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Refaat Alareer, If I must die, written in 2011, published online on November 1, 2023

If I must die, you must live to tell my story to sell my things to buy a piece of cloth and some strings, (make it white with a long tail) so that a child, somewhere in Gaza while looking heaven in the eye awaiting his dad who left in a blaze— and bid no one farewell not even to his flesh not even to himself— sees the kite, my kite you made, flying up above and thinks for a moment an angel is there bringing back love If I must die let it bring hope let it be a tale

(transcript by the American Friends Service Committee)

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stewy:

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this is unbearable. just a little while ago when the baby was born we were lamenting that refaat never got to meet his grandkid and now his grandkid, son in law, and daughter are dead too?! ايه القهر ده!

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There’s evidence that Palestinians in the mass graves (including babies, children, people in medical scrubs) were buried alive.

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friday.. school again.. just kill me its kinder

#when i have to go to school for 5 days a week i turn evil #physics test as well.. #fuck it we ball

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The fact that homelessness is controversial tells you everything you need to know about conservatives.

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girl if I miss this train..

me waiting to leave school once they call her and confirm 🧍‍♀️

#definitely going to miss it bc she’s saying she will call in 5 minutes bc she’s in a meeting #ok will just ge the next one 🧘🏽‍♀️ #just annoyed at this receptionist . why would I lie about this?!

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me waiting to leave school once they call her and confirm 🧍‍♀️

#girl is it really that deep like I am fully 18 years of age

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#keyboard I was in touch typing club for 2 years #despite that I dont actually type properly but still faster than on phone

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ITS OVER!! Worst experience of my life

Going to kms

#he’s actually really nice but it was still embarrassing #at least it’s done #can’t show my face to him again I fear

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Going to kms

#don’t wanna talk to him 😭 hopefully it will be quick

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we talk a lot about ohhhh what if my calling is to be the greatest mammoth hunter ever and I'm wasting my talents in the modern era but we never think about what if Thog from 30,000 BCE was the only person ever born who could get a sub-7min Donkey Kong Country any%, and he never got the chance. what about thog

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ok how will i leave school early

#think i might just say im feeling ill #not even a lie

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sexual tension btwn me and killing myslef is crazy

#wish there was a quick and easy pill you could takr i would already be gone by now #idgaf about the sanctity of life bro. its honestly not that special to me this is literally wasted on me #also printer wont work and yes its making me want to kms #also huge migraine #and have to go to fucking school to embarrass myself in front of my teacher and go to lessons where i hate eveyr single person in the room #i might just say after period one that i feel sick and come back home

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Did we miss the part where Biden's stance on Palestine is uniquely aggressive and oppressive even in the context/low bar of American politics. I feel like I'm losing my mind everytime someone brings up a hypothetical "well it could be worse" when the Gaza strip has dealt with the equivalent impact to a fucking nuclear assault.

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oh my god i have to go to FUCKING school tomorrow to get this form filled in

#i really thought i would have one day of peace and be able to skip a day this week but no #to add to the embarrassment he did see me as i was walking out of school right after i emailed him.kill me dead #whatever this will be done soon thank god #what else do i have to do #rest of tomorrow will just be loads of revision ig #need to print out the form rn #oh also was thinking of applying for my provisional licence like what is she gonna do make me send it back? #honestly i just want a form of id #friday physics test 🚬 she decided today for some reason #god why is a provisional licence 34 pounds. havent i suffered enough. #will sleep at 10 today i hope she doesnt wake me up at 5 am with her loud thumping footsteps i will lose it #ok will go and print the fucking form now bane of my existence #hopefully it is filled by tomorrow . will be an awkward half an hour but i will live i hope. then upload online then whole fiasco over #all this to probably take a gap year anyway