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1. anti-hero, taylor swift / 2, 19. “taylor swift’s ‘sexy baby’ lyric is more than a ‘30 rock’ reference,” sophia june for nylon magazine / 3, 4, 12, 22. taylor swift ages 14-16, photographed by andrew orth / 5, 23. dominique swain age 15, photographed for lolita (1997) / 6, 17. “the fetishization of girlhood,” m.c. easton / 7. lolita (1962), dir. stanley kubrick / 8. 22 (mv), taylor swift / 9. anti-hero (mv), taylor swift / 10, 14, 18. nothing new, taylor swift ft. phoebe bridgers / 11. “2008’s country lolita: taylor swift,” gavin edwards for rolling stone / 13, 21. lolita (1997), dir. adrian lyne / 15. okcupid dating chart: age preferences by gender / 16. all too well (ten minute version), taylor swift / 20. university of pittsburgh 2021-2022 undergraduate catalog / 23. would’ve, could’ve, should’ve, taylor swift

apologies for this ridiculously long megathread, but i found a ton of these photographs of taylor from when before she was famous, around ages 14-16, and ooh boy, did they get me thinking…

sometimes i wonder if she just really lucked out with the mostly desexualized “innocent girl-next-door” persona becoming her brand throughout her early career, because it looks like things could have gone in a very different direction for her in another universe.

like you can literally see taylor being de-aged between her debut and fearless era as her public image cemented…the posing, the makeup, the hair, the clothing…it’s all very deliberate and sinister.

and now, all these years later, no one knows better than taylor herself that the most desirable thing a woman can be is not a woman, but a girl…a sexy baby, if you must.

her heart-shaped sunglasses, nothing new, the ten minute version of all too well, would’ve could’ve should’ve…she knows all about society’s sickness, its simultaneous fetishization and destruction of girlhood. she knows because she’s lived through it.

we don’t often categorize her or think of her as one, but she was a child star, and she barely escaped its curse. just barely. but unlike so many other child stars, unlike dolores haze, she survived with her voice and her pen, and she can see it all now, it was wrong.

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do i even need to say who this makes me think of—? 💀

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1. fiona apple: the caged bird sings, chris heath - for rolling stone / 3. slow like honey, fiona apple / 4. lady lazarus, sylvia plath / 5. dear john, taylor swift / 7. radio, lana del rey / 9. still i rise, maya angelou / 10. liability, lorde / 11. photography by olivia bee

i wanna live a glorious, divine, happy life and do amazing things just to spite all my haters and idc if that makes me pathetic or bitter 😌😌apparently when people at school heard i got into x college, some girl i’ve vaguely known since middle school was like “esotericswiftie? seriously? she got in there?” and ngl that satisfied some deep primal craving within me to prove them all wrong. i wanna leave them crying, shaking, throwing up!!!

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literally vanessa

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reread a little mdv today and lord i hate that man so much😭😭😭

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oh vanessa wye

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someday we must talk about how goddamn CORNY strane was in my dark vanessa…like yes, he’s an evil pedo, but no one ever mentions the fact that he’s a complete and total LOSER.

grown man calling himself a “dark romantic”… telling a teenager that “when we’re together, it feels as though the dark things inside me rise to the surface and brush against the dark things inside you”…like??? 😭 he’s so full of shit it’s actually kinda hilarious…i think i genuinely laughed out loud the first time i read that passage 💀

#my dark vanessa #thoughts #girl blogger #girl blog #girlblogging

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haven’t written in so long…i feel void of ideas. boring life, boring writing. is the fact that i only really write about my own experiences a symptom of some deeper underlying inadequacy? a shallow, uninspired, unenlightened mind?

i’m always convinced i have so many thoughts, so many directions i could go, but they disappear whenever the paper sits blank in front of me. i already hate the essays i’ve been writing, so i don’t even try to write creatively. that unyielding conviction i carried when i was young—that i had a talent with words, that i truly could be great one day if i just worked at it and cultivated my craft—it honestly seems delusional now.

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oh!

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baby that’s ocd not the devil😭

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Jeanne D’Arc will always be the og girlboss

#loml

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me

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me and the voices

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written by kaveh akbar

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me if i was an instagram reels schizo-post

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me

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