youremrlebowski-imthedude

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Feelings are much like waves, we can’t stop them from coming but we can choose which one to surf.

— Jonatan Mårtensson

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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it's kind of crazy climate change has occurred at such a remarkable pace that I and everyone else around my age can remember a completely different climate in our childhoods. I truly watched winter gradually disappear in my life.

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Similarities Between Myself and Bilbo Baggins

Main survival instinct is to bullshit my way out of a situation

Would rather be eccentric uncle than responsible parent

Would use the One Ring to get out of seeing family members

In times of strife, thinking of food is a source of comfort

Would never stop complaining, even as I became a true adventurer

Would sleep through an entire battle

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I can't believe I have to go grocery shopping and do laundry and dishes when I get home from work. Haven't I suffered enough?? Will I ever know peace?

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Being alive these days is waking up, flipping on your phone, and going "Oh hey the wheels of history are turning."

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the fact that i still have to unlearn shame… like come on that’s literally the most embarrassing thing to not have unlearned yet

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help lmao

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Divine photographed by Chris Callis

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will i always be this angry?

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it's such a bummer that losing control of your emotions only makes the entire situation worse in really embarrassing personal ways. losing control of my emotions should give me pyrokinesis.

#or at the very least #telekinesis #like damn

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Mood.

#abbott elementary

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pro-AI in the sense of "they taught a bread scanning computer to recognize cancer cells" etc etc

against AI in the sense of "we stole artwork from hundreds to thousands of artists, didn't credit them and didn't financially compensate them"