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as a toddler they showed me pictures of disney princesses with waists the size of the quarters and said isn’t she beautiful ?

in elementary school they put everyone on the line and said the number of beeps you made it to in the pacer was a measure of your grade, worth, and health

in middle school they gave us each 10 m&ms and then we went on a walk, counting the steps until we’d walked far enough to burn them off

in high school my running coaches gave us a number that was the ideal weight for runners and worked harder for the girls that hit that number

in college i would come home to grandparents praising how much weight i’d lost and fondly calling me tiny

and then they all turn around and ask me why are you like this? why can’t you stop thinking about this? why are you so obsessed?

do you think this is beautiful?

no. but you told me it was

#not mine

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i love this community but you know what i really love? when people leave. when they say "i'm out, i want to recover." it brings me peace knowing that someone might just be okay, and hope that the rest of us might follow in their footsteps.

so if you're leaving, here's to you.

if you're not ready to leave, here's to you too.

and remember, wherever you are in your journey, you deserve to recover and be happy.

#not mine

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broskis tell me why i try 2 recover every 3 months & every time i relapse

#gettin real sick of this babes #ghost says stuff

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abt 2 start taping thinspo 2 my fridge like its a bad 90s movie lmao

#mine #ghost says stuff

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hoo boy i hate flashbacks

#this sounds like a joke #but i am very upset #i just cant talk abt my pain w/o joking apparently #hahahaha FUCK #mine #ghost says stuff

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21 hours into my fast lets gooooo

#mine #ghost says stuff

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:(

#not mine

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I love that some of y'all are still giving disclaimers like "Tmi sorry but *describes bowel movements*". Like babe I'm on edblr I know what I'm getting into dw

#LMAOOOO #not mine

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:') thank u !!!!!!! thats so sweet. but also

#ghost answers

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pinterest rlly makes me hate my body lmao

#mine #not me #tw ed related #thiinso #thiinsp0 #tw ed thoughts #thin inspo #i want to be skiny #thiinisms #ed stuff #thiisnpo

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the feminine urge to weigh yourself 5 times a day

#not mine #big mood

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i dont think eating disorders are good i just work here

#not mine

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Reblog if you’re in the Yes-I-Have-An-Eating-Disorder-No-You-Shouldn’t-Starve-Yourself club

#not mine

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Person: I haven't eaten today

Me who has eaten already: did... did you just call me a slur

#not mine

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No one:

My ed and dysphoria: lmao you look like this

#not mine

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a lot of times u can use butter/cooking spray. it often works the same way, and its 0 calories

i wish olive oil calories didn’t count 😡 😡

#atlas says stuff

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i think the scariest thing about eating disorders is the way they convince you that you are in control during your downward spirals but out of control when you’re taking care of yourself

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