seem shallow and beautiful but I am deep and strange if you dive deeper into my thoughts.

Pero ang galing lang, kasi after so many give-ups, I am still here and so you are reading this.

Let me start by dragging all of the failures and regrets I've done.

I did not study hard from my highschool because I become contented to be an average person. Hindi mababa hindi rin mataas, "sakto" lang. This is why I did not pass my dream university.

I did not love myself enough because I believe the way I look at myself in the mirror is the way how people might see me. But it turns out wrong - maraming tao ang hindi naniwala, nanlait, nang maliit at higit sa lahat nang husga. The way I expressed myself is opposite from the way they see me. At masakit sobra.

I wish I did not focus on their validations.

I did not love my family enough - kasi masyado akong naging mataas. Hindi ko kaya mag patawad nang ganon lang kaikling panahon.

And many more.. because if I put everything into one writing, wala na ako content next time? Hahaha jk 😆

But regardless of how many times I failed, there is still grace na kakapitan. And that's how the love of the Lord flows.

He has loved me even in the times I don't feel loving myself

He hugged me on the times I hated everyone's presence

He stayed even in the times I hid from people who also love me

He remains faithful even in the time I am not faithful to my commitments, promises, and all.

I may be a failure to some but in the Lord's I am forgiven.

I used to be a dark cloud because I never saw the bright side of anything and then eventually I realize I want to be a sun and flowers. I want to bring light, hope, and joy to other people.

And I've been reminded of the Lord's word in 1 Corinthians 16:14 "Let all that you do be done in love"

Totoo na sobrang hirap mag mahal, nakakapagod at nakakaubos. Lalo na kapag hindi nila nakikita ang sacrifices and love mo.

Pero kung gusto natin silang lumago sa lahat ng areas ng life nila, we must love them anyway. It's not our job to change them, but only to understand them.

Hindi man nila nakita kung paano mo inialay ang buhay mo para sa kanila pero I am sure that the Lord does.

Kung paano Niya ako natagpuan, nakita at minahal ay sigurado akong ganon ka rin Niya hahawakan. Mas higit pa.

I pray that every pain you felt this year, every cry and silent battle will be an eye opener to you that there is still grace to hold to.

Malabo man sa ngayon, mukha man imposible pero hanggat may pangako, pwede pang mag patuloy. Dahil ang mga pangako Niya ay hindi umiikot sa kung paano natin ito iniisip, it works on how the Lord works. Because His thoughts are higher than our thoughts.

To you and to me that are both struggling with every gentle and strong battle, may this blog be reminded to us na hindi tayo nag iisa sa laban. Iba iba man tayo nang pinag dadaan pero iisa lang and Lord na nakakakita sa atin, nakakaunawa at nag mamahal.

Kaya sana, as I fight to another year, you will also fight with full force of faith. Hindi dahil sinabi ko pero dahil may ipaglalaban ka pa.

Hiling ko sana hindi maputol ang pinaka rason kung bakit ka pa nag papatuloy. Malayo na at sigurado akong lalayo pa.

We fought so many battles this year and still I am here, bragging that the Lord saved me all along and I am grateful for that. 🌻

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

BREAKING TO BREAKTHROUGH

It's been so long since i write.. naninibago tuloy ako, pero go lang

There is something in me na hindi ko alam, feeling ko need ko talaga 'to isulat kahit na nasa devotionals ko naman na 'to. I feel like someone is also in need to read this so bare with me (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

| question: What mostly is the reason of your breaking down? |

Scripture <guide verse> Isaiah 28

I want to be the one to answer the question first ^⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠^ madalas akong mag break down kasi madalas kong isipin ang mga bagay na alam kong hindi ko naman kontrolado.

The heavy feeling of having a random break down is worst kasi kahit kontrolado ko naman ang emotions ko, mas pinipili ko pa rin umiyak. (HAHAHAHAHAHA emotions ko 'to eh iyakin talaga, char(⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

But you know what, madalas tayong mahirapan, umiyak, or mag sudden breakdown kasi mas pinipili natin lagi ang sarili lang natin. It's not bad to be selfish sometimes pero if it can lead us to break our own okayness, parang magiging mali na.

[He offered rest and comfort to all of you, but you refused to listen to him. That is why the Lord is going to teach you letter by letter, line by line, lesson by lesson. Then you will stumble with every step you take. You will be wounded, trapped, and taken prisoner.] Isaiah 28:12‭-‬13 GNT

I want to enlighten the "He offer REST and COMFORT but YOU REFUSE to listen to Him." And there is this sentence in me na, wala kay Lord ang problema, nasa atin din talaga. Kasi nandyan na 'yung mga bagay na kailangan natin [rest, peace, love, forgiveness, freedom etc] yet tayo ang umaayaw.

So sometimes we get to feel like we are stumble of the things and get easily irritated because we are refusing to accept the correction from the Lord. Kaya nauudlot ang growth.

We always allow ourselves to be imprison of the things that make us weak, kahit na sinabi na ni Lord na past na 'yon, wala nang magagawa sa future mo yet we still choose to.

Not to invalidate every feelings here, ako talaga una nasaktan sa word na 'to (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) just to make things clear, there is nothing wrong to 'sometimes' feel our feelings. But we forget to remember na hindi dapat tayo nag papa-control sa kung ano lang ang nararamdaman natin.

Your past has nothing to do with your future. Guguluhin ka lang niyan pero wala nang kayang gawin 'yan sa kung ano ka ngayon kasi past na 'yan, kung baga uusad ka nalang.

Dear you, the one who's reading this: tapos na 'yon, umusad ka na. I know it's hard, but let go of those things that makes everything heavy on your chest.

Because, when Jesus came there is already a strong foundation

This, now, is what the Sovereign Lord says: “I am placing in Zion a foundation that is firm and strong. In it I am putting a solid cornerstone on which are written the words, ‘Faith that is firm is also patient.’ The Lord will fight as he did at Mount Perazim and in the valley of Gibeon, in order to do what he intends to do—strange as his actions may seem. He will complete his work, his mysterious work. Isaiah 28:16‭, ‬21 GNT

When He died, God forsaken Him for us to have this freedom and Salvation that we are enjoying today so He is also our STRONG foundation not to stumble in every season we are facing.

In 1 Peter 5:9 "Be firm in your faith and resist him, because you know that other believers in all the world are going through the same kind of sufferings."

Kaya kapag feeling mo mag isa ka sa laban mo, know that there is someone out there, still holding on and still fighting. Mag kakaiba man tayo nang pinagdadaan, maybe sa kaniya magaan tapos sayo mabigat, please know that you are not alone. There is someone out there that keeping you in prayers, kneeling you on their fight, rooting for you and also fighting for you.

You maybe feel weak right now but please understand that even if we go through any hardship there is still assurance that God is up to something.

Let me drop some points here:

° Faith that is also patient - sometimes God is testing us in order for us to be reminded of our belief, trust and patience. Everything has it own timeline - 'wag kang mag madali, hindi pa tapos si Lord.

Kahit gaano katagal, kalayo o ka-imposible sigurado akong gagawin Niya ang kung ano ang salita Niya because that is His promise. And our God is a prayer answering God.

° And strange His action may seem - and sometimes we don't feel or see those things that He is making because we are too focused on the things that we only wanted. We maybe don't feel His promises today, but surely when the time is come, He will make it happen. (⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)

He will finished what He has started because when we are shaking God is up to something.

And there is this story in Isaiah 28:23-28 na all about farming. And ang mga magsasaka na workers ay hindi sila nag tatanim agad nang palay hanggat wala silang narereceive from the Lord. They always ask His wisdom para magawa ang pag tatanim because they knew na hindi nila kaya kung sila lang so...

What i want to say is that parang ganito, you prayed that you want a cake but God gave you flour and other ingredients on it. (Ano mararamdaman mo? Ako magtatampo HAHAHAHAHHAHAA djk,) but you know what, sometimes God has already answered our prayers through little things. In a simple way.

Pero hindi natin nakikita kasi gusto lang natin agad ang end result. Sometimes God wanted us to also put efforts on our prayers. Hindi lang 'yung after we prayed, wala na tayong gagawin kundi umupo na lang. Para kang nag wish na pumayat ka pero hindi ka nag wowork out. (Ouch)

We don't grow by just sitting down, put some efforts too. Sacrifice! And the moment you put your effort into sacrifice, surely the Lord will be glorified and He will help you in everything you do.

Last verse naaaa, nandyan ka pa ba? (⁠-̩̩̩⁠-̩̩̩⁠-̩̩̩⁠-̩̩̩⁠-̩̩̩⁠_⁠_⁠_⁠-̩̩̩⁠-̩̩̩⁠-̩̩̩⁠-̩̩̩⁠-̩̩̩⁠)

Isaiah 28:29 GNT "All this wisdom comes from the Lord Almighty. The plans God makes are wise, and they always succeed."

Katulad ng mga nabanggit ko kanina, we overthink the things that we cannot control so the ending is we are only hurting our own feelings and emotions.

Remember that His thoughts are always higher than our thoughts. Yes hindi maiiwasan ang mag isip kasi that's our greatest enemy but our call to action is whenever that our mind is shaking us, PRAY. And remember that His ways are higher that our ways.

Wala namang magagawa ang pag iisip natin sa mga bagay na hindi natin kayang makita o ma-control eh, we are only opening the doors for the enemy to kill and destroy.

Hindi na mababago ang scores mo sa midterm kahit anong iyak mo. Yes the disapointments will remain but surely it will fade once you surrender it to the Lord - because He heals every pain and sufferings we just need to come to Him nang kung sino tayo - sira man o buo walang dapat ikahiya sa paahan ng Panginoon, dahil siguro ako, hindi ka Niya huhusgahan.

I'm done (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠✧⁠*⁠。 And please remember that if you are shaking surely God is up to something.

Gusto ko lang din sabihin na, Pangako lang ng Diyos ang nag iisang tiyak sa napakaraming takot at duda. Sana panghawakan mo, sana lumaban ka pa, sana hindi ka pa huminto. At hiling ko na sana hindi mapigtas ang huling rason kung bakit hindi ka pa sumusuko.

Thank you so much! I prayed and still praying for you. FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT OF FAITH

[thegirlwholovescoffee]

I AM MORE THAN 'THAT'

When I became a Christian, dito nag start mabago 'yung eyes and mind ko when it comes to the validations of other people akala ko kasi kapag maganda ka mas mahal ka nila 🤪 But it turns out wrong..

I don't want to be the woman who will be remembered as "pretty" or "sexy" (bonus nalang 'yan for me, kasi grace ni Lord) tanggap ko na, na baby face na talaga ako 😆 But one thing I know for sure, I am more than that.

I wanted to be remembered as a woman who love Jesus wholeheartedly. Wala ng iba pa. Kasi kamangha mangha lahat ng mga binago ni Lord sa buhay ko.