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I did it!

Today marks 1 week without cannabis. What a wild ride it was but I did it. For the first time in a long time I’m able to say “I’m proud of myself”

I still haven’t been able to dream when I sleep but that’s ok I know it coming

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5 Days Sober

Still going strong, still having withdrawal symptoms but not as bad as the first 3 days. Energy level is off the charts, I feel less sleepy, more motivated to start the day. 

That’s it for now, got a busy day ahead of me

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48 Hours Without Weed

So far so good, I have not break the goal yet. 

In my observation, I feel more energetic, less socially awkward, able to wake up easily without that groggy feeling.

Been watching a lot of youtube videos of people sharing their experiences on this journey. I gotta admit it’s quite informative and helpful, makes me want to continue this goal 

I had a conversation with my fiance today and I told her about how i’ve been feeling “post-weed” I can tell she’s really proud of me. For the first time I wasn’t at a lost for words I was able to say what I wanted to say without holding back because of paranoia or fear of being misunderstood.

Work last night was productive, cant really go into details but I actually did some work and not just on my phone all night 

I really like where this is headed.. I must stay focused and goal oriented.

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24 Hours Without Weed

Wow! just wow!

I am in an emotional rollercoaster.

I feel everyone around me doesn’t understand what I’m going through.

For the first time since 2013, I have some sort of mental clarity

My current relationship is in jeopardy by the way I’ve been acting, I just don’t know how to tell her that it isn’t her fault and to just weather the storm. She thinks its her fault why our relationship is falling apart. I just dont know how to tell her that it has to get “really ugly” before it gets better

Hurricane Adrian is here and he’s come to take all unnessary baggage I’ve been carrying the past 7 years

It’s time to face my problems and quit hiding like a little bitch. 

IDK if quitting cold turkey will do any good because I currently have clinical depression.

Physically, I have cold sweats, little or no appetite, I’m irritable, which makes me hard to deal with. But I have to try

Thats it for now, the purpose of restarting a tumblr is to document what I’m goin thru in this journey. Pray for me, send good vibes, send it all. I need all the positivity I can get