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i think the thing that makes people mischaracterize and completely miss the point of chara is that theyre written to be two very different things concurrently that dont really mesh together.

from what we know concretely about chara as a character, they were a very mentally ill child and complicated person who simultaneously hurt and helped people around them, who held both a lot of love and hate in their heart. they are fairly vague but also have specific character traits such as liking chocolate and filling up water glasses to the brim to maximize efficiency. they take speaking patterns from toriel and an interest in gardening from asgore. if you believe in the narrachara theory, they even have a character arc that changes depending on the route you take. they are inarguably a character who haunts the narrative due to their decisions in life having lead to tragedy that shapes the very plot of the game inextricably; and arguably a character that haunts the narrative and shapes the story much more literally in being a conscious force and companion that accompanies our journey.

at the same time, chara isnt treated as a character at all and is instead a meta-narrative device meant to act as an in-universe player stand-in. in this way chara isnt actually a person with character traits, but a vehicle for toby to provide commentary about the people who play video games. they are a concept that represents the state of thoughtless exp grinding. in the no mercy route their main purpose is to be a reflection of you and your mindset, even more directly than flowey. the reason theyre named after you is because, for a number of aspects in the game, they are supposed to be you; with no notable separation like there is with frisk.

this problem also heavily applies to frisk, for who there is an effort to separate their identity from yours at the end of the pacifist route but who still ends up with no real character traits of their own. people compensate for this by using black-and-white thinking; which results both in assigning frisk and chara a sort of "good-and-evil" dichotomy leading to their early fan interpretations, and in thinking that frisk and chara can only be either fully fleshed out characters or mindless player inserts leading to people favouring option one and basically ignoring the player as a concept except to occasionally use it as a generic big bad.

i think toby prioritized meta-textual implications over actual textual characterization for the human characters in undertale. this left chara as a character feeling unclear, unfocused, and incongruent due to them trying to be several things at once with no real through-line; and frisk as a character feeling practically non-existent outside of being a vessel. there are effectively two different charas in undertale, the character and the plot device, which makes it hard to talk about them as one consistent whole. i think this is why in tobys second game hes been putting such a focus on kris as a character and their separation from the player, as to improve on what he didnt properly touch on in undertale.

#undertale

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The Hole at the Center of Everything

🍩🐱🐊🦊🐻🐦🐭🐻

#nitw

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#nitw

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a sequel to this post

#did

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Some days, DID looks like constant spacing out and never seeming fully there. Missed bits of conversations and a memory that doesn’t seem like it wants to work.

Sometimes it looks like talking to myself, constant internal noise and heightened sensory sensitivity.

Some days DID looks like being emotional for seemingly no reason, crying, laughing, anger over something I don’t know, emotional bleed-through from other alters.

Other days it just looks like severe PTSD. Avoidance, spacing out, needing help to ground myself. Flashbacks that I honestly can’t remember the triggers of, or remember the full event of, but that I know are flashbacks.

And sometimes it just looks like nothing at all. I seem put-together and relatively normal. You’d never know I had a dissociative disorder.

The day-to-day severity of my symptoms do not determine what mental illness I have. I still have DID and I still struggle with it whether you can see it or not.

#did

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#did

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Hey guys i finally did it

I inly did what i would often draw btw

I dont mind people using the design btw, you dont have to cred me i really dont mind lmao

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The alien Pearl canon along with the evo-hermitcraft connection headcanon is insane because Pearl’s first appearance in evo was her literally falling from the sky. I believe

#hermitblr

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The Champions of the Moon and Stars

My main thought behind making this was the concept in mythology of gods choosing sides in mortal wars. A fight with stakes, but without the damage that would be caused if they fought directly.

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call him a professional chef the way hes so good at cracking eggs

[id: several black-and-white sketches of dream smp characters, in which wilbur is depicted as a trans man. in the first, wilbur and eret are shaking hands. wilbur is saying “nice to meet you, i’m wilbur!” while eret stares down at wilbur’s boobs, thinking “ooh. i want those.” in the second drawing, wilbur and sally (a trans woman who hasn’t realized her identity yet) are laying in bed. wilbur’s saying “well, i was born a girl, but i realized i’d be happier as a boy, so-” and sally, shocked, exclaims “you can DO that??” in the third drawing, wilbur is comforting a young fundy. fundy says “i hate being a girl! i wish i could be anything else!!” and wilbur, smiling, says “well, i have good news for you, bud.” in the last, tommy and tubbo, both young kids (and soon-to-be trans boys) are laying in a field together. tommy says “man, wilbur’s so cool. i wanna be just like him someday.” and tubbo replies “yeah, same.” the next panel shows the same drawing with the meme of rdj pointing at himself, and the text “they are both transgender.” end id]

#dsmp

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Something I've been working on for the past few weeks following the end of Secret Life.

I give you... the Wheel of Life!

See what you can spot the meaning of. :D

Thanks to my buddy @bgc-592 for letting me bounce my ideas for this off them. I appreciate it.

#trafficblr #woah

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Pearls POV of Double Life will be forever cherished inside my heart

#trafficblr #no this song with pearl is so real

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12yo me would've loved these wolves

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Soldier, poet, king.

For @cinnacrafts, happy holidays!!! You had an epic list of prompts, and it was a bit of a struggle trying to pick just one idea. (Or, technically, three😅) But I had a lot of fun working on this project, and I hope you like!

For @hermbi-discord's yearly gift exchange:D

(Tumblr crunched the quality a bit, tap on them to see properly)

#trafficblr #hermitblr

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Happy birthday! ^^

Reblog to give ctommy more cake!

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curious young goddess

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#hello charlotte