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09/10/22 Yeonjun’s Tweet

모아야 오다 주웠다

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MOA I picked this up on the way

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(221008) yeonjun ✙ the fact music awards - red carpet

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Shing Shing should release an open-world RPG game where we play as Yoo Jonghyuk in the 0th Round. At first it's just us controlling him to do common game actions and challenges but then as the game progresses, we begin to be able to communicate with him directly and influence the storyline. And then when the game ends with the Star Stream falling, YJH will ask us who we are and why we helped him and there will be an automated text saying, "I am the Demon King of Salvation."

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Be aware of the sads

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It's in the middle of the night and Cale just got done with paperwork. The kids are asleep on his bed, their soft breathing being the only sound in the room besides his shuffling

He's just walking through a hallway, not really paying attention to his surroundings. He can't focus, everything feels.. muddy in a way. He isn't really processing anything, just going wherever his feet are taking him.

Oh, he's in the gardens.

The moonlight looks soft and makes the white flowers shine brighter. He sits on a bench near the red roses.

Is it odd? Nothing terrible has happened, yet he feels so.. empty.

He stares.

He waits.

What is he waiting for? He doesn't know.

He doesn't know a lot of things. He doesn't know why they stayed. Why so many people look up to him. Why they think he's such a great person. Why his Hyungs had to die, he was supposed to die instead, isn't that what the GoD said? Would it have been better?

He can't find himself to regret the fact that he's here now.

'Ah, this is why Im trash'

He's selfish.

Very selfish.

Lost in his mind and records, he fails to notice the hot and wet tears that are falling down his face.

He cries.

When those cries turn to sobs, no one is there to comfort him.

And when morning comes and he's found on that bench, with dried tear tracks visible on his flushed cheeks, all Choi han and Ron can do is carry him back to bed and tuck him in. Concern visible in their eyes and when Eruhaben bumps into them and looks at Cale's face, they say nothing.

'Why is it that you must bare everything on your own? Don't you know that you can lean on us? Lean on me? You've done so much for us. Why not let me do this one small thing and offer you a shoulder to cry on.'

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I saw a comment on a different post about angst writers never making Cale cry and decided to finish this in honor of that comment

Honestly, if anyone's up for it, write something in (whatever character you want)'s pov where they find Cale in the gardens like this fic (or I'll do it later, idk-)

Is this ooc? Probably :^

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One of the things that has also been in my head for a while is Cale having a journal.

Like- Cale starts a journal when he realizes that he's going to be a lot more involved in the novel's events than intended so to make room for new records he writes things down

When it's songs that he liked as Krs, he'd scrapbook a background and write them down

He'd also add artwork on some pages and has art of people. Like Choi han training, Ron with the lemonaid, Alberu doing whatever- he'd do a bunch of profiles for each person or maybe just have a separate book for that all together-

Cale doesn't really let others see either book, just changing the topic when it comes up. Everyone eventually learns not to ask.

Would be very interesting if there was a connection with Og!Cale and Krs where krs!Cale began to dream about some of og!Cale's memories

After a particularly bad memory, Cale is more closed off towards Deruth and Deruth doesn't know what he did wrong.

Cale obviously puts something about this in his journal

In honor of og!cale, he makes a drawing of his mother and him and doesn't use the 'Henituse' last name, he uses 'Thames'

The thing that Cale has learned about the original Cale is that he's never really felt like he belonged with Violian and Deruth. Always feeling like he was intruding.

So for plot convenience, Cale is called by the crown prince in the middle of writing and leaves the book out in the open.

Hans, who's been assigned to clean Cale's room, See's a book that has no cover or title or anything and opens it out of curiosity.

Hans sees a few drawings of the kids and naturally is excited because 1- Cale can draw really well, and 2- He loves cats.

Then he keeps going through the book, looking through drawings of him, Ron, Choi han, and- the Henituse family with Cale not in the portrait.

Hans is confused. (Deep down, he knows exactly what this implies)

He assumes that the drawing isn't finished (it's already been signed) and closes the book with shakey hands. Maybe the Count doesn't need to know about this-

Except when he comes back next week, the drawing hasn't changed.

Huh.

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Just posting my drafts now- honestly I do really like this idea, maybe I'll write something to go along with it later?

I should start making the second parts of things I've already posted lmao-

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I AM NOT THE RESPONSABLE FOR THE PERSON I BECAME WHEN I SAW THIS!!!!!!!

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KRS: hey, do you ever do anything but whine like a little bitch

CJS: for your information, I whine like a big bitch. Respect the effort

KRS: . . .

KRS: I'm starting to see it now

LSH: you have to admire the fact he's accepted that he's the biggest bitch in the team

KRS: that's true

LSH: you do give him a run for his money though

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Cale earns a healing power that transfers the pain of whoever he used it on to himself

It could be a side thing of his healing ancient power-

He only uses it when he feels like one of his allies injuries was his fault/ could have been prevented or when they don't have enough healing potions/people

Literally anyone who Cale has used this power on is horrified when they find out how exactly it works

Like a scene where Cale was coughing up blood two seconds ago but notices a cut on Choi han's arm and instinctively heals it.

Choi han internally: 'goddamnit Cale-nim-'

Not sure if the injury should be healed by his ancient power or if he has to let it heal normally

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Ex:

"Here, let me heal you."

'If I hadn't distracted him, this wouldn't have happened'

Cale moved his hand towards Choi han's head injury with a sour face. Everyone was fighting with members from Arm around them, although the battle was mostly one-sided-

Choi han moved his eyes up, only seeing the faint, white glow coming from Cale's hands. The headache that he felt slowly went away leaving a pleasant, warm feeling in it's place.

Choi han felt his energy go back to 100% and moved to stand.

"Cale-nim, please rest for now! We'll take care of this!"

".. Alright, be careful."

The only reason why Cale actually agreed to this was because he was tired and was now taking care of a head wound. It wasn't too bad, though still annoying.

After Choi han left, Cale ran a hand through his hair, said hand coming back with more blood than originally on Choi han's head.

'... this is one thing I don't like about Vitality if the Heart-'

-Human! What happened to your hair!? Are you hurt? I'll kill whoever did this-

"Don't worry about it, It'll heal soon."

Cale quickly began patting Raon to calm the overprotective dragon down while walking towards the carriages.

"Ah- sorry. I got some blood on you."

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Raon wordlessly teleported them both inside their carriage.

They took a nap untill the battle was over.

Cale forgot about the head wound and blood on his hair.

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Now the thing above could go a few ways- when Cale wakes up and moves his head, there's a blood stain. And Choi han or whoever's in the carriage with him immediately notice, Choi han puts together the thing about his healing power and everyone bans him from using it again.

Or he wakes up in his bed with a bandage wrapped around his head and Ron tells him that he smelled the blood when he got in the carriage and scolds him for hiding an injury.

Or they make it back to the villa and when Ron is helping Cale shower, a crap ton of dried blood is coming out of his hair and Ron immediately takes him out and puts him to bed while calling several healers and again scolding him from hiding an injury.

Or they go to the Henituse mansion and Deruth hugs Cale in front of everyone, running his fingers through his hair and feels something wet. Spoiler alert: it's blood. Cale tries to tell everyone he's okay but fails because his head is literally bleeding.

Or Cale just faints as soon as he tries to step out of the carriage to see if anyone else is injured.

I HAD A LOT OF IDEAS WHILE WRITING THAT- Yes I know Cale hates pain, that's why I put the bit that said he only uses it when he feels like someone's injury was his fault-

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I think I just made the crackiest og Cale au I can.

Set in TBOAH (I don't want to write og b4 every name)

OG!Cale (calling him Cale after this) fakes his death and install a vassal he can easily control/threaten to lead the Henituse County after the Henituse family dies. He now goes by Cale Thames and dyes his hair (as much as he hates to give up his mother's hair color, he has to or else he'll get caught) the opposite of his hair color which is a dark blue that can be mistaken as black at times (he can't bring himself to dye it brown like the rest of his late family).

He burns down multiple Arm bases and bombed a few of them (it depends on his mood honestly) and runs into Choi Han and the gang. Choi Han mistakes his hair as black and they ask him what he's doing and he sarcastically says "putting out the fire" and runs off.

This happens a few more times and Choi Han tries to recruit Cale everytime and Cale says no a bunch of times till Rosalyn gets tired of it and ties him up with mana and only agree to let him go if he agrees, in which he does. So he's part of the crew now.

He talks shit abt himself (aka the thought to be dead Cale Henituse) and Beacrox silently seethes in the background since goddamnit that was once his dongsaeng and Ron sharpens his daggers because he's taken care of Cale for a long ass time and once thought of Cale as his second son.

There are times that Cale goes too far with his shit talking and Beacrox and him end up fighting and injuring theirselves.

3 years pass with Cale travelling with the crew and they pass by the Henituse County in which the gang finds out that Cale Henituse is dead (they weren't rlly paying attention to the Henituse County). Choi Han says 'Karma finally got to him' (Choi Han is a bit of a dick when it comes to Henituse) and Cale agrees, they break into the Henituse graveyard to confirm it and find Cale Henituse's grave and Rosalyn notes that he (Cale) isn't surprised and Cale stupidly responds with "That's because I was the one who killed him"

All hell breaks loose (aka I'll continue this tomorrow since I'm tired as fuck)

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TCF Prompt 20

TBOAH AU - Regressions

Although Choi Han was able to gravely injure the White Star, he escaped the great battle that took the life of Cale Henituse. All those that remain are left in despair. Because even though Cale was known for being 'trash' throughout his life, his true attitude and voice in the end helped them in moving forward and being able to keep going during this horrible war(whether he realized it or not).

In the end, its not Cale who regresses, but his old comrades. Not only hoping to change the outlook of the war with the White Star, but perhaps saving an old dear friend, not only from a certain villain, but from himself as well.

Meanwhile, an 18 year old Cale Henituse is quite confused as to why this man from Harris Village is so set on being his guard. More importantly...why the fuck did Ron hug him this morning? And Hans is sticking to him like glue? Not seeming afraid of him at all(and was he glaring at the staff calling him trash?). Not to mention that damn crown prince inviting him personally to the capital instead of his brother! ugh. So many plans going drown the drain...but at least these kittens(kids) from the slums are cute. Hmm...maybe its not so bad...

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Choi Han, The Molans, Rosalyn, Lock, Alberu, On, Amiru, Gilbert, Eric and Hans are the ones who regress.

OG!Cale doesn't fully regress, but he does end up having snippets of certain events(nightmares that give him headaches, etc)

OG!Cale does get all the ancient powers, including his mothers

GoD does bring KRS partly as an ancient power given to Cale(as Record, etc), and then sent off to help LSH and CJS with GoD things.

They all eventually end up meeting up to help each other, but that's a long ways yet.

On grabs Hong and goes to Cale asap cause she knows he will take them in.

Raon is saved and taken in of course. He doesn't fully remember, but like Cale he has nightmares of what could have been. Something they bond over.

Everyone is super protective and Cale is just: ????

Henituse family is confused as well, but Deruth allows it cause they make his son happy(and then they find out Cale was being trash on purpose and are not pleased. Apologies and much needed talks on both sides are given).

It takes a while(he's been acting for 10 years without a moments rest after all) but Cale allows himself to be well...himself again.

While not KRS, Cale is still an oblivious, sacrificial, unlucky bastard(thank you Eruhaben).

War ends in 2 years instead of 20. Much to the joy of everyone(Cale is kinda happy, but not, he did NOT want to be a Commander dammit! stupid hyu-...crown prince!)

Redika is killed at the plaza after trying to go after Cale

Clopeh is also killed at Henituse territory

Some events are the same as TCF, but OG!crew aren't KRS and bulldoze their way through events rather than scheme/scam lmao. It gets worse after Cale gets hurt, coughs up blood, etc.

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KRS isn't Cale au, but KRS is turned into a teenager (with all of his scars still for some reason) and stumbles out of the land of Death draped in black and with no understanding of the world around him except for how to kill magical beasts.

The Caro Kingdom pick him up but he just keeps mentioning that he needs to get to Roan, it's the last thing he was told before he woke up so he has to get there (not to mention KRS suspects he's in TBOAH bc it's the Caro kingdom.) They agree to help him get there because because unknown child stumbling out of a forbidden area with no memories but where potentially his family is isn't something to argue with; but when they get priests to check on him they say he's touched by death until GoD's priests check on him and its like "holy shit he's a Saint. And he isn't mortal. He's like some vessel of death in physical form."

And instantly the Caro kingdom become worried that they're they're a walking talking omen of Death into one of the nations they have good relations with outside of the empire, but seeing the shift KRS claims he has to get to "Cage-noona" to help her! And the GoD priests just say to let him go because its a well known fact within the temple that Cage hears GoD talk so KRS must be a god sent creature to help her so best ship him off right away.

They drop him at the border after he tells them GoD has summoned Cage and she meets nearby but he just fucks off to try and figure out where in the timeline he is unknowingly leaving an entire nation on the edge of their seats because did the GoD just send his son down to earth!? (Think Catholic view of the holy trinity, where Jesus was sent by God to enact his will on earth in a mortal body)

Shenanigans ensue and eventually the two cross paths and Cage starts going off that now she's a babysitter!?! And KRS is like "No? Leave me alone." Which she tool personally and now she's GOING to be this bastards brats noona.

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i will not be taking any criticism, thank you

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I forgot that I can drop my drabbles here Hhhhhhh

Anyway,

Inspired by Akatsuki no Yona, imagine if, Cale,  at his weakest point about to pass out, and the White Star ready to aim a death blow to him, Cale's ancient powers just releases themselves, taking in a physical form to protect him.

A familiar silver shield surfaced, deflecting the sword from the White Star. "Hmm?"

"You–"  a voice called from behind the shield.

'That can't be right. Cale Henituse fainted. So how–'

The voice did not sound like Cale. In fact, it was a woman's voice.

"What...are those?" Rosalyn muttered from the side, seeing the coloured figures forming– arising from Cale's body like souls leaving a possessed individual.

The smoke cleared out and they saw a woman holding the silver shield, standing protectively over their commander.

"You thought I'd let you do that?"

The woman spoke, her eyes bored into the White Star as if daring the individual to take a step further.

"Who—!"  The White Star began, surprised. He slammed down again without another thought but a water spear blocked the attack from falling on the individual with the wood attribute.

"You XXX son of XXX! I'll rip your head off if you try to hurt our Cale again!" A strong woman  waving a water spear like she wanted to charge at him. "Forget it! I'll XXXX you for injuring him like this!" 

"Now, now calm down. If you take everything down, there won't be anything for me left." A young man smirked as he took a step forward, guarding Cale's right side.  Red sparks appeared on his hand, no, they were the colour of rose-gold, similar to their young master's.

"Cale, are you alright?" An old man knelted by the side of the fallen commander, placing his hand on Cale's shoulder. "Hey, have you healed him yet? Do it properly."

"I..I'm trying..."

"Cough. " Cale coughed out a batch of blood, slowly raising his head. "...What? You guys...?"

"Careful," A gentle hand tilted his chin slightly,  small gust of wind breezed through to give him some air to breathe. "Your body is still recovering."

"What is this? Who are you people?" The White Star looked incredulously at the six people standing around Cale as if they were protecting him.

"No way." The corners of his lips twitched. He opened his mouth to say the next line that threw everyone off.

"Ancient powers?"

"Cale...really talks to his ancient powers?" Bud mumbled lowly, the blue aura around his sword fluctuated as his hands shook.

"Ho. I've never seen anything like this in my 1000 years of life." 

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Who wants to see my ‘Ron finds out about the KRS thing’ wip?

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We know Cale as a red dragon makes a lot of sense (as many aus prove) but what if after all the temple paranoia, people start calling him the "red dragon of henituse" you know just as another nickname besides "silver shield" and "commander" and just as before, he absolutely hates while everyone including his ancient powers love it.

And he tries to correct them saying hi is a golden turtle not a red dragon but everyone thinks he is being humble.

Even the dragons he knows (Eruhaben, Raon, Dodori, Mila, Rasheel) are either okey with it or extremely gleeful like Raon, who says he is the weakest dragon out there so he is his superior. And Eruhaben who outwardly say he is a poor bastard but inside he is chuckling.

Alberu is having a blast teasing his little brother every time they talk like "oh esteemed dragon-nim" and things like that.

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