thoughtfulseason

[thoughtfulseason]

continuing to follow a beloved mutual but tag blocking all the fandoms they post about. baby i LOVE you but there is a demonic force that controls your interests.

#if only this one mutual of mine actually tagged stuff….

[thoughtfulseason]

[thoughtfulseason]

I love the old timey phrase "you forget yourself". bro that was so impolite like do you even know who you are rn

[thoughtfulseason]

"I don't personally understand that, but oh well" is a great alternative to deciding that something either can't exist or is a threat to you.

[thoughtfulseason]

this blog is an iceberg. the things i’m NOT posting about could fill oceans

#i may seem like i overshare here but my mind is boiling with things i could say

[thoughtfulseason]

put those big brown eyes away dude now is NOT the time

[thoughtfulseason]

[thoughtfulseason]

FINALLY the stress from today can lift PHEW almost everything for the tournament seems to be in order and i won’t be staying alone so that’s good even if my “friend” will stay with her parents someplace else. but even though the girl i’ll be staying with is not my person i’m glad i won’t be alone

but honestly this day was good. signs that everything’s going for the better and warmth is BACK!! and life will get better and better. and little blessings will turn into big blessings

#stress was from waiting one girl’s answer but now phew the team tournament is ON

[thoughtfulseason]

8 minutes in i’m obsessed with both of them

starting to watch dead boy detectives and this edwin guy better be good

#i just got to intro #and that last bit OH MY GOD you two #but it sucks that its so dark i cant even see their faces #ngl i like charles more

[thoughtfulseason]

starting to watch dead boy detectives and this edwin guy better be good

#its my coach’s name and only once i saw it in english tv and only tiktok reminded me of that #so of course its not possible to ruin this name for me but still. dontb butcher it please

[thoughtfulseason]

girl wtf is wrong with you (me to me)

[thoughtfulseason]

just thinking of how funny it is that no one in fencing practices really knows what a mentally ill freak i actually am

[thoughtfulseason]

hi just checking in cause i just saw your post about your day <3 dw, some days just suck!! tomorrow will be better, i promise! hope you feel better soon 🫶🏼

yeah… the things today felt worse than just a bad day but hopefully tears i cried today will heal what’s broken. and hopefully my toe will be alright and won’t threaten to take fencing away from me (the thing dearest to me). thanks for caring <3 tomorrow will be better ☀️

#warmth has come!! i’m hopeful! even though rn tired #i was just really scared cause on top of that ive got a tournament this weekend which im sooo excited about #my coach will participate too so im so happy he’ll be there at least one of two days #idk about my family. first time i let them go but since its two hour drive they might not be there which is bad cause i wont be filmed #but otherwise i guess i dont care that much #of course it would still be cool if they saw me in action and met my coach and people from there but its fine #i dont want them to be there if they dont want to

[thoughtfulseason]

yeah… today might have been the worst, panicky day filled with tears…. i am SO tired

#after all that has happened today with my hurt toe…. tonight i stood in s gas statiom crying yup #my new low #good thing there was a cute nice guy who offered to help. but then the diese wouldnt pour and i asked another guy for help #so yeah now i have 170km left but oh god i am so drained #i think i still wanna cry but im not upset. just…. totally beaten up #fencing was the only good thing about today

[thoughtfulseason]

I hope Mai gets justice and genuine help with escaping the genocide. The scammer can choke.

#what the fuuuuck??? how some people have no heart????

[thoughtfulseason]

deleting files makes me so scared what if i Needed That

#me a few days ago when i was transfering files from my phone

[thoughtfulseason]

all the energy is sucked out of me…. i made a call, cried over an almost panic attack, then it turned out i have to make another call to the same (medical) place and i still have to decide if i’m going to fencing today AND i have to participate in this video call and i hate video calls and i hate calls and this is all so draining

#i just want to lay down but theres so much stuff ughhh #and that damn toe doesnt leave me alone