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(Arranged) Married Life with Jing Yuan

Summary: you became jing yuan's spouse! but it was through an arranged marriage... how do you and him navigate through your married life?

Character: jing yuan.

Warnings: gender neutral!reader, long post, mix of headcanons and drabble, a sprinkle of angst here and there, there will be a nsfw part but it will have a warning, no mention of reader's genitals.

A/N: finally caught up with hsr main story and this man suddely got me into a chokehold... and now i'm sad i don't have him ):

also, i know there are tons of fics with this prompt with him, but i wanted to make my own version hehe.

SFW

Early Stages

Due to many reasons, you got into an arranged marriage with Jing Yuan, the Arbiter-General of the Xianzhou Luofu's Cloud Knights.

You weren't exactly experienced in the field of dating, preferring to focus your attention and interest in the field of your liking.

So, to say you were thrilled to be kind of forced to become someone's spouse is quite far from the truth.

Not that you dislike the general or anything! On the contrary, you have high regard not only for his incredible achievements in the battlefield throughout the many centuries, but also for the fact that he hasn't succumbed to the mara to this day.

What you don't understand is why were you chosen to be the spouse of a man so incredible? In your opinion, you don't have any outstanding qualities or stand out in your workplace and you consider your appearance to be nothing extraordinary for a human of the long-life species...

Well, your opinion is wrong, you beautiful, handsome, pretty, outstanding and amazing person!!!

TLDR: you believe that you are unworthy of being by general Jing Yuan's side, so you decide to keep your distance and naively think that he wouldn't notice nor be bothered by that.

Again, wrong!!!

After the wedding cerimony, which was barely a cerimony at all due to the true nature of the union, Jing Yuan noticed how you always found an excuse to be busy with something and spent the least amount of time with him.

And when you do... You don't act rude or anything, you engage in conversation when he attempts to start one, but he can feel a wall between you two.

Despite the circumstances of your relationship, Jing Yuan truly wishes to get to know you, to become closer to you... However, if you don't share his sentiment, then he shall respect your decision.

You are strolling around the streets of the Exalting Sanctum after basically being kicked out of your workplace for the day, the reason being that "you spend way too much time here, go live your life a little!" (words said by your boss earlier).

What should you do with this unexpected free time...?

You remember it's been some time since you have last seen Jing Yuan (one thing he had asked you to do is to call him by his name, instead of 'general' and you complied, even if you feel a bit awkward), so you decide to head to the Seat of Divine Foresight.

When it comes to the seasoned general, one would rarely find him in his office and, if you do, it'd just be his hologram... So, imagine your surprise when you not only find him there, but also it's Jing Yuan in the flesh!

He dismisses Qingzu, who gives a polite bow to the general and you, and offers you his full attention.

"What a pleasant surprise. What brings you to the Seat of Divine Foresight?" He asks you with a smile.

"I, um..." You're momentarily distracted by his face, but you recover soon, clear your throat and try again. "I was wondering if you were free for a little bit and if you would like to... spend some time with me?"

You mentally curse yourself for making it sound like a question, rather than an invitation. Why is it so hard for you to act normally with him?!

Jing Yuan, either unaware or not bothered by your nervous behavior, answers you.

"Ah, what a great timing you have. I do happen to have the afternoon free today and I'd love to spend it with you..." He lets his words trail off for a second, before adding one more thing. "...But only if that is something you also truly want."

"I got a day off, so I thought I should spend it with you in case you had the time. After all, it's expected for spouses to do that, right?"

The general closes his eyes, humming in thought and your stomach flips in an unpleasant way. You suddenly regret your words.

"I see... The last part is exactly why I had to ask you. I don't want to force you to do anything you don't want to, just because it is 'what's expected' of us."

"N-NO!" You cringe at the high volume of your voice, mumbling a small sorry. "I-I mean, it's not that I don't want to! It's just... I..."

Seeing that their conversation is taking a more serious turn, Jing Yuan gently guides you to a more secluded room, where you don't have to be self-conscious about other people hearing what you have to say.

In there, you fumble a bit more with your words, but you decide to be honest about your feelings for the first time. You tell Jing Yuan about the true reason you kept your distance from him, how inadequate you feel to deserve to be called his spouse, your lack of romantic relationship experience, your fear of doing or saying something that might affect his reputation and many other things you've been holding in.

Jing Yuan listens with a heavy heart. On the one hand, he's glad that you don't dislike him, but on the other hand, he feels sad that the true reason for your distance is that you believe you are 'unworthy' of being with him...

The general knows that isn't something that can be changed with just a couple of reassuring words, however he wants you to know that you can confide in him. With that in mind, he also shares the worries he's had this whole time regarding your relationship and how he has been a coward for not reaching out to you earlier to clear up this misunderstanding.

After this much needed heart to heart, you feel tired but oh so lighter now. And when Jing Yuan asks you again if you want to spend the rest of the afternoon with him, you gladly accept it.

Warming Up to Each Other

After that talk, the relationship between you two improved by leaps and bounds.

You were worried that you wouldn't have much to talk about with Jing Yuan, but, once again, you were wrong!

You two spend a lot of time chatting, getting to know each other's likes and dislikes.

Jing Yuan often invites you to his starchess matches with Yanqing. Whether you play with them or just observe, it is very fun to watch the general and his retainer interact.

Both you and the young lieutenant were a bit awkward in the beggining, but you bonded soon enough.

The biggest proof of that is that one time you and Yanqing challanged Jing Yuan to a match of chess, confident that two minds will be enough to defeat him!

Spoiler alert: you both lost :D but there were moments when the general almost made some terrible moves because he was too distracted observing his retainer and his spouse working together with a fond look in his eyes.

At some point, being referred to or having to introduce yourself as Jing Yuan's spouse stopped being a cause of discomfort and became somewhat natural.

(Something he always reminds you is that you are your own person, first and foremost, so when he introduces you to someone, he never defines you as just his spouse).

And Jing Yuan, like a good general that he is, saw that as an opportunity to capture your heart.

This guy I swear... He uses any and every chance to charm you.

I'm sorry but I refuse to use the word 'rizz'.

You may not have much first-hand experience in relationships, but you're not that oblivious to his advances.

Genuine compliments, surprise gifts because 'he thought you'd like them', hands 'accidentaly' bumping frequently during your walks...

Really, he's almost acting like those videos of a male bird trying to impress the female one.

And it's not that you want to reject him! You just feel a bit embarrassed... Until you remember you two are literally MARRIED.

Aeons save this pair of dorks.

The first time you hold Jing Yuan's hand after he kept brushing it against yours, the general doesn't even try to hide the happy smile blooming on his face.

You'd seen him smile many times before, but that particular one will forever be integrated in your mind forever.

As for your first kiss... It happens as an accident.

You are in the Seat of Divine Foresight, sitting next to Jing Yuan while he goes through his endless pile of scrolls, reports and other types of paperwork he has to deal with. He really couldn't put them off anymore, but he also didn't want to completely cancel his plans of seeing you, so here you are...

It isn't what you had expected for the day, but you don't mind all that much. After all, it is a bit amusing to watch the general frowning like a child being forced to sit down and do his homework.

After some time mindlessly scrolling through your phone, you receive a message from your coworker, saying that something urgent came up and asking if you could come early to help.

"Sorry, I have to leave now. Something came up in my workplace and they need my help." You speak quietly to not interrupt too much of Jing Yuan's concentration.

You feel a bit bad for cutting your quality time together like this, so you lean closer to the general's face to give him a peck on his cheek as a farewell kiss.

What you don't expect, however, is for him to turn his face at the last second, probably with the intention to complain about you 'abandoning' him, which is quickly forgotten the moment your lips meet.

It... honestly isn't a nice kiss or a kiss at all. Mostly two pairs of lips mashed together and eyes blown wide in shock (you) and surprise (him). To make this whole thing even more mortifying (to you), you both are brought back to reality at the sound of an embarrassed Yanqing exclaming how 'the Seat of Divine Foresight isn't the place for PDA!!!!'

Daily Life

After you managed to recover from that marvelous and incredibly romantic, not at all cringy, accidental first kiss and gave Jing Yuan the green light... Well, your life has never been the same.

In the good sense of the phrase.

Congratulations, you now have a clingy husband!

Not that Jing Yuan wasn't clingy before, but he's been holding back quite a lot to not cross your boundaries with his touches.

Now that he can, though, good luck living without your personal space!

Whenever you two are out together, your husband always has to have some sort of contact with you: hand on your lower back, holding your hand or your pinky, arm wrapped around your waist if he wants to send a clear message that you're taken.

When you're in private, however, smooth Jing Yuan loses his place to clingy koala or lion? Jing Yuan.

The rare chances when the stars align and you both have a day off, don't expect to get out of bed in the morning and it's not even for nsfw reasons.

That man will trap you in a bear hug and will refuse to let you go... Unless you need to use the bathroom, but expect to be dragged back to bed the second you step out of there.

Jing Yuan will also use any and every opportunity to get a kiss from you: waking up? Kiss. Cooking? Kiss. Going to work? Kiss. Returning home? Kiss. You simply went to another room and came back to him? Kiss.

As much as he loves kisses on the lips, the general melts into a puddle whenever you brush his bangs away from his face, uncovering his other golden eye, to leave a gentle kiss on his forehead.

Another thing that makes Jing Yuan weak is hearing you call him your husband. It may be a bit weird to others, but considering how far you two have come since the awkward start of your relationship, it shows that your marriage feels genuine now.

Much like in any relationship, you two also have your ups and downs.

On the days you are in low spirits, please don't be afraid of saying what you want. Do you want him near? He'll hold you and lend a shoulder to cry on while you pour your heart out. You'd rather be alone? No problem at all, he'll give you space for as long as you wish, but he'll also buy your favorite snacks, a book you mentioned you were interested in, send Mimi your way in case you want to cuddle with the lion.

When Jing Yuan is the one feeling sad, that's when things get a bit tricky, because he'll try to keep it to himself and pretend that everything is fine to not worry you.

You know when Jing Yuan does that little thing of closing his eyes as if he's in pain before smiling? THAT SHIT BREAKS ME MAN.

You have to remind this silly man of yours that he doesn't have to hide his uncertainties and fears from you, since you are his spouse and not a soldier that will lose morale at the sight of the Arbiter-General showing 'weakness'.

Jing Yuan, general of the Cloud Knights for many centuries, had received training to withstand pain on the off-chance of being captured by the enemy forces and possibly tortured in an attempt to extract information about the Xianzhou Alliance. Due to that, any and every secret and relevant information shall never escape from his tightly sealed lips.

...But then, how do you manage to do it?

With a single pull of his shoulder, you have him laid down on your lap, your defty fingers freeing his hair from the red ribbon and untangling the stubborn knots of his white locks...

When Jing Yuan realizes it, it's already too late. Feelings from deep inside his heart are pouring out of his lips before he can stop it. His worries, his fears, the nightmares that plague him, the sadness of reuniting with old friends just to find out they aren't the same as he remembers...

He doesn't understand how you do it.

"I will be by your side in sickness and in health, for the good and the bad. So, please, my love... Don't carry it all by yourself. Don't shield me from your pain, let's face it together. I shall do the same."

That is what you had said to him one time.

Jing Yuan has a high pain tolerance, but all it takes is a single touch, a single word, a single glance from you for his defences to crumble down.

He now understands that your secret technique to make him talk is to show your love.

The content ahead is about sexual themes and is not suitable for minors. If you continue reading, I am not responsable for any discomfort you may feel with this. You have been warned.

NSFW

Your Sexual Lives

First of all, I am a firm believer that our Jing Yuan here is a big switch.

There are days when he's the dom and will make you lose the hability to think of anything else aside from him. And there are days when he's the sub, completely at your mercy to have him roll his eyes back in pleasure.

For your first time together, it is more of an exploration and getting to know each other's bodies. Even if you've had sex before in your life, it is always a new experience with a new person.

There isn't much that Jing Yuan isn't down to give it a try in the bedroom. However, he draws the line with things that can cause you serious pain like knifeplay or hardcore BDSM practices, and the more unsanitary kinks.

He isn't against degradation per se, but he can't bring himself to not mix it with a few praises.

Phrases such as "My slut is doing so well, taking my cock all the way in." or "What a pretty little thing you are, darling... Don't even look like your mouth is my favorite cumdump." make you moan so loud it's embarrassing.

When your husband is in a dom mood, he muffles his sounds the best he can by biting down on his lips or burying his handsome face in the crook of your neck, not because he's ashamed of them, no no no. He does that so he can listen to your cries and moans and babbles, while the bullies your hole.

It's just so hot for him to know he can turn you into a mess, speaking nothing but his name and how good it feels and how full you are.

Speaking of full, my man here causes quite the stretch, so thorough preparation and lube are needed for you to have the least amount of pain when being on the receiving end of the penetration.

He may end up making you cum on his fingers alone during prep tho, but you don't consider that a bad thing anyway.

When Jing Yuan is in a sub mood, by the Aeons, one may think he wants all the Xianzhou ships to know how good you're fucking him.

I'm kidding he's not THAT loud, but he doesn't make any effort to be quiet either. You wouldn't want him to anyway.

Gosh his groans are just hhMMMMMM SO DAMN HOT.

Do you see that white mane of hair he has? Give it a good pull, especially when you're taking him from behind, and marvel at the delicious sounds he makes.

Regarding his stamina, it's one or one hundred, there's no in between.

There are days when he can fuck you the whole night long (rip you in the next morning) and there are days when he can only take two rounds at most, before he's snork mimimimi next to you (he's not known as the 'Dozing General' for nothing).

But don't worry, he would never forget about aftercare! Water, a clean towel, snacks and anything else that you mind need or want after sex will be prepared before you guys start.

One of Jing Yuan's favorite ways of waking up is with you slurping on his slowly-hardening cock (all consensual of course, we don't work with non-con in this household!).

You don't know which one has the best POV during this moment: you, with the sight of him a bit dazed from sleep, brows furrowed with cheeks colored pink and hair all messy; or him, seeing you between his legs, licking and stroking his shaft, lips glistening with your own saliva and his pre-cum and pupils blown wide with lust that makes his hips buckle forward as a way to beg you to swallow him whole.

On days he doesn't feel as tired after making love with you, he enjoys taking a bath with you to relax, massaging any parts of your body that may be sore and giving sweet kisses on the hickeys and marks he left on you.

You feel so relexed, so safe, so loved that you can't help resting your eyes while he cleans you up...

The sound of a deep, gentle voice calling for name, along with a caress on your cheek stirs you awake. You blink a few times, your head turning to the source of the voice that is now chuckling. You see a pair of golden eyes staring at you lovingly, but with a hint of amusement too.

"Sorry for interruping your beauty sleep, my love, but you might catch a cold if you fall asleep in the bath."

"I wasn't sleeping. I was just resting my eyes for a bit..." Jing Yuan chuckles again, noticing the way your eyelids struggle to stay open.

Despite his previous words, he doesn't make any effort to keep you awake. Instead, he begins to hum a tune while he continues to wash your body.

You let out a sigh of bliss, leaning your back further on his strong chest. Your senses are engulfed by him: his touches, his warmth, his voice...

You love being surrounded by him, be it like when he was pounding you mercilessly earlier or taking care of you softly like right now.

"Dear?" Your husband shifts his attention to you, stopping his singing to hear what you have to say. You cup his cheek and give him a peck on the corner of his mouth. "I love you."

Jing Yuan's eyes widen in surprise for a second, before they soften with a smile gracing his lips.

"I love you too, my beloved." He gently holds your chin to give a proper kiss on the lips.

You thank the Aeons for allowing you to cross paths with the man before you. All the difficulties and challanges in the beggining were all worth facing, now that they have brought you to this moment.

To love and feel loved like this... You hope to hold onto these feelings for the rest of your life as you walk towards the future with Jing Yuan.

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In father’s embrace

synopsis: HSR men as dads and what your family dynamic is like.

pairings: Blade, Gepard, Loucha, Sampo, Jing Yuan x fem!reader (separately)

tw: fluff, established relationship, implied initial mortal x immortal in Blade’s

word count: 5.2k words

a/n: Luofu Xianzhou timeline is hell, so Blade’s one is quite vague.

Blade

Blade tends to say that he has no connection to his past, but that is not true and very few (mostly Kafka) know he is lying. Even with his life and death fucked up he can’t simply let go of someone his heart has been always full with, of someone who he promised himself to by the altar, even if under another name, of someone, who gifted him the joy of both his previous and current life - your daughter.

The blade - a cold weapon with no feelings - should not experience being lucky, but that’s what he was, when you clutched him in your arms the first time after his return from the dead and sobbed in his chest, telling him how much you missed him, how much his little angel missed him.

Back then he should’ve left without a trace, maybe even coming to you in the first place was a mistake, but he just couldn’t. And his resolve crumbled completely when a white-haired toddler in your arms gazed at him with the same soft eyes as yours and reached out to his face, hesitantly asking “dada?”.

As much as Blade is capable - he loves you and your daughter. He is quite absent due to his involvement with the Stellaron Hunters, but you understand how important that magenta-haired woman’s ability is when it comes to restraining the mara in his body. After all that’s the reason why he can visit without fear of hurting you or his little girl.

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HSR LEAK SPOILERS!!

Seeing Dan Heng on his Dragon form for the first time.

You were sent to the Divination commission for medical assistance. Unfortunately for you were on your way to help more Cloud knights but Mara-struck mobs came to rush you off.

"Curses!"

You ran for a good minute, you threw your scalpel as an attempt to lure them away and they did!...no idiot they came of twice as violent.

You turn only to see you were cornered into a cliff, steps away and you'll fall off out of Xian Zhou

Quickly you were to attempt using Bailu's cure for the mara-stricken guards, to your avail those of you are faced with was far too gone.

One came to rush on you. Take the sharp hit...or jump??...

...

...

Too slow! you couldn't even decide. You block off the mara-struck's attack, but this resulted in your body being forced off of the clip.

You close your eyes for any impact, pain, bewilderment, shame.

It seems emotional pain came before physical. You died out of weakness, more Cloud Knights needed you, but you couldn't fight.

"Y/N!!" You hear as a man of long lengthen dark hair, piercing green eyes came to rush down to you.

...

You open your tightly shut eyes slowly to see you were levitating above ground. No. You were being carried by some one who levitates.

You moved your eyes to meet the man's who held you.

"Dan Heng?!" and no...this was Dan Heng with...horns? and he's levitating?!

"Y/N!!" March waves from down the ground "Just the person we need!!"

...

You were settled down and came to an agreement to help the Astral Express crew plus Lady Tingyun, and General Jing Yuan in their journey, which everyone then rushed off.

"Wait Dan Heng...come over here"

Dan Heng halts, both of you being slightly left by the rushing team.

"What?" He questions blankly

"It's just...you look different"

"I know...come on we're lagging behind" Dan Heng continues to catch up

"Wait! come over here"

Dan Heng is slightly irked, but he complies

You inspect Dan Heng up and down, bringing your hands to his shoulders and to his cheeks up and down motional. His new looks is rather...captivating.

"...What are you doing?" Dan Heng questions raising a brow.

"Just...checking for injuries" You realize you're being slow again, but you couldn't really hide the smile creeping on your lips. Out of intrusive thoughts, you bring your hand to Dan Heng's chest for a split second, as if to caress...oh stop are you serious? this is a critical moment of death!

Dan Heng remains silent, an eyebrow still corked up.

"C-come on what are we waiting for hehe...ehm, sorry"

Dan Heng sighs "I'm waiting for you obviously, you can always inspect injuries at home, right now we've got an alliance to save"...

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Warning: OOC Dazai

"Are you sure about this? This seems like a very big change of heart"

"I'm sure..." Dazai monotonously answers

Dazai throws a lit match stick to a puddle of oil at the ground

"Would you look at that" You stare through the ignited flames.

Dazai then throws his long black coat to with the ignition, letting it tear to shreds.

For a while you both stay silent in an empty where house. You sat in an empty container, him staring at the flame, recollecting his adventures with the port mafia

"Does Chuuya know?" You ask

"Not a soul in the mafia knows"

...The moment grew silent again

"Then...why tell me?" You looked to Dazai, seeing his other eye undressed off of his bandage

"...I simply wanted you to know, I wouldn't want to leave you wandering about unto where I am"

"...right.."

"Speaking of that, we'll meet again anyway, sooner or later."

...

"I don't want to seem troublesome...why don't you come with me? Odasaku would have love you to come too"

"Thanks but...you know why I'm in the mafia in the first place so....I really can't..." You declined opposing the hurt you felt after saying that to Dazai. You both knew you wanted to go, but you needed the money to pay your family's debt

"I'm off now Y/n"

Dazai begins to walk out the warehouse

"Wait!" You stood up to chase after him

"..."

"Kiss me like you'll miss me"

With that being said Dazai didn't spare a second hugging you by the waist, hurriedly chasing your lips to his, while you hold his face with both your hands.

It was a long, and the last kiss of you both. Maybe some other day, you'll be together again. You understood Dazai needed some changes, he wanted a new path of atonement. You respected that decision of his...even if it meant leaving you behind...

"I promise my Belle, Ill wait for the both of us" Dazai lovingly holds your head, laying it low to his chest.

...

He proceeds to spare you a last glance with a small...sad smile. Then turning back out of the entrance of the warehouse, switching to a more cunning expression...this time, it means business now.

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"Cold? Dragon Young"

[Context, visiting Dan Heng's room to offer affection, though he seems...oddly busy]

"Come in"

Out of the blue you come in on the archives commonly where your boyfriend resides at the express. You come opening the door, not finding it necessary to knock, he would hear your footsteps ahead of your action.

You enter to see Dan Heng working on the data bank. He seems to just be standing, posture straight. arms tucked in front with one raising to support his chin, a habitual action when you're in deep thinking.

You felt rather silly, so you proceeded to hug him abruptly from behind

"Hello" was all you muttered while your face was planted on his clothed back, taking this opportunity to relish his scent, especially he's got his long-lengthen coat undressed, leaving him on his black long sleeves.

His body forces forward to your impact then immediately regaining posture. He seems unfazed

You then move your palms from his stomach, trailing them in a slow but very intimate motion, up and down. Still he stays at where and what he was.

You stopped your hands at the top of his shoulders, shaking his whole body a little as if telling him you were in the room. What was it he was busy with anyway? was it so important he has to put you aside at the moment??

You got a bored so you proceeded to leave him be for a moment, walking out. Maybe he is busy right now.

Before you could leave he grabbed your wrist.

"Come look at this"

He led you to the data bank that had his spotlight earlier. Happily you complied.

"I was just imprinting these on the data bank when we got back from Jarilo IV"

From the data bank it showed slide shows of photographs of your memories from when you were trailblazing the said planet.

"Ohh..." was all you could mutter in a descending, adored tone.

"Look! this was when March tripped and got ice cream on Stelle's face!! haha...and that's us in the background..."

"Oh this was...when we sneaked a small stroll out of boulder town when we were supposed to be on the hotel....hehe, luckily Stelle didn't see us when she went with Bronya and Seele. Honestly! it took a while for me to convince you to walk with me"

"It was too risky...we were luckily the lot didn't see us" Dan Heng added "I couldn't sleep you know~"

You stood silent...in awe of special moments you all shared at your adventure, and of you and your lover's

During your observation, you felt arms snake around your waist.

It was Dan Heng's turn to offer you the same attention you did for him just now. This action made heat crept to your cheeks, and sending fluttering butterflies to your stomach.

This...isn't fair...how come he can make you feel this way but when you did it to him he didnt budge at all?!

As a 'comeback' you jokingly and mischievously planned.

You proceeded to turn to face him.

You snake your arms to cling on his neck, forcing your head forward to place your soft lips on his sweet ones.

This shocked Dan Heng, his eyes remained on shock, his arms now levitating on your body, unable to move.

You pulled your lips away by a few centimeters, which you stared at before completely distancing you face to look at his.

Dan Heng was back from his brain circuit to stare at your eyes, still in a shock and his lips were slightly parted.

You keep staring at him, asking him if you can continue.

He softened his gaze, then stared to your lips "Why did you stop?"

You wasted no time and kissed him again, this time he reciprocated. It was very intimate, he seemed like he really needed you at this moment. Your body slowly leaning backwards due to Dan Heng's strong arms caging your waist, all the while he leans his upper body on you to feel your lips more. You understood what he wanted. You both slightly parted your lips, your hand reaching for his cheek while his supported your neck.

You pulled away, catching for breathe

Dan Heng didn't know what to say, he felt a little embarrassed after unintentionally heavying his body weight to yours.

You chuckled "I'm tired...we should go rest, we had quite the adventure no? mind if I stay for the night?"

Dan Heng looked down with red tinted cheeks "of course, my bed's not all the comfort you would look for though"

"That's alright, the bed is not that I mind, it's you that I want to be with in my sleep"

Dan Heng looks down, then faced you to place a kiss on your forehead...

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Cooking for Jing Yuan

One thing people will never get tired of, is the comfort of food. It reminds you of a place, it reminds you of a memory, all the while you feel and taste as you work your mouth on it's intricate flavors.

Food is especially savor able when it is made by your loved one. That is the case for Jing Yuan, and is loving wife

Jing Yuan is an old man, very few things exhilarates his being except for you, and your ways of working on the kitchen.

Waking up is one of the hardest challenges of a day, but it won't be for Jing Yuan if you happen to wake up first to cook breakfast.

If he happens to wake up first it's gonna be hard for him, but if he's starving prepare to be woken up from your slumber. Usually with a kiss on the cheek, as he wraps his muscular arms around your waist pleading "Good morning, please wake upp. I'm hungryyy" lazily

When you cook he likes to watch you if he's not too busy, he would like to take the time to watch how his beloved makes the delicacies that his stomach is about to embrace.

When it's dinner time and he gets to go home early, he always rushes to catch the sight of you cooking. He slightly grumbles to himself you've already finished cooking when he's arrived home, complaining to himself he was too slow.

Take note that at times he likes to be silly and wrap his arms around your waist, this may seem very sweet but oh he's not letting you go to annoy you.

"I need to grab the salt, you can let go now"

"..."

"Can you pass me the cooking oil?"

"..."

Only let's go when you tell him the food is gonna get spoiled

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A thought.

Anyone remember the scene where Joker told Harley "Would you, die? for me?" and Harley just complied, jumping on the toxic? acidic liquid beneath her then Joker comes and joins her/rescues her?

Ok that, but Nikolai x Anyone (Whether a character or Self insert)

Feel free to write about it if you're interested, I just didn't feel like writing it myself because I'm reviewing for exams

well, if you think about it deeply, Nikolai is basically Joker but hotter (and unknown in past)

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"The affection in silence"

[Context in where Ango drives you home from work]

2:00am, your shift finally ends, you can't wait to go home and bask in the warmth of your bed, put on some show or scroll through your phone. Now that job's done nothing can stop you now!!.......as you thought.

"Heavy rainstorms are expected as of this afternoon until the midnight" according to the media and forecasters

You didn't even get to put notice of it, you were too busy with work .work .work.

Well, what are you to do now? Wait for a taxi? You're far too tired to stand any longer and wait. Make a run for it? Thats sure gonna be fire more tiring, even once you arrive home you got-

*Beep*

"Are you just gonna stand there or are you getting in?"

That was your boyfriend Ango

No time to lose right? So you abide and went to the shotgun of his car

(Shotgun = seat next to the driver's |for people foreign to this word|)

"Hmm, did you know I was coming?" Ango questioned, sharp black eyes locked to the road

He must've asked cause you were contemplating on what plan to initiate with this raging storm

"Oh, actually I was about to go home, how did you even know I was? and second....your shift isn't even over yet"

"I took the road home early, then it happened to be that it was your dismissal, I had to take this time to check on you of course"

His simple words were like a spell, casting a rather strong, foreign emotion only he can make you feel. While he on the other hand was composed, surely you should be used to it, you've been together for a while.

Was it because affection was rarely your way of showing how dear you were to each other?

Ango afterall, is a serious working man, he rarely has time for such antics

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Silence filled the drive, with the harsh sound of rain hitting from outside the car.

You took the opportunity to drift yourself to sleep, ridding yourself of fatigue. Leaning down on the window.

The car pauses, seems like the rain caused some traffic.

Ango looked to your tired form, he thought to himself you were lucky he arrived on time.

Or perhaps he was lucky??...to pick up an angel like you is a rare occurrence.

He slipped his hand to hold your unconscious ones, slowly drawing circles on the back of your hand, careful not to wake you up.

It may seem overboard, but surely it should be ok if...

He then slowly lifts your hand, careful not to wake you up, giving it a long, soft peck.

This made you slightly jolt awake. Ango was quick to pose back to his driving stance.

When you came to your senses you realized what was going on...uh oh

So you it was your turn to snake your hand on his.

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IM A FYOWHORE FOR PPL WHO ACTUALLY USE FLOWER MEANINGS IN THEIR DRABBLES I LOVE ITTT

I kick down the door to ur blog, and I simply sit there (affectionate)

Hehe I'm glad you enjoyed my use of flower language in smt I wrote ❤️

it's nice to show, convey how you love someone other than the use of words 🥂

By the way if this was a request please tell me, ill gladly make one for you 😁

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"I have brought you, a gift"

[Context where your boyfriend Nikolai came to pay your house a visit at 11:00PM] You arrived home from work, and headed straight from the shower, something to ease your head after a day of hard work.

You arrived home from work, and headed straight from the shower, something to ease your head after a day of hard work.

You then clothed yourself with a towel, walking out of the shower. Proceeding to blow dry your hair.

...until you heard a sound of tumbling

"Ow ow ow..."

Hearing the sound of a voice, it seems to be an intruder, just outside of your room, you snatched the nearest object you can use for a weapon near you.

"Who's there?" You attempted to ask, calmly Opening the door from inside your bedroom.

"Ow shit shit...shiiit" There you saw a man wearing a white top hot, and a wide, pure white cape draped on his back he was putting the items back on the shelves, which gave you a sigh of relief.

It was your psychopathic lover...Nikolai

"Nikolai! You scared the shit out of me"

"Ahh there is my love, Y/n and...her very striking attire, were you preparing for my arrival love?"

Nikolai looked you up and down, then to your eyes while he was still crouched down.

Your face flushes of red, you completely forgot about your cloth less self. "Ah god, look away! and don't come in here I'm gonna change..." You rush to your bedroom

Nikolai lets out a chuckle "as you say so dearest" He was completely adored by your surprised and embarrassed face, though he respects your privacy so he let's you free.

...

"You can come in now" There you stand in front of your tall mirror, brushing your hair. "Pardon me milady" You see Nikolai's tall figure enter

He walks towards you and pauses for a moment, looking into your figure with a small smile

"Stop staring" you said jokingly with a smile.

"Then stop being so adorable dove"

Nikolai then hugs you from behind, snaking his arms on your waist, proceeding to kiss your cheek, from your ear to behind it. He locked his head on your neck for a while, relishing your scent.

You then lean your head towards his lightly, giving it a kiss, while holding his arms that are locked to your body.

"Now then!" He suddenly jumps, which took you by surprise

"Quiz timeee! Why did I come to visit Y/n's house??"

Nikolai's usual silly demeanor is back, which is the one you loved dearly of course.

Now that you think about it, why did Nikolai came barging into your home?"

"There are two answers to that!! First hint!: Its because I missed you" he whispered answer to the first question to you.

"And second!! I have a gift for you!!- AH! I let out the answer by mistake!!" Nikolai scrambles in place.

You laughed genuinely at your boyfriend's "clumsiness"

"Nikolai...well you didn't have too"

"Oh yes i needed too!" Nikolai insists. From his coat, he then pulled out a fresh bouquet of red Chrysanthemums [Love and Passion]

"Nikolai..." Your cheeks matched the color of the flowers he held with one hand

"These are...very beautiful" you take the flowers, admiring their decoration.

"I just thought the red suited you, especially when it matches your cheek" he pokes your right cheek, pulling his tongue out with a wink

You chuckle lightly from Nikolai's actions, but felt very warm from his intimate gift.

You came closer to Nikolai, setting his gift on your table, pulling him into a hug.

"I love you so much you didn't have to get me something. You mean so much to me..."

you pulled away, your arms clinging to his neck.

He then wrapped his on your waist His face grew softer at your words, you removed his card-like eyepatch, revealing his beautiful emerald eye color, placing your hand on that side of his cheek.

This surprised Nikolai a little, but let's you do your thing, he trusts you enough with what you're doing.

"Am I that captivating my love?" He jokingly asked

"Yes Nikolai you are"

He stares at your lips for a moment, asking for permission without words, you looked back at him softly giving him the go signal.

He leaned to kiss you, capturing your perfect lips on his. Kissing back you pulled him closer by the neck, deepening the kiss.

...

Currently Nikolai lays his head on your lap, while you sit comfortably on your bed that you both currently shared, peacefully watching a movie ... [I'm sorry for the not much thought ending (⁠´⁠；⁠ω⁠；⁠｀⁠)]

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"A novel? what's it about?"

[Context in where Poe is working on a book, what's it about? well...it's about y- oops, no spoilers] Fluff, predictable plot twist, female reader

"...and that is how I end up getting a bonus from my boss" "Well, good for you Y/n, good for you" You were rambling to Poe about how your day went, as you unwind in a coffee shop with a spectacular view.

"So Poe, what are you up to these days?" "Ah I'm glad you asked! I am currently writing a light novel, although~ it's still in progress because I'm not really adept with...romance" from enthusiastically to hesitant, Poe answered

"Romance? That's very new coming from you...well how is it going?" "Its going... difficultly, I just started last night, and I spent all the time building the...female protagonist's character" He answered, defeatedly

Karl hands over a manuscript to you. In the manuscript, you see the female character's characteristics. "WAIT STOP!" Poe snatched the manuscript from your hands in a panic. "Eh?" "W-what...did you see...Y/n?" "Well I only saw her height, its about the same as mine haha" you described to a nervous Poe "I'm sorry I didn't know you wanted it to be confidential, Karl handed it over to me" You pointed at Karl who was resting under your side of the coffee table. Poe stood silent, analyzing the manuscript on his hand "Is everything alright?"

"Yes Y/n! Its just...I'm thinking of what the future of this novel would be...I don't think I'm ever gonna finish it..."

"Why is that? You shouldn't put a start on it yet then" You explained

"But Y/n...I've already put a start to it...It's hard to back off now..." Poe answered

"Infact, I have a character for the protagonist's partner now"

Poe stood up, offering your hand to stand with him "I suppose it's time...I tell you...to give this story meaning and continuation" You held Poe's hand, but as you stood, he didn't let go of your hand. Karl leaped up to Poe's shoulders.

Whoosh

There was ignition on Poe's hand...no it was his ability, he took you to his said novel in progress It was a dark space, you were in the same position as you were, holding Poe's hand.

"Y/n the female protagonist, is..." He looked through your eyes, as if telling you something without the use of words.

"...me?"

"Yes...I wanted you to be the female protagonist...or more like...I couldn't think of another woman asides you..."

Poe almost melted at the spot explaining to you, his cheeks flushing of red "Oh Poe...but who would be the male lead?"

You asked. He held your hand tighter, an attempt to call his built-up anxiety

"It would...no, it pains me to see you with another man, whether they were of fictional origin or some other...so I had you paired with me..." Poe conffessed

After his words you both were sent back out of the book. "Poe..." "I couldn't write a thing in this novel...cause, I would not want to write anything in this novel without us ever...doing whatever I wrote...here" Poe confessed the second time

"...Poe.." you took a long pause

He was ready for whatever impact was ahead of him, he knew it was a bad idea to say such feelings things Infront of you He should have kept those to himself, he thought, how could a majestic woman like you, love some mystery freak like him who had about 2 friends in total, one being a racoon-

"Poe, you know...you don't need a novel for all that" "What are you implying?" "I like you too Poe."

Poe's shoulder lightened, he was stopping himself from smiling so wide. "Hehe, you should have told me sooner you know" "Oh Y/n you...I..well...you know how hard that was for me" You proceeded to walk closer to Poe "Then, why don't I help you with that novel Poe" "That would be lovely Y/n" He opened his arms in an attempt to hug you but he paused. "Oh, um...may I?" You welcomed his touch, opening your arms Sharing your warmth, Poe's scent is definitely something to relish, depending on his amount of money. You both have a long story to right, now is just the begining. ...

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Ranpoe

Inspired by a fanart I saw

[Context, in which Ranpo came to visit his boyfriend's house, who was busy writing on his new mystery novel, what would Poe do to lighten up his grumpy dearest?] Warnings: Kissing.

It has been 4 hours since Poe started to write the first few pages of his yet another mystery novel. Poe was used to solitude and when he does his work he gets engrossed, unintentionally blocking his surroundings and creating his own ambience.

Knock knock knock Poe was taken by surprise, though he is aware of who is the fellow currently knocking in front of his doorsteps. Karl jumps off his arm as he hurriedly rushed to open the door. Don't keep your guests waiting.

"Heya Ed, 'm just swinging by" It was his boyfriend Ranpo, the only man to ever knock on his doorstep, it's become a living for Ranpo ton hangout on his boyfriend's house and hoard his snacks.

....

Ranpo was now slumping on his boyfriend's back, who was writting his thoughts away to his novel.

"Mmmmmp" it was visible to the eye that Ranpo was getting bored "Just one last stanza my dear" he smiled at his grumpy state, though his boyfriend is quite the bugger, that is something he loves about him.

Ranpo then snuggled closer to Poe's side, an attempt to avert his attention to him, Poe then slid an arm on Ranpo's waist, pulling him closer.

An hour has passed, Ranpo's patience ran thinner than it already was.

"Mmmmmmp"

"Just one last scene"

"You said that 30 mins ago!!"

Ranpo looked up to his six footer boyfriend, who' s lap he is sat on. Ranpo turned around to face Poe, his eye level at his boyfriend's chin.

Ranpo came all the way to visit him and all he did was write away on his book, Ranpo couldn't allow that. (P.S Atsushi helped him not to get lost)

Ranpo then placed his lips on Poe's jawline, making Poe drop his pen, his eyes were bout to pop off their socket by how wide they opened. "R-Ranpo dear?!" "Finally, something but that book" Ranpo pouted looking away from Poe "Oh sorry!, I got too engrossed on it didn't I?"

Poe gently grabbed Ranpo's face, making him face his direction. Poe then shyly placed a kiss on Ranpo's forehead, an attempt to decrease his grumpy meter.

This action of course calmed Ranpo, Poe is rarely the first to initiate something intimate. "Hmm maybe I should be grumpy like this a lot of times so you get to kiss me first" Ranpo jokingly threatened, this of course passed differently to Poe "No no! How preassuring! I-i woudnt want to see you grumpy a lot of times!" Poe defended

"Infact...I can kiss you now...if..you want Ranpo kun"

"Then where is it?"

Poe shyly smiled, his pale face flushing of red. Poe then connected his lips with his lover, lightly, careful not to put too much pressure on his lover's sensitive, plump lips.

Ranpo kissed back, a little harder than Poe's, indicating he's been wanting this since earlier.

....

Poe pulled away "I can finish this book another time" Poe put his manuscript aside "Too late, m' going home now" "Ahh no no! stay a little longer please! besides its dangerous to go out alone Ranpo dear" Poe hugged Ranpo, burying his head on his neck. Ranpo placed his Hand on Ranpo's messy hair, tugging on it a little, he admits that he likes seeing Poe in this vunerable state sometimes

"Do you want to get ice cream outside Ranpo dear?"

"I was just waiting when you're gonna ask"

The lovers got ready to go outside and fetch some sweets, before leaving Ranpo pecked on Poe's cheek one last time before proceeding.

...

Karl is living the life

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Masterlist

Requests are open! (Very new to tumblr writing)

Limit to one character, one prompt

Specify if requesting a one-shot of characters, or headcanons of a character. I write Character x character. My writing is not of excellence so forgive me If I do not satisfy you, I made this blog to get ideas.

What fandom I write for:

Bungo Stray Dogs

Nijisanji EN and JP

Honkai Star Rail

Genshin Impact

Works (Please tell me if links are not working)

Bungo stray dogs

Ango coming home to his wife after a terrifying discovery at work

"A novel? what's it about?" (Edgar Allan P. x F! Reader)

Ranpo uses kisses! it's super effective (Poe x Ranpo)

"I have brought you, a gift!" (Nikolai x reader)

"The affection in silence" (Ango x Reader)

Seeing Dazai off of the mafia (Dazai x reader)

Honkai Star Rail

Cooking for Jing Yuan (Jing Yuan x reader)

"Cold?? Dragon Young" (Dan Heng x reader)

Seeing Dan Heng's different form for the first time (Dan Heng x reader)

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[Context, after learning about the decay of angels' plan to annihilate in 10 days, Ango comes home to his wife's presence.]

Warnings: slight angst due to Ango overthinking, but very fluffy, very descriptive kiss part, author's first time writing.

Ango came home from work, very late as usual. His mind playing events of the DOA'S annihilation, trying to come up with ways to think 10 steps ahead.

10 days...10 days and the continent of Japan will no longer roam of human lives...10 days left for people to be alive 10 days left...and people dont even know what's coming for them

10 days and....

Ango halted the car he was driving as he realized he drove past your shared home.

Ango sighed taking his shoes off and let out a sharp exhale, he didn't even know how shallow his breathing was, until he recalled what Mushitaro said at Anne's playroom...again...

"Welcome home! i've prepared a bath for you, do you want dinner?"

Ango's thoughts dissipated, it was his wife...

"..."

"...are you good? You look like you just saw a ghost"

"..."

"Ango- eh? Uhm..."

Without a second thought he rushed to wrap his arms around his wife's frame, with his head leaning on top of her's, his arms locking to her torso. His wife attempted to sneek her arms out to reciprocate, sharing their warmth.

After what seems to be 5 mins, Ango lets loose, and cups his wife's face to his warm hands.

"Ango...what is this?" His wife was confused, yet she was greatful

"What is what?"

"All this?" "I don't get what you mean my love"

"Oh uhm...its just that usually when you get home, you finish you reports and go to bed from there"

It just now occured to Ango, after 3 years of marriage with his wife, he never got to cherish his love for his wife much, he was too busy saving the world.

"Ah, I undestand how busy you are, so don't fret about it ok?" His wife reassured, bringing up her hands to touch Ango's that are supporting her face for him to cherish.

This was the women he trusted most, the woman that loved him, accepted his flaws, stayed with him despite his dangerous occupation, and was always there to tend to him after his hectic work and sleep less nights of working.

...and this woman was gonna be taken away from him in 10 days...

"...i love you, do you know that..." Ango asked

"Of course I do Ango, I love you more did you know that?" His wife followed now rubbing circles on his hand using her thumbs.

"What would you do if you had 10 days of living left?"

"What!?"

"Sorry...nevermind that..."

"..."

"..."

"Well...I would say goodbye to my family and friends, then..." She came closer putting Ango 's hands off her face. She then wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling their bodies closer.

"I would spend the remaining days with you..."

Ango flushed red, you can almost compare him to the tomato juice he drinks back with Dazai and Oda.

But despite his bothered apperance he coudnt help but feel rather...sad

"But my love...what if in those days im working? I cant tend to you..."

"Oh its ok im not asking you to take 10 days off, I simply want to wait for you home and cook for you and ready a bath for you, then you're gonna do your reports while I wait for you to join me in bed, thats all, like usual, I'd spend 10 days left with just that, and you." His wife answered.

Ango felt something in his heart, as if something heavy was exhaled out of his lungs. He was grateful of his wife, being content with his mere presence.

"This is very... new of you today" The wife added

"Right... I'm sorry"

"You must be very tired asking questions like that"

"You're right"Ango then locked his eyed to his wife's lips and gave very gentle and sweet peck , he missed doing that to you.

"One more" His wife demanded, and so Ango complied

"One more pleaaase" Ango complied again

"One more pleeease" and again

"One more one more" and again...

"One mo-" Before his wife could ask he kissed her again, this time more passionately, and longer.

He moved his hands to her waist, then arms slid from his chest then clinging to the back of his neck

It was getting more passionate while Ango slightly tilted his head to feel her lips on his more, slightly and just gently adding his tongue

to the kiss.

"Mmm- wait I might burn the pastry I'm baking, ill come to it before it burns our house down haha" His wife pulled away to prevent her baking getting burnt.

Ango sat down on the sofa to loosen his tie. He must admit he missed the most intimate moments him and his wife go through, instead of recalling his dilemma from work, he takes a moment to recall their lovely memories together.

Although it was 10 days left, he suddenly had more hope and motivation to save this home of his, which is his wife from the doa's twisted plans.

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Its actually my first time writing hehe oops, just a scenario I wanted to share so it was very sudden

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