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I BACK BITCHES

I had a lot of fucking stuff going on during the rest but now i am slightly less mentally ill (but don't you worry, only slightly) and a little bit more diagnosed with "transsexualism" (i am fucking sorry but thats just the way it is in my country). De facto, it's nearly impossible before ur 18 but i am a very determined man so hehe here we r. I don't know if it will work with the puberty blockers tbh but i should be fucking proud of the level I've already accomplished. I should be but im not because transphobic parents.

SO, lets stop there because i am tired of all this shit. The other thing i can tell u is that im now officially a medical student. Hurray ig. AND OH I FORGOT soon i will be pretty fuckin far away from my dearest mother. A little rest from constant transphobia if u will. But idk if it will actually be this way cause im going with my father and i never lived with him but without my mother so ig it will be a win if we don't kill eachother during these two months lol

And also i got these today

Be envious lmao

And i also got an actual friend i trust. Wow. Like i really trust him, not the "trust" like with others. I completely trust this person. Like... This actually exists? Wow

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Sometimes i just come up with a strange idea like going to a christian summer camp (im not christian, quite the opposite in fact) or buying a $ex toy (i am not exactly over 18) and nobody and nothing can stop me. Really, i just got a new debit card for buying a toy. Because if i paid with my old one, my dad would see where and what did i buy. And if he saw i would be saving not for interesting toys but for my or his funeral.

If i really think about it, i don't know why is this so much of a problem to buy a toy as a teenager. Just a reminder, im not 12 nor 11. Im older. And no, im not 13 either. (Haha funny please laugh). But really, if it wasn't such a problem there would be way less teenagers having sex with each other and getting illnesses and traumas (including moral ones) in the process. Imho this is strange. If i wasn't so "strong and independent and i dont need ur help and i dont have insecurities(im the most insecure person in this goddamn house)" i would ask my parents but haha here we are getting new debit cards just so my parents don't know where do i spend my(their in fact) money

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Guess who's passing as a male (im in my cishet cosplay)

#trans

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So, as much as i heard, the submersible exploded. It's a much better scenario but those people are still dead. Pls, basic human empathy is still a good thing, no matter how they died.

Tbh im a bit relieved they didn't die because of the lack of oxygen.

First of all, im alive.

Second, I know u guys are probably sick of this shit to this point BUT it's MY account and I post shit I want here.

I know those people are rich, i know they signed for this, i know they paid for this, we all know it. But i just can't stop thinking about it. I am very empathetic, too much probably. I just.. i can imagine this so clearly it scares me. Being trapped in a small space, with 4 more people, the place is pitch black, with small amount of food and water and, what is more important, oxygen. Imagine like you were optimistic, laughing, chatting but suddenly everything went black and the pilot started to seem concerned. He said you couldn't move now, becase this tuna can was broken. Imagine someone started to bang the walls. With what? Hands? Hummer? Head? Some other shit? We'll probably never know. An hour. Another. Another. Another 4 hours. 5. Someone's vomiting. Maybe someone screamed. Had a panic attack. The air now smells. It also became harder to breathe.

Some people say "oh they r rich haha eat the rich"

But with all those rich men there was a 19 yo boy. He's not even allowed to drink beer in the US. And the pilot. Was he also rich? Idk. Idc. If those people were rich or poor, this doesn't matter. They are probably dead to this point and they experienced the maybe one of the most terrifying way to die.

Somebody started to say that a couple of days ago 700 people from.. well an african country (im sorry I can't recall its name) drowned while trying to get ro Greece (?) (i only heard about it a cople of times. Not enough to memorize all the details, sorry). I am not saying this is not a tragedy. This is also terrifying. Those were families. The other thing is that the social media didn't talk about it so much. This is not the thing we are talking about now.

Those people on the Titan aren't innocent. But those who were on the ships weren't, too. Neither of them deserved such death. This is not our job to judge what people are good and what people are bad. I truly believe that all people, deep inside, are good and deserve to live (somebodys becoming a doctor for a reason).

And im scared of people who show absolutely no sympathy. They either have a very bad imagination and/or are just cruel.

#titanic #submarine #oceangate #titan

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First of all, im alive.

Second, I know u guys are probably sick of this shit to this point BUT it's MY account and I post shit I want here.

I know those people are rich, i know they signed for this, i know they paid for this, we all know it. But i just can't stop thinking about it. I am very empathetic, too much probably. I just.. i can imagine this so clearly it scares me. Being trapped in a small space, with 4 more people, the place is pitch black, with small amount of food and water and, what is more important, oxygen. Imagine like you were optimistic, laughing, chatting but suddenly everything went black and the pilot started to seem concerned. He said you couldn't move now, becase this tuna can was broken. Imagine someone started to bang the walls. With what? Hands? Hummer? Head? Some other shit? We'll probably never know. An hour. Another. Another. Another 4 hours. 5. Someone's vomiting. Maybe someone screamed. Had a panic attack. The air now smells. It also became harder to breathe.

Some people say "oh they r rich haha eat the rich"

But with all those rich men there was a 19 yo boy. He's not even allowed to drink beer in the US. And the pilot. Was he also rich? Idk. Idc. If those people were rich or poor, this doesn't matter. They are probably dead to this point and they experienced the maybe one of the most terrifying way to die.

Somebody started to say that a couple of days ago 700 people from.. well an african country (im sorry I can't recall its name) drowned while trying to get ro Greece (?) (i only heard about it a cople of times. Not enough to memorize all the details, sorry). I am not saying this is not a tragedy. This is also terrifying. Those were families. The other thing is that the social media didn't talk about it so much. This is not the thing we are talking about now.

Those people on the Titan aren't innocent. But those who were on the ships weren't, too. Neither of them deserved such death. This is not our job to judge what people are good and what people are bad. I truly believe that all people, deep inside, are good and deserve to live (somebodys becoming a doctor for a reason).

And im scared of people who show absolutely no sympathy. They either have a very bad imagination and/or are just cruel.

#submarine #titan #titanic #oceangate

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Royal Maragine,my beloved fail husband.

#cookie run #cookie run kingdom #royal margarine cookie

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Royal Maragine,my beloved fail husband.

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Happy pride month bitches 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

#pride month

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Oh look how happy i am

Im so damn happy I'll see these people for the last time on Friday

The girls i marked as 1 and 2 are people i spoke to sometimes. They're not my friends. The girl no. 2 is pan. Two years ago when we first met she tried to idk... We weren't friends but we could have been something more. But we didn't lol. And the girl 1 is a transphobic, homophobic and racist piece of shit but she is the only person I know that is in some really popular fandoms. Like, she likes harry potter, marvel, ect. Pretty typical starter pack.

She told me how disgusting trans people are lol. How she wanted to puke when a masculine person (idk their identity) with painted nails gave her money for some shit they bought from her. I've... Never felt so scared before. The moment before i wanted to ask the company i was with (3 ppl) to use he/him pronouns.

BUT after that i met my bf and we went to McDonald's, then to the dentist (she needed to go), then to her singing class (i will attend them again, the teacher convinced me, lol), then to the cafe with dangos and the to the sushi bar. It was pouring rain, my shoes, socks and jeans were wet as puss-AHEM.

And i wore binder for ~10 hours so my ribs were

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Secondo sketch

#secondo emeritus #papa emeritus ii #ghost #gonst #im done #help #if old why hot #i cant

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So, I haven't created myself problems for a while now. What a huge mistake. Gonna correct it on 01.06. by starting using he/him pronouns at home. Alone, with only my transphobic mom at home and my (supportive but not really) father far away. Wow. Wish me luck and not to kill myself

BUT(!) BUT BUT BUT BUT!!! I m gonna socialise(!!!) in june but still. Gonna participate in an lgbt friendly online summer camp. Hehe. Right pronouns, no deadnaming. Profit

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I want u to know that i have spent 4 fucking hours watching masters of sex

It's such a soap opera i thought my eyes would sting

And yes im watching it because of a sexy middle-aged doctor

Hear me out (!) it is so cringe but i am starting to fucking like it. It's called adaptation

To cringe

I DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND HIS WIFE'S FACIAL EXPRESSIONS

THIS ACTRESS LOOKS LIKE SHE'S ABOUT TO CRY EVERY TIME I SEE HER. WHYYY??? Like, they don't talk, they just give each other those looks and I just think "oh so finally everything s fine?" AND THEN THEY JUST SAY SHIT I NEVER EXPECTED LIKE WHAT???

Maybe i was right about me being on the spectrum but maybe this actress just can't act. Or the script was so badly written idk.

46 hours of pure satisfaction i think i won't outlive this

#masters of sex #michael sheen #i will kill myself because of cringe #i just can't

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why real world when you have daydreaming

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My dear husband Baizhu is home hehe

The weapon banner is being a bitch tho

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I have no time for school reading or college reading but i have read a 200 000 word fanfic about gays making sex in a week. I read damn slow for a person who likes reading, i know

I mean, i still have 3 books I've wanted to read but here we are

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I've been forgetting to post this for a month now

Lol

When my father comes home i will make him nail a billboard to a wall in my room so i can attach the photos of my middle aged crushes to it so everyone can see who was emotionally unavailable during my childhood

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AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAH I DID IT

I TRANSLATED THIS SHIT TO MY NATIVE LANGUAGE SO MY BESTIE COULD FILL THIS AHAHAHAHAHAH (he is the wrong type of gay who can't speak english)

I TOOK ME AN HOUR WITHOUT TIME FOR DOWNLOADING AND INSTALLING GIMP TO MY PC BECAUSE IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO DO THAT ON MY PHONE

Everything for my bestie ❤️❤️