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It’s 6pm and I forgot to eat..? I was in university the whole time and I had food with me but I guess I was too busy to think of that lol. Lesssgoo

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Oh to be this attractive and skinny

beauty 🥀🖤

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30.06.21

Weight: 70kg (-+0)

Breakfast: Oatmeal (113)

Lunch: Soy Curry (216)

Dinner: 2*Proteinshakes (234)

Sport: 8,8k steps (100)

~ 562 - 100 = 462cal | 60g Protein

Note: Still kinda frustrating that I can’t go to the gym, my injury isn’t better at the moment. I needed to force myself for dinner because if not my muscles wouldn’t get enough protein and also not heal fast enough. I needed 10g More Protein but f that, I need to lose weight too🙄

#food log

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Throwback to where I lost my food intake/manifesting diary in the school and my music teacher giving it me back and asking if everything was alright. That shit was fucking ✨awkward✨🙂

#i want to be skiny #tw ed content #thinsppi #anarecia #ed trigger #just ed shit #just ed memes #tw ed stuff #not pro ana just using tags #pro ans #pro aana #thinspr0 #ed thinking #eating disoder things #tw eating stuff #thinspiracja #thinspx #thin inspo #sweetspo #meanspo #bonespii #bonespro #bonespp

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29.06.21

Weight: 70kg (-0,5kg)

Breakfast: Oatmeal (113)

Lunch: spinach-Omelette (261)

Dinner: Passionfruit (29) + Proteinshake (117)

Snack: too much to list (865)

Sport: 6,5k steps (75)

~ 1385 - 75 = 1310 cal | 57g Protein

Note: I overdid it at the gym, couldn’t bent my arm properly and there were many weird marks under my skin on my arm. I went to the doctor and he said that I strained my muscles and shouldn’t go to the gym for a week. But he said I had a nice biceps. Totally worth it.

P.S.: Out of frustration being so limited, I binged. Good thing is that I tracked everything. It’s still under my bmr but not what I aimed for.

#food log

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28.06.21

Weight: 70,5kg (-0,5kg)

Breakfast: Oatmeal (113)

Lunch: Proteinshake (136)

Dinner: weird soy-egg-spinach mud, was tasty tho (259) + Proteinshake (117)

Sport: 22k steps (200) + Crosstrainer 20min (139) + Gym: arms, shoulders & back (1h)

~625 - 339 = 286cal | 68g Protein

Note: My day was stressful but it kept me off from eating and I walked so much that my feet hurt dude. Because of that I got really dizzy one time at making dinner, I saw stars 😼. Also huge stabbing pain one time, I screamed and made my mom worry. She always told to lose weight and now she is worried bruh.

P.S.: I ORDERED SO MUCH CLOTHES AND THEY CAME TODAY AHHHHHHHHHH THEY LOOK SO GOOD BUT MY BODY DOESNT LOOK RIGHT ON THEM TF.

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27.06.21

Weight: 71kg (-0,5kg)

Breakfast: Oatmeal (113) + celery (39)

Lunch: fried soy (234) + Proteinshake (117)

Snack: gummy bears (62)

Sport: /

~ 564cal | 44g Protein

Note: Today was boring. I had the urge to binge but I was too tired to go back to that old me. I want my friend who makes fun of my weight become so jealous after she comes back from her vacations, I can’t give up now

P.S.: I didn’t feel like doing any sport today, neither going for a walk

#food log

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26.06.21

Weight: 71,5kg

Breakfast: Oatmeal (113)

Lunch: Proteinshake (117) + a sandwich (241)

Dinner: Proteinshake (117)

Sport: CrossFit (214) + Gym: Legs & Glutes (1h) + 6k (189)

~ 587 - 403 = 184 cal | 62 g Protein

Note: I binged yesterday evening so I guess that’s the reason why I stayed the same weight, I thought if I watched mukbangs it would take my urges to binge and at first it was okay but then yeah 🙂

P.S.: Staying in my room and sleeping is like the best strategy for me, eating carbs before Sport too so my appetite isn’t as big after.

#food log

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25.06.21

Weight: 71,5kg (-1kg)

Breakfast: Risotto (116)

Lunch: Strawberries (38) + Proteinshake (117)

Dinner: Pomegranate (54) + Mango (40) + Proteinshake (117)

Sport: 9k steps (110)

~ 481 cal | 49 g Protein

Note: Today was a successful day for my standards. I was alone with my sister and I needed to make her food (pancakes and ramen) and I didn’t binge on them :^) it kinda satisfied my urges to eat.

P.S.: The counterpart was that I couldn’t go to the gym so I need to go tomorrow

#food log

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24.06.21

Weight: 72.5kg

Breakfast: Risotto (116)

Lunch: Proteinshake (117) + Soja Curry (551) + 2 white bread (188)

Snacks: peach loops (138) + strawberries (37)

~958 cal | 70 g Protein

Sport: 7k steps (93)

Note: Luckily I haven’t gained a kg, still sad that I ate so much today and yesterday, but attests I tracked it.

#food log

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23.06.21

Weight: 72kg

I binged the whole day so no food log 🤡

Sport: 10k steps + 10 min CrossFit + 35 min gym chest and abs training + 2 chloe ting workouts (chest / abs)

Note: I binged after going to the gym and working out :/ I didn’t eat anything before so I just went crazy.

P.S.: Also I didn’t got to stay at the gym too long because they close at 1pm, I need to wake up earlier

#food log

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22.06.21

Weight: 73kg

Breakfast: Risotto (145)

Lunch: Proteinshake (117)

Dinner: Sauerkraut (81) + Paprika/Mushroom w noodles (ca. 330)

Snack: Strawberry’s (40) + cheese twisters (147) + cookies (109)

~969 cal | 48g Protein

Sport: none

Note: Fuck

P.S.: Binged at dinner time and ate those noodles and Idk how much calories they were 😍😍 it was like one plate and oily af.

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21.06.21

Weight: ? (Probably 73kg)

Breakfast: Proteinshake (117)

Lunch: Soup + Proteinshake (263)

Dinner: Sauerkraut (77)

Snack: Nutella/Cookies (276)

~ 733 cal | 52g Protein

Sport: 20 min Crosstrainer (217) + 1 h weightlifting: Focus on legs/butt (?) + 6k steps (?)

Note: The gyms are opened and I will work for the body and health I desire. I want to find friends when I’m in college and I think it’s easier when I’m prettier and healthier. Thus I said fuck graduation and prom bc I hate all those ppl and don’t want to see them again :D which would be coming Friday.

P.S.: A muscular guy said hello to me after I came out of the cabinet to get changed and my voice cracked while saying heLlO. Humiliation.

#food log

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Update: I cancelled to go to graduation and prom because I hate how my body looks in my dress :)))

I'm so fcked

I have prom in one month and I need to lose at least 15kg.

:')

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I'm so fcked

I have prom in one month and I need to lose at least 15kg.

:')

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Nothing is more ✨therapeutic✨ than watching Shrek 2 after having suicidal thoughts and fasting for 62 hours.

#anarecia #ed trigger #just ed shit #just ed memes #tw ed stuff #food restriction #anamya #ed thinking #disordered eating tw #just ed things #thinspiracja #skiny #anareksya #anareksja #anorecya

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The only thing I know for sure is that I’m going to kill myself one day