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okay I met him and he was so sweet and handsome but he did not look twice at me lol

i would suck B*n schw*rtz’s cock after his show if he asks me to

#i mean he looked at me multiple times but that’s just bc he has good eye contact habits

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UGH walked past Vincent at anime con. He was walking around by himself like a loser. We were practically face to face. Since he’s so tall he looked right over my head. I was later not wearing my mask and he walked past me two more times and still didn’t see me.

I just wanted him to feel the same fear I felt when I saw him. And for him to be filled with regret.

He thinks just because he’s tall and plays piano he’s hot shit!

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had a two for one dream last night, both shitty exes Brandon and Vincent were in it

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Lmao same guy

thinking about my coworker I used to have a crush on who absolutely had a crush on me too but neither of us did anything about it. Bruh should’ve just asked me out

Maybe he didn’t bc his friend also had a crush on me but literally— every man my age that we worked with had a crush on me back in the day

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thinking about my coworker I used to have a crush on who absolutely had a crush on me too but neither of us did anything about it. Bruh should’ve just asked me out

Maybe he didn’t bc his friend also had a crush on me but literally— every man my age that we worked with had a crush on me back in the day

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Heard him talk— gay twink

skinny mustachioed attorney at work was either flirting with me or is an awkward gay

we crossed paths as i went to empty the recycling bin, then he left and came back, and when walking by me said “im just going back and forth” and laughed

Why did he interact with me? I was at my desk. Do I still got it lol

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skinny mustachioed attorney at work was either flirting with me or is an awkward gay

we crossed paths as i went to empty the recycling bin, then he left and came back, and when walking by me said “im just going back and forth” and laughed

Why did he interact with me? I was at my desk. Do I still got it lol

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i would suck B*n schw*rtz’s cock after his show if he asks me to

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smh my sleeping husband throwing my blanket offf my back, just to slap my ass then go back to snoring

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my husband is a mouth breather in his sleep and has his fan blowing over him getting to me so if I lie down facing him I just get a noseful of sleep breath all night

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annoyed now bc i just remembered something brandon said to me was “can I keep you?” and then he didn’t even want to be with me!!!!!!

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Im anti j*el h*yman but i would still fuck him if he gave me the chance

#who cares that he looks old now

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i am at work but not doing any actual work bc i am so overwhelmed with things if i exert myself mentally i will have a breakdown and walk out the door

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What would he have said to me that night in his car, after texting me that he respected me as a person, but started seriously seeing someone, and he was sorry

He invited me out to play Pokemon Go. I was never really sure if he planned on talking about us that night. His new gf called him twice while we walked around downtown. The level of idolization I had for him was really my saving grace. Without that, I would’ve been a lunatic again

He drove me home, and we sat in silence, the stereo playing quietly at 2:00 in the morning.

His car was half sticking out of my parents driveway. No one else would be driving past so he wasn’t inconveniencing anyone but it in a way symbolized the quick escape he made from my life.

My mouth was open— trying to find the words and rationalism— something I was unable to do in the past after being dumped

He said nothing. Maybe in the same boat, maybe just hoping I’d say something, be mad at him, give him a reason to feel like he’s doing the right thing

Finally I manage to say something. “We don’t have to talk about it.”

Quiet. Processing. “… word.” He says.

What would he have said if I didn’t give him that out? Would he have apologized to me directly? Would he have been brutally honest? I couldn’t stand the thought of him telling me that he didn’t really like me. I think he was too kind for that, but it wasn’t out of the realm of possibilities. Maybe he was going to tell me that I was a little too intense. And clearly had some underlying issues.

I get out of the car. The hum of his suburu, and the silence of the world at 2:10 AM. I don’t turn back towards the car, ready to just walk inside the front door of my parents house. His car door opens. That’s unexpected. I turn around to awkwardly wave bye at him.

He hugs me. Probably one of the kinder, more genuine hugs he had ever given me. We are 23 now. We’ve known each other since we were 15. But this is the first time he is a real human being to me.

He holds the back of my head, resting his forehead to mine. A much more intimate moment than I would’ve ever anticipated in this situation. He tells me to have a good night. He lets go and gets back into his car.

Recounting what happened to my friends who were curious how the night went, “Seems like he feels guilty.” “I think hes regretting his choice.”

When we were teenagers, he was on a pedestal. Unobtainable, cute, charming, and popular. Every girl who met him crushed on him. I recognized that I was no different, and would never be able to catch his attention. The time I spent with him finally changed how I saw him. He was no longer an unobtainable idea. He was just a person.

I’ve never once blamed him for leading me on. In the end, i was grateful for the brief affair we had. I hope he feels the same way.

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my goofy ass husband literally every time I’m just in a tank top when changing out of work clothes

(looks closely at my cleavage)

(pops up his finger) “boing”

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just thought about an ex situationship where we were cuddling and he said “whoa! I can see your contact lenses on your eyes” which was so like……. Random to just call out lol he HAD to have dated ppl who wore contacts before me

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im going feral i am a sucker for mediocre white men