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self-indulgent sketch thingy. i'm having a bad week so i had to draw these two having a good time.

#kinda afraid to post this ngl #but maybe its just. anxious brain o clock #ive just been so unhappy with my art recently #aaaaaanyway #nick valentine #fallout 4 fanart #fallout fanart #fallout 4 #fo4 #ftcat ftcating #oc: lily moriarty

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nick?? in my valentine??

(re q no era el dia)

#fallout 4 #nick valentine #literally hyperventilating #!!!!!!!

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mandatory nick valentine

#jeez i feel like i haven't draw in years #ill prob disappear again because im currently too busy being a big ball of anxiety >:) #anyway its his day #literally #wanted to do a bigger piece but im TIRED #so heres him when he #me when he.......... #insert keysmash here #valentines day #fallout 4 #fo4 #nick valentine #fallout 4 fanart #fallout fanart #ftcat ftcating

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hands 3/?

doing a lil challenge for myself gonna draw rendered hands of the Fo4 companions

#sniff #fo4 #good reference for a hand i cant draw btw

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site that you can type in the definition of a word and get the word

site for when you can only remember part of a word/its definition 

site that gives you words that rhyme with a word

site that gives you synonyms and antonyms

#save for later

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the way people online talk about autism is getting really weird, like do they know that neurotypicals still have interests? that someone being passionate about a hobby doesn't mean they're autistic? you guys know that right

#yeah this #louder #tbh i feel like the words special interest don't mean shit anymore lol

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Do I have your permission as an artist to get your sketch of Nick and that skeleton smoking as a tattoo?

qsidjsqid?? yeah??? SURE

#anon if you do it please send a pic so i can SCREAM for YEARS #and thanks for asking thats actually well thats nice #and you got my permission as an artist to modify the shit out of it if you want to #spread the love for nick anon

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hi tumblr im still alive here's my two favorites boys

#quick sketch because im so fucking exhausted these days #i cant draw dogs #sniff #nick valentine #fallout 4 fanart #fallout fanart #fallout 4 #fo4 #dogmeat #good boy #ftcat ftcating

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diet culture is so fucking sad.

i once played the asking game with my mom when she was talking to me about her diet plans.

why are you dieting? because i've gained loads of weight recently. who cares? everyone does. i don't care. but i do. why? because i don't want to be fat. why don't you want to be fat? because it's embarrassing and i don't want to be an ugly pig. is being fat hurting you? not especially, but it's not nice for other people to look at.

at this point i looked at her and said "don't you think it's sad that you're spending your whole life putting these rules upon yourself, rules that naturally skinny people aren't expected to abide by, all for the effort of trying not to be fat?" and she looked back at me with suddenly wet eyes and said, with an amount of difficulty, that yes, it is sort of sad when you think about it.

she's been fat ever since i, her eldest child, was born. she was always super skinny in her youth, but pregnancy changed her body shape and her metabolism, and i only ever knew her as a very fat woman growing up. chances are, she will never be thin again. her lifestyle is no different to how it was before my existence; her body just works differently now. she sees it as a personal failure. she doesn't eat her favorite foods anymore, doesn't go out dating, doesn't make friends, doesn't go to events, doesn't allow anyone to buy her clothes for her birthday because she can't bear anyone knowing her size. she lives a lonely life, unwilling to do her favorite things. she elected for a gastric bypass surgery which, over the last few years, has introduced multiple complications that came very close to killing her, and yet she doesn't regret the surgery because it helped her lose a few pounds. she basically does not have a stomach anymore and she still believes her fatness is because she's been doing something wrong for the last 20something years.

diet culture is deadly not only because of the self-starvation and malnutrition but because it rips away pieces of your life that you're supposed to enjoy. relationships and sex are only for thin people, a glass of wine and some chocolate at the end of a difficult day is an indulgence only allowed to thin people, cute clothes are only for thin people, family photographs are only for the thin relatives, riding a bike on vacation with your kids is only for families with thin parents.

doesn't your soul ache? doesn't it hurt you to see people doing this to themselves, to inflict this on YOURself? you can do all of these things. your life can be lived fully and joyously and with love, but you distance yourself from the things that make you happy because you feel like you aren't good enough for them. it breaks my heart.

fatphobia is something oft inflicted upon people by others, but it comes from inside too. kill the part of you that thinks you aren't good enough. your body is perfect already, my love.

#fatphobia #thin privilege #actual body positivity

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Happily married, financially stable, 750 credit score, and became a home owner at the age of 18. God is good 🏡

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nobody:

my fallout 4 settlements:

#i died thanks op #good shitpost #fallout 4

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Kent Connolly! How I adore this kitten. I just couldn't help but draw it. He's so wonderful 😭😭😭😭

#kent is a goddamn gem #protect him at all costs

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#fuck #canceling rn #palestine

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Night is when the green jewel feels the most honest. Bright lights, but a lot of shadows.

#grabby hands

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#pokemon #definitely

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Mizu ilysm 🙇

(lineart under the cut)

#i love your art so much #youre goal #mizu #others art

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TIL The Double Empathy Problem theory suggests social difficulties experienced by autistic people when interacting with non-autistic people are due to reciprocal differences, not an inherent deficiency, most autistic people are able to display good social reciprocity with most other autistic people

via reddit.com

#my experience with autistic and neurodivergent people overall #everytime i hear autistic kids are told to stop stimming it hurts me in my soul #quiEt hAnds BULLSHIT