goblinidol

[goblinidol]

Hey uh I love writing and blogging!! Below are my full thoughts on taking a hiatus, and mostly it's rambling--but I'm so thankful for all the support and new friends I've made as a Vtuber, as a Goblin, that I think I wanna share myself more. Anyway, readmore below if you want, and thank you if you take the time! ♥

I think I've been wanting to be successful and consistent as a streamer/creator for so long and struggling with it just--I don't allow myself to breathe, and when I do I feel bad about it. I stuff every day with expectations of what I should be doing, what needs to get done, to justify my existence or something--and on top of that, tell myself okay, this week we need to stream at least 3 times, for 3 hours each. It doesn't SEEM like a lot, but when you consider I also write lore, make lil videos and promos, not to mention the new Fansly sub arts, occasional commissions, and art projects for friends... On top of!! Being the primary like, "caretaker" of my irl household when it comes to food planning, cleaning, etc. I don't mention my "dayjob" bc of the shame around non-traditonal roles and work but that's a whole other personal thing I don't feel comfy talking about as Thoxa! All y'all need to know is I try to work hard, irl and online, and it's been a non-stop marathon for THREE YEARS!! Don't get me wrong, I have loved all of it, even the failures and the bad days made me grow a lil stronger, learn some life truths, make friends and lose them again--that's life, no matter where you go. This past year though--it's been rough, trying to succeed and hitting both emotional and physical roadblocks along the way, as well as trying to keep some sort of balance in my life. So, I've decided to start fresh in a way, but also I'm not stopping. I can't STOP it's just not in my nature. I'm BREATHING. I'm taking my time to inhale, to exhale, to realize I can let shit go and move past it, to take every day in stride and do my best and apologize correctly when I fail. And that well, I can exist, also. I don't have to push so hard, every day, all day. I can watch my camping videos and encourage myself to be stronger and more independent while enjoying all of life. Not to get too deep but we have precious little time enjoying this world--there's so much bad, but so much GOOD too! And nature, it's healing, it's good. I'm excited to go be one with Nature this summer, to feel the air and sun and feel alive again. I'm a cave goblin, sure! But I do love to be FREE. I'm going to return, soon. "Stronger than yesterday/Now It's nothing but MY WAY" as Britney says! I'm gonna record cover songs, I've begged ppl to help me mix and finish them, I have a new model in the works, art I'm going to keep publishing on Fansly--The Goblin Idol Greatness is COMING

#personal #might delete later #thoxa thots #hiatus #vtuber #goblin #healing era also lmao

[goblinidol]

💎ANNOUNCEMENT: The Goblin Idol is Going on Hiatus! I need time to work behind the scenes and get organized--so that I can work on MORE CONTENT! See you soon cuties!💚

#vtuber #goblin #announcement

[goblinidol]

fashion icon

#usagi tsukino #sailor moon #she is me and I am her weh #cant learn foreign languages #can dress FIRE

[goblinidol]

💎LIVE NOW! Slidin' Shootin' KILLIN IT~ Grinding in Fortnite Continues! 💚 https://www.twitch.tv/goblinidolthoxa

#vtuber #goblin #fortnite #live now #twitch stream

[goblinidol]

💎LIVE NOW! Rabid Goblin and Friends go PEW PEW! 💚 https://www.twitch.tv/goblinidolthoxa

#vtuber #goblin #live now #fortnite

[goblinidol]

💎No schedule, but I will be streaming some this week! Fun in Fortnite on Tues and hoping to set up a fun lil lewd event for later in the week! See you soon cuties! 💚

#vtuber #goblin #stream schedule

[goblinidol]

💎LIVE NOW! Cloud Meadow and Stress Relief over on Fansly~ It's been a long week cuties, cum let me reward you!💚 https://fans.ly/Idol_Thoxa

#lewdtuber #live now #fansly #goblin #tease #cloud meadow

[goblinidol]

💎LIVE NOW! THE RETURN OF THIRSTY THURSDAY! Gettin' wild w/ Da Homies! 💚 (art by TrashBatChar) https://www.twitch.tv/goblinidolthoxa

#vtuber #live now #thirsty thursday #twitch stream #tipsy time

[goblinidol]

💎This is the only thing I "finished" on stream yesterday...🦐my silly shrimp spouse tryin' to throw it back teehee 💚

(Vtuber is Ebbi_Scrimps!)

#vtuber #vartist #shrimp #my art #sketch

[goblinidol]

💎IT'S FINALLY HERE! Now you can own my fave catchphrase and big goblin booty...then put it ANYWHERE!💚 https://goblinidolthoxa-shop.fourthwall.com/products/sit-on-it-sticker

#vartist #vtuber #goblingirl #lewdtuber #sticker #original design #vtuber merch

[goblinidol]

💎LIVE NOW! Gettin' Artsy w/ ebbi_scrimps @luvlitchi 💚 https://www.twitch.tv/goblinidolthoxa

#vtuber #live now #art stream #collab

[goblinidol]

💎Decided to finish this piece up and post it for MerMay! Inspired by a beautiful huge river fish, the Arapaima!💚

#vartist #mermaid #mermay24 #ocart #river fish

[goblinidol]

💎LIVE NOW! Time for Sexy Gun Waifus! Playing NIKKE!💚 www.twitch.tv/goblinidolthoxa

#vtuber #goblin #live now #nikke

[goblinidol]

💎The Schedule is here! Looking forward to a week of gaming and art practice with a side order of LEWD😈Links below! Join the Discord for more Idol fun! 💚 🎥http://twitch.tv/goblinidolthoxa 💌https://discord.gg/BA3FVnnH9z 🎁http://throne.com/thoxa 😳http://fans.ly/Idol_Thoxa

#vtuber #stream schedule #twitch #fansly #goblin #lewdtuber

[goblinidol]

🌴Takin' the Bestie to the Beach! Love you @luvlitchi 💗 💎Happy Birthday I hope it's a wonderful day! 💚

#vtuber #goblin #oni #vartist #gift art #birthday

[goblinidol]

💎LIVE NOW! Welcome to the Crystal Caverns, it's time to cave-dive into my world!💚 https://www.twitch.tv/goblinidolthoxa

#vtuber #live now #vartist #goblingirl #goblin

[goblinidol]

so tired of EVERY site being broken in some way lately. tumblr's lil "new posts" thing next to home is stuck at 7. and has been no matter what I do for WEEKS