autismon

[autismon]

woke up in the middle of the night mumbling something about how npd supply is basically "getting your narcussy slonked" and i don't think i've mentally recovered from that yet

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Haha narc abuse?

Is the narc being abused

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Just a reminder that no matter what you have done, lie you have told, or what PD you have, you will always be morally superior to any Billionaire or U.S politician.

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It's funny how our narcissism influences how we love.

We see someone extraordinary and unique in a person we love. Someone who is finally on our level. Someone we are willing to show what perfect love means — and that they can experience it with us. We want to show them all the wonders of the world, give them a place beside us, with their own throne, beside ours. In the grandiose fantasies, we make room for them and especially for them.

It's not a manipulative, cold-blooded attempt at controlling someone when we do everything to make the person we fell for feel special — because we actually view this person as special. Why else would we want them around us.

Like, the need for association with extraordinary people and fantasies of ideal love are literally in the criteria, so what should anyone expect here?

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any other narcissists have a mindset that is mostly "if u dont do something for me im not gonna do something for u" like if u dont respect me im not gonna respect u. if u dont message me im not gonna message u. if u arent nice to me im not gonna be nice to u. if u dont try to understand me im not gonna try to understand u. a lot of ppl have an idea that like even if someone is bad there are some things that they deserve and i agree to an extent but also if they dont put the effort into me im not gonna put the effort into them. i believe there is a basic form of respect that people deserve but it can easily be taken away if theyre a piece of shit.

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how to defeat The Narcissist:

be rlly nice to them and give them 10000000 dollars and tell them u love them and that theyre special :33

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ableds will believe that giants exist and that the world is flat before they believe a single disabled person about anything

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i am actually going to die if i do not get nicotine soon

#its been like #6 hours #but too long already #river !

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This might be a very specific experience, but I think a huge reason I didn't even realize or even want to be bisexual was specifically because of this intersection of my manhood and the way it's viewed

There's this toxic merry-go-round I find myself riding where I am so desperate to not be one of those guys to a woman that it winds up being an inability to connect to women* because of this hyperpolicing I end up doing. For the longest time, I repressed myself because of this impulse, and I find it interesting. It's interesting seeing how this aspect of patriarchy impact me in such a way that I was too afraid of myself and the people around me.

As a trans man, I felt the pressure to prove both that I'm not one of those men, but also, that I wasn't this predatory trans man, that anything I did was in service to proving why I should (or should not) continue to exist. Simultaneously, I am both not a man, but also a predatory man because of my transness, a threat to be contained. I felt this before as somebody who is multisexual, but it somehow affects me more in the aspect of how I interact with women* and womanhood* from the outside.

There isn't an overarching theme to this post, a message about what you can do. It's mostly reflecting on my experiences and thinking about where my impulse to think myself as guilty until proven innocent plays into how I've started viewing myself. I don't want to overgeneralize, but I've seen this expressed by many a trans man*.

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penises and vaginas are neutral body parts btw

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My favorite fucking thing (/sarcasm) is "NPD, BPD, ASPD, and any other cluster B disorders" like. Dude just say HPD it's not a fucking slur 😭 I'd get it if there were like 1000 but there's four it's not that much effort 😭😭😭

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"a narcissist's eyes will turn pure black" you mean like an adorable kitty cat?? an adorable kitty cat who saw a fun toy??

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victim of severe childhood abuse: the trauma made me depressed and hypervigilant

mental health allies: you are so valid and I feel so sorry for you

victim of severe childhood abuse: the trauma made me lose the ability to feel empathy

mental health allies: YOU'RE DISGUSTING AND EVIL I HOPE YOU DIE!!!!!

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people with personality disorders: it was difficult to survive on the ground, so i climbed in a tree and now im stuck and can’t get down

mental health workers (and everyone really): it seems that they climbed in trees to manipulate us. they are fully capable of getting down but doing so would make it harder to abuse us, so they stay there