Dating a gay bitch is crazy because I'll send her pics of me in my new bikini and instead of "wow you're so hot and sexy and gorgeous" I get "WERK 💅🏻" like bitch if you don't objectify me I swear to God...
I love you little gay people in my phone. I love you little gay people at my coffee shop. I love you lil gay people I see at the store. For every hater there is an equally passionate lover somewhere.
When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.
I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.
And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting
And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster
And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself.
And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.
And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.
"do you have a husband? Fiance? Boyfriend?" "We've already been over this, you ask this question every two weeks and I give you the same answer" "oh she's definitely single 🙄" "you havent told us before!" "I shouldn't have to keep explaining myself just because you guys have the attention span the size of a walnut. Now get back in line, single file." "👁️👄👁️........single single single! Ms. Mickey's aloooone!" "oh for the love of-"
Fun quotes from work
(I work in a school) (me)
"what if we don't want to walk in a straight line? I wanna walk in a gay line. Gay! Gay! Gay! Gay!" "Oooo Ms. Mickey she's swearing!!" "Gay is not a swear Alex..."
"do you have a dad?" "No" "oh he dead?" "She could be sensative about that!!"
"I like your new hair David" "Yeah I know I'm pretty ☺️"
"being gay is weird 🤨" "no it's not." "Oh okay... 😐"
"do you know sonic?" "Oh, the hedgehog?" "Bro, what? The place with the food" "oh..."
"are you married? Engaged? Do you have a boyfriend??" "We have this conversation every 2 weeks I am not doing it again" "oh, so ur single 🙄" "you haven't told us before! 😡" "I shouldn't have to keep explaining myself to you just because you have an attention span the size of a walnut. That's enough talking." "👁️👄👁️.....single single single! Ms. Mickey's all alone!" "Oh my GOD"
"lots of things have settings! Books, movies, Nancy what's your favorite movie?" "Bullet Train!" "Oh! Wow..okay...Juanita what about you?" "Frozen!" "Thank goodness, Let's do that one!"
Fun quotes from work
(I work in a school) (me)
"what if we don't want to walk in a straight line? I wanna walk in a gay line. Gay! Gay! Gay! Gay!" "Oooo Ms. Mickey she's swearing!!" "Gay is not a swear Alex..."
"do you have a dad?" "No" "oh he dead?" "She could be sensative about that!!"
"I like your new hair David" "Yeah I know I'm pretty ☺️"
"being gay is weird 🤨" "no it's not." "Oh okay... 😐"
I've been in lesbians with this girl for 6 years. We have weathered the storm, and came out better for it. To anyone who needs to hear it, love is out there and when you find it (you will) hold on to it for dear life.
I hope everyone of you beautiful people find a level of happiness that you find fulfilling. I love you @mickeymakesjunk