thricedead

[thricedead]

Dazai (BSD) relationship ratings, i have not reaf the manga since 2019

Chuuya: it was kind of funny to abuse him when they were teenagers but genuine emotional attachment to him is drastically low. Missionary sex on the train tracks with a steadfast approaching train once a year for the sake of routine, done as monotonely as he shaves or brushes his teeth. If chuuya died dazai would probably bitch and moan and use the funeral as an excuse to skip work but he would get over it in a few business days

Atsushi: wet kitten dazai found shivering all alone in a cardboard box in the heavy rain. But when dazai was 16 someone asked him to drown a litter of kittens in the toilet and he did it. Take that as you will

Kunikida: dazai kind of passively wants to know if hes packing but not to the point where he would interact with hin on a human level outside of the office. At times, an inexplicable urge to force a stapler into his mouth and staple his cheek 3-4 times, but hes scared kunikida would perceive this as affectionate

Ranpo: the overwhelming urge to make special ed jokes about ranpo quickly died down after the two went on what dazai thought would be one sole hit and run date but ranpo left him handcuffed in the dog park overnight with a clown dressed like Dazais dad who stood motionless for 11 hours at an unsettling distance. Afterwards, he extended a rare courtesy and texted Ranpo the next day

Akutagawa: hardly a person of interest. Dazai has forgotten this, but during their time in the port mafia he would microdose everything akutagawa ate and drank with a potent laxative - not to a point where it would have a very noticable effect, but it tricked akutagawa into thinking hes been having psychosomatically having trouble shitting because he misses dazai and it fucks with his head

Fyodor: incredible urge to take a piss into Fyodors ushanka blocks most relevant trains of thought dazai might have when he looks at fyodor otherwise. He will update his opinion after he accomplishes this feat

[thricedead]

I dont like soukoku but i think its real in a sense that chuuya doesn't want to use dazai's preferred pronouns because he thinks his nonbinary identity is performative and dazai ties chuuya to train tracks and dances around while he screams for help as a train approaches and then goes to his house and microchips him in his sleep so he can stalk him and take pictures of him and leave them in his mailbox to scare and unsettle him. But he only did both of these this 1 time because he doesnt like chuuya as a person at all and gets bored of him quickly. Youd think "the sex is crazy though?" But its not, they call him "2 minutes and 14 seconds Dazai"...

[thricedead]

Coercively assigned Child at birth, forced to grow up in a tracksuit with a bowlcut and engaging only with scifi and fantasy literature that did not cater to either masculine or feminine fantasy, had to make an explicit promise to my mom to never let anyone fuck me IT DOES NOT EVER END!

[thricedead]

By anti-gender and anti-sexuality i do not mean that they raised me neutrally and left it upon me to identify myself, but that they forcefully stripped me of the right to have ANY gender and sexuality and punished me if I leaned towards either gender or either orientation

[thricedead]

This is a weird thing to say in an environment full of trans and nb people but as someone who was raised genderless and anti-gender/anti-sexuality in everything but name, my parents choosing to do so in a heavily gendered society without my consent is a violent act upon my integrity that permanently impaired my functioning and grasp on identity

[thricedead]

Its kinda scary & reeks of privilege that so many people do not realize that painting any oppressive class as biologically and ontologically evil is actually lenience & grace upon the oppressor bc youre essentially allowing them to consider themselves to be unchangeably flawed & cement their ways instead of demanding their power to be deconstructed and demanding that they do material work in favor of those they oppress. Self flagellating oppressors are just oppressors whove accepted theyre "more powerful" regardless of how bad they feel abt it. To meaningfully challenge longstanding systems of power you have to let go of both bioessentialism (because no traits are ingrained in anyones nature) and the half baked idea that socialization is everything (because grown people are not anymore infants who mindlessly soak in and emulate patterns, asserting urself as part of an oppressive class is a serious of conscious choices and yes these begin in childhood even as a 5 year old a human is no longer just a product of their environment but also a sentient creature able to process society and place themselves somewhere within). Assuming an oppressive class to be bred into evil is absolving them of the neccessity of change & reparation and allowing axes of power longievity! All in all i dont give a fuck about men as a class but youll never see me in the "men are evil kill all men" group even jokingly cause letting them live with the idea that we consider them beyond change is being too kind to them. Radfems n their bioessentialist brethren arent doing anything to dismantle the patriarchy theyre just sitting in a circlejerk and giggling about how men stink in a way that may kinda piss men off but like all kindergarten level violence, it does not invoke introspection or transformation within anyone. The only way to meaningfully move forward is to challenge the traits attributed to MAN (assertive, powerful, logical, thrives in viokence) and WOMAN (hard-working, victim, emotional, thrives in a household/family) at their heart instead of going "well i actually like the woman traits they can be kinda cool, girl power". Radfems are mental 5 year olds getting women killed.

[thricedead]

COLLEGE APPS UPDATE

51 applicants, 28 will be accepted, i am currently 6th from the top. However the rankings may change drastically after the national exams in June, so I need to score near perfectly in order to remain in the top 28 👍🏻

[thricedead]

Shiki Togainu no chi falls victim to the "ruby and claritas really hate to see a character so they make up comedic traits to endure his existence and then it kind of becomes really funny" complex

[thricedead]

ok girlies we are at a sleepover. we know how many crush confessions you’ve given and received. now tell us how many people you’ve kissed

#ive kissed 3 people :)

[thricedead]

GOOD MORNING! College acceptance lists drop in 1 hour 😵‍💫 (not the final version, the pre-national exam version. But it's really important still, Im fucked if im not in top 100)

[thricedead]

Cola can bomb vs baby with schizophrenia or somethinggg

[thricedead]

#these are all corny and annoying. get into bl eroge to experience real emotion

[thricedead]

[thricedead]

I forgot that curtain call was an actual term and not just your story's name and I saw it in the caption of someone's art and was like "who is this woman..? clari would never make a character with such a simple design -_-"

HAHAHAH OH MY GOSH AWWW :)) im so happy my story has found its place in your head ♡ *holding main 6 by the shoulders* thank you for taking good care of them, these children are a handful but theyll make it

[thricedead]

Ill be real i am not extremely well read on satanism so please fill me in/correct if need be but

1) isnt satanism very closeknit to rightwinger shit 😐 i feel like you cant just wash your hands of following an ideology codified by a rightwinger by saying "im doing this but the leftist way ♡"

2) i personally honestly find it offensive, immature and edgy to be basing a "religion" around a figure that multiple religions abhor and fear n use to represent malice and corruption. Its especially shit to me in non theistic satanists bc they dont even believe Satan to be real I feel theyre just using him as a shocking/edgy thing to build themseles as anti-christians which people have the right to avoid

3) individualism and materialism is the downfall of humankind imo

I dont know ♡ gross

[thricedead]

We toasted my aunt's bday and i instinctively took half a glass of brandy as a shot without blinking and everyone made fun of me like "ohhh the baby is becoming an alcoholic" I ALREADY AM!!! stupid fucking bitch i can finish a whiskey bottle in 3 hours leave me alone!!!!

[thricedead]

The first GSA meeting of the school year 2016/17 & the bitch in the corner is wearing a Hetalia pin... Yuri on ice warriors rise!!