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[z-elder]

Imagine channeling a kinda magick together, in which that naturally performs the rituals needed to fulfill our most prophetic of endeavors, towards forever

Not one to hex and curse each other based out from all of our rugged insecurities, but a lasting energy that holds together our sanity as we venture on through unknown, mysterious journeys

A spell we'll cast up into the sky to look over as a light to shine upon that darkness encased within our minds; that is rotting and corrupting our lives

A reminder that it's all gonna be okay, even when the earth starts to shake, even with my heart, like a vase, feeling every quake, fragile, easy to love, easy to break

[z-elder]

[ STOLEN't ]

✿༺ 𝒾𝓉 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁𝓈 𝓁𝒾𝓀𝑒 ༻✿

✿༺ 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇𝑒’𝓈 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓉𝓈 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈 ༻✿

✿༺ 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝒾 𝓁𝑜𝑜𝓀 𝒶𝓉 𝓎𝑜𝓊 ༻✿

[z-elder]

Why am I so affected?

Why am I so affected?

Why am I so affected?

Why am I so affected?

Why am I so affected?

Why am I so affected?

Why am I so affected?

Why am I so affected?

Why am I so affected?

Why am I so affected?

Such a lovely, fucky universe..

[z-elder]

[ STOLEN't ]

☄️ ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀.　　　　.　　　ﾟ .　　　　　　　　　　. 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　✦ 　　　　　,　　　　　　　.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀☀️

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　.⠀　　🌎⠀‍⠀‍⠀‍⠀‍⠀‍⠀‍⠀‍⠀‍⠀‍⠀‍⠀,

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[z-elder]

No, cause I'm already in a wrong lane

And it's been the longest of waits

But right here, right now, I feel like I'm in a tunnel

There's a darkness growing all around me

And I can hear it fuckin calling

Yeah, there's this light at the end, sure

But I'm stuck on this b**** that got me trippin

AND fuckin falling an' shit

And all my friends?, they're in the back, with the flash

But yep they're all too busy tryna rob each others wallets with it

I'll say, "There ain't no time like the Past!"; when now, most my friends just wanna die

And the Present keeps on trying to present me with it

Ima think I'm alright, as I tip it back, and run with this sip from my flask

But really, in the end, we all know that it's my demons that are the ones running with me..

[z-elder]

I am leaving my shining Stars at that Faerie Portal, deeper into the woods.

They crave and call out to you, my Moon.

And that's just something that I can't fuck with anymore.

The Moon is Mystery, after all.

And I've just about had enough of these Moonlit scars.

So now, I am the Void.

And I shall restart,

My most brightly of Blossoms.

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Gonna let her carry me as she flies up into the clouds tonight.

(im a fish, shes a bird)

We're avoiding the Moon,

because she doesn't approve..

Something about how, I am fated to help ----- find peace and help heal her wounds..

But why would I ride with the Witch, on brooms, when she very clearly takes me to be the fool?

I was the Stars.

And now, we're all done falling for you.

[z-elder]

Tiny, Man..

...

We're just the tiniest part

Of the tiniest cell

In maybe the tiniest body

Of another tiny world

Controlled by other tiny people

Working their tiny little hopes and dreams

Across tiny fragments of time

Only to also wonder to the tiny, shining stars

Just how tiny they really are

And that perhaps there's the tiniest chance

There's more to this tiny life

Than the tiny obvious strands laid out

In front of tiny, light absorbing eyes

Feeding into tiny, maniacal minds

Who are forced to do tiny things

Because just living tiny isn't good enough

For a tiny race that won't even last

...

~ Koaeon

[z-elder]

[ I talk too much ]

I shouldn't let others see what's been really bleeding me out from underneath.. Well, at least those anyways that are not necessarily around me.

I guess my mask kinda slides off sometimes when I feel like I just can't speak or breathe.. Or like today, when I felt..

just so empty.

I don't know why people feel the need to address anothers folly THEY'VE PERCEIVED through their lens of

just as much stupid.

Maybe I should try a little harder at concealing my own scars from them again because they'll obviously just expect me to explain anything and..

And I just can't say everything.. Not even while writing..

My head starts spinning and spinning and all I can say or think is, "I am not hurt. I am just hurting."

Which is kinda fucking stupid really.. but it's what I'm seriously feeling. In a way.

And yet still they take aim towards YOUR NAME. To cast blame or, I don't really know.. And no matter how hard I'd try to explain, They just didn't understand what I really wanted to try and say. Per usual..

For my minds thoughts constructed a prediction of some sorta touch, felt warm and soft.

And yet fate has shown me a lovers hands that were of something so terribly cold and raw.

And with such sharp daggered claws;

She had dug into me.

With a love that was.. rough?? Like I should have predicted that I'm just incredibly fucking dumb. A conversation my mind took and.. And it was just blown way tf up..

Because..

It seems abandonment is something that still burns me.

But, you're right.. How do I say that I am the one that was hurting? Without killing her off or making her feel like I am running from or deserting.. a love that we have grown and built on our quite lovely of a wondrous journey.. I hope that these thoughts in my head can stop, because I am tired of my dumb, self-destructive worries..

And she deserves a man that can deliver on a love that can hold together a prosperous, promised eternity.

Zelder

[z-elder]

50 posts!

Most are my Originals <3

..Just different Masks.

And then there's a few that I got inspiration from other peeps posts.

..They are marked w/[ STOLEN't ]

Enjoy my garbage 🗑️

#50 posts #tumblr milestone

[z-elder]

[ STOLEN't ]

。⠀⊹🌱　🌷♡ 。　　・　゜ ♡

　　　⠀⊹. if i had a flower⊹ 🌱゜・🌷。。⊹

・♡. for every time i thought of you* ・ ♡

　 ⠀⊹. 🌷 ˚ . I could walk. ˚ ⊹

。🌱♡ through my garden forever⊹ 🌷。・゜ ♡⠀⊹　。・゜♡. 🌷　.　　⠀⠀⠀⊹🌱

[z-elder]

"because;

you were my love,

my light,

my lust for life..

and yet now,

Now I Would Rather Die..

than to be called

anything that might

be considered yours.."

[z-elder]

𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖'𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥'𝕤 𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕪, 𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟 𝕞𝕪 𝕨𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕖𝕥.

"𝔾𝕠𝕥𝕥𝕒 𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕗 𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕥 𝕒𝕝𝕠𝕟𝕖.", 𝕚𝕥 𝕤𝕒𝕪𝕤.

𝕀𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕤 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕞𝕪 𝕞𝕠𝕤𝕥 𝕘𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕤𝕥 𝕤𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕔𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕊𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕔𝕖.

(ℕㄖ𝐭 ℝⓔαⓛⓛ𝕐 丂ᵘℝⓔ ｈㄖώ 𝒾 ⓔ𝓋ⓔℝ ΜαℕαᎶⓔĐ ώ𝒾𝐭ｈㄖᵘ𝐭 𝒾𝐭, 𝐭𝕓h)

𝔸 𝕔𝕝𝕦𝕞𝕡 𝕠𝕗 𝕞𝕠𝕤𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀'𝕧𝕖 𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕗𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕝𝕪 𝕡𝕝𝕒𝕔𝕖𝕕 𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕚𝕟𝕤𝕚𝕕𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕛𝕒𝕔𝕜𝕖𝕥𝕤 𝕡𝕠𝕔𝕜𝕖𝕥.

𝕄𝕪 𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕕, 𝕗𝕚𝕟𝕕𝕤 𝕚𝕥 𝕨𝕒𝕪 𝕥𝕠 𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖, 𝕢𝕦𝕚𝕥𝕖 𝕠𝕗𝕥𝕖𝕟.

(𝓊ᔕ𝓊𝐚ᒪᒪⓎ 𝐚ғ丅ｅя 𝓘'𝐯ｅ 𝕀м𝐚g𝕀ภｅᗪ ⓗ𝑜Ŵ мⓎ ⓗｅ𝐚ᗪ 𝓊ρ 𝕀ภ Tⓗｅ ¢ᒪ𝑜𝓊ᗪᔕ м𝓊S丅 ᒪ𝑜𝑜Ҝ ᒪ𝕀Ҝｅ 𝑜𝓊丅 𝕀ภ ρ𝓊ᵇᒪ𝕀¢)

𝔾𝕠𝕥 𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕟 𝕒 𝕗𝕖𝕨 𝕣𝕠𝕔𝕜𝕤 𝕚𝕟 𝕞𝕪 𝕓𝕒𝕘 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀'𝕧𝕖 𝕔𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕨𝕙𝕚𝕝𝕖 𝕠𝕦𝕥, 𝕒𝕕𝕧𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕠𝕦𝕤𝕝𝕪 𝕨𝕒𝕝𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘.

𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕚𝕣 𝕨𝕖𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕙𝕖𝕝𝕡𝕤 𝕞𝕖 𝕗𝕖𝕖𝕝 𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕀 𝕒𝕞 𝕤𝕖𝕔𝕦𝕣𝕖𝕕 𝕚𝕟 𝕤𝕠𝕚𝕝, 𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕗𝕝𝕠𝕨𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀 𝕒𝕞, 𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕠 𝕓𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥𝕝𝕪 𝕓𝕝𝕠𝕤𝕤𝕠𝕞.

(§𝑜мEt𝕀мe₴ 𝓘 ғｅｅᒪ ᒪ𝕀Ҝｅ 𝓘'м 𝐚 Ŵｅｅᗪ 丅ⓗ𝐚丅'₴ ᵇｅｅภ §ρя𝑜𝓊t𝕀ภg 𝓊ρ 𝐚ภᗪ 丅ⓗя𝑜𝓊gⓗ𝑜𝓊t 𝐚ᒪᒪ 𝑜ғ мⓎ ᒪ𝑜𝐯ｅᗪ 𝑜ภｅ₴ §𝕀ᗪｅŴ𝐚ᒪҜ₴)

𝔽𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕕 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕤𝕥 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕡𝕝𝕖 𝕡𝕚𝕖𝕔𝕖𝕤 𝕠𝕗 𝕕𝕣𝕚𝕗𝕥𝕨𝕠𝕠𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦'𝕧𝕖 𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕓𝕒𝕓𝕝𝕪 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣 𝕤𝕖𝕖𝕟!

𝕀 𝕜𝕖𝕖𝕡 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕙𝕠𝕨 𝕒 𝕎𝕚𝕥𝕔𝕙 𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕨𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪 𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕞..

(Ꮆㄖ𝐭𝐭α 丂𝐭ㄖᑭ αⓛⓛ Μ𝕐 𝐭ｈ𝒾ℕк𝒾ℕᎶ 丂ㄖㄖℕ 𝐭ｈㄖᵘᎶｈ 匚αᵘ丂ⓔ 𝒾 Đㄖℕ'𝐭 ℝⓔαⓛⓛ𝕐 ℕⓔⓔĐ αℕ𝕐ㄖℕⓔ ㄖ𝐟 𝐭ｈⓔ丂ⓔ 𝐟ㄖℝⓔ丂𝐭 匚ℝⓔα𝐭ᵘℝⓔ丂 丂ⓔⓔ𝒾ℕᎶ Μⓔ 匚ℝ𝕐𝒾ℕᎶ)

𝔸𝕝𝕝 𝕚𝕟 𝕒𝕝𝕝, 𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕀 𝕒𝕞 𝕒𝕘𝕒𝕚𝕟, 𝕚𝕟 𝕞𝕪 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕕..

ℍ𝕠𝕡𝕚𝕟𝕘, 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕣𝕖 '𝕘𝕠𝕠𝕕𝕖𝕣 ' 𝕠𝕗𝕗 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕞𝕖.

(𝑒ｖ𝑒𝐍 丂Ø Ꭵ ⓕ𝑒𝑒ᒪ 𝐚丂 𝐓𝓱Øย𝕘𝓱 Ø𝐍𝑒 𝓭𝐚𝔂 𝔂Øย 𝐚я𝑒 𝕘ØƗ𝐍𝕘 𝐓Ø ⓕƗ𝐍𝓭 м𝑒)

- Jaded, amongst the Stars ✨

[z-elder]

░I░ ░t░h░i░n░k░ ░w░e░ ░f░i░n░d░

░o░u░r░ ░s░o░u░l░m░a░t░e░s░

░i░n░ ░t░h░e░ ░s░a░m░e░

░p░l░a░c░e░s░ ░w░e░ ░g░o░

░t░o░ ░f░i░n░d░ ░o░u░r░

░s░o░u░l░s░.░.░

[z-elder]

[z-elder]

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𝓘 𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓴 𝓘'𝓭 𝓼𝓪𝔂 𝔂𝓮𝓼..

.. 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓴𝓮𝓼 𝓶𝓮 𝓾𝓹 𝓪𝓽 𝓷𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽.

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𝓐𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓼𝓮 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓷𝓮𝓬𝓮𝓼𝓼𝓪𝓻𝔂 𝓭𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶𝓼?.

.. 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂 𝓷𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓶𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓼?

▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣▣

𝓘 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝓲𝓽..

.. 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾.

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𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓷, 𝔂𝓸𝓾'𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮..

.. 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓘'𝓿𝓮 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓼𝓪𝓲𝓭 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓶𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓭.

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[z-elder]

*•*•*•*•*..

She was a much better kisser than you..

Such a bitter sweet, this Gremlicorn-Queen.

And I think she tried that much harder because she knew that you were the one that was on my mind, at that time.

And to be honest, Her and I, the things that we shared;

Didn’t mean shit. To either of us.

I suppose maybe we both held onto a ghost that haunted the very center of our souls.

Where our hearts should have been found, cold.

But there wasnt anything left there, at all.

And I just don’t know if that makes us shitty people or not.

Or perhaps even, the smartest couple of fucks that had ever lived because..

That shit worked.

I think I'll still see you as my best.

Not that I'm really interested in finding that again anyways.

But now I know, you don’t deserve me.

And I feel confident in that now, I can restrain from.. You

*•*•*•*•*..