thetraumakid

[thetraumakid]

BPD culture is having a friend who also has BPD and realizing from your perspective how destructive it can be.

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[thetraumakid]

Suspected bpd culture is constantly downplaying any trauma you experienced cuz it wasn’t significant enough

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I’m just constantly trying to clean up this mess that is my mind and life even though I’m so tired

[thetraumakid]

having your sh scars visible is so weird because i dont want my family to see them but i want my teachers, friends and strangers to see them to feel valid??? anyone relates…

[thetraumakid]

I never think it’s paranoia.

[thetraumakid]

it’s unfair how i have the responsibility to heal myself when i didn’t cause my wound in the first place

[thetraumakid]

[thetraumakid]

Maybe she’s born with it, maybe it’s her dads fault.

[thetraumakid]

I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

[thetraumakid]

BPD culture is being avoidant yet dependent. Being emotional yet completely numb. Being immensely happy and concerningly sour. And at some point along those lines nothing works anymore and you go on autopilot, like a personal shutdown if you will.

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[thetraumakid]

I honestly want to destroy myself.

But I also want to get better.

I'm so indecisive (⁠╯⁠°⁠□⁠°⁠）⁠╯⁠︵⁠ ⁠┻⁠━⁠┻

[thetraumakid]

I don’t wanna live but I also don’t want to die. All I wanna do is self destruct and make myself suffer , but I also want to find comfort and joy in this life.

[thetraumakid]

[thetraumakid]

it’s unfair how i have the responsibility to heal myself when i didn’t cause my wound in the first place

[thetraumakid]

Maybe she’s born with it, maybe it’s her dads fault.

[thetraumakid]

Did we all have the same childhood

[thetraumakid]

Actually upon further inspection that shit really hurted my feelings