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Happy autism awareness and acceptance month!

Unfriendly reminder that if you are advocating for autism to not be considered disabled you are advocating for the removal of supports many of us need to function and stay alive! It is by definition a disability, and you should be listening to medium and high support needs autistic people more!

#autism

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“if somebody becomes panicked when you accuse them of lying theyre obviously not telling the truth” shut up ugly im a survivor who got punished for shit i never did all the time of fucking course im gonna panic when im blamed for something i didnt do

#fucking hate this idea #i was ABUSED #of course im nervous when accused falsely #jeez

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Go Forth Without Falter, With Your Heart As Your Guide. . .

♡ ɜ * ₊ ･ PASTEL AUTISM FLAG : the autism flag but pastel ! exclusive to autistics ♡

taglist : @smilepilled @jiiamp @hanamura-dangan-kin @timmy-bee @nexolord @themothnotthemap @violetbunkuromi @bjdboyy

#autism #flags

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very exhausting to explain that my autism is not your fault.

overstimulated is not your fault.

meltdown not your fault.

stim not your fault.

disability is not your fault!!! and i am not sympathetic about this anymore!! stop getting upset when show disability!!! stop centering yourself in my disability!!

#disability #autism #mental health #actually autistic #medium support needs #disabilties #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #delusional deer

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There'll be a post like, "ableism is bad" and all the comments will be "yeah! Ableists are all sociopaths and narcissists!" "Ableists all live in their moms basements and don't contribute anything to society!"

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UHHH

I LOVE THEM👩‍🎤👩‍🎤 WOO

#my little pony

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🌺✨️

#this is probably my fav artist ever #leon kennedy

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btw shout out to people with disorders that are stigmatized as dangerous killers who actually have homicidal thoughts and urges. people with DID, ASPD, schizospec disorders and psychosis, ect. you're not perpetuating stereotypes or ableist by existing and having your personal experience and anyone who blames you for that is an asshole. take care.

#i love u #we deserve better #mental health

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Apparently this needs to be said so

Forgetting things is morally neutral! Memory issues are morally neutral!

You're not a bad person if you...

forget things quickly

forget people

can't remember entire stages of your life

can't remember important things

can remember some things very well and forget other things all the time

can't remember things (or anything!) about your interests

forget to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, etc

forget to reply to texts

remember things and immediately forget them again

can't remember birthdays, events, etc

frequently answer 'I forgot' to questions

can't retain new information

forget things you used to know

only remember things when it's too late

have vague, distorted and/or unreliable memories

depend on others to know how an event you were in played out

have other symptoms that are worsened by memory issues and vice versa

... and anything else I might have missed!

#disability

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Please donate to Mai Rajab if you can. This is her second Gofundme. The first one was organised by a woman named Gaia Thomas who scammed Mai out of the tens of thousands of dollars people had raised.

#palestine

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couldn't decide which hair to do, so I did both

#JEIWNAKA #I LOEB HIM #IM GONNA CRY #autism won for a second sorry #leon kennedy

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I don't know who needs to hear this, but 99% of the time that ex of yours is not actually a narcissist or a sociopath simply because they sucked and you hate them. By using these words you are in fact demonizing actual mentally ill people, unlike your ex who is far more likely to just be an asshole

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#palestine

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this month I'm doing a challenge called february, it's where I try to have one (1) good day in february

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AARON PAUL as JESSE PINKMAN

Breaking Bad (2008-2013) ‘Mandala’ — 2.11

#drug tw #just in case

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to anyone experiencing grief right now, for whatever reason, i love you.

if you need it, it wasn't your fault. there was nothing you could've done. the past is past, and you can only change how you go forward.

you deserve to continue, even if your loved ones didn't. i know it's hard. it hurts to wake up without them. but you can do it. even if you're just waking up and laying in bed all day, that's enough. as long as you're here.

i love you, and it'll get easier one day. it won't be this heavy forever. remember to allow yourself to feel everything you feel. be angry, sad and reminisce. be kind and gentle with yourself. 🫂🩷 (hug and pink heart emoji)

#grief #tw death #being a survivor is hard #because you always remember #that some of us arent. #they didn't survive. #and i miss my friends so dearly #my brave beautiful friends #but i continue for them #to tell their stories #and to make sure theyre always remembered #disability #delusional deer

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I'm having a bit of a normal one tonight so

• shoutout to hc-did systems who don't have a fucking clue what all their programs are or how exactly they work or how they're triggered and may constantly be living like they're walking on eggshells.

• shoutout to hc-did systems who have no fucking idea what the full extent of their trauma is and are terrified to figure out more and/or want to learn everything that happened so badly.

• shoutout to hc-did systems who don't know or understand everything about their innerworld. fuck it shoutout to hc-did systems who just Don't Know in general!

• shoutout to hc-did systems who don't have any "real" or "physical" proof of their ramcoa besides their own memories.

• shoutout to hc-did systems whos perpetrators never got a lick of punishment for what they did to you or others.

• shoutout to hc-did systems who actively want or are trying to get their perpetrators punished for what they did.

• shoutout to hc-did systems who can't have their perpetrators punished for what they did.

• shoutout to hc-did systems who might still be in danger. real or perceived.

this ramcoa shit is so confusing and exhausting and horrible and lonely and fucking (re)traumatizing and it's so hard. i'm tired I just want people to believe me sometimes but how much do I believe other people believe me when I share the sheer horrors that rear their ugly heads in our mind. from alters popping up or a memory just appearing out of nowhere to just whole somatic flashbacks. how much can we take? how much DID we take?

#hc did #ramcoa