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It be like that sometimes 💀

#tw ana diary #@n0r3xi4 #⭐️rving #@nor3×14 #⭐️ve #💡as a 🪶 #@na vent #low cal restriction #⭐️vation goals #4norexla #@nor3xia #disordered eating in tags #ed not ed sheeran #⭐️ving #🚫🍴 #🦋diary #🦋log #4n4blr

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All the time fr

Does anyone else feel embarrassed for failing at their ED as an adult?

Like I have more control over my actions and my life than I ever did living with my parents- but I can’t lose weight or stay in a consistent deficit.

I’m such a 🐖

#⭐️ving #⭐️vation goals #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #🕯️as a 🪶 #💡as a 🪶 #🚫🍴 #🦋diary #🦋log #tw ed but not sheeran #sk!nandb0nes🩻 #4nor3xia #tw 3d vent #4n4blr #low cal restriction #disordered eating in tags

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Going out of my comfort zone with this one but I need to make this post to hold myself accountable and stay on track.

Soooo here's Me at my hw vs me now

I will never be that b!g again. W3!ght ga!n from psych m3ds is no joke

#@nor3×14 #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #💡as a 🪶 #⭐️ving #⭐️ ing motivation #@na vent #low cal restriction #4norexla #@nor3xia #disordered eating in tags #⭐️vation goals #4n4blr #4n4t1ps #b0dych3x #b0dy ch3ck #ed not ed sheeran #tw ana diary #🦋diary #🚫🍴 #🦋log

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🦋 4n4 Log 🦋

🦋 Yesterday went pretty well, I spent a while walking around town with Poe🐀 and that's was fun!

🦋 Def was pretty disappointed in myself for going over my c4l l!m!t but once I c4lcul4ted how many c4l§ I burnt, I was pleasantly surprised with the outcome ⭐🕯️

🦋 Other than that, my day wasn't very eventful. I just spent time outside with Poe🐀 and in nature🪻. I also found some new th!ñ§p0 that I'm living for (prolly gonna post it later 🫶) I also started a 55 hr f4st that I'll be finishing Saturday!

Kinda on topic but there is this new sc4le that is popping off on TikTok shop and it is absolutely amazing! It can tell you your b0dy f4t percentage, BMI, bmr, we!ght (of course), water we!ght, and b0ne density. It saves all the data and connects it to your phone! You can also stand on it with clothes and it doesn't add that to your we!ght, you just have to be barefoot.

Here's the link if anyone is interested: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTLGjJk4p/

Poe content below 🐀🪻❤️

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Ifykyk

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Not me getting told that my arms are freakishly small and fragile 🤭😏

#@nor3×14 #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #⭐️ving #⭐️vation goals #💡as a 🪶 #🕯️as a 🪶 #@na vent #low cal restriction #4norexla #@nor3xia #disordered eating in tags #ed not ed sheeran #4n4blr #4n4rexia #@n0r3xi4 #🚫🍴 #🦋diary #🦋log #🦋rant #pro for me not for thee

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Update ~~~~~

🦋 I'm super proud of myself! I've been sticking to my new wl plan and the motivation I've gained is crazyyy

🦋 After the rough b!nge/f4st cycle I got stuck in, it feels so much better to finally be back to h!gh r3s/f4st!ng

🦋 I completed my f4st successfully Friday and only had 387 c4ls yesterday. Even on a h!gh r3s d!3t I still felt satisfied and didnt have any cr4v!ngs.

🥀 Here are some things I've noticed about myself/done since starting my new plan 🥀 :

• I already feel lighter and cleaner

• my motivation sky rocketed

• stomach is no longer bloated and hurting

• I'm able to say no to the f00ds I no longer include in my daily intake

• confidence in improving

• completed a 55 hr f4st and didn't b!nge

• able to easily stay within my c4l l!m!t

• keeping myself busy so I don't 3at which turned into being more productive in my day to day living

• completely cleaned my house to bvrn c4ls (and it needed it lol)

• due to drinking more water I finally had a bowl movement

• got w3!ghed at the cardiologist and I'm right on track to my next gw!

• my skin is back to being clear and feels so much better

🦋 Overall things are going absolutely amazing and I'm excited to see how the next coming week goes. I can't wait for the day I get on a sc4le and it tells me that I've achieved (or even better) surpassed my next gw!

#@nor3×14 #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #⭐️ving #💡as a 🪶 #@na vent #4norexla #@nor3xia #low cal restriction #⭐️vation goals #disordered eating in tags #ed not ed sheeran #4n4t1ps #4n4blr #4n4rexia #🚫🍴 #🕯️as a 🪶 #🦋diary #🦋log #🦋rant #@n0r3xi4 #th1nnsp0 #thiinsp0 #ana moots #@na tips #@na motivation

[acidic-soulzv9]

Needed this fr

you get dizzy when you stand up—it’s working

your stomach hurts and growls—it’s working

clothes fit better—it’s working

you lose appetite—it’s working

you get compliments—it’s working

you know when it doesn’t? when you come up to the fridge and eat everything you see up and lie down with aches in your stomach and cry because you broke your promise again.

#3d diet #tw ed but not sheeran #@nor3×14 #@na vent #low cal restriction #disordered eating in tags #4n4t1ps #4n4blr #4n4rexia #⭐️ving #⭐️vation goals #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #🦋diary #🚫🍴 #🕯️as a 🪶 #💡as a 🪶 #@na motivation #th1nnsp0

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💯💯💯

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My f@t a$$ is wanting to break my f4st even though I know I shouldn't

I guess I'm gonna go pick apart every inch of my body and compare myself to my favorite th!ñ$p0 to remind myself why I'm doing this in the first place

Might dye my hair tonight if I get too tempted

#@nor3×14 #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #💡as a 🪶 #⭐️ving #⭐️vation goals #🕯️as a 🪶 #🚫🍴 #🦋diary #@na vent #4norexla #@nor3xia #low cal restriction #disordered eating in tags #ed not ed sheeran #sk!nandb0nes🩻 #f@st1ng #tw ana diary #4n4t1ps #4n4blr #@n0r3xi4 #th1nnsp0

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🥀 Oddly Specific Couples Th!ñ§p0 🥀

🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋

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🦋New Plan 🦋(starting Monday)

🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀

• No more than 500 c4ls a day AT M0ST

• F4st for 3 days, re$trict for 3 days, 1 free/m3ta day if I'm feeling super weak or hitting a plateau

• No drinks higher than 10 c4l (coffee excluded)

• At least 32oz of water a day

• No sweets/snack f00d/fast f00d (unless I choose a M3ta/free day then I can have l0wer c4l options)

• Consume some sort of Th!ñ$p0 as much as possible

• Start reading W4sted again

• D!spose of all f00ds that will t3mpt me or that I feel I have less c0ntrol over

• Walking every day as long as the weather is good

(might add more later, suggestions are welcome and appreciated)

#@nor3×14 #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #⭐️ving #⭐️vation goals #💡as a 🪶 #🚫🍴 #🦋diary #🦋log #🦋diet #sk!nandb0nes🩻 #@na vent #4norexla #@nor3xia #low cal restriction #disordered eating in tags #@tw edd #ed not ed sheeran #4n4t1ps #4n4blr #pro for me not for thee #th1nnsp0 #@n0r3xi4 #@na tips

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#@nor3×14 #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #💡as a 🪶 #@na vent #4norexla #@nor3xia #low cal restriction #⭐️vation goals #disordered eating in tags #ed not ed sheeran #4n4t1ps #4n4blr #@na motivation #🕯️as a 🪶 #🦋diary #🚫🍴 #⭐️ving #⭐️ ing motivation #th1nnsp0 #thiinsp0 #sk!nandb0nes🩻

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🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋

I fill my plate as i sit at table with my family.

There's laughter, there's joy.. then a pause.

My mother asks why im not eating

i tell her one of the usual

"i feel sick, i ate a big lunch, im not hungry".

But I'm constantly hungry...

The simple facts is

My b0dy is 3ating itself because i wont f33d it.

I w3!gh 1∅8, but if i call myself f4t,

If i, even bring it up that I Dont Like My B0dy....

Suddenly its every ones job to tell me

"i weigh __, so dont complain"

or

"i think your beautiful just the way you are."

Does it matter what i think?!

You can call me beautiful until youre Blue In The Face

but all i see is a someone with a b r o k e n smile.

All i see is a someone who should be thinner..

All I see someone who constantly thinks of

101 reasons of why im just not eating right now...

🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋

#@nor3×14 #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #💡as a 🪶 #@na vent #4norexla #@nor3xia #low cal restriction #⭐️vation goals #disordered eating in tags #ed not ed sheeran #4n4blr #4n0rexic #🚫🍴 #🕯️as a 🪶 #🦋diary #🦋rant #⭐️ving #@n0r3xi4 #ed poetry #th1nnsp0 #thiinsp0

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T0rs0 Th!ñ§p∅

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#@nor3×14 #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #💡as a 🪶 #@na vent #4norexla #@nor3xia #low cal restriction #⭐️vation goals #disordered eating in tags #⭐️ving #4n4t1ps #4n4blr #4n4rexia #🕯️as a 🪶 #🕯️as a feather #🚫🍴 #🦋diary #🦋log #@n0r3xi4 #th1nnsp0 #th!n$piration #th!gh gap #th!nsp0 #thiinsp0