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Man it’s so weird being borderline autistic because I don’t appear autistic but I’m just socially awkward enough that normal people don’t want to hang out with me. But I don’t have special interests similar to other adhd/autistic people. A lot of things seem cringey to me and while I respect and listen to their likes and such it’s not my thing so I’m not interested. It’s extremely difficult to find friends or people to speak with because it truly feels as though there isn’t another person that could relate to me. I have so many things goin on up in this lil brain.

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Whenever volunteering or being around kids I’m always put with kids on the spectrum and I didn’t really start questioning it until now. I’ve always been praised for how well kids on the spectrum get along with me and instantly love and trust me but I was always like??? Wym? It’s just a kid? But after seeing many parenting videos I’ve realized I communicate with children differently than “normal” I don’t ask questions. I never do. I just state things like “oh that’s an awesome fire truck I’ve been on one of those before it was super cool!” Because I figure that’s how a kid would get excited and happy yanno. Something to relate to and talk about. I’m a very solitary to myself person and in social situations I’m very. Very very awkward so I think that’s why they always put us together. I’m not too overwhelming and high energy for the kids. But it’s making me question if perhaps I could be autistic. I had visited a few websites for autism and decided to play along and take a couple tests and I happened to score quite highly on all of them. At the same time I feel as though getting a diagnosis would be a waste of time and money. It would hinder me rather than help me. If I understand what Is going on myself then why would I need someone to just give me a diagnosis to set boundaries in my life. Like I want to adopt yanno. I’m not going to let something like an autism diagnosis get in the way.

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Toads are like tiny aquatic possums even tho they don’t look like possums

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Really cool and interesting thing happened. I was asleep and dreaming about my stretched ears. I have a 00 gauge right now and in my dream I was stretching my right ear up but instead of the next size up at a 7/16” I had a 5”??? So in my dream I’m strugglin but I get it through and I look in the mirror and I’m like o shit. That’s way too big imma rip my ear and I take it out and the second I do I wake up and the same ear hurts like hell cause I’m laying on it 😳

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The worst part about America is that there’s so many options for things. Having so many options is nice yes but it causes so so so many problems. But every single person wants to get super rich and disregards safety and the environment and other people just to get rich 😪

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Is the real appeal to the internet and social media while in public the fact that you don’t have to interact or make eye contact with another person? Whenever I go out in public everyone n their momma on their phones. It’s so weird walking around taking in my surroundings with people all around me heads down. Restaurants is crazy fr. Idk social media feels weird to me. I love the distraction of it and the facts and funny videos but at the same time I feel like I’m missin out on life yanno? I have a few health conditions that limit me from living the life I want but I just want to be present. Take it all in. I miss Christmas’s where we would all sit around and talk or watch the tv or play band hero. I mean that’s different than in public I feel like it’s worse. Fam should b present w/ fam.

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I think the reason our generation is so obsessed with nostalgia because our gen has had a HUGE amount of change in our lives since childhood. Stores/restaurants/fast food have ALL modernized. Almost everything has moved to online, almost the entire population moved to smart phones even poorer people. And the media is so so big. It used to just be yahoo and aol. Everything else was on the news and the news is heavy propaganda for either democratic liberal or conservative republican. We’ve been so sheltered mentally that the internet has opened up an entire world of opportunity and mental stimulation and facts and ideas just it’s so much at once. Even lighting moved from soft yellow to harsh efficient white everywhere. Sure it’s more similar to daylight but still.

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I haven’t had human contact outside my family in 4 years. At this point I don’t even know how social interactions work frfr

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Got these miniature apples because I wanted to feel like the horse off spirit and eat a whole apple in one or two bites 😌 hopefully it’s fulfilling

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I wonder how much money bibble made in Barbie. What is Bibbles net worth.

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I wanna put a service dog vest on a Halloween skeleton dog. My lil emotional support good boy.