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So I got! News as to why.

Short answer. My autism was making them uncomfortable

Long answer. I looked and sounded disinterested, I was fidgeting (pacing, messing with my hands, ect.) to much, I "refused" to give people injections/take out staples, an I "wasn't learning".

BTW I LITERALLY TOLD THEM MULTIPLE TIMES I WAS INFACT INTERESTED!!! I KEPT ASKING QUESTIONS ABOUT WHAT THEY WHERE DOING, WHY, ECT????? BRO... also I just asked if it was OK if I watched them take out staples first and then i could do it next time. Which, I guess counts as refusing? I just couldn't remember how to do it and wanted a demonstration first :(

I tried so so hard but ig it judt?? Wasn't enough??? They should have talked to me first though instead of letting me work there for two weeks and THEN kicking me out when I've told them I need my extern hours by the 8th or I won't graduate.

I'm. Feeling things rn I need to go . Drink some soda and calm down

The medical place I was at fucking canceled my externship so if anyone has any words of wisdom to share I'd appreciate

I'm a fucking mess right now, they didn't even tell me why they canceled, just told me not to come in anymore

#holly vents

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The medical place I was at fucking canceled my externship so if anyone has any words of wisdom to share I'd appreciate

I'm a fucking mess right now, they didn't even tell me why they canceled, just told me not to come in anymore

#holly vents

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Link, Sage of Wild

Anyway this is kind of a redraw?? Also OMGGG it feels so good to draw again I've been so busy with my externship!!! Hghjhghhghhhgvj *dies*

#self reblogging for my mutuals who are awake at this hour #guys ive been playing minecraft on my switch with the. console commans and #ohh my god i set my speed to 250. bro. that shit is wack and also super fucking fun ong #im like sonic. gotta go fast but also im so fast i keep running into everything #also i set jump boost to 250 and sent myself into the atmosphere. on survival mode btw #i died. oops.

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Link, Sage of Wild

Anyway this is kind of a redraw?? Also OMGGG it feels so good to draw again I've been so busy with my externship!!! Hghjhghhghhhgvj *dies*

#art #help how do i anatomy #zelda art #totk swap au #totk au #totk art #link totk #loz totk #loz tears of the kingdom #tears of the kingdom #link tears of the kingdom #totk loz #totk link #loz fanart #loz totk art #loz au #links light dragon alwasy has lots of fairies around it #easiest place to catch them too. they dont flee #anyway um. im getting good at drawing swords. also why are my fingers numb what?? why it cold?? #bro im trynna draw now is not the time to be numb asf. #anyway my totk swap au my beloved!!! i need to draw zelda again too

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I dont watch/read dungeon meshi but I keep seeing this lesbians named falin and Marcille on my dash today

#holly rambles #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #??? are those the tags? i think so #ough pretty ladies... ough pretty dragon lady.. #laios is the guy woth the autism right??? #im learning all of thjs thro osmosis from my mutuals. senshi. chilchuck. i know these names #izutsumi. kibby cat. see i know these things #genuinely tho idk where to read/watch it. rip meeeee

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I'm doing good btw!!! Job is going so so good so far I'm really like it thete

Here's a cotl oc for your viewing pleasure I havnt had time to do art a lot lately :(

#art #help how do i anatomy #holly rambles #holly doodles #uhmm not gonna use any more main tags LOL #her nsme is Candy btw!!! #uh. uhm. brain empty rn. #my dad is grilling some chicken tonight for dinner :)

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Tomorrow is my first day of my externship, at an actual medical office!! Im. Really nervous and also im going to have to wake up at 6 💀

#holly rambles #hhhhgghhg gonna jave tk sleep early #idk how long ill be working there #i think tomorrow will just be intervie and stuff?? they didnt say when id be able to leave just that i need to #show up at eight. in the morning #so idk lol

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GODO LUCK ON YOUR JOB ANSWERING QUEST

TYYYY!!!! I HAVE! AN INTERVIEW!! TOMORROW!! AAAGHHG

#holly answers #anonpaws #im so excited im shakning #:) #its all happening so fast AGH AGHA GAH

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I updated my dst fic btw :] !!

Like. Two days ago! Also I got a job interview on Thursday sk wish me luck ^^

#holly rambles

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PASSED MYDRIVERS TEST LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOO

#holly rambles #YIPPEE!!! #my mom is letting me look at pens to celebrate. at staples. #i fuckin love pens :)

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Now that school is mostly sorted ! New update soon! This weekend!! New chapterrrr aaagghhhhhghh anyway I gotta get my driver's license now so I can. . Get a job LMAO

I was really nervous but I figured I'd post this just incase any of my friends wanted to see it-

It isn't really relevant to any art and stuff that I do but uhm.

Look, I'm really struggling right now, trying to do things for me more often again. It's reallt stupid, because like, this is mt blog and I should be able to post about what I like and I should feel ok doing that but I just feel like I've hit a wall. Im so nervous all the time now, like I'm going to be annoying for writing/drawing/talking about my interests. I'm trying not to do that so, uhm. Here's a first step in the right direction ig

Tldr. Having a hard time, trying to enjoy doing any type of art for myself again .

#holly rambles #my dst fanfic.. ive abandoned my boy.. #jk i didnt. i was busy with graduating medical school. #i still am. btw. but i have more time for these nect few days yippee

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A spiral within a spiral

#self reblogging for my mutuals who are awake at this hour

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A spiral within a spiral

#art #help how do i anatomy #saint rain world #rw saint #rw the saint #the saint rain world #the saint rw #rw downpour #slugcat #rain world downpour #rain world slugcat #rain world art #rw art #rw slugcat #ooooooohgghh guys.. i got an 85 on my medical finals!!!! YIPPEE!!! #anyway ive.. finally finished thjs lol #my hand is so much better! windtheif i am kissing you ty so much #anyway. this took me two weeks because ive been busy LMAO

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Graduation is soon, so I've been busy!!! Im hoping to finish up my dst fic and then probably go back to regular art now that my hands had time to heal!! Yippee!

I know I've been inactive lately but that's because VERYTHING IS FUCKED ALL THE TIME OMGGGGGG

#im doing betyer now!! #i will be employed soon tho. probably at a clinic. and by soon i mean two weeks #i still jabe my externship! 80 hours of free labor.. oooughhg

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I took a break from Sky for quite some time. I stopped playing early in Season of Passage and got back into it this week. I've experienced a great amount of culture shock.

First and foremost, God damn it they did cackling canoneer as a traveling spirit when I was gone? That guy has two of my favorite cosmetics. Wait... no they didn't? What's a returning spirit? WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY ARE LETTING US HAVE EXTENDED VISITS OF MULTIPLE SPIRITS AT ONCE?

Why is the Cresent Oasis so empty? And why are all the quests minus the last boring? Why do all of the ultimate gifts for Nine Colored Deer suck? At least in seasons past the Ultimate Gifts were mid at worst. The hair and cape are kinda shit tho. If I had been around to buy the season pass I wouldn't have. That's actually just sad what they have.

I'm glad they finally redid the starting area as Aviary Village but... why does it suck so bad? Why is the tutorial so long and why do you spawn so far from the portals? Also wtf why is Home broken? Half the time the constellations don't work properly there. We don't even get traveling spirits here anymore??? Why don't we just have them in both Home and Aviary Village?

The new Days of Bloom cape looks like a lettuce leaf hah- WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY HAVE EVENT CURRENCY NOW??? Why can you get barely anything per day???

As a Rhythm moth I have seen the game change many times. I think this has definitely been the biggest sucker punch I've gotten though.

That said, I'm not opposed to what's changed. I like having event currency (it's stupidly low amounts per day tho, that needs fixed) and I LOVE the returning spirits.

That said, I think Nine Colored Deer was one of the worst seasons I've played. I have not been more bored by a season ever. Also, it's stupid that Home no longer has traveling spirits and that they didn't bug fix the constellations in the patch they just released. It's fine you want players to lean towards Aviary Village but let the ogs keep their thing too?

Anyway, that's the rambles of a veteran player done and over with.

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I know I've been inactive lately but that's because VERYTHING IS FUCKED ALL THE TIME OMGGGGGG

#moslty SCHOOL!! #some stuff is happening with med stuff and om my god ive fucked up everything #im genuinely scared now holy shit i thought i had time!!! i thought i had time!! i dont!!! have time!!!! #i dont even know how to email . i literally dont know how to use email. im fucked in life oh my god #i dont know how to do anything and its only just hitting me how fucked up i am. i wish id gone to public school ffs #imm really scared i dont know. anything anymore. fuck