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“You see, that’s what abuse does to you. You know? Made me this sticking plaster for all of life’s weirdos. This open wound for them to sniff at.”

#baby reindeer

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#other (yes all)

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#bpd

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The Moon That Turns You Back, Hala Alyan

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ive found that partially treated mental illness can sometimes look to uninvolved onlookers like faked mental illness.

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Ada Limón, from "To the Busted Among Us", Sharks in the Rivers

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"everybody hates me" factoid actually just a statistical error. The average person doesn't hate you, especially not your friends. You, a person who sits in your room experiencing self loathing every day, are an outlier adn should not have been counted.

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Mary Oliver, from "Dogfish" in New and Selected Poems

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You don’t start being a good person when you’re perfectly kind and perfectly honest and perfectly tolerant, you start being a good person when you try. The fact that you care makes you a good person. The fact that you’re willing to learn makes you a good person. As long as it’s genuinely what you want, the only way you’re going is up.

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it’s ok if your healing is taking longer than you thought it would or should. it’s so normal and you can’t put a time limit on it.

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BARGHEST

Acrylics on canvas, A6

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Realizing someone wants and desires you for who you are, after years of being conditioned to believe you were never good enough at the same time always being too much, by the person you loved the most, is so overwhelming.

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There are only two mental illnesses according to people on the internet:

Innocent bean syndrome: You can never do wrong and got no agency. You will be infantilized on every occasion and are treated as a quirk.

Bad person syndrome: You are bad and an abuser. Your presence kills people.

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Linda Qin

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“you’re going to kill yourself if you keep doing this” I know. I know I knowiknow I know i know I know I know I KNOW