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okay this is gonna sound so wild but i was just looking through like old cjfs qotd answers and i realised that YOU!! included live the dream in your list of favourite fics and i had a ‘wait that. that’s the artist. the really cool artist’ moment where my brain was refusing to comprehend that

oh i also didn’t preface this i’m the beta reader for live the dream, have been since the start, my bud writes it. it’s just so wild to me that it’s as popular as it is and seeing stuff like that from awesome people like you just hits that nail in more

ahhh i’m just rambling point is you’re really cool!!!! glad you think a thing me and my friend made is cool too!!!

Haha you ramble to me? I will ramble back :>

I kinda forgot I did that since I so rarely talk in qotd... that list is slightly outdated now since I've read more in that time which is funny to think about. Being called The Artist and The Really Cool Artist will always be such a bizarre experience because that's never happened to me outside of this fandom but has happened several times here... I just appear and say things in places and then people occasionally lose it. It's a high honor really to be considered so cool.. I don't understand it but I'm flattered nonetheless :D

Live the Dream was one of the first fics I read in this fandom! I've also reread LtD recently because I finally got around to reading Little Remedies for the first time ever... which fucked me up in a positive way I should've done that sooner. Having the context from Little Remedies on the second go of LtD made the reread such an enjoyable and new experience oh my god. It was wonderful. It deserves it's popularity! I'm glad my say on it is worth something to you, and possibly your friend/the author... also an equally new prospect for me. I also forgot beta readers were a thing (because I don't have one for my fics) lmao.

You're cool too!! You and your friend!!! I'm thrilled and bewildered you think my stuff is cool as well!!

Keep up the good work :>>>

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YOU STILL LIKE THE SIDES LILE YOURW STILL HERE

Waiting for new Sides ep like

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tonight's dress code

#op this is so fucking cool #what the hell #love this sm omg

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LISTEN YOU MOTHERFUCKERS DONT UNDERSTAND

I FUCKING LOVE TRANSFEM LESBIAN HMS. SPECIFICALLY MIND AND/OR SOUL BUT HEY HEART CAN FULFILL MY HEADCANON TOO!

AND HOLY F U C K I LOVE SEA CREATURE MIND. IF YOU DRAW MIND AS A SEA CREATURE OF ANY KIND IM FUCKING KISSING YOU ON THE MOUTH. /p

#i didn’t do anything for mermay but maybe #maybe a lil late piece #also i’m very much a tfem mind believer mwa mwa tfem mind

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REBLOG IF YOU ARE A WRITER ON TUMBLR

IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT KIND OF WRITER YOU ARE YOU CAN BE WRITING: POEMS, FANFICS, IDK NORMAL FICS, NOVELS, SHORT STORIES, IDK ANYTHING!! JUST REBLOG!!!

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also happy early birthday to Technoblade funniest man to ever exist. like. genuinely peak comedy. we miss you 💚

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AITA for shooting someone? (Tw eye injury + suicide)

One of the guys I share a body with, M, always called me weak and insulted me for being depressed. So eventually I snapped and shot him with a gun because he was mean and deserved it. But I missed and he survived and then our host, S, stabbed my eyes out with his trident and they put me in the hole I was gonna bury M in. Then M CONTINUED to make fun of me for being depressed and hating him.

I think M deserves to be shot again and I didn't deserve to be bullied like that, but now S is sick of our fighting and is threatening to kill all three of us.

Am I the asshole here?

#you’re all horrible esh

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Mixed too much paint for a project so Acrylic Mind yippee

#op this is gorgeous what the fuck

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consider: intrusive thoughts described like shitty Buzzfeed articles

“Top 10 Reasons Why You’re Actually a Pedophile”

“People Are Sharing the Best Slurs to Scream at the Top of Your Lungs and Honestly I Am So Here For It”

“Tell Me Your Favorite Color and I’ll Tell You You Can Jump In Front of A Moving Train Right Now”

“You’ve Heard of [Normal Activity], But Have You Heard of All the Horrible Ways You Can Die While Doing It???!!”

“This Quiz Will RevealWhich Hand You Could Hypothetically Stick in a Blender!”

#tw intrusive thoughts #fucking top tier comedy

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to be honest i really dont like this over-corrective attitude of "REAL intrusive thoughts are UPSETTING AND SICKENING!!" as a way to combat the tiktok misinformation & language trends ("bleaching my hair because the intrusive thoughts won") because now we're defining intrusive thoughts not as neutral, but as bad and hurtful. which is a serious problem because now how are people with ocd supposed to brush away intrusive thoughts as they come before obsessing until they feel so upset they fall sick to their stomach, if now whether or not they are true or intrusive hinges on that feeling of upset? something tells me we shouldnt be telling people with intrusive thoughts "REAL intrusive thoughts ARE HORRIFYING AND TERRIBLE AND GUT WRENCHING!!!" if we want to recover and heal and live in peace. intrusive thoughts are neutral. theyre random, meaningless, and will go just as fast as they came. no need to latch on until youre sure its really intrusive. intrusive =/= agonizing. its as agonizing as you let it be. lets stop telling people this bullshit, this isnt how we fight against misinformation, this is how we make ourselves sicker.

#not to be autism but as someone who suffers from intrusive thoughts #bitches need to start watching sanders sides again #sanders sides my beloved (directly led to me being able to cope better with my intrusive thoughts)

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hot artists don't gatekeep

I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard

Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.

Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.

Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.

Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.

SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.

SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.

Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.

Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.

Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.

Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.

Height Weight Chart. You ever see an OC listed as having a certain weight but then they look Wildly different than the number suggests? Well here's a site to avoid that! It shows real people at different weights and heights to give you a better idea of what these abstract numbers all look like. Free to use.

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I FUCKING LOVE ALONE WITH MY THOUGHTS AND I FUCKING LOVE THIS PIECE TOO

sorry i have a lot of feelings

and ive seen just about everything, but none of it i can keep.

alone with my thoughts is very underrated,,, go listen to it (this is a demand) (/lh)

here are the stills :]

fun fact time! (i like to make these aksjdl sorry)

the suit is a reference to the astronaut in the album cover of the original song (Noah Floersch)

so is the audio recorder in cjs hand

...and the yellow-pink border

the thing moving on his chest is the audio waves from cjs music video playing the same lyric from this drawing

the words are supposed to resemble sound waves but i could NOT figure out how to make em move (i tried...so many times...i got irritated and left them alone...never again...)

the background was made in like a minute using a tutorial from pinterest lol

procreate dreams glitched at one point and made his right arm go flying off the screen (i thought it was gone forever...totally didnt panic or anything...)

#op. op i love you #this is so good #so good #i’m going insane #screaming crying throwing up

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okay so i was reading through this and the main big thing i feel that’s being left out here is his role in regards to roman. creativity is an all-consuming force, especially for artists your creativity is always active and coming up with ideas and bothering you in one way or another. we know roman, who is a light side, who has been present since the very beginning of the series, already feels dejected because his ideas don’t seem as valuable to thomas as he wants. how does this relate to remus and his purpose and motivations you ask? i’ll explain.

as someone who got a surprising amount of talks on mental health in school, something that we were told about a lot was the effects of treatment at home. different things can make people act in different ways, namely negligence or abuse. what we see with roman and remus is two different kinds of negligence and their effects.

roman isn’t being given enough praise, which is devastating for his role as both creativity and ego. if you aren’t letting yourself feel good about your creations and ideas, you’re not going to feel like creating. you’re going to feel like everything you make is bad, isn’t up to scratch. this is a separate issue that needs addressed at some point.

remus on the other hand is getting barely attention at all. there’s a certain saying that comes with that, being ‘any attention is good attention’. that is where why remus acts like he does comes in. this has been confirmed by thomas to be in remus’ line of behaviour, in a now inaccesible livestream that took place right after dwit released, thomas spoke about remus (obviously) but said two things that stuck out to me so much i wrote them down a few years ago when i watched that stream. those two being “he’s like the neglected younger brother that just screams for attention” and, “it really is a ‘look at me, look at me’ kind of deal”.

that’s why remus acts the way he does. he is the metaphorical class clown. he is being as insufferable, as disturbing, as irritating as he can so thomas will pay attention to him. will acknowledge his existence for even a moment. while roman is devastatingly insecure, remus doesn’t get looked at enough to even think about feeling shame. that is where remus’ arc is going. he hides how deeply and upsettingly lonely he is, how unfulfilled he is, behind his constant and perfected mask of deranged indifference.

that’s why the only time he is genuinely threatening in any way is towards logan in dwit, when he’s getting through to thomas about ignoring remus. this is remus’ shot, his opportunity to get through, and it’s being ripped away from him. he’s perfectly fine coming out of the episode with the negative view thomas has on him, because thomas has an opinion of him at all. it is important in these moments to recognise remus is not intrusive thoughts, and is not representative of them, and that intrusive thoughts are his method. the best way for him to get to thomas is to forcefully plant himself in his mind and make himself as hard to ignore as possible. this isn’t the only thing he’s made for, he’s creativity for crying out loud, of course he wants to do more, but it’s the only thing that works.

sorry that was long i have a lot of thoughts about remus. anyways all my opinion feel free to say i’m entirely wrong in every way

What is Remus' contribution?

Let's discuss

So as we know all of the sides' sole purpose in life is to help make sure c!Thomas is safe, successful and happy in life:

Logan is responsible for his learning, vocabulary, reasoning, logic and curiosity;

Virgil is responsible for his safety, vigilance, attention to his relationships, caution and basic life preservation instincts;

Roman is responsible for creativity, ego, self esteem, adventurousness and romantic pursuits;

Patton is responsible for his morality, sense of wonder, joy, memories and nostalgia

Janus is his self preservation instinct and represents his more selfish impulses and adds some nuance to the group's discussions.

Remus...?

As we know, there are no "bad" or "evil" sides, and that presumably includes Remus and the orange side soon to be revealed.

However, as hard as I may try I can't seem to come up with what might be Remus' role. All of the sides take on multiple crucial roles in c!Thomas' life and sure, it could be argued that Remus' disturbing suggestions and mental images he conjures serve as moral tests in which by consistently picking the safe, healthy option over the dangerous or unethical option c!T can be sure of where he stands morally. But how many times can a man's morals be tested before it just becomes exhausting? What else does Remus do? Surely he doesn't only represent intrusive thoughts, when the other sides represent so much beyond what they're best known for?

I would like to hear your thoughts, headcanons and theories about Remus, cause I'm afraid I really don't get his character. At least not so far. I would like to get to know him better as a character in the next episodes.

#long post #sanders sides analysis #remus sanders analysis #remus sanders #sanders sides #i think about him so much

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oh yeah forgot to post these guys

for when you're definitely very normal about Things

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Whole fell asleep.

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I've been binging The Magnus Archives lately and I can't resist shoving my interests together, so obviously I'm putting Thomas Sanders characters in the fear world.

And I thought it would just be so very funny if Remus was the last of the sides to end up becoming an avatar of something.