wanago1on1

[wanago1on1]

I have always got bouts of depression,since my teen and feeling I didn't fit in. Then in my later teens depression turned to anger as I realised I didn't really have friends I taught were mine, could say forgot about and left me to fade away, I'd always think of them but I never had anyone call or reach out to find me, then at college depression hit bad again with stress of assignments and something happened with communication I was having with someone on the Internet, we exchanged emails and questions, then I found out this person was actually closer then I taught, I joined dots together and when I asked them they, said it was a mistake and have never had communicated with me in an email, my depression kick back hard that time, because my feeling had grown strong for this person, I felt lost and abandoned, she talked about family, kids how many I'd like and so forth, I'd really like a family kids, even the world had me depressed, we are destroying it, why would we bring kids into a world that is ....even the current situation now covid, society has us all conditioned, you must get the vacancie or you won't fitin, or be able to leave the country. And now my depression is bk again, because of feeling in my head for a girl I can't tell about, and even if I did say, it won't make a difference,we are on two different paths, and saying anything would just complicate things more, this felt a little better writing it down on an invisible wall