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Astarion! Also now as a print here~!

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i painted Astarion hehe :3c prints here

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Astarion work in progress i meant to finish like a month or 2 ago but then just kinda forgot about it lolol

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nother Astarion wip i thought i wouldve finished by now alksfjasf

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about to say something mean but i feel like every "male-specific" issue is something that also happens to women its just that a lot of you dont seem to see women as people

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I think people are confused...because, um...saying I, as a biracial Black woman, am uncomfortable with white white Anne Rice fans until I get to hear or read how they address the fucked up framing of the shit she wrote in her stories is not censorship lol. Having a desire that more Anne Rice fans face what is uncomfortable to Black people in her books isn't censorship. Damn.

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i just want to say i have read all the messages ive gotten, and they are all so very kind and sweet and i do plan on responding to each one personally cause it does truly mean a lot, but right now i just kind of feel so horrible and dont think i can do that right now. but thank you!!!!! <3

#i dont have it in me to talk to anyone right now #but it still means a lot #i dont know what im going to do with this life that i have. and i want to live. but i am just so so tired all the time. #and when im not crying im on the verge of tears #so i keep trying to distract myself with things

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nother random guy

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Maybe there's just something wrong with me that just makes me inherently unlovable.

#i am quite literally nobdies favorite #it feels peettt awful lol #ive always known it but i dunno #it sucks to be constantly reminded

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I also love that I got my hopes up. I thought at first maybe I shouldn't and played a scenario where she said no but then I thought. Oh she won't say no. She might hesitate but it won't be no. Lol. She loves me. Lmao.

#i was wrong #to be fair she said no and then said shed think about it #but the whole thing the way she made me feel like such a burden lol #idk man

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fucking sucks how im still crying if i think about It for too long -_-

#god this sucks #idk what im gonna do #i rlly might have to move to with my ma to mexico for a little just to have housing lmao

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so many queer ppl will be like "deviating from social norms is part of who we are" and then gleefully participate in fatphobia/diet culture and nearly make being skinny an entire ideology and identity

#honestly there are soooo many people that love to think they deviate from social norms #and break boundaries or whatever #and like they always are within the bounds of the status quo like be so fr right now #like with fatphobia and racism like yall love ur white supremacist based beauty standards -_-

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home by Pinkshift

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Crying again! ^_^ is this all that life is.

#and the thing is is that im really trying not to #i just dont know what else to do #i feel so pathetic

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home by Pinkshift

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GOD LIKE IM ACTUALLY TRYING VERY HARD TO NOT CRY. AND I KEEP FUCKING FAILING>.T HIS IS SO FUCKING STUPID

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every time i try to think about something else to distract myself i just keep thinking about today and start crying. its so stupid.

#im a crybaby and dumb as fuck #i think maybe im being ridiculous but then i think abut it harder and im like maybe im not #maybe me crying is actually a very appropriate response to this situation #whatever