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oracle, ban this guy
(some shitpost while i work on that bernard comic)
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First time writing for Tim, so heā€™s probs ooc in this one.
Dick feels as though heā€™s failed you.
He tries to act like he was fine but he was far from it and everyone knew it as they stepped on eggshells with him during this time.
Dick would often find himself sat on the very rooftops where heā€™d take you on countless dates or just to star gaze and talk as though you were still with him.
It was his own way of comforting himself with your loss but that was never enough to stop the tears that fell from his eyes when he spotted a bright star heā€™s never seen before until now, and laughs humourlessly.
ā€˜I see youā€™ve finally made your way amongst the stars huh sweetheart?ā€™ Heā€™d say as your star would twinkle in response, making him chuckle. ā€˜Youā€™re so beautiful, the brightest of your kind.ā€™ He adds sombrely as he wipes his eyes with the back of his hand as he felt his heart sing out for you, only to receive nothing in return.
Reality was often disappointing but with you it was a fairy tale.
Waking up to you was a dream within itself and getting to do mundane things with you before heading off to work was something that could only exist in a daydream.
He knew Hayley misses you as badly as he does with how heā€™d hear the poor dog whine and whimper at the door, as if waiting for you to walk through it and tackle her with kisses and love like you always did, only to get nothing for hours.
ā€˜I know, I miss them too.ā€™ He says against Hayleyā€™s fur as she whimpers and whines at the door. ā€˜I miss them so fucking much it hurts.ā€™ He adds as he allows himself to mourn for you alongside his dog long into the night.
Jason blames himself for not being fast enough or strong enough to keep you protected and safe.
The apartment you once shared with him that only recently had started to feel like home to him now felt cold and haunted with the ghost of you, so much so to the point he avoids it at all cost.
Nothing felt right without you, everything felt wrong and unjustified that he became more ruthless then before on patrols just to let off some steam and would come back from them more beaten and bruised then normal.
He didnā€™t care, he couldnā€™t feel anything anymore with how numb he became after loosing you.
Dick and Roy would stop by to see how he was doing but each visit was the same with Jason refusing his older brother and best friend entry as he held one of your plushies tightly against his chest. He knows they mean well but he just couldnā€™t find it within himself to hear the same thing heā€™s heard from everyone else; It just felt disingenuous after a while and didnā€™t feel as though people truly understood the impact that you had on him throughout your time together.
Jason would become more destructive with himself and going headfirst into danger without a second thought and damns his teammates for dragging him out by the scruff of his neck as he fights and kicks out of their hold. He doesnā€™t want to be saved! He just wanted to be with you again, why couldnā€™t they see that?!
After loosing you Jason becomes more prone to angry outbursts and often lets them out on the wrong person but he couldnā€™t care less at this point, his favourite person was gone and he was left back where he was before you.
Lost and deeply afraid.
Tim would retreat from everyone and everything by cooping himself into his room, rarely to come out.
Heā€™d rather rot in his bed and on his phone, looking through all the photos youā€™ve taken together and seeing just how happy you both were, all the while a pit in his stomach grew at the thought of all the plans youā€™ve made but would never get to do.
He hated how easily he gave you his heart and hated it even more at just how easy it was to loose you that he wishes that he could stop himself from meeting you for the first time, just so he could selfishly save himself from the best moments of his life and the inevitable heartbreak heā€™d soon suffer.
Tim would do anything in his power to get you back but knew that it just wasnā€™t possible.
He knew Jason was given life by the Lazarus pit but he wasnā€™t willing to subject you to that even if he was held at gunpoint. Heā€™d rather you rest in peace than force you to live with the knowledge that you should technically be dead.
Tim would remain in his room, wondering about the what ifs and the what couldā€™ve beens if you hadnā€™t died. Would someone have taken your place? Was your death an unchangeable fixed point in time that was meant to happen?
He would only be reunited with you in his dreams where he has saved you and you had gotten to live out the rest of your life happily, rather then left for dead in an alleyway not too far from the place where you were originally going to meet up for date night.
Damian dedicated his life to getting revenge.
He had lost the light in his life, so why should he think his adversaries should live when you werenā€™t even given the option?
There will be more bodies pilling up on the streets of Gotham at a faster rate than normal whenever Damian is on patrol, much to Bruceā€™s dismay.
His anger and grief was all consuming and that left little to no room for logic to make him stop and see what he was doing was no better than the thing that took you away.
Life was black and white for a long time for Damian and you were the colour.
You were the air he breathed and without you he was gasping.
He knew about the Lazarus pit in his grandfatherā€™s possession and its mythical properties and how it gave Jason a second chance at life. However he was at a cross roads on using it for his own selfish gain, on one hand he could have you back and everything would be fine again, but on the other hand you wouldnā€™t be the version of you he fell in love withā€¦
Damian didnā€™t know what to do. The grief, the anger, the sadnessā€¦it was all too much for him. He felt as though he apart of him was missing and he would never get it back, it just wasnā€™t possible.
Bruce feels as though nothing has changed since his parents death.
He may be older, faster, stronger and wiser but that didnā€™t mean nothing in the face of death, and your death only proved that to be true as he held you in his arms, holding you close to his chest as he quietly sobs into your cold neck.
Much like Tim, Bruce doesnā€™t take care of himself anymore and it was up to Alfred to make sure that he doesnā€™t keep over and die unexpectedly.
ā€˜They wouldnā€™t want this for you sir.ā€™ Alfred would say as Bruce slams his hands down on the surface of his desk. ā€˜And what would you know that they want for me Alfred, y/nā€™s dead and itā€™s my fault.ā€™ He would bark and bare his teeth at the only father figure he had in his life, a father figure whom has seen this expression bore on the young masterā€™s face more times then he could count, but it still hurt him to see Bruce in pain and heartbreak.
ā€˜They would want you to take care of yourself, sleep proper hours, eat full meals, shower, reach out to anyone,ā€™ Alfred began to walk towards Bruce and place a hand on his shoulder, where he could practically feel the unbridled anger and pain radiation through him that he kept under control. ā€˜They wouldnā€™t want you to wallow in pain alone, Gotham needs you.ā€™
ā€˜And I needed them.ā€™ Bruce replied sharply, aggressively wiping his eyes with his hand as he looks over at a framed picture of you that he always kept nearby. ā€˜All I wanted was them.ā€™ He adds softly this time as he looks at Alfred, lost and confused at what to do now that his anchor was gone. ā€˜I miss them so much Alfred.ā€™
Alfred brings Bruce into his arms, much like he did when he lost his parents, when he lost Jason and now you, allowing him to burrow his face into the Butlerā€™s shoulder and softly sob into the fabric. Alfred felt his heart break even more as he rubbed Bruceā€™s back in an attempt of bringing him comfort. ā€˜I know master Bruce, I know, but youā€™d be doing their memory a great disservice by destroying yourself.ā€™ The older man started as he looked over at the framed picture of you and smiled soberly, you were a beacon to Bruce and Alfred wasnā€™t afraid to say that he viewed you as his in law with how happy you made Bruce and that was all Alfred could ever want for him.
Now that you were gone, Alfred couldnā€™t help but feel that the manor got just that little bit lonelier without you.
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this is the ONLY damian wayne design i accept by the way. brown skin, a crooked nose, dark green eyes and thick eyebrows. keep that white-washed monstrosity away from me
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Pen Pal (Platonic)
Part 1 part 2 part 3 Part 4
Yā€™all asked for Konig and yā€™all have received
This probably isnā€™t how people thought the initial meeting would go but I decided to shake it up a bit
Cause I like being silly goofy like that
Iā€™m planning to soon do something with shadow company and have that lead into the main story of modern warfare 2 so be prepared
(Yā€™all can tell Iā€™ve started watching Nana)
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high school is shit
That was something you remember clear as day. The reason as to why is much more complicated than the reaction
Perhaps is was due to the people, petty drama, bad teachers, the time or place but in general high school just generally wasnā€™t the best
You went their for basically nothing in the end since you enlisted as quick as you could
But if there was one thing high school did for you it was helping you find one good friend
It was during English class that your teach had the idea of giving everyone a slightly different school project
She got in contact with her brother (who if you remember correctly was in the military abroad) and had him help her set up a pen pal program
Simply put, she gave everyone an assigned soldier to write to abroad
Simply put, she gave everyone an assigned soldier to write to abroad
Simply put, she gave everyone an assigned soldier to write to abroad
Simply put, she gave everyone an assigned soldier to write to abroad
Simply put, she gave everyone an assigned soldier to write to abroad
Simply put, she gave everyone an assigned soldier to write to abroad
Simply put, she gave everyone an assigned soldier to write to abroad
Fun right?
For others it was a chore but for you it was something that had changed your direction in life
The first letters were slightly awkward as expected. You were a young and dumb teen and this was someone who had likely killed men with his bear hands
But after a while you began to enjoy the days in which your reach would deliver mail to the class
He didnā€™t tell you his real name for safety reason but he did tell you his call sign ā€œkƶnigā€ German for ā€œkingā€
Heā€™s from Austria, enjoys mundane things like baking and reading
Particularly books like pride and prejudice and The hobbit which leads to you both giving each other recommendations
It feels nice writing to him, talking about your problems to a neutral source who gives you the best advice he can
Though he talks of the horrors heā€™s seen thereā€™s a certain sense of pride in his words as he talks of being a protector
of people like you
At some point during those letters it became more than just talking to a stranger, you both had become friends despite never meeting
As the initial project comes to a close you keep sending him letters and he always responds back
At this point you began to open up about your life just as he does the same
Kƶnig talks of his childhood. Being the lone child whom the others bullied, called a monster due to his highly
How it lead to his already bad social anxiety to become worse as their words cut him down from a mountain to a grain of sand
In turn you told him of your childhood, your fears and anxieties since you didnā€™t know what to do with your life
The constant pressure to succeed in a world that was against you since the start
The loneliness you felt on a constant basis despite the facade of a smile you out on
During this duration you didnā€™t tell him of your plan to enlist
You knew heā€™d be upset, be angry at the mere thought of putting your life on the line
With each letter you place little stickers and glitter inside as a fun surprise for him
At one point even getting a wax seal of a crown that you used gold and black wax on your letter from there on out
As the end of the year rears itā€™s ugly head into view, and as you prepare for graduation and prom you decided to add a new little surprise in one of your letters
Whatever Kƶnig had expected it certainly was a little Polaroid of you smiling back at him
On the back of it addressed ā€œto my Heroā€
The letter is a thank you note, heartfelt and pure. He even sees small tear marks now dried up on the yellowed and soft paper
Old pressed flowers (Edelweiss specifically) packed into it just as his Oma did for her scrapbooks like he had mentioned months ago
He cries while reading it, your words forever ending up ingrained in his mind every time he went into the battlefield
It made him remember why his job was so important
To serve, and most importantly to protect people like you
He keeps one of those dried Edelweiss in his pocket for good luck and keeps that letter and Polaroid locked away safely
You continued to mail to him even after joining, you end up lying to him about getting a normal job and now just being busy
He mails them to your home address and you have your landlord mail it to you at base
Your lie continues onā€¦until 141 teams up with the private military contractor ā€œKortacā€ for a mission
Kƶnig never told you who he was working for so you initially didnā€™t think much of it
In fact you were kinda annoyed to be dragged by Ghost to a stuffy meeting room to meet these guys
Like why meet people in this stuffy room?, why not take them around base? Or literally anywhere else
Oh well, at least you get to spin around in the spiny office chairs
And then the group comes in
You stop spinning, eyes now looking over the men who are sitting down expect for the one in a sniper hood
Heā€™s tall, like really tall, tall enough that he has to bend over to ever get through the frame of the doorway
Damnā€¦you wish you had the height when Price would place your shit on the highest shelf. It would save you a lot of times you climbed stuff to reach it
He continues to stand there, staring at you making you feel a bit uncomfortable under his gaze
Ghost notices this and glances at your and then at him. He sends a glare but the guy doesnā€™t even notice
ā€œOi Kƶnig!, you alright?ā€ One of his teammates asked disrupting him from his thoughts
Now itā€™s your turn to be left staring, mouth agape as terror fills
Uh oh
As Price talks with the captain and chatter fills the room heā€™s still staring and Ghost notices how your still uncomfortable
You turn to him asking to leave the room as you glance back at Kƶnig
Heā€™s hesitant but trusts you so he nods, not before grabbing your wrist and adding ā€œif he causes you any problems heā€™ll for me aight?ā€
You nod and leave the room
Kƶnig following after and into the silent halls of the base
To say heā€™s angry is an understatement, heā€™s fucking pissed
Your lucky you took him far enough away from the room or else theyā€™d hear him yelling in furious German
And itā€™s German so it makes him sound even more pissed off and scary than he already is
At some point he takes a step forward and tries to place a hand on your shoulder and you flinch back
He freezes, now seeing your teary eyes as you stare up at him. Their glassy almost like the eyes of old porcelain dolls heā€™d see in antique stores
He takes a step back, his mind now clearing up as he finally asks ā€œwhy?ā€
ā€œWhy enlist?, do all of this?. You had a bright future ahead of youā€ he sounds defeated as he says this, hands shaking as he adds ā€œwas it because of me you joined?!, I never wanted that for you. You shouldnā€™t have to throw Aw-ā€œ
ā€œKƶnig it was my choice so donā€™t you dare start blaming yourself for this. I never had a future in the first place, I had no fucking clue what to do with my life and this was the only thing that came to mind. I joined because I thought for once I could do something good with my life, to help others like you doā€
He goes silent after that, your almost convinced for a moment that heā€™s a statue
And then he crumbles like a ancient monument meant to last
He hold you as if your made of glass, his friend who he was fighting for is now on the battlefield just like him
And like when you sent that letter thanking him he cries
You just hold him, now realizing you had a much tighter grip on his life than you had expected
You always thought that he probably saw you as annoying or just a fun little acquaintance but you realize you were much more than that
You were his friend, a true and honest to god friend
Safe to say after that Kƶnig is basically hovering at your side kinda like how Ghost does on missions
Just a silent looming form as you giggle and watch TikTokā€™s, everyone else in the room wondering if you even notice him behind you
You do, and you even show him the ones you have on your saved
Ghost is concerned from how you went from being afraid to now having him trail you like a puppy
Even after you explain what happened heā€™s still giving Kƶnig the side eye
Due to his social anxiety you help Kƶnig out while around base, talking for him when the words choke up in his mouth and generally being there to give him the boost of confidence he needs when talking to others
Having social anxiety doesnā€™t mean the same thing as being shy so you go about helping make sure he isnā€™t overwhelmed by people and social situations
When he does feel like thereā€™s too many people for him to handle you take him out the room and to a quiet place for him to breath
Heā€™s a big gentle giant (with you at least)
Definitely thinks itā€™s funny when he picks you up by the back of your vest like a kitten, even more so when you kick and complain
Everyone does a double take when they see you literally climb him to reach the top shelf for something
Scary giant and small menace
When you find out he canā€™t be a sniper due to his height you take him out the the gun range and have him snipe for you
At some point he probably teaches you a few German phrases for fun, he finds it cute when you try out a word (pronounce it horribly) but look to his for approval
You now do the ā€œno! Little German boy donā€™t-ā€œ meme and heā€™s really confused cause heā€™s Austrian and not German
You steal one of his shirts for fun (he actually left it out for you to steal since he saw you eyeing it) and it completely drowns you
Like itā€™s going to your knees or passing it
Gaz and him actually get along pretty well after you introduce them to one another
One time Price, Soap and Ghost walked in on you and Gaz forming a circle around him and walked out
You fucking cackle when he angrily yells in German,
A good example of this so when he stubs his toe and scared the crap out of Price when it sounds like you and soap successfully summoned a demon after pulling out the Barbie ouija board he banned for a reason
He finds it really heartwarming youā€™ve kept all the letter he sent to you like he did with yours
Legit thinks your code name sums you up pretty well
Sometimes you stick those little stickers that have motivational messages onto him
He always smiles when he finds them
Ghost eventually comes around and the two train together
People make bets one which giant is gonna win, and you get a share of these bets cause everyone goes to you to ask and you say youā€™ll give it to them for a fee
His animal cross island is so aesthetically pleasing, like your not sure how long heā€™s spent on this but heā€™s spent on it but itā€™s really cute
You call him ā€œKoniā€ and he calls you ā€œankle biterā€ in German but tells you it means something else
Probably threatens people in German if they came weird comments and when you ask hims about it heā€™s all ā€œoh it was nothing, they just asked for directionsā€ and then gives them a death stare
Heā€™s surprisingly confident while on the field which is a complete contrast to his rather quiet and anxious manner outside of it
You make him watch anime with you, for the love of god donā€™t show him Nana cause he will sob so hard
Just stick to slice of life or fluffy range stuff unless you want him hugging you like a stuffed animal and crying into your shoulder for an hour
If heā€™s around when you have a nightmare he ends up kinda holding you and mumbling phrases in a mix of English and German
he eventually gets really bummed out and anxious that he and Kortac has to leave soon
He finds himself becoming more spacey as you ramble on about the day
You notice of course, knowing the reason why so you donā€™t bring it up in case of upsetting him
As time ticks by you spend days making memories with him and the team, he finds himself becoming closer with 141 than with the people heā€™s actually teammates with
On that last night before he leaves you spend it with him, Soap, Gaz, Ghost and Price bundled up in your room watching movies
He ļæ¼doesnā€™t fall asleep that night, you and Gaz are the only ones who do in the end
When he leaves that next morning you hug him goodbye and give him your phone number and address
ā€œNow you can text me whenever and if you have time off you can drop by. Iā€™ll still send letters for old times sake thoughā€
He smiles beneath his hood, you can see from how his eyes crinkle ever so slightly
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duckling ā€” python333
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synopsis you have trouble sleeping most nights, luckily gaz is there to help you sleep and does so with cuddles and the least amount of banter ive ever written before with him!! :3
relationships platonic!gaz & gn!reader.
characters gaz.
word count 1.05k
warnings 2nd person pov [you/yours/yourself], no usage of c/n [you are exclusively referred to with pet names].
note i have no motivation to write anything but short drabbles like these rn :( thank you to everyone who's sent me any reqs, i'll get to them as soon as i get the motivation to!! which will probably be by tomorrow or the day after that, but i still kind of feel bad :< i hope you guys enjoy it anyway tho, it's all fluff and sibling dynamics with gaz!!
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You really had no choice but to go to his room.Ā 
Youā€™d been tossing and turning in bed, the sheets ruined by all the rustling, and with a final groan of frustration youā€™d thrown them off of your body and gotten out of bed.
You paused for a moment before grabbing the blankets and wrapping them around yourself, then grabbing your pillow, holding it tightly whilst you walked towards and out of the doors of your sleeping quarters.
Right now, youā€™re trudging along the hall that leads to his sleeping quarters, yawning into the palm of your hand as you do. Your blinking is slow as is your breathing, and you feelā€”and probably lookā€”like a zombie.
Youā€™re well aware of the dark bags hanging under your eyes, and of your messy hair, but you canā€™t bring yourself to care at the moment, more focused on getting to his room so you can finally sleep.
Gaz, months ago, after hearing about your tendency to just get up and walk laps around the base until you were too exhausted to go on just to sleep, had told you that if you ever felt the need to do that again you should just go to his room and heā€™d help you sleep.
Of course, not even two days after that conversation had taken place, you found yourself still awake at three in the morning, so you decided to listen to Gaz for once and headed to his room.Ā 
By helping you sleep, he apparently meant moving over on his bed and letting you sleep beside him. Which made you skeptical at first, because you werenā€™t five, you didnā€™t need to be cuddled to go to sleep, but you still gave him a chance and crawled into bed next to him.
And you were proven wrong the moment Gaz put an arm over your midriff and gently rubbed his thumb up and down your side, the small action lulling you to sleep almost immediately. He woke you up just three hours later, at six in the morning, so that you had time to get back to your own sleeping quarters so that nobody suspected anything.Ā 
You can almost feel yourself getting more tired just from the memory of itā€”not tired enough to sleep, of course, because nothing could be that easy, but still tired.Ā 
So then, after that initial night, you came to him more and more often. He became more and more concerned each time you knocked on the door of his sleeping quarters, but never directly told you that, instead simply opening the door and letting you get into bed with him.
Slowly, you became more comfortable doing it, and it soon became your instinct to go to Gazā€™s sleeping quarters whenever you couldnā€™t sleep.Ā 
So now, as you walk up to the door of his sleeping quarters and knock twice, itā€™s no surprise how quickly he answers. He opens the door almost immediately and steps to the side so that you can walk in.
You do just that, walking into his sleeping quarters and heading straight for his bed, pushing his pillow to the side so that you can put yours right beside his, on the side closest to the wall, and you crawl into bed.Ā 
You hear him close the door and pad over to the bed, waiting for you to climb under the covers and put your head on your pillow before crawling in behind you. Once heā€™s fully under the covers, he wraps a gentle arm around your waist, pulling you closer to him so that he can properly spoon you.Ā 
ā€œYou donā€™t have to bring your own blanket, you know,ā€ He mumbles as he puts his head on your chin, ā€œThereā€™s always gonna be one here.ā€Ā 
ā€œI know,ā€ You simply hum, grabbing Gazā€™s hand from where it lays casually on your stomach and holding it with your own, ā€œBut itā€™s colder in here at night. I like having both blankets.ā€Ā 
Gaz stays silent, instead responding by simply squeezing your hand and rubbing his thumb over the back of it.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m sorry, is having a whole ā€˜nother person here not warm enough for you?ā€ Gaz finally responds, voice full of snark.Ā 
ā€œNot at all,ā€ You murmur, squeezing Gazā€™s hand back, ā€œBody heat and a single blanket isnā€™t enough. I need another blanket or else Iā€™ll get hypothermia.ā€Ā 
ā€œWhatever you say, duckling,ā€ Gaz sighs.
ā€œI still donā€™t get why you call me that.ā€Ā 
ā€œDonā€™t act like you donā€™t follow me everywhere around base like a little duckling.ā€Ā 
ā€œItā€™s not acting,ā€ You grumble, making Gaz huff out a laugh, ā€œI just donā€™t.ā€Ā 
ā€œOh, but you do,ā€ Gaz coos, before pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head, ā€œYou donā€™t have to be embarrassed. Itā€™s not like itā€™s a secret.ā€Ā 
ā€œIā€™m not embarrassed,ā€ You deny, lying straight through your teeth, ā€œI just donā€™t follow you around. At all.ā€Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re only convincing yourself, duckling,ā€ Gaz mumbles, putting his chin on top of your head again, right over the spot heā€™d kissed, ā€œNow go to sleep. You need it.ā€Ā 
You donā€™t respond verbally, instead simply relaxing your shoulders that you hadnā€™t even realized were tense, and letting out a tired sigh. Gaz was wrong, you werenā€™t even convincing yourself.
You knew that you followed him around everywhere, like a pestering younger sibling that was desperate to copy their older sibling, but he didnā€™t need to know that you knew that.Ā 
And he definitely didnā€™t need to know you had no real problem with it.Ā 
Soon, like you had never had sleeping problems to begin with, you were fast asleep. Gaz, however, continued his ministrations of rubbing his thumb over the back of your hand, as well as loosely holding your hand in his.Ā 
Eventually, his thumb slows and he drifts asleep as well, and when he falls into a deeper slumber his thumb eventually stops its movements. But throughout the night, his hand continues to be held in yours, and his arm remains where it is, keeping you close to him the entire night.Ā 
The next morning, when he wakes up and sees you still peacefully asleep, he canā€™t find it in himself to disrupt your sleep, so he simply closes his eyes and acts as thought he had never woken up.
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Damian: *hugging reader as an attempt to comfort reader* "how do you feel?"
reader: "as if a snake was crushing me"
Damian:*releases the reader*
reader: "why did you stop?"
Damian tries to be comforting, he really does but it just never works out for him.
Youā€™d have to teach him how to comfort someone by hugging him so that he gets an idea on how to properly hug someone without making it feel as though they were being strangled by a snake.
Meanwhile heā€™s stood there like: šŸ§
Arms at his sides, stiff as a bored and not knowing how he should respond.
You: Damian youā€™re meant to hug me back
Damian: but you told me I hug like snake strangling its prey.
You: I know but at least try not to this time.
Itā€™s awkward but you get thereā€¦sooner or later.
Damian is also guilty of doing the awkward pat on the shoulder, thinking it could solve everything.
*you being sad about something*
Damian: *pats you awkwardly on the shoulder*
You: *looks up at him* whatā€™re you doing?
Damian: Iā€™m comforting you. Is it working?
You: not really, no-
When Damian does master the art of comforting someone, itā€™s over for everyone.
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Growing Up in the Justice League HC
Purely self indulgence cause I've been on this and idk why so bear with me here
I can just easily romanticize growing up in the Justice League too easily and it would be a problem
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you're brought in at as a baby to be trained by Diana
Apollo brings you to her and tells her that you are an ancient being that regenerates as a new person when you die and this is the form that you have taken. As you get older, you will remember the skills and memories of your past lives but you will have to be raised with someone who can handle you
Diana just loves babies so she had no problem with that
I'd say the league has been established for some time during this point and everyone knows each other's identities in the core group
You grew up in Paris and New York being raised as a mama's child
Bruce is the closest you get to a dad and he does his best
SPOILS YOU ROTTEN
all the Barbies and Legos and whatever toys you'd want as a child
They know that you've been trained as an assassin, wizard, queen, knight, sorceress, scientist, all of these other things that can be traumatic so they just want you to have a great, decent childhood
when you start remember things they begin training you to be a hero
It's like PE and recess all in one since they're really just trying to figure out what you can do
Clark treats you like a fragile piece of glass up until you're a teen cause teenagers confuse him and he just cannot not see you as an innocent beep boppin child sometimes
Barry keeps up with the culture and knows all the songs from your favorite childhood movies and tv shows that you grew up watching on the massive computer in the watch tower when you were up there
will dance to any Barbie song since he knows them all by heart
Hal makes fun of you two but secretly enjoys the movies and is very emotionally invested in Princess and the Pauper and Diamond Castle
Diana and Bruce make sure that you have a great education and training
They are the mature parents of the group and want to make sure you're a functioning member of society
you've got a bag full of grandparents in the Kents, Allans, Princes, Alfred and they all love you to death
Alfred teaches you to make the best tea and gardening, Ma Kent teaches you to quilt and make bread, Pa Kent teaches you how to drive a tractor and farm, Hippolyta teaches you about the Greek gods and ancient cultures and how to ride horses, the Allans would have loads of board games to play and love having you over
Once Young Justice or Teen Titans comes around you don't join since you're officially a Justice League member and get along better with the adults since you were raised by them
That doesn't mean that you don't like or hang out with the kids, it's just that you have better inside jokes with Hal and Barry
When Superboy comes around and the League disappears, you were the only one not taken by the portal since you were helping out some civilians
You knew that Clark wasn't dead and you knew the League was somewhere
What kept you afloat was humor and Kon attached to that since he just needed someone that wasn't insane in his life
you probably won't develop romantic feelings for each other but it's more of a camaraderie since you were both raised in a really unorthodox way
when the league finally comes back, you say it's the happiest day of your life and rant to them that you were the only one who knew they weren't gone but no one understood it
Hal and Barry are known for having a thing for chicken tenders and make sure to instill an addiction in you for chicken tenders
Arthur (Aquaman) really really really likes them too but he doesn't realize it until he comes to the League
Clark would be the one to take you out for ice cream randomly or if you're having a bad day
the mother hen therapist type
You're America's favorite Justice Leaguer and often go viral for in uniform interactions with the League
Dancing with Flash at a Presidential ceremony because the music is too beep boopin good and you can't help but bop around a little bit
Media also loves you as a civilian and it's been suspected that you are the love child between Diana and Bruce since I mean- that would make the most sense
it's a running joke in the league
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I'm so glad you like my work hearing that means so much to me. as requested, here is a part 2; sorry it took me a billion years to get to it.
Part 1: Catch Me if I Fall
Warnings: Very nearly self harm, depressive thoughts, relapse. Please read with caution.
Word count: 1.3K
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Things had been getting better. Slowly but surely they had. It was a slow process, that of course had not been easy. There were days where you felt like you could run a hundred miles, but there were also days where you couldnā€™t bring yourself to move. When the urge became too much. And although your brothers were there to help youā€¦ today was one of those days.Ā 
The five of you were gathered around the table. Eating together at least once a week had become a tradition, and each of your brothers made a big effort to attend them, though it was rare to make it this far into the meal without being interrupted by Gothamā€™s infamous residents. And you were trying so hard to keep focused; to enjoy Alfredā€™s cooking as it melted on your tongue but you just couldnā€™t. And you hated yourself for it.Ā 
You had to keep your eyes on your plate as you pushed your food aimlessly around the china. Your appetite had gone nearly as soon as you sat down, but you couldnā€™t look up because you knew as soon as you did you would feel guilty again. Dick sat across from you. A dark bruise had blossomed over his skin, turning it dark shades of maroon and indigo. He had a small laceration on his cheek below the bruise over his eye. It hadnā€™t needed stitches, but the sight still made you grimace. Beside him, Damian was also bloodied. They were all injured in some way. A stitch here, a sprain there.Ā 
You should have been bothered by them. Injuries were a given in your line of work. But the thing that was tipping you over the edge was the fact that you were completely unscathed. There wasnā€™t a single hair on your head that was out of place. And it made your skin crawl. The five of them had run into a bit of a predicament with Bane; a particularly grisly fight that had ended with the majority of them spending a day or two on bedrest or in the infirmary.Ā 
You should have been there. You should have been helping them but instead you were sitting in the safety of the manor, watching them on the monitors. Guilt washed over you like an ocean drowning you in your own thoughts. If only you had been quicker to direct them. If only you had pushed Bruce more to let you help out. Surely with an extra pair of hands the risk of injury would have been lowered. You would have had to ask Tim for the exact statistics, but you were sure enough that it would have made a difference.Ā 
Bouncing your thigh leg up and down, you felt as though your skin was burning. Itching. As those thoughts weaselled their way back into your conscience. You picked at the skin around your thumb. Sometimes that helped the urge. But not this time. You had been too slow. Again. Everything was your fault and-
ā€œY/N?ā€ It was Dickā€™s voice that broke you out of your trance. It was gentle and he reached out to place a hand on your restless leg under the table. He was ever the observer. The way he looked at you made you want to cry like a fragile child. Soft blue eyes downturned as he raised his eyebrow a fraction with the tilt of his head. ā€œAre you alright?ā€
You wanted to scream. You wanted to tell him everything. But you kept it bottled up. You didnā€™t want them to pity you. Besides, you were getting better. That was what you had told yourself. That is what had been happening and it made you so frustrated that you were beginning to feel this way again.Ā 
ā€œY/N?ā€ Someone else called your name again with the same solemn tone when you refused to reply. You didnā€™t register who it was because your head was too foggy. Frankly, you didnā€™t care. You needed to leave.
ā€œ ā€˜scuse me.ā€ Scraping your chair against the floor, you abandoned your food and made a beeline for the exit.Ā 
You think someone called after you, but you couldnā€™t focus on anything but the thumping of your heart as you hounded up the stairs and into your room. Shutting the door rather too harshly and locking it behind you, you sank to your knees. Fat tears rolled down your cheeks as your mask fell and you slumped against the ground. You felt so stupid. You were supposed to be getting better. This wasnā€™t supposed to be happening. You were supposed to be fine and you were supposed to be downstairs eating with the others. God, that made you feel even worse. You sank a little deeper into that ocean of thoughts. They had all made such an effort to be there and you had just fled like a child to their mother.Ā 
Do it. Your mind was barking orders at you again. Old ones that you had fought so hard to forget.
Restlessly you pushed yourself up and made your way over to your closet. Shakily you dug through the draws until your fingers wrapped around the frayed leather. Silent, you turned it over in your palms. Your whole body seemed to tremble as you moved to perch on the edge of the bed.Ā 
Someone was knocking on the door. You could hear them on the other side begging to be let in. begging for you to just answer them.Ā 
You placed the blade against your skin and screwed your eyes up tight. The silver was cool against your skin.Ā 
ā€œLittle Batā€¦please open the door.ā€ Bruce had never sounded more vulnerable as he stood helplessly outside the door. You could almost picture his face: eyebrows downturned and eyes wide as he waited anxiously for you to either open the door or from Tim to return with the spare key to your room. Just in case.Ā 
Trembling, your whole body was wracked by waves of tears each one gripped you tight and was accompanied by a thousand thoughts trying to burn away at the surface of your skin. Your eyes flickered to the knife. One swipe and it would all be gone. One swipe and you would get what you felt like you deserved. But then Bruceā€™s voice broke through the door.Ā 
ā€œI know youā€™re scared, Kiddo.ā€
Your head snapped toward the door. You paused with a shuddering breath.
ā€œAnd thatā€™s okay. Thatā€™s normal.ā€ He continued. ā€œI get scared too. We all do.ā€
At that moment you knew that your brothers were standing behind the door too, waiting with anxious anticipation that made their fingertips itch. You heard a shuffling, and then Jasonā€™s voice came, muffled by the door. You werenā€™t entirely sure if he was planning to break it down or not, but his voice was calm.Ā 
ā€œPlease open the door Little Wingā€¦ā€ Jason pleaded. ā€œ...We love youā€¦and weā€™re scared.ā€
And you broke. The dagger clattered to the floor with another bout of tears and you unlocked the door.Ā 
Bruce wrapped you up in his arms the second the door was wide enough to reveal you. He let out a heavy sigh of relief.Ā 
ā€œS-sorryā€¦ā€ You spluttered. ā€œIā€™m sorryā€¦ā€
ā€œShh.ā€ He cupped the back of your head with his hand and you felt one of your brothers place a hand on your shoulder. ā€œYou have nothing to be sorry for, Little Wing. Youā€™ve done nothing wrong.ā€
ā€œBut I-ā€
ā€œShh.ā€ Tim hushed. ā€œItā€™s okay.ā€
ā€œI thought I was getting better.ā€ You sniffled.
Damian frowned. ā€œYou are. And we are so proud of how for you have come, sister. This is part of the process, Little Wing.ā€
ā€œYouā€™ve come so far, Kid.ā€ Dick told you. ā€œAnd weā€™re sorry that we didnā€™t notice how you were feeling until now. But itā€™s okay, because healing isnā€™t a linear process. And weā€™re going to be there with you every step of the way. Through the good and the bad just like we promised.ā€
You nodded.Ā 
ā€œThis is just one of the bad days, Wing.ā€ Tim hummed. ā€œThings will get better, I promise.ā€Ā 
ā€œAnd we will love you the entire way.ā€
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WHUMPTOBER DAY 12: prompt: self harm
Fandom: Batfam
Summary: after the death of Jason, you canā€™t help but feel guilty, so you resort to some unhealthy coping methods.
Warnings: SELF HARM, blood, character death, depressive thoughts.
Word count: 1.3k
Note: this one is extremely sensitive and contains many trigger warnings, please read at your own discretion.
Remember, If you are ever struggling, please donā€™t be ashamed to reach out. My DMs are always open, or you can seek one of many helplines. Please remember, you are not alone and there are people who will help you navigate your thoughts and feelings. You are strong, you are loved, you are perfect.
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He was gone.
Jason Todd was gone. Dead. Killed in an explosion that would forever be burned into the front of your brain. The sound replayed itself over and over again in your mind; the shattering of the glass and the groaning of the metal frames as they collapsed in on eachother, the deafening booming of the explosive and the scuffing of your feet on the concrete as you stopped dead in your tracks, too far away to help and too late to reach him in time.
At first, the tears refused to fall from your cheeks as you surged forwards racing towards where the warehouse once stood. You arrived at the wreckage at the same time as the Bat. When he pulled Jasonā€™s body from the wreckage, limp with eyes devoid of life, the tears still refused to fall. You just watched blankly as he held his son, trying not to focus on the mangled, blood covered flesh that covered every inch of his skin. Even in death Jason looked pained, his face permanently contorted into an unseeing gaze of pain.
Returning back to the manor and breaking the news to Dick was even harder. You watched as he flung the nearest thing across the room and let it shatter on the floor. You picked the skin around your fingers as he sunk down onto the floor and broke down, tears cascading down his face. Fat and hot like heavy droplets of rain falling from the sky. But still, your own stubbornly refused to fall.
It was only hours later when you had locked yourself away in your room that you let out a shrill cry of anguish, falling to the floor. Heavy sobs wracked your body as you trembled digging your nails into palms and biting down harshly on the inside of your cheeks, You blinked away your tears the fell freely, squeezing them from your eyes as you squeezed them tight, trying to shut out the constant memory of Jason Todd.
It was then that the thoughts came flooding to you. Obnoxious, penetrating thoughts that hit you like a ton of bricks. You should have gotten there quicker. If you had just stuck with Jason or forced him to keep his comms on then. It was your fault that he had gone off on his own. It was your fault that Jason Todd was dead.
Your suit was damp with tears and clung too close to your body. You felt suffocated. As you began to push off your boots, your bowie knife that you usually kept tucked away for emergencies clattered to the ground, You froze. It was the one that you had been given when you began your vigilante training with Bruce all those years ago. You picked it up, flipping the leather-bound hand between your palms and admiring the way that the metal glinted as it caught the light.
Some sane part of your body screamed at you not to do it. That it was wrong, that your family would be disappointed if they found out. But the other overpowering side still echoed with those thoughts. You couldnā€™t help but sink deeper into the guilt. And so you brought the knife down to your flesh, barely recognising the pain as the red ribbons formed on your skin.
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That feeling of guilt never went away. It still sat there like a heavy weight even after Jason returned 6 months later. Although Jay was back, he was changed. Haunted by his own memories, he struggled to re-adjust to his life especially after the memories of his brutal murder flooded back to him. It took him a while to come to terms with his safety. It was only once the two of you had spent many nights clinging on to each other and giving reassurances that he finally allowed himself to relax slightly.
But the boyā€™s return didnā€™t just affect him. The sudden shift had troubled all of you, flipping your lives which you had slowly managed to learn to navigate without him upside down.
You began to retreat into your room again, spending more time alone. You slunk around the manor, avoiding the others when possible. It was something that didnā€™t go unnoticed by Dick who often lingered by your door, but was too afraid to knock or barge his way in. Opting to give you space. The space never helped though. It just became a void of guilt and constant reminders of your sluggishness. Although the image of Jasonā€™s frail body never quite left your mind, his return brought it back stronger. It began to plague your nightmares again, causing you to wake up in a cold sweat. It caused the silence to morph into muffled cries and with that came the return of old habits.
Trailing your finger over the lines of scar tissue, your body felt numb. Silent, you left yourself with the stickiness of hot tears trailing down your face; each one a reminder of your failures. Of the times that you werenā€™t perfect enough to save everybody. The knife ran sharply across your skin, allowing the blood to bead as it trailed. The stinging allowed a sense of relief for a while. That was until it didnā€™t. After that, you turned to pressing deeper into your complexion, allowing the blood to dribble from your arm.
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Dick lingered in front of your door once again. He hadnā€™t seen you all day and had begun to grow worried. Deep creases lined his brow as he stood, shut out from you by the painted wood. He knew you hadnā€™t been in the best of places since his little brother had been ripped so cruelly from the world. Dick hated watching you retreat. He loathed that sad look and far away gaze that settled on your face when he thought no one was looking. His hand was hovering as he prepared to knock when he noticed his younger brother waltz around the corner. Jason slowed furrowing his brows.
ā€œWhat are you doing?ā€ He quizzed. Though not oblivious to your struggle, he didnā€™t believe in getting involved in someone elseā€™s business. Especially when he was still trying to short his own shit out.
Dick only said one word which sent the two men into a preganant silence. ā€œListen.ā€
Your sobs and outbursts of frustration could be heard from the other side of the door frame. The younger of the two recoiled at the noise. Dicks hand moved towards the door handle after knocking and being blanked.
The door shuddered open and Dick poked his head around the corner. He froze, heart dropping to his feet when he took you in.
Your knees were pulled tightly to your chest, where your head rested grimly. Your wrists were a bloody mess like the knife which lay a few feet away from you. You half-nursed them carefully, as though you knew something about them was off, but you couldnā€™t get yourself to care enough about it.
ā€œOh godā€¦ā€
He took cautious, but long strides steps to get to you before taking your arms in his, not caring abou there stickiness that coated his clothes and spilled down his fingers. There was so much of it he was surprised it still fell from your body.
You tried not to acknowledge him in away, but once your lifted your head and spotted his face, the tears began again. Dick pulled you into a height embrace as the tears began to fall again
ā€œI-Iā€™m sorry.ā€ You stumbled, ā€œI..ā€
ā€œShh.ā€ Dick coaxed, pulling you into his arms: ā€œnothing is your fault.ā€
ā€œBut I- Jason. I wasnā€™t fast enough.ā€
ā€œOh little batā€¦ā€ Jason squatted down by his brother. ā€œThereā€™s nothing you could have done about that.ā€
ā€œYes there is. I could have convinced you to-ā€œ
ā€œStop it.ā€
ā€œIā€™m sorry.ā€ You murmured. ā€œIā€™m sorry but they wonā€™t leave. Make them leave please.
ā€œWe will baby bat. We will.
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How high on the clingy/protective scale these boys are ā€¦
Dick: a solid 8.5/10.
A very clingy bean.
Dick would be attached to your hip 24/7 if he could but he couldnā€™t answer that makes him sad.
In the wise words of @obsessedwithromance on one of my recent posts; ā€˜if Dick was a dog, heā€™d be a husky.ā€™
And heā€™d make a very vocal husky at that with how often he whines and whinges whenever you tried to move from his grasp, acting as though every attempt in removing yourself from his arms were an attack against his character. So he will take personal offence to you wanting to leave him out in the cold and desolate place that was your bedroom. šŸ’€
ā€˜Stop trying to get out of my arms.ā€™ He moans, tightening his hold on you as he buried his head into your neck, locking legs with you for extra measure. ā€˜Dick, I love you but youā€™re being too clingy for me right now.ā€™ You reply and had just noticed the error of your ways almost immediately and were about to explain yourself but it was already too late, for you had set Dick the human husky off.
ā€˜Me? Clingy? I thought you liked it when I was clingy? Why the sudden change? What did I do wrong? Why donā€™t you love me?ā€™ Dick began his tirade and you could only lay there and let him talk your ear off -and loudly might I add- about how you apparently didnā€™t love him enough, which was a bunch of bullshit, but dick was too in his feelings to listen to reason. Youā€™ll have to kiss him to shut him up, thereā€™s no other option.
So once heā€™s settled down, heā€™ll go back to cuddling against your back,smiling dopily while you could only congratulate for a job well done at defusing the situation form getting any worse. You love your dramatic human husky and you wouldnā€™t change anything for anyone.
Jason: 7.5/10 or a 8/10.
The only time youā€™re seeing this man be clingy as all hell if heā€™s in a particular mood and want your affection, which might as well be all the time with this man, or after a not so great nightmare.
He would wake up in a cold sweat and immediately look for you and hold you against his chest as though you were his personal teddy bear, only just until his breathing evens out and not so tense in the muscles. Until then he holds onto you tightly and familiarises himself with you in anyway that he could, whether that be counting your eyelashes, noting the different shades that make up your eyes and much more.
At least just enough to help him gain some sense of self and awareness that he was safe and sound from all harm.
Like Jaime, Jason would watch over you like a hawk as Red Hood without a shadow of a doubt, and Jason has his reasons to do so as he knows the type of people who litter the streets of Gotham at night like the back of his hand. He doesnā€™t want to subject you to that sort of life of constant fear of having to look over your shoulder in hopes that there wasnā€™t someone following you home.
For in his minds eye, heā€™s your sole protector and the one thing that stands between the scumbags of the street and you. Jason doesnā€™t take this position heā€™s given himself lightly, itā€™s unlike him to anyway, as your safety is his top priority and heā€™d do anything to obtain it; whether they way itā€™s obtained was morally questionable or not, he doesnā€™t care for as long as your safe, heā€™ll live to learn with having permanent blood on his hands.
Damian: 5/10 on a good day. 2/10 in general.
Heā€™s not an overly clingy person. Protective? yes. Clingy? No. Itā€™s just not in just nature and he can be very awkward going about it too.
Damian knows he doesnā€™t have to constantly survey you 24/7, he has more faith in you and your abilities then most. He knows that you wonā€™t call upon him if at all when faced with a situation that you could easily resolve yourself.
However if you were to get hurt on his watch or otherwise, thatā€™s when he gets slightly clingy and will attempt to be within any space with you possible. Damian shows care in a completely different way than most and will more or less act like a guard dog when it came to you.
This little dude will point his sword at anyone that comes into close contact with you while glaring at them, meanwhile youā€™re having to push the blade of his sword down and away from the poor victim, only for Damian to raise his sword back towards their throat once more.
ā€˜Pack it in.ā€™ Youā€™d hiss.
ā€˜No. Youā€™re practically useless when hurt, so let me deal with this one.ā€™ Damian said.
You purposely ignored the fact that he had just called you useless and instead pushed the blade of his sword down until it was pointing at the floor again. ā€˜Heā€™s not even a threat, just a regular citizen. So you can stop it with the fear attics now.ā€™ You told him in a hushed tone. Damian meets your eyes with a glare of his own. ā€˜How you can be certain heā€™s a harmless civilian? What if heā€™s a low life thug of an underground drug syndicate on the rise? You canā€™t allow yourself to trust every face you meet.ā€™ He replies, not one to back down for anyone, not even you.
You sigh as you rubbed the sides of your head. ā€˜Well at least try not to cause more issue for your dad. I swear between you, Jason, Tim and Dick I donā€™t know who gives him the most grey hairs.ā€™
Jaime: runner up for Dickā€™s crown with also a 8.5/10
Heā€™s clingy in a sense that he fears of loosing you constantly.
Khaji-Da doesnā€™t make the situation any better as it only encourages Jaimeā€™s Innate clinginess tenfold, and now Jaime canā€™t go a couple of minutes without offering to join you on wherever your going.
He just cares about you very deeply and wouldnā€™t know what to do with himself if heā€™d ever lost you despite having the ability to stop any harm from coming your way. So needless to say that you spend most of your time with him and his family is a severe understatement.
Itā€™s not as though he doesnā€™t trust you, he wholeheartedly does, but that trust doesnā€™t extend to potential outside threats. Hell, he would even go as far as to watch over you as Blue Beatle, much to the behest of literally everyone that isnā€™t Khaji-Da because the scarab is just as clingy over you in a sense that you were Jaimeā€™s mate and there for should be within close proximity to him at all times.
Itā€™s endearing but I think itā€™s about time you told Kahji-Da to cool it on the whole threatening people you talked to with plans to eliminate themā€¦
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Damian smiled as you stroked the unruly locks on his head.
He knew the purpose of your touch wasn't to mess up his hair; that's why he didn't complain.
"Do you have everything?" you asked as you bent down to fix his uniform shirt. Today, he was going to school; the holidays had ended, marking the start of a new day at school.
Damian pretended to grimace, "You talk as if I were a little kid, sister."
Your small laugh made him undo his fake grimace, making him smile again.
"Well, it's better if you go, young man," you suggested before playfully pinching his nose, "you wouldn't want to be late like last time."
At your words, Damian huffed as a blush of embarrassment covered his slightly chubby cheeks, "That time was Dick's fault, not mine."
You hummed, ā€œWhatever you sayā€.
"Sister!"
Your laughter was the last thing he heard as he ran off to where he knew Alfred was waiting to take him to school, feeling in his chest the strange and warm bubble of happiness that was becoming increasingly familiar.
ā€¦
Damian woke up. The sunlight streaming through the windows warmed his cold face.
He slowly got up. His tired eyes scanned your room, which, despite the sunlight streaming through your window, still looked gloomy.
He missed you so much that sometimes he would enter your room to sleep. Your scent, which always comforted him, had disappeared a long time ago.
Last night, he had a nightmare, or rather a memory, of when he found your lifeless body, and with nowhere else to go, he went to your room, enveloped his body in your sheets, and pressed his face into one of your pillows, trying to capture your scent to calm himself.
But it was impossible.
And he cried, cried as silently as he could. Keeping silent was easy. A long time ago, when his mother punished him and the pain of the blows wouldn't leave him, he simply let the pain of the bruises flow silently.
He had gained practice in doing that, but he had lost it a little because of you. You had spoiled him by letting him cry so loudly around you when everything was too much for him.
Damian didn't want to get out of your bed; he wanted to stay here. But he knew that if he didn't go down, Alfred would come up to see how he was, and honestly, he didn't want to answer any of the old butler's questions.
He stroked your empty spot one last time, hoping for some reason it would feel warm, but instead, it felt eerily cold, just as cold as your corpse.
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Damian was growing sick and tired.
Sick and tired of the fact that for the past few months, heā€™s been seeing and hearing you through his phone screen. The Teen Titans had a mission, one that should have lasted no longer than two weeks, but they had come across multiple obstacles that made them unable to come home.
And Damian grew impatient for those monthsā€”going as far as trying to do the mission alone to get it done quicker which had resulted in him getting hurt and a bad scolding from you over the phone. So now he lays in a bed thatā€™s not his as he lays on his side with his phone in hand. He can see you on the screen in your bedroom with the lights off. And youā€™re sound asleep with your TV playing in the background, snuggled up warm under your blankets. A visible frown forms on his face.
Oh, how he misses the warmth of your embrace at night.
And he awaits for the day Kory deems it safe to go back home.
A few days fly by right after, his stuff is all packed, and heā€™s dressed in his regular clothes as he sits in the back of a limousine. Finally, heā€™s able to go back. As the window that divides his side from the driver goes downā€”Damian gets a glimpse of Alfred in the rearview mirror.
ā€œMiss.Y/N waits for you at the gate of the manor Master Damianā€ he can hear the butler say.
Damian leans forward slightly. ā€œWill she?ā€
Alfred can only answer with a hum. Damianā€™s practically at the edge of his seat when the gates open to the manor and heā€™s the first one out of the vehicle. Leaving his stuff behind, Alfred has no problem with getting them himself and heā€™s sure youā€™ll scold Damian for leaving the poor old butler to get it.
But Damian doesnā€™t care, not one bit. Not when he sees you at the bottom of the steps with Titus and Alfred waiting for his arrival patiently. Thereā€™s a book in your hand and you flip through the pages completely unaware of your loverā€™s presence. Itā€™s not until Titus lets out a rumble of barks that has you jumping in your spot and your heart pounding. You stare down at home confused, following his gaze. Damian can see the way your eyes light up with a bright smile forming on your lips.
You place the book downā€”losing your place but you donā€™t care as you push yourself up from the steps. Damian greets his pets firstā€”thereā€™s no ignoring them when Titus playfully attacks him, greeting the owner with long licks for kisses. When Damian is finally able to get away from the large dog he makes a Beeline for you as you stretch out your armsā€”waiting for the long-awaited embrace. Itā€™s warmā€”snuggling closer to the taller boy's embrace, once that you had missed so much. And you could say the same for Damian as he hold you closer and tighter.
ā€œYou finally came back!ā€ You giggle out, and Damianā€™s heart pounds faster. You feel his fingers run down your hair.
ā€œI always doā€ he murmurs down your neck, making you giggle once more ā€œI missed you, belovedā€
ā€œI missed you too.
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OUR KING HAS WON!!!!!! LETS FREAKING GO LUCI NATION!!!!!!!!!! šŸ—£ļøšŸ—£ļøšŸ«µšŸ˜ššŸ˜šŸ„°šŸ„³šŸŽ‰šŸŽ‰ļæ½ļæ½ļ潚Ÿ’žšŸ‘‘
After that upset a few days ago Iā€™m thrilled we showed them yall and had our boy come out on top for HELLā€™S SLUTTIEST WAIST šŸ’€, especially showing the doubters whats what!! šŸ¤ØšŸ’… Today is a day to be remembered. šŸ˜¼
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toecrust69 Ā· 1 month
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me seeing that my fav character barely/doesnā€™t have any fanfics OR imagines
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