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being born lonely is so fucking suffocating bc you feel like no matter what you do or who you’re with deep down you’re just not palatable to other people. something about you is so inherently other and nothing can ever dispel that. and it haunts you w every social situation you walk into but you just have to be okay w it for the rest of your life

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why do abusers have to say nice things occasionally the second they say anything nice I begin doubting everything they could be doing the most awful shit but the second I’m offered the tiniest kindness I concede and start thinking I’m the bad one

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I’m not a person. I’m just symptoms and a trauma response.

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i am so tired of grieving in advance. i am so tired of anticipating pain. nothing is lost until it leaves my life, and even then it might not be.

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Ko-fi

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do you ever get scared that you’re unintentionally toxic or draining to be around, like you’re the bad guy

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i know its been said b4 but growing up suicidal and then reaching an age you never planned to live to is extremely stressful and terrifying, and we deserve more credit for not killing ourselves and THEN having to make up for the time we spent not caring if we lived or died and not doing work to improve our lives.

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So many times I have died alone in my room

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one of the worst things about having a charismatic abuser(s) is that people don’t see how vile and deeply-manipulative they actually are. They only see the fake persona that they like to portray to the world.