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hmm who wants a starter? me thinks act 3 or post game? 🤔

#❛ 𝖔𝖔𝖈. / ooc. #i feel bad not being here. :( #but in all honesty my creative outlet rn has been modding so rp has sort of taken a back seat #dont get me wrong tho!! i definitely still love astari0n and want to write him its just.......... #Brain Occupied

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it's very interesting to me that astarion — without any kind of protest — is so willing to ingest tadpoles, knowing there's a non-zero chance he'll be turned into a mindflayer, and that the motivations driving his actions is bc he feels vulnerable. he's unsure if he can rely on the people he's with, and is wanting to grab hold of any advantage, no matter its dangers, as soon as he can.

...and then come the astral tadpole, where even if he has ingested tadpoles, is adamant he won't take it bc by that point, he's come to view himself beyond a mere spawn. more importantly, he's terrified of losing his bodily autonomy, divulging to the player that he remembers how painful it was to become vampire, and he how doesn't want to go through that again.

#❛ 𝖔𝖔𝖈. / ooc.

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Matteo Martari as Francesco Pazzi S02E05 • Medici: The Magnificent

#❛ 𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖔𝖓. / beware the vampyr. #loves #❛ 𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖔𝖓. / loves (𝑙𝑎𝑒𝑟𝑎). #he would. he would..........

[vampyrictus]

it's very interesting to me that astarion — without any kind of protest — is so willing to ingest tadpoles, knowing there's a non-zero chance he'll be turned into a mindflayer, and that the motivations driving his actions is bc he feels vulnerable. he's unsure if he can rely on the people he's with, and is wanting to grab hold of any advantage, no matter its dangers, as soon as he can.

...and then come the astral tadpole, where even if he has ingested tadpoles, is adamant he won't take it bc by that point, he's come to view himself beyond a mere spawn. more importantly, he's terrified of losing his bodily autonomy, divulging to the player that he remembers how painful it was to become vampire, and he how doesn't want to go through that again.

#❛ 𝖔𝖔𝖈. / ooc. #HELLO. ive been playing bg three a lot and this keeps circling back in my head dfkslj

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no more am i vlaakith’s child. i have been born anew in gith’s son. the prince of the comet will soar and the age of vlaakith will end! ch'mar zal'a orpheus! mha stil'na forjun inyeri!

antigone’s private interpretation of a canon divergent lae'zel from baldur's gate iii, with heavy focus on post-game ( utilizing original lore and inspiration from an altered version of the lich-queen's beloved module ). unassociated with the fandom/rpc.

#I BLOW KISSES TO ANTIGONE AND LAEZEL <333

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MIDNIGHT MASS + vampire eyes

#❛ 𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖔𝖓. / about. #but what............. if...................

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' you know you can leave whenever you want - i told you that, right? ' / @tragedyplay ( from hexxat! )

Can she sense his anxiety? The way he drums his fingers on the table without pause, his focus centred elsewhere, distanced, but Hexxat's words still find their mark. He doesn't feel like a hostage. No, he wants to be here; needs to be. It is the closest he — they — have ever come to finding a solution that would once again allow him to walk in sunlight. His time in daylight ended too soon, and still he grieves for it.

Astarion forces his hand to still; fingers curling into his palm as he forces a weary smile. ❝ I want to stay. ❞ The feeling is most bizarre — to behold another vampire that isn't a threat to him or to a master who feared being overthrown. Hexxat has been more than hospitable; her willingness to allow them into her home, despite knowing nothing about them other than the obvious… He is another vampire wondering just how she acquired her magic cloak.

He grows quiet in his seat, fingers once again occupying themselves with a mindless task. ❝ We've been traveling for months. Seeking out any lead we've come to learn about, only to be met with another ending that goes nowhere. Everything is an adjustment, even being continuously let down. ❞ Finally, he looks to her, the elder vampire's demeanour calm and unassuming as she listens. ❝ It's so different when you're in a city without the… 'protection' of a master. Feeding has been hard; Laera worries I might get caught. For once, I feel as though I can be at peace here. Even for a little while. ❞

#tragedyplay #❛ 𝖎𝖈. / ic answers. #❛ 𝖛. / dnd ― baldur’s gate. #EEEE hexxat!!! #im so pumped for this dskf

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did you know that astarion's name means "little prince of stars"???

#❛ 𝖔𝖔𝖈. / ooc. #i cry thinking about this #this is so sweet

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Matteo Martari as Francesco Pazzi S02E01 • Medici: The Magnificent

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i was chatting with @chmarva and we were talking about vampires, and they asked me if i ever thought astarion would be cured of his vampirism, and as far as my canon is concerned, he won't ever be cured (in the interim).

i feel as though curing him is almost like cheapening his character; as if curing him will erase all of his pain and suffering bc of its immediate connection to his abuser.

i fully promote the idea of astarion learning how to live as a vampire with people that love him, in a life that he can have complete control over — a life that he can find genuine happiness in — in spite of his vampirism. tbh i think that's beautiful, and that much, i think he deserves.

as a sidebar: i also appreciate how the game makes it very clear that in his epilogue (and before that, endgame), he isn't intending to cure himself, but rather find a way to walk in sunlight. bc that's what's important to him; he's mentioned how much he adores sunlight since early act 1 and he's determined to have it! 😭

#❛ 𝖔𝖔𝖈. / ooc. #i have a lot of epilogue thoughts that are totally self indulgent but HRJDGKS!!! this is so so so important to how i write him

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     the haunting of hill house      sentence meme

episodes 7-8

did you say you took cream or sugar?

the clothes okay?

if there’s blood on your clothes, we have to take them - you understand.

you know you can leave whenever you want - i told you that, right?

i’ve been up all night. i probably said some crazy stuff.

i’m not under arrest?

i’ve gotta be honest. it’s a mess. it’s a real mess.

you like to fix things.

you’re good at fixing things.

talk about what happened last night.

what a mess.

never seen a storm make a mess like this.

fother mucker!

i fucked up last night.

i mean, i really fucked up.

i should have made more of an effort with you.

people fuck up. i guess you don’t really get that until you fuck up.

gotta start somewhere.

you were always good at that.

i didn’t get a chance last night to tell you how proud i am of you.

it’s okay to just sit.

so you’re saying the best hangover remedy is heroin?

are you fucking kidding me?

you didn’t tell me that they died.

if i wanted you to know that i’d have told you that.

fuck my day.

i’m guessing you heard what happened at the wedding.

be safe down here.

it probably isn’t my place, but maybe she could use a little time away.

i mean, s/he’s brave, and these nightmares… they had her/him down in a corner, shaking so bad i thought s/he’d seize up dead.

we stopped coming here after dark.

never spend a minute inside after dark.

prayer’s not really our thing, but i take your point.

not everything’s about you.

you have problems.

if there’s one thing we can take away from today, it’s that in the end, all you guys have is each other.

we all fuck up and we can be upset with each other, but one day, we’ll wake up and it’ll be too late.

stay the fuck out of my business.

this one’s totally screwed!

i want to help.

alright, you fucker.

you didn’t see them, because they’re dead.

i’ve seen things all week, but it’s not real.

if you don’t get your shit together, like they didn’t get their shit together, you’ll end up just like them, you understand?

it’s in our genes - it’s a sickness.

get it together.

stop talking like a fucking crazy person.

i don’t want to bury you too, you understand?

we’re almost through it.

i was having a horrible dream.

you’re holding a fucking screwdriver to my throat!

maybe you should take a break.

you don’t have to feel crazy.

big boys know the difference between what’s real and imaginary.

you little shits are dead.

i’m sorry i didn’t talk, and i’m sorry i didn’t listen.

it’s the regret of my life.

oh no, she’s gonna kill someone.

the big question is how aggressive do you have to be?

i mean, suicides can cluster in families.

of course you’re safe with me.

jesus christ, you’re out of line.

she used to say she was the kite and i was the line.

i don’t even know how we got there.

what the hell, you stupid asshole. what are you, insane?

we still fought sometimes, but it was different.

you fight with love.

you’re on the same team, even in the middle of a fight.

i hope, really, that you get to experience that sometime.

i love her today as much as i did in the beginning.

can we talk when i get back?

i can’t lose anyone else.

everything i did, i did to protect you.

just take the fucking candy and go.

i’m not in the fucking mood!

what the fuck do you want?!

if you would just let me talk…

you ice people out! you always have!

i ice people out? have you met yourself?!

you fucking suck at apologies.

i’m an adult.

i am a fucking doctor.

you’re a fucking slut.

did you just punch me in the boob–?

that’s what you get. you get punched in the fucking boob.

some fucking kids playing a prank is what happened.

that’s not the only thing like that that’s happened here tonight.

that’s why you think you’ll never have kids?

the whole fucking family is on the brink of a breakdown and seeing things that aren’t there, hearing things that aren’t there, and that shit happened after the house. there’s something wrong with our goddamn brains.

i thought i was being kind. i really thought that.

see, we’re all fucking crazy.

did he say anything weird or do anything?

now you’re gonna listen to me.

our family is like an unfinished meal to that house.

that house is the most dangerous place in the world for all of us, but especially for you.

i know you saw a ghost.

do you know what ‘witness marks’ are?

witness marks tell the story of the piece, if you know how to read them.

you see the marks, but you don’t know how to read them.

you just don’t know what i’m dealing with.

the fuck is wrong with you?!

i don’t need to hear your excuses or your bullshit!

do you fucking believe that?!

it spread everywhere in me, this nothing, until i couldn’t feel anything anymore.

i drank and i drank and nothing worked. i couldn’t feel anything.

i just reached for him because i had to feel something.

i didn’t see him.

i felt shame, and i felt grief, and i felt scared.

i felt so fucking scared.

i had to do it, because it felt better than nothing.

thorough fucking shame was so much better than horrible, empty nothing.

#❛ 𝖔𝖔𝖈. / memes. #mmm love this show dfnslkd #i guess i should give my mans some attention 😩

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Matthew x Diana in A Discovery of Witches (2018-2022)

S01E02

#❛ 𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖔𝖓. / loves (𝑙𝑎𝑒𝑟𝑎). #❛ 𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖔𝖓. / loves. #SCREAMS!!! #wrist kisses w/ astarion

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The mention of an arrangement forces the wily smile the young magistrate wears to fall from his face. He scoffs then, lip curling into an obvious expression of disagreement as his gaze averts to a painting on the wall. ❝ Always one to sour the mood, aren't you, fiend? ❞ The way Astarion punctuates his words, noticeably laced with a sort of disdain, but ignoring the obvious truth that if not for this fiend — and his own self-serving motivations — Astarion would not sit as magistrate on a highly esteemed council. He would not have the home he lives in; the praise he desired from his peers; the power to correct the lives of others. Everything he had was because of this fiend.

He remembers when Vespin darkened his door some years past, emerging with an offer of greatness in exchange for something he thought little of: His soul. The triviality of its worth truly meant little to him; not when he planned for the entirety of his living life to be lived in a way he wanted. Even now, he indulges in his many pleasures, free of worry.

❝ For me? You shouldn't have… ❞ Astarion replies, ringed hand reaching to pull the documents closer to him. ❝ As if I weren't already buried in case work as is… Organising upcoming motions, fighting off the criticisms of the defense — you know, I already have something of a reputation for being unfair. They call it unfair; I call it justice. ❞ Carelessly, he flips through the first folio, perusing only a few pages worth before he looks up to Vespin examining his wine bottle. ❝ Allow me to guess: Some asset of yours needs saving? ❞

Astarion @vampyrictus says to Vespin: ❝ i had a feeling you’d show up. it’s sort of our thing. like it’s fate or something. ❞

Or something. VESPIN watched with impassive eyes at the Astarion he had created – a magistrate, high and mighty, revered and feared. Wealth and power will come to him now, like water flowing downstream. An indistinct patch of his skin tingled when he came near Astarion. The elf's name scorched and carved under his skin forevermore. One of his trophies. One of his crimes. One of the many souls he had damned to the Hells.

“ We have a business arrangement, ” Vespin said mildly, taking a drink of the wine he lifted from Astarion's dining hall. He was never one for the fermented fruit juice when he was alive. But nowadays, moisture was moisture. He was always so parched when he first emerged from the Hells.

“ ... Looks you've settled into your new station in life comfortably. Surely you haven't forgotten about friends who got you here. ” A piece of parchment was pushed over the table. Vespin tapped at it with a clawed finger. “ A few cases that require your attention. Look them over, and rule accordingly. ”

#vchloras #❛ 𝖎𝖈. / ic thread. #❛ 𝖛. / dnd ― baldur’s gate. #dhkflskhdf vespin why must u ruin a good time?? #astarion just wants to live his life

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interview with the vampire by anne rice parts i & ii

this really happened, didn't it?

people who cease to believe in god or goodness all together still believe in the devil.

i thought you wanted to die, (name).

have you ever lost a great amount of blood? do you know the feeling?

don't fall so madly in love with the night that you lose your way!

do it. you can't turn back now.

i'll kill them all.

the fact is i want you gone from here.

you'll never forgive me, will you? not now, not even after i'm dead.

did i give you the impression that i could not feel?

do you think that angels are detached?

why have you come to me tonight?

i believe you come from the devil!

be prepared to kill!

i thought only of you, when i had no need to think of you at all.

you think i come from the devil?

i am to live to the end of the world, and i do not even know what i am!

good night, sweet prince.

you're being morbid!

it's only for a moment and there'll be no more pain.

i will not die, i cannot die.

are you afraid of me, (name)?

tell me what a monster i am.

what do you think a vampire is?

you are in love with your mortal nature.

does it bring you happiness?

you're dead, love.

all this time, i suppose i kept from straightening you out because you were best weaker.

it's as if you want us both to be destroyed.

i can't stand to watch what you're doing.

you won't let me die, will you?

i can't remember my sins.

let me show you what you are.

evil is a point of view.

i don't want it if it hurts you.

i should have known that it was inevitable.

did you bury them?

i bought this from one of the vendors.

you made us what we are, didn't you?

you could be dead by now if you were mortal!

be glad i made you what you are.

kill with me tonight.

i cannot bear to lose you.

you're the only companion i have in immortality.

aren't you the same as i?

i was your victim!

he will not let us go.

why do you never talk about him?

i want to make peace with you. i want things to be as they were.

i take care of you. you don't need anything.

come down into the darkness. let it all go away.

we deserve to die.

i did it for us. so we could be free.

do you want to come into the confessional?

do you fear god at all?

let the flesh instruct the mind.

someone followed me.

why do you look that way at me?

you don't understand the danger of fear itself.

what can the damned really say to the damned?

the night's no time for travelling.

i think i'm going mad!

do you think he knows we're coming?

let me lead you. there's no turning back now.

take me into your arms.

don't you sense the danger? can't you breathe it like the air?

do you hear it?

the final decision will always rest with you.

#❛ 𝖔𝖔𝖈. / memes.

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all i'm saying is i'm thrilled my mans finally got some funky knife idle animations

#❛ 𝖔𝖔𝖈. / ooc. #he would just whip those babies out and twirl them dskfs #TWO YEARS AGO I ASKED FOR THIS AND THEY FINALLY DID IT.

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astarion: i could have lived eternally in cazador's pleasure chambers. i'm not afraid to die. i'm afraid i'll never have a new life after that.

i'm going through astarion's dialogues and this man wants so badly to be given the chance to live his life, one that was robbed from him....

😭

#❛ 𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖔𝖓. / headcanons. #maybe i'll write more about this but i say again: astarion wanting and seizing his freedom is so so important!!

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Astarion holds his response, the brutality of the Drow's words pulling a tight-lipped smile across his pallid face. If nothing else, he's practical. He keeps his gaze trtrained on the shadows melting into the treeline, as if something were to materialise from them. As if the spectre in the woods would show itself. Astarion knows, however, the elusive suspect is not so far from where he stands… He wonders what compelled the other to act — a thought he rightly keeps to himself.

❝ Aha! I'm honoured you would even bother, ❞ The rogue at last says, hands dropping his belt as he turns to face his campside companion. ❝ Why not simply move onto the next place to rest? Alternatively, leave my corpse as a… warning for those who pass by. Beware! There's a vicious creature goring unsuspecting travelers. ❞ Despite the chuckle in his throat, it masks only the slight offense he feels knowing A'byssel would treat his corpse with so little respect. Telling. ❝ Indulge me if you will: What sorts of horrors lurked in the Underdark? ❞

❛ Not unless it kills you. We're no good to each other dead. ❜ A considerate gaze is cast at the trees, scanning for nothing in particular but engaging in the performative gesture anyways. ❛ If you want to wander the night, I won't stop you. But if I find your corpse at sunrise . . . ❜

He turns to offer a dry look & dismissive shrug. ❛ I won't waste daylight hours digging an Overelf shaped hole. ❜ He sees no less clearly in the dimness, watching the lines of his companion's face as he, eager to glean any reason to openly distrust him. Force of habit. ❛ I would, however, drag your carcass to the river so nothing else was tempted to draw near. Whatever was left of it, anyways. ❜

#thyknife #❛ 𝖎𝖈. / ic thread. #❛ 𝖛. / dnd ― baldur’s gate. #abyssel: doesnt talk very much #astarion: talks enough for the both of them #sdhfk