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For a brief hopeful moment, Audrey thought they had laid the conversation to rest, and that Orin wasn’t going to press anymore. But once again, she was wrong. She wasn’t sure how long she could keep this up before completely falling apart either in fear or frustration. She didn’t know what more she could say, she’d already said all the things she knew she should say. All the placating and comforting things, all the praise and doting. 

Audrey flinched away from Orin’s hand, so used to expecting harshness out of his touch…but to her slight surprise it was relatively gentle as he turned her face towards his. Firm, but not entirely unkind. If someone happened to peak in through the window, they might think the couple were sharing a sweet quiet moment together. For a moment, Audrey didn’t want to turn her eyes to his and they flickered downwards. But she knew he’d pick up on it and there was no other choice than to stare back into those cold eyes.

But maybe there was a hint of warmth in those eyes, maybe there was something sincere and maybe even a bit desperate in his words. It made Audrey think that, even behind his harsh words and cruel tactics, there was somebody there who needed her. Someone who really did care about her, and felt that she was worth more than just a plaything or an item on display. And that’s what made her feel so torn, so stuck – and then guilty for feeling “stuck”. Audrey’s voice was still quiet and careful as she spoke. “Oh no, of course not, Orin, no, I’d neva’ wanna do anythin’ like that to ya…” Her words felt jumbled, just like how she felt inside. The way she always felt whenever Orin questioned her and twisted her thoughts around. “You don’t…you don’t think I would, do ya?”

Audrey shifted uncomfortably as Orin mulled over his words. For a moment, she wondered if he didn't really have anyone in mind and hoped she was safe. She moved in to lay her head down on his shoulder, to curl up close to him in an effort to prove her fidelity. But then she froze with dread when Orin suddenly continued to speak. Her eyes widened as she felt a tremor run through the already delicate conversation. “You..you mean Seymour?” She asked, doing her best to seem casual but she couldn’t quite keep the fear out of her voice. “He's just my friend! I just work with him…” What she had said wasn’t necessarily a lie - they were only friends - but guilt still swept over Audrey, causing her stomach to churn. She couldn’t deny her daydreams, or the way she doodled glasses onto every man with brown curly hair in her magazines. She couldn’t deny how sometimes she wished she could stay in and drink tea with Seymour in the shop instead of going out with Orin. She couldn't deny how safe and comfortable she felt with Seymour. But it could never be, Seymour would never want to be with her. So now she was left feeling like an awful girlfriend to the man who had stooped far below his standards to be with her. She felt shameful and dishonest, and deserving of all the vulgar things she’d ever been called. Tears pricked at the corners of her eyes, “S-Seymour’s no one,” She said, her voice wobbling a bit. Her heart ached to say the words, but she wasn’t quite sure who it ached for.

#( poor girl...she's just going in circles...) #scrivellc #audrey fulquard rp #orin scrivello rp #audrey x orin #lsoh rp

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#carnations or the yellow roses? (flowers)

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Shades of purple found in the park 💜

June 2024

#carnations or the yellow roses? (flowers)

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#carnations or the yellow roses? (flowers)

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12/05/24

"When you laugh, I want to transform the entire world so it will mirror you."

- Vladimir Nabokov; Gods

#carnations or the yellow roses? (flowers)

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Fav screenshots from the AMTSJ production ive watched and rewatched recently

#and a sweet little guy (audrey x seymour) #dating a semi sadist (orin scrivello)

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@flowerreplica

#carnations or the yellow roses? (flowers)

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more studies and doodlez

#just me and the toaster (self) #and a sweet little guy (seymour)

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Audrey doodles while im traveling

#just me and the toaster (self)

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🐝  *  ―  𝑵𝑶𝑵-𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑳 𝑨𝑵𝑮𝑺𝑻 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺. (  some triggering content ahead. add " + " to reverse the action.  )

[ wipe ] sender wipes away receiver's tears [ hurt ] sender hurts receiver with words [ lonely ] sender finds receiver alone in a dark room [ wounded ] sender patches up receiver's wounds [ crying ] sender finds receiver crying [ help ] sender runs to receiver when they scream for help [ nightmare ] sender wakes receiver up from a nightmare [ dying breath ] sender talks to receiver before dying [ hold on ] sender pulls receiver into their arms [ anger ] sender takes their anger out on receiver [ argue ] sender gets into a heated argument with receiver [ scared ] sender scares receiver [ sick ] sender cares for receiver while they are sick [ palm ] sender places a hand on receiver to stop them from doing something [ fight ] sender gets into a physical fight with receiver [ comfort ] sender tries to comfort receiver [ blood ] sender notices that receiver is bleeding [ collapse ] sender collapses into receiver's arms [ pressure ] sender puts pressure on receiver's wound [ slap ] sender slaps receiver in the face [ panic ] sender helps receiver through a panic attack [ lie ] sender catches receiver in a lie [ sobs ] sender sobs uncontrollably while receiver holds them [ hiding ] sender finds out that receiver has hidden an injury from them [ death ] sender just died, receiver finds out [ chin up ] sender lifts receiver's chin to stop them from hiding their tears [ fears ] sender talks to receiver about their fears [ scream ] sender screams at receiver [ coping ] sender teaches receiver some coping mechanisms [ loss ] sender is there for receiver after they've lost someone important to them [ needs ] sender asks receiver what they need [ bullet ] sender takes a bullet for receiver [ bruises ] sender finds bruises of unknown origin on receiver [ rainfall ] sender finds receiver out alone in the rain [ hospital ] sender wakes up in a hospital bed and finds receiver sitting by their bedside [ intrude ] sender walks in on receiver treating their wounds [ calming ] sender tries to calm down receiver [ inspection ] sender holds receiver's face while inspecting an injury they got [ rescue ] sender carries receiver to safety [ clean ] sender cleans blood off of receiver's body

#call back in the morning will you? (asks) #audrey lsoh rp #open rp #open lsoh rp

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i am having altogether too much fun with the New Cast Album of LSOH (2019)

#and a sweet little guy (seymour) #am i dreaming this? (audrey ii)

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fellas I think I’m onto something again ‼️

#and a sweet little guy (seymour)

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#just a little street in a little suburb (aesthetic)

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1951 International Harvester Refrigerators

#just a little street in a little suburb (aesthetic)

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1950 Formica advertising

#just a little street in a little suburb (aesthetic)