“I watch him in the kitchen, and I think of how much it hurts to love somebody. How deep the hurt is, how almost unbearable. It’s not the love that hurts; it’s the possibility of anything happening to the object of your love.”
I think it's always important to be reminded that the worst video you have seen from Gaza is in fact a drop in an ocean of atrocities committed by Israel every single minute of every day. Think about it, for that video to reach you, the horrific moment had to happen with someone who has a camera to be around and for that person to have a functioning phone service to upload it and for the video to circulate enough in order to reach you. Always remember that what you're seeing is what is happening to a single person out of over 2 million Palestinians in Gaza trying to survive this genocide, each one of them with a heartbreaking story of their own that probably will never manage to reach your feed. Things are infinitely worse than what we can even fathom.
Never stress about rizq, just keep making dua, increase your istaghfar and tie your camel and put your trust in Allah. In due time Allah will provide for you from places you can't imagined.
فَاستَجَبنا لَهُ وَنَجَّيناهُ مِنَ الغَمِّ ۚ وَكَذٰلِكَ نُنجِي المُؤمِنينَ
So We heard their prayer and delivered them from their agony and grief—thus do We save the faithful.