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Tippy will be gone for nearly two weeks. He's gone to Indy until Monday (the 18th) and then he's off work after Tuesday (the 19th). I might see him on Saturday (the 23rd), but I'm not going to hold my breath to it. I will see him Sunday (the 25th).

He wanted me to come over yesterday before he left, but I declined because I've been sick and didn't want to get him sick. I called him so I could at least hear his voice. He sent me a picture of him in bed the other night, which made me laugh and text back that I wish I was there.

I miss him, but I'm glad he's out having fun.

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Tippy is back from Buffalo. I just happened to be at Compton when he returned. I was so excited to see him that I started running towards him and he ran away from me.

That kind of hurt.

I get it, I do. But... I wanted a hug and kiss, him telling me he missed me.

However, none of that happened. He left with his boss. I'm alone in the building, so I kept hoping he'd come back and spend a few minutes with me. Nope.

I know he didn't miss me, which I guess means I shouldn't have missed him either. So I'm just going to push my excitement back from seeing him and move on with my day.

Life seems to be better when I act like I don't give a damn about anyone or anything.

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It'll be awhile before I see him again. He's gone to Buffalo, NY with his boss and another employee for a week. I'm pretty sure he doesn't work this weekend.

I was late last Wednesday because of him. He'd been sending me inappropriate reddits, and asked what time was I leaving for work just as I was leaving for work. Asked if I could stop by, that he wanted to give me something. That something ended up being his cock. Oh yeah, work Wednesday was good, lol.

We almost got caught again by one of his co-workers. My shirt was up and over my head, while my breasts were free from my bra and I was stroking him. Of course, we moved quickly and got ourselves in a better position so the other person didn't see anything but me sitting and him standing. Once the guy left, I told him that we're playing with fire if he doesn't want anyone to know by doing that in the break room. He said he knows and doesn't it feel dangerous and exciting?! I laughed.

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When you don't feel good, it's always best to have another person screaming at you. That way you can feel even worse.

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We got caught.

Wasn't doing anything really bad, he was just holding my leg while I stood next to him. He said we have to be extra careful now since someone saw us and I agreed.

Our friendship is going good, as is our benefits part. He still says he loves me, but there's always more to it now. If I say I love you, he replies with "I also hold you in high regard" or something like that. Doesn't bother me any, because I know it's not romantic love.

He didn't get either job he applied for, so he's staying at Compton for a little while longer. I'm okay with that.

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Tonight was our last hockey game of the season. We won, which was good. What wasn't good was it might be Tippy's last hockey game.

He applied for a manager's position at his other job, which he interviewed for already. He hasn't heard back, not really, but he's 97% sure he won't be returning to Compton this spring.

I told him that I'm happy for him and all I want is for him to be happy, and if he's not happy at Compton then leave. Don't stay because of us.

I'm not sure what to feel. I know I love him, I know that much. But in the back of my mind, I keep asking 'what about us?' Used to be that if one of us left Compton, he would stop speaking to me. Does that still apply?

The one year anniversary of the first time we had sex is coming up. I don't think he really cares. I was under the impression that I was just the means to an end for him when it came to his virginity. I wasn't the one he wanted to lose it to, it just happened.

I'm the one who delevoped feelings, but I was still happy with how things were between us. I didn't... I don't want things to change between us.

Guess it doesn't really matter what I want.

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Absolutely fantastic Sunday! (It's 2 days later).

I took the day off and spent it with Tippy. He wanted to get a suit for a ring ceremony that he's attending, so I went with him to help pick one out. He got a very nice blue suit with a grey dress shirt, a pair of blue dress shoes, and a tie I picked out. We walked the mall afterwards, just looking at things and talking.

Then we went out to eat. As he's pulling out of his parking spot at the mall, he looks at me and goes "More importantly, what does Heather want to eat?" and I respond with "I don't care as long as it's food." So we went to Applebee's. He ordered chicken with shrimp and mash potatoes, while I ordered steak with shrimp, mash potatoes, and broccoli. Found out he hates broccoli.

Had to go to another store to find his shoes, before going to Compton because he left his stuff there. I just sat in the car, playing on my phone. We went back to his place and cuddled on the couch, watching football. I fell asleep laying on top of him while he just held me and watched his game. When I woke up, he told me that I twitch a lot in my sleep to which I said sorry. I also apologized for falling asleep and he said it was fine, that I needed it. I played with his cock for like 30 minutes, just slowly jerking him off. Rode him on his couch before we went to his bedroom and finished for the night. I told him that I don't like being naked, but with him it just seems natural. He laughed.

We talked, laughed, and just had a good time with one another. He didn't want me to leave, kept telling me long stories about his life, which normally I would love to hear but we both knew I had to leave.

He also explained that he loves me, but doesn't "fucking love" me and to stop me from getting jealous, he only "fucking loves" three guys. I told him that if he fucking loves me, then we'd have a problem because as we clearly found out earlier, I'm not a guy.

He wouldn't hold my hand while we were out, but I knew it was because what if we ran into someone we knew? He also told me he doesn't really do PDA so that's good to know, however he's all over me once we're back inside his apartment.

I just had a great time and didn't want the night to end. I wish I could have spent the night with him.

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Eternal Sailor Moon with Eternal Sailor Chibi Moon on the left side, Super Sailor Chibi Moon, Princess Serenity, and another Princess Serenity (at Niles, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cni3vHVsDePjTdCy5kCl-jjuH7A6fS4UMOwm3M0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Super Sailor Saturn is ready to destroy (or give rebirth to) the world! (at Niles, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cni3XCUMlOODERSOqtFv3RVAg8eolVwgpO8KZo0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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He invited me over to meet his dogs, who live at his dad's house... The house he grew up in...

Omg, this is amazing!

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Omg... Best sex of my life, a Christmas gift from Tippy. I won't see him for over a week and he left early today because of the blizzard thats coming; so we had mind-blowing sex in the Visitor's Locker Room before he left.

I couldn't focus afterwards, just staring at his perfect cock and said, "Well Merry Christmas to me!" and he replies with "I had to get you something!"

Let's just say I'm extremely happy right now. 😁

Update: I got to leave work early, and spent the rest of my shift at Tippy's. We slept a little on his couch, did some heavy petting and I gave him a blowjob, letting him cum in my mouth. When it came time for me to leave, he didn't want me to.

We agreed to text each other when we got home. Which we both did. I wished him a Merry Christmas, hugged and kissed him before I left. I won't see him until the 31st of December.

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An hour and 40 minutes of sleep.

That's how much sleep I got before someone decided that it's okay to yell at a cat.

I've been home for 5 days because I got suspended for 3 of them and then 2 are my normal days off. What I thought would be a nice little vacation has been anything but.

Tippy's disappointed in me and the situation. Like going to work would have made a difference. We're not allowed to talk to one another at work anymore, unless it's about work. He basically got in trouble because I was hanging out in the Zam room.

I'm excited to go back to work tomorrow, but not really. Just another Wednesday.

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No more hugs. No more kisses. At least at work. I don't know what that means for our relationship outside of work, but I'm pretty sure that's gonna be over with too.

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I don't know....

Things feel weird between Tippy and I. Like he's done with me, but doesn't want to tell me. I know it's not because of another woman, but perhaps because I've annoyed him too badly.

I need to stop just showing up at his place. That seems to be a bad thing with him. He's not even surprised to see me anymore. He seems annoyed.

His work schedule changed, so now he's off on the weekends; whereas I will continue to work on the weekends. Not much of a problem there, as I only saw him 3 days a week. Still only going to see him 3 days, but we won't be able to spend time with one another. He's going to be busy and my supervisors will be on campus (they could show up at anytime).

He doesn't text me anymore. No more with the inappropriate text messages that he'd send me. Nothing, unless he wants something.

The anniversary of our first kiss is coming up. I'm too scared of what he'd say if he knew. I can't believe we've been doing this for a year.

Nevermind... I was waiting to do a set of locker rooms and I start to get inappropriate text messages from him. I ended up going to his place and we fooled around for a few minutes. He said that was the first time he'd gotten hard all day and that he'd been trying, even when he sent me those messages. I felt proud of myself. I must have been horny because I came as soon as he started rubbing my clit. I so wanted to pull my pants down and start riding him, but I knew that dumbass would call again.

If I could have, I would have spent the night with him.

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I am so ready to leave.

I've been sick for nearly a week and was looking forward to my day off so I could sleep and maybe start to feel better. Has that happened?

Nope. Because all day, all he's done is argue with me. I feel like my head is about to explode and he leaves the radio on. I give the fuck up. He might be getting divorce papers for Christmas.