Today I did a 40 minute upper body video and then 10 minute abs video. Yeah, I can’t do push-ups for shit. Wow. It’s embarrassing. I have no upper body strength. At all.
One of my new goals is being able to do 10 quality pushups. Bc as of now I can’t even do 1.
I also did 45 squats.
For breakfast, I had a few bites of cottage cheese, and during the day I had a granola bar and the smallest sliver of pumpkin pie. And I think 3-24 oz water bottles. Need to have 2 more tonight.
also drank 4 white claws so there’s 400cal wasted.
Day 8. I can keep this going. I can push myself harder. I can do better. I am capable.
So I didn’t go to the gym this morning. I did 10 minute abs, 30 sec plank, 45 squats, 10 bs pushups. Tomorrow I’m going to do a 40 minute all over workout video. I need to up my game. I know what I’m doing is doing something bc I’m sorry every time the next day but I need to push myself more. I can do it.
So I’ve been doing 10 minute and workouts and 30 squats since Wednesday, I overslept this morning so I’m going to make it up tonight, making this day 6 in a row. On Saturday I also did 25 minutes of power walking, jogging, and sprint intervals,,, holy hell my lungs were on fire.
Tonight after work I plan on going down to the development gym to do upper body exercises with weights. I really want to get my arms toned and get my chest smaller. I think I’m going to start doing arms/upper body MWF and then legs TTh (along with abs and squats every day) and then on the weekends just do abs and squats
It’s time to start doing something about getting healthier. I just want to feel more comfortable with my body.
Another thing I’m going to cut down on my cigs, at least during the week for now. And cutting out drinking during the week.
I’ve done it once before so I can do it again. I can get to my GW.
I can feel confident and beautiful in my body.
I can be skinny and toned.
As long as I don’t smoke weed, I don’t feel the urge to eat. I can have some veggies at lunch to keep my sugar up at work and fill up on water. I can start doing workouts every morning. I can get skinny again.
It just really fucking sucks that I have so fucking far to go.