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LAWD I HAVENT BEEN ON HERE FOR SO LONG BRBMAKING A NEW THEME

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❣︎ ⎯⎯ mess with me, you get the lips .

PAIRING ! nishimura riki x reader // GENRE ! fluff // WC. ! 0.6k

PROMPT(S) ! 8. embracing them from behind ;; 9. ruffling their hair ;; 10. placing their chin on the other’s shoulder ;; 24. patting their head // requested by @emmachase89 @clarakyunisageek and two lovely anons <3 // 2k followers event

A/N. ! for this event i’m only taking up to 2 prompts per req, but i decided to combine four reqs for this bc it ended up working rlly well. hope you like it! also don’t mind the title skjskd i thought it was kinda cute and fit pretty well 😭

a soft squeal could be heard from rooms away as it left your lips.

riki had just snuck up on you from behind before quickly pulling you into his embrace, your back pressed against his chest. at the unexpected contact, you jumped slightly before attempting to turn around in his arms. however, his strong hold had you trapped in this position, unable to move. so you sighed, resorting to turning your head to look at him instead before giving him a playful glare. he rested his chin on your shoulder before turning his face slightly, placing a soft, apologetic kiss on your cheek.

“i’m sorry for scaring you,” he gave you a small, playful pout.

“it’s okay,” you told him before continuing, “what i’m more frustrated about is the fact that you have me restricted in your arms right here.”

he let out a small chuckle before loosening his hold on you, allowing you some freedom to move.

you turned around to face him, both of you softly locking eyes.

“‘kay, i’m sorry,” he began again, placing his hand on top of your head and ruffling your. “better?”

you squirmed in his hold before stopping his actions, “hey! no! no, stop!” you said between giggles. “this is not better! you’re messing up my hair! nishimura riki!”

laughing at your reaction, he eventually stopped and you glared at him again, even harder this time.

“okay, okay,” he let out, beginning to fix your hair by patting it down. “sorry, my love.”

after a few seconds, he succeeded in returning your hair back to the way it was before, and only a moment later, you watched as his eyes darted to your lips. before you could process, he already had his lips on yours, pecking them softly.

“better now?” he asked after pulling back slightly, voice calm.

you nodded before a smirk made its way to your lips.

you snaked your arms around his neck before quickly pulling him in for another kiss, this time lasting much longer.

he felt himself melt under your touch, kissing you back with equal passion. however, little did he know, you were taking this as an opportunity to get back at him as you continuously and messily brushed all of your fingers through his hair.

when you eventually pulled back, you had to control yourself as you succeeded in stifling your laugh. however, he didn’t miss the way your lips twitched and were being forced into keeping straight. and once you realized he caught on, you couldn’t help but let out a laugh.

“what’s so funny?” he asked you before he noticed your eyes travel up to the top of his head.

turning around to face a mirror, riki quickly noticed the way his hair was now in a mess with each lock of hair out of place.

he turned around, looking at you annoyed, but you didn’t fail to notice the way his lips were now the one holding back a smile.

and before you knew it, riki was chasing you around the room, squeals leaving your lips once again before he eventually caught you from behind and lifted you off of your feet, only causing you to let out more protesting squeals.

and just like that, the day ended with you in his arms, either trying to get at each other’s hair, or exchanging kisses, and you couldn’t have wished for it any other way.

A/N. hope you enjoyed ^_^

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#IM THRIVING I TELL U. THRIVING. #THE RIKI CONTENT IM GETTING RN WOAH WOAH WOOOOOAH 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌 EM MAIN SLAYER #see im so amazed by how u manage to make every scenario different from one another how does ur brain work like thst #its like fluff after fluff after fluff snd it never gets tiring because theyre all unique in their own ways and equally adorable and soft #this is me appreciating your enormous gigantic brain and imagination as i SHOULD bcuz u deserve it fe #fr** #and may i also add the riki pic u used. kinda passed out nawt gonna lie 😧😧 #and ur brain id also humongous for being able to combine FOUR PROMPTS IN ONE HOW CRAZY #now onto the fic bcuz i am eating my arm reading this its so CUTE I CANT EVEN #also u bet ur ass im gonna reblog every riki post u make absolutely!!!! its a must im ur personal hype man fr 🤞🤞 #NAH CUZ RIKI IS SUCH A SHITHEAD😕😕😕 WITH HIM TRYNA SCARE EVERYONE UGH #and the ruffling hair ☹️☹️☹️☹️ props to whoever requested thst cuz thst is definitely such a riki thing to do ong #LOVE Y/N FOR GETTING HIM BACK FRRRRR #SO TRUE 🙌🙌 U GO MESS UP HOS HAIR HE DESERVES KT #it* #😕😕 and riki tryna glare smh as if he isnt whipped #he isn't fooling anyone ong #ALSO HAVE TO ADD THAT WHIPPED RIKI SUPREMACY ID ABSOLUTELY RE #REAL* #NAD ALSO THE LIFTING OFF UR FEET SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP SO TRUE SO TRUEEEEEE #em takes the cake once more #u should get an award every time u manage to make my heart swell fr

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❣︎ ⎯⎯ be my comfort .

PAIRING ! nishimura riki x reader // GENRE ! fluff, angst // WC. ! 0.5k

PROMPT(S) ! 10. placing their chin on the other’s shoulder ;; 28. pressing their foreheads together // requested by @kaimal <3 // 2k followers event

A/N. ! thanks may for requesting! i rlly hope you like it and that it succeeds in getting you deeper into your riki feels 😌🤩

riki showing his affection for you in public was a rare sight, and everybody knew it. though you and riki had been dating for a while, not even his close friends ever saw him do anything extremely lovey-dovey towards you. the most they would have seen would have been the time when he took your hand in his when you two thought you were alone. but then again, that was only one time.

however, on the other hand, though you two did spend a lot of your time together, teasing one another, when you two were in private, it was a whole other story.

and fortunately for you, it just so happened to be one of those days. however, though being alone with him was one of the things you loved most, the reason you were at this moment wasn’t one you loved so much.

it had happened to be a not so great day for you; a good portion of it was filled with stress and you were absolutely overwhelmed with so many things going on in your life that by the end of the day, you were ready to just break down.

you were with riki, and he quickly took notice of your not so cheerful mood, and he didn’t hesitate in pulling you into his chest, holding you in his arms and just staying there for as long as you needed.

he rested his head on top of yours before adjusting and finding more comfort on your shoulder instead, slowly making his way to bury his face into the crook of your neck.

being his significant other, you were the only one in his life that he treated in this way, and he never failed to make you feel special and valued, like you were the only person in the world that mattered to him.

after a while, you pulled back, eyes on the floor with a genuine frown on your face.

trying to naturally remove yourself from his embrace, he only pulled you closer, so close that he just resorted to resting his forehead on yours, looking into your sad and tired eyes before asking, “why are you so down, love?”

your frown only grew bigger, and he quickly pressed his lips softly against yours, attempting to comfort you the best he could.

when he noticed your eyes begin to light up just slightly, he took that as a sign to keep going, so he did, placing one kiss on your lips after the other, and soon, your frown was gone, and you were smiling brighter than ever, even emitting a soft giggle from you.

“whatever it is, we can talk about it later,” he told you. “in the meantime, let’s watch a movie to get your mind off of it, yeah?”

you gave him a small smile before nodding.

when it came to you, never would he hesitate to take care of you or attempt to lift your mood, whether it be in public or behind closed doors. when it came to you, he was different, in all the best ways. you were each other’s safety and comfort. he wouldn’t hesitate to do anything when it came to you.

A/N. thanks for reading ^_^

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#IT IS I #I AM ALIVE #FOR WHOMSTDVE THIS FIC WAS DEDICATED TO. THE ONR WHO REQUESTED IT. ITS ME. #first of aklklllsksbdjwjwnsjsjsj NAWH U CSNT DO THIS TO ME EM MY HEART IS LITERALLY ACHING THIS IS NOT FUNNY #u dont know the effect this had on me im currently in my bed kicking my feet this is The Life #NOWNI WOULD LIKE TO STSRT OFF BY SAYING NO PDA RIKI MAKES SO MUCH SENSE IN MY HEAD YOU GET ME FR #and akso that pic u used of riki is actually one of my faves he looks so cute ☹️☹️☹️ #ahem moving on #THE AMOUNT OF EFFORT AND DETAIL PUT INTO THIS WHERE IS UR BEST AUTNOR OF THE YEAR AWARD #IT DID GET ME DEEPER INTO MY RIKI FEELS I DIDNT EVEN TJINK IT WAS POSSIBLE #diff in public more affectionate in private >>>>>> #SO TRUE SO TRUE #i Am actually quite stressed rn so this was absolutely perfect on god #NIKI HUGS 💔💔💔💔💔💔 MSSJDJWJJDSJJS NIKI HUUUUGGSGS MAN I CANT DO THIS FR THIS IS HURTING MY HEART #no cuz im sucha firm believer (and its a fact) that riki hugs ppl and he buries his head in their shoulder its just it makes sense #it makes sm sense it makes TOO much sense actually #THIS IS PERFECT DMSJSJSJSJ #'you were the only one he treated in this way' OKAY ANS WHAT IF I STATY CRYING RN HUH #this is The comfort fic. #this is my new comfrt fic this is it this is perfection #when u search up perfection on google this fic pops up its absolutely insane i am literally so touched i cant even #THE LITTLE KISSESJSJEJDISJIDJEJE NAAAAAAWWWHHHH 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 HEART BREAKING SHATTERING MILLIONS OF PIECES ON THE FLOOR RN I- #BUT BUT HSJWBDJSJSJSJ ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ #the last bit omg im on the floor literally bawling my eyes out #'when it came to you he was different in all the best ways' im abt to Burst #like Explode #its insane #URE INSANE NO FIC EVER HAS BROUGHT ME THIS MUCH COMFORT URE CRAZY EM #*insert crying gif* #EM AOTY 👏👏👏👏👏 EVERYONE CLAP.

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Hi I saw someone do this but who would your close mutuals be if they were idols

oooh fun! ok i’m not the best at this kinda thing so i had to think about this one a bit so sorry it took a while it was a little tricky 😭 also i’m ngl i actually completely forgot about this for some time and it got buried in all my drafts 💀 sksjskd so sorry 😭 (these are listed in alphabetical order btw and these are just some of my moots)

@enaus — when i was making this, there were a lot of options for ely, such as jungkook and mark lee,, but i ended up choosing soobin for ely because she’s kinda reserved sometimes, but also a somewhat leader-type in my eyes who isn’t afraid to speak up, and she’s very caring to her friends as well.

@ethereal-engene — ok for ash,, i’m gonna say jaehyun and yeosang or jongho. i can’t exactly say why 😭 ,,,, they’re just alike in a way i can’t describe,,,,, sksjjssjsj it’s just a part of their personalities are similar,,, i’m so sorry idk how to describe it 😭

@heeracha — i think rey is a mix of a few idols but imma give her lee know for several reasons. one, CATS. two, the teasing 😭 and three, she can be a little intimidating to some ppl sometimes skjskdj but like she’s very loyal to the ones she loves,,, yeah :)

@kaimal — hmmm for some reason may was hard for me 😭 it was difficult to come up with just one idol for may bc i think she’s a mix of several. but if i had to choose one, maybe jungkook,, or jaemin?? just the introverted-chaoticness that they all share are 🤌🏻 sksjsjsj

@kpophubb — mia definitely reminds me of jake. she’s just super caring, hardworking and positive and is someone i can rely on always. and she’s super supportive and loving 💓

@ljeyes — ari reminds me of bang chan because she feels like a wise older sister and is someone you can go to whenever you need advice or to just rant. and she’s super creative and i see many leader qualities in her as well i miss you ari 🥺

@sultrybaby — kel totally gives me jin vibes for some reason skdjdj like she’s totally the “mother of the group” kind of person, imo at least. and she’s caring and checks in on her moots often etc. <3

these probably weren’t super accurate and my explanations were so bad i’m so sorry 😭

#LETSGOOOOSHWHDJS #JUNGKOOK AND JAEMIN SO TRUEEEE 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌 #so true this is v accurate the introvertee chaotic vibes SO TRUE

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THE RIKI IG PICS IM SCREAMING

THE WAY HE POSTED THEM AND I SAW THEM RIGHT AS I WAS ABT TO TAKE A NAP. I COULD NOT TAKE A NAP HE CAUGHT ME SO OFF GUARD?????? I CAN NEVER LIVE IN PEACE

#mj answers™ #em™

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Hi and it's fine 😭😭

🫂🫂🫂🫂 wait this is our first (technically second) interaction omg

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do u ever feel like

A plastic bag

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its gen so crazy

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brooo i am so so so so so bored rn

Me 2

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Can you believe we already passed

Of May

That was like my worst joke ever but lmao

HELP?1?!!!!! IM ANSWERINF THIS SO LATE MY BADD 😭😭😭 HI

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I BLAME U FOR THE PERSON I HAVE BECOME OH MY GOD I CAN NOT. MY HEART IS ACHING BRO THIS IS 💔💔💔💔💔💔 U KNOW ME SO WELL I MIGHT EVAPORATE. OFC IT WAS RIKI 🤞🤞 #4LYFER BRO I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS DELULU IN MY LIIIIIFE I SAID IT ONCE IMMW SAY IT AGAIN. THIS IS SO DETAILED I LOVE U.

No u right im a chicken i'd gen rather die than ask someone out 😕😕 ESPECIALLY riki cmon now. THE LETTER ARGHSNWNS MY HEART 💔 THAT IS SUCH A RIKI THINF TO DO AND SAY AND 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HALLWAY CRUSHEJJSJDJEJDHWJEJ mira i will literally start crying

NO CUZ THE RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIICCC U RIGHT HE IS THE PERFECT BOYFRIEND UGH MY DELULU SELF. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.SJWJDJWNDJWJW. NAWT him showing up at my home omg 🙁🙁🙁 no cuz my mom would love him (partially cuz he's tall but-) AND MY NIECE TOO 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 and i Would defo scream abt it in the server, absolutely. You would never hear the end of it and ik somehow y'all would figure out how to kick me out of my OWN server 😕 lucky for u that he isn't my actual boyfriend "you look so cute when you're mad" *EVAPORATES* I AM NOT HERE. I AM DEAD. I HAVE ASCENDED. GRR EOOFS RBSJEBIDENEJEJ A ARK BARK ATF BSRK I. ME- BHT BUABWSJAJJWKWKAKAWK

Riki tryna show off his manliness 😮😮 ORDERING FOR ME LETS GOOOOOOOOO 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ AS HE MF SHOULD!!! If ur bf doesn't order for u, then what's the point of having one /j

YAYYAYAYAYAYAYA ARCADE SND AMUSEMENT PARK DATES 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 GIGGLING AND KICKING MY FEET. No cuz i would have the time of my life i just KNOW IT SND OH GOD "he'll squeezer your hand and tell you that it'll be okay cuz he's next to you" SHUT UP NO WAY TEARS IN MY E Y E S. NO U DONT UNDERSTAND IM SO OBSESSED WITH THIS. And yes please i KNOW he'd have the time of his life organizing 🤞🤞 and im horrible at organizing so its a winwin situation omg power couple fr (icb im saying this abt MYSELF and an idol. Look what you've done) NAWH CUZ I CANT DESCRIBE HOW ADORABLE THIS IS 💔💔💔💔 im rlly trying my best to hold back and not gush over every single sentence i really am... NO CUZ I JUST KNOW HE'D BEAT MY ASS AT EVERY GAME BUT FUCK THAT BRO I'LL STILL SHIT TALK HIM. ABSOLUTELY. AND THE PUNCHING GAMES ARGSHJWDSJJWJ his en log 😕😕 gosh i. He is SUCH A BOYFRIEND I CANT 🗣️😭 I CAN NOT. AND THE BEING MOODY IF I DONT COMPLIMENT HIM. SO RIKI. THAT IS SO RIKI. I didn't think it was possible but i have fell harder bro like im down BAD bro. I am no longer 6ft under the ground, i am literally touching the earths inner core like i-

I will come back to this reply every. Single. Day. Reading this religiously (along with ur riki fic of course 🤞🤞 may #1 supporter strikes again) i will cry rigjt now im so delusional and its all YOUR FAULT

HI MIRA THIS IS MY AMAZING ASK FOR YOUR MATCH UP POST 🤞🤞

AHEM AHEM my mbti is INFP-t, both my giving and receiving love languages are quality time. My hobbies are drawing, dancing, singing, and obviously writing cuz like that's why im on this dumb app in the first place 🧍🏻‍♀️ i mention this every single time but my ideal date would be an arcade 😁🤞 arcades >>>> and also maybe an amusement park, just somewhere i can have fun without things feeling awkward. I'm shy at first but when you get to know me i become loud and annoying (u should know) 🤥 i like to tease and i'm quite playful, and also violent 😦 i really want people to feel comfortable around me and i try my best to be as friendly as possible. I try to give good advice when someone comes to me with a problem. I want my friends to rely on me and/or rant to me whenever they need to. It's really easy to get on my nerves but i don't stay mad for too long. I'm also quite competitive and stubborn.. and also maybe (most definitely) a perfectionist 🧍🏻‍♀️ i have biiiiiiggg abandonment issues and i can get a tad bit overprotective when it comes to the people i love. My ideal type is someone who i can feel safe around, someone who's very passionate, open about their feelings. Someone who has the same sense of humor as me (aka a person who is hilarious cuz im obviously very funny /j) and someone who will order food for me at McDonald's /gen 😦😦 idk what else to say but talking abt myself was very awkward for me so do what you please with this information

a/n: FIRST MATCH UP WHOOP WHOOP

I SHIP YOU WITH: NISHIMURA RIKI (surprise surprise help)

HOW YOU MET/STARTED DATING: you and riki met in school, i can definitely see you two in the same year since you're both mentally on the same level. i think you two would have known about each other but not really cared that much?? like you both acknowledged each other as school mates (you definitely thought he was good looking and vice versa,,, but it's more like a hallway crush?) anyways i think the first time you two interacted would have been in an art club. you both signed up for it but were the only people who showed up so you just started talking to each other awkwardly. after that, riki started approaching you in school by being annoying. he did things like scruffing up your hair, bumping his elbow into yours and stealing your food. i think just by becoming good friends (because you both have similar interests—gaming, dancing, drawing) you two just naturally grew feelings for each other. riki definitely asked you out first (i don't think that you would make the first move personally – i think you'd rather die than confess your feelings omg) by writing down “i think we'd make a good couple, you're not allowed to disagree” on a note and stuffing it into your locker. and now, you two are a really fun couple!

YOUR RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC: the thing that's so precious about your relationship is that nothing much has changed since your friendship! however, now that your feelings are in the open, riki likes to express his own a lot more. he likes showing up to your house with no warning whatsoever at the most random times (your family is too familiar with him now. there was a time he came to visit when your niece came over so he helped you look after her. i can imagine you texting the server in capital letters when you find him taking cute selfies with your niece or dancing to songs with her.) he likes opening up to you about anything and everything because he loves your responses and how well you help him when he needs it, and he also really loves listening to you talk. riki is the type of person to randomly jab your arm or poke your cheeks while you're talking, or just say something like “you look so cute when you're mad, you know that right?” when you're ranting about school or something like that. riki also likes proving how manly he is in front of you, so he'll do things like wrapping his arm around your shoulders, ordering for you at a takeaway, speaking up for you when he can tell that you're irritated. he's the perfect boyfriend bro tell me i'm wrong about this.

ACTIVITIES/DATES YOU TWO WOULD DO TOGETHER: i am Not just saying this because of what you wrote in your request but you + riki = arcade and amusement park dates. riki loves taking you on dates that you'll remember for awhile because he gets really giddy whenever you reminisce on somewhere you've been together a few weeks after you've been. he loves being the one who organises them: he makes a list of everything you'll do together and will make sure you both tackle every game/ride. if you're queueing up for a roller coaster and riki can tell that you're scared, he'll squeeze your hand and tell you that it'll be okay because he's next to you. but he's such a little shit because he starts laughing at your face throughout the whole ride. and when you come off, he'll be patting your hair down and telling you how you made the ride so much more fun because he found your facial expressions cute hilarious. in an arcade, he also loves how competitive you get. you're both very competitive by nature, but riki just loves gaming (especially with the people he loves) you rile him up so much and the arcade is somewhere the two of you visit often to beat each other's top scores. back to how riki likes showing off his manliness, he DEFINITELY does the games where you have to punch or slam a hammer to see your strength score. every. single. visit. and he loves showing it off to you help. if you don't compliment on how strong he is, he'll be moody for like a good twenty minutes so make sure you do!!!

a/n: YAYYYY I'M DONE 😍😍😍😍 this was so fun oh em gee onto nadia's match up ☝🏼

#wow #wOWOWOWOWJWJEJEJRJEKEJ #I LOVE YOU. #mj reblogs™ #mimo™

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MY SUFFERING IS OVER.

Day 3, no email from Twitter yet. I think i'm going insane.

#HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

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Day... I don't know anymore. i've lost count. How long shall i wait? I'm starving, I'm thirsty, I can feel myself become weaker both physically and mentally. I wish to come back soon..

Day 3, no email from Twitter yet. I think i'm going insane.

#bro im so bored

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MY RIDE OR DIE – l.hc

pairing: brother’s best friend!haechan x f!reader

genre: brother’s best friend au, neighbors au, one-sided enemies to lovers, fluff

warnings: gentleman haechan, best brother jaemin, swearing, some flirting/teasing, mentions of renjun, one mention of mark and jeno, there’s probably more but idk

wc: 5.5k

a/n: for my favorite kylie replica and yy stalker @yyx2 *insert pleading eyes emoji* ily lots u evil little monster that u are <3

synopsis: hyuck is your brother’s best friend since your family moved next to his house when you were little kids. however, as much as your brother wants you to get along with his friends, you just can’t seem to stand his closest friend, the oh so confident and popular haechan. but when you get stood up on a date with no money left and rain pouring from the sky, haechan seems to be the only option left.

your brother has always been very protective of you. his big-brother act started in middle school when one of his classmates pushed you to the floor as you were watching jaemin score. he immediately let go of the soccer ball and ran towards you, his victory long forgotten. you still remember clearly how the mean boy fell to the ground after your brother landed his first ever punch. you had never been prouder of having him as your older brother, even if he looked ridiculous washing the dishes as punishment. 

over the years, jaemin grew even more protective, only trusting his friends around you and scaring all the boys away. most of the time, it would end with you scolding him for doing so, your brother trying to defend himself and your mother calling you for dinner to stop your guys’ bickering. when you look back at it, you know you can never stay mad at jaemin for too long. 

when he first introduced you to his friend group, you were nervous. obviously, meeting a bunch of tall teens is intimidating. but as they made lots of efforts to include you and be as nice as possible to you, you soon felt at ease around them. 

well, not around all of them.

hyuck, also known around school as haechan, has been your brother’s best friend since your family moved in next to his when you were little kids. the two of them immediately bonded and soon became the little troublemakers of the neighborhood, with haechan leading the way. 

it’s been more than ten years but the two are still as inseparable as before. only difference is that your brother has given you a permanent spot, turning the duo into a trio to accommodate you.

you wished that you and haechan could get along, you really did. but it’s just impossible, and you have given up on trying to explain as to why to your brother. how can you ever appreciate someone, that in your eyes, is someone so self-indulgent and self-centered that you could throw up from the thought only? 

you know that it upsets jaemin, knowing that his little sister, the most important person in his life, and his best friend, the second most important person, don’t get along. you feel bad, that’s for sure, but faking liking haechan is not going to work. 

you wonder how other people do it. do they see haechan in a different light? in a different way than you do? 

even if you have explained numerous times to jaemin why you aren’t fond of haechan at all, he just doesn’t seem to want to accept it. you understand him, you would be confused too if you were him. because haechan is actually loved by many, may it be classmates or neighbors. 

people seem to love haechan and it infuriates you. not because he doesn’t deserve it but because you wished you liked him too. 

maybe that’s why you’ve decided to make some effort, to try and get to know him better in an attempt to befriend him. you really wished life was simpler. 

hating haechan hasn’t always been easy. you yourself hated it. 

the hatred you hold for him started a few years back after middle school. high school arrived and haechan grew a lot. the latter changed his hair and even his style. you never knew why he did it but suddenly your brother followed, buying the same brand of shoes as his best friend. in less than a few weeks after the summer holidays, jaemin and his friend group were named the cool kids. lucky you for being the little sister of one of the members. 

it felt weird. the sudden change made you feel uneasy. that was probably why you never bothered to even think nicely of haechan, because in your eyes, he had changed your brother.

it wasn’t even long before you realized that even though jaemin had physically changed, he was still your brother, the one who teased you for hours on about a bad grade but comforted you when he went a little too far and made you tear up. you realize now how stupid it is to hate someone for something that wasn’t even their fault. 

but you were a stubborn child and thus, continued to hate haechan. 

highschool was difficult for you. you had a hard time making friends and when you did, many of them let you go when they realized you wouldn’t be helpful in getting closer to your brother. what’s more, people didn’t like you for not liking haechan. 

they never really tried to understand you or hear you out. you’ve lost many friends because of this. 

but surprisingly, haechan never let you go or walked away. he always stayed, even if your death stares made him uncomfortable. you know you should thank him for that but your pride never lets you do so. 

if you were really honest, you had hoped haechan had given up. because not only is the boy nice to you despite knowing of your hatred towards him, he also tries to make you like him. 

he was the one who held your hand minutes before you had to take a huge exam, he was the one who rushed to your side when you broke your leg at volleyball practice and your brother was in class but most importantly, he’s the one your brother trusts the most in taking care of you when he’s not around. 

upon entering university, you had asked your brother for a bit more space and freedom. you loved him to death but you knew that if he continued treating you like a child, you would never be able to become more independent. 

so, even if he didn’t like it, he agreed with a forced smile. 

jaemin had kept his promise and for the first time since you were born, you were able to accept someone’s date request. you shared a few classes with the boy in question and were pretty excited that he had asked you out. 

jaemin was pretty relieved to see you walking around the house with a smile and sparkly eyes, giggling in excitement.

when the day of your rendez-vous finally arrived, jaemin dropped you off at the diner your date had requested to meet before speeding off to an important class of his. the diner, which had a lovely atmosphere to it, was almost empty. it was in the middle of the day so most people were busy with school or work, unlike you who had a free afternoon that day. 

nervously, you glanced at your phone. you had agreed to meet at three pm and you were exactly two minutes early.

the first ten minutes, you kept looking at your phone in hopes to find a message of your date stating that he would be late but nothing. after another ten minutes, you decided to wait inside and order something to drink, looking around for a few seconds before sitting at one of the booths next to the window and close to the door. 

fifteen minutes passed and you finished your drink, the empty glass now sitting sadly on the table. it was a great drink by the way, worth the price. 

when the clock hits four pm, you had finally convinced yourself that your date wouldn’t show up. it hurt but it was the harsh truth. 

without losing another second, you called jaemin. 

and when he did finally pick up after the third ring, your shaky voice surprised him. 

“nana, can you please pick me up?” 

you almost never call jaemin by the nickname haechan gave him, but when you do, it’s either because you want something from him or there’s something wrong and he’s pretty sure that right now, it’s not the first option. 

you can hear him sigh through the phone and you imagine him rubbing his head and closing his eyes in frustration, already preparing yourself for what he has to say. 

“i am so sorry yn, but i can’t leave right now.” jaemin sounds so apologetic and guilt starts to creep up as you can make out a voice in the background that ushers jaemin to hurry up. before you can hang up, he speaks up again, “listen, don’t worry okay? i will call someone to pick you up, trust me.” 

you nod before realizing that he can’t see you, clearing your throat “thank you nana.” 

with a quick hum and goodbye, he hangs up and you slowly lower your phone, stuffing your hands in your pocket while you wait patiently in the cold. 

when you see a couple enter the dinner behind you, the two of them giggling and holding onto each other, you understand why you longed for love all these years. but as your eyes catches sight of the kids running out of the nearby school and your ears ring due to the bell, indicating that it’s four thirty pm, you also understand why your brother wasn’t fond of letting you go on a date with your classmate. 

you should have probably listened to his friend renjun’s warnings. renjun used to be part of the newspaper club in highschool and was known around multiple schools because of his connections. when your brother had invited his friends over not even two weeks ago, the younger man had mentioned your date’s habit of fooling girls when he was in highschool. you didn’t think it was still a habit of his. 

you groan in frustration, you should have really taken all his warnings seriously. 

deep down, you know that not even your brother could have changed your mind. you’re known to be stubborn and you wanted to prove him wrong, which inevitably didn’t work out now. 

looking at your feet tiredly, you let out a deep sigh, clearly done with today. you had preferred the guy being a total asshole during the date over being stood up, but it’s not like you can do anything against it. 

maybe you should have accepted jaemin’s proposal in setting you up with one of his friends. no, he would have tried to set you up with haechan. haechan this and haechan that –over the years, that’s the only thing you’ve heard jaemin say. like you said earlier, haechan is the person your brother trusts the most regarding you. 

which is exactly why haechan’s car is the one entering the restaurant’s parking lot and not any of jaemin’s other friends’.

you could recognize his car from miles away. it was his mom’s but when haechan graduated from highschool and finally got his driver’s license, she had proudly gifted him the keys to his now old but impeccable vehicule. if you said that haechan loved his car, that would be an understatement. 

it used to be an old crappy gray-colored thing but haechan restored it with all the money he got from his summer job during his first year of college. 

when he finally parked his precious baby in front of you, you wrapped your jacket tightly around your body. when you were about to open the door to the passenger’s seat, it inched open and haechan’s body was hunched over the console, arm stretched out to hold the door open for you. you hesitated upon seeing him this close and when he realized, he backed away, clearing his throat while one of his hands found the steering wheel.

‘step in.”

you opened the car door wider, holding onto it as to not slip due to the wet sidewalk. the warmth of haechan’s car finally hit you when you landed in your seat, the door falling close next to you. you sighed in delight, rubbing the palm of your hands against your bare thighs in an attempt to warm them up a bit. 

haechan looked at you, observing your wet hair and the way your lips trembled, body shivering. he turned around, stretching his arm out towards the backseat to retrieve a zip-up hoodie.  

he throws the clothing gently in your lap, pulling at one of its sleeves to cover the side of your left thigh more. he doesn’t spare you a glance and starts the car, the engine roaring. you look down at the hoodie in your lap, hands fiddling with the strings when you recognize the zip-up hoodie as the one you had gifted him for his 18th birthday on your mom’s request. 

it’s all worn out now. the colors have faded and you can barely make out the designs on the back and sleeves. hundred twenty bucks went into that hoodie but you faintly smile when you realize that haechan probably wore it a lot for it to be so beaten up. 

when you finally lift your head for the first time since haechan picked you up, your brows furrow at the sight of the dashboard. it used to be grey-colored, just like the outside of his car but now, it’s a black matte color, contradicting the beige leather seats in a fashionable way. you lean forward a bit, brushing your hand over the dashboard in front of you when haechan speaks up. 

“i changed it a few months ago. the grey just wasn't doing it anymore.” 

you nod, sitting back in your seat comfortably. the last time you had seen haechan’s car was when he dropped your brother off after a party last summer. the only thing you had told him when he helped you drag jaemin up to his room was that he should change the dashboard color, as it didn’t match with the new red exterior of his car. you could think he took your suggestion seriously. 

it was silent for most of the ride, the music from his spotify playlist making it slightly less awkward. you could see by the way his fingers tapped against the steering wheel that he wanted to say something but he kept his mouth shut, tongue wetting his dry lips. 

the rain only started pouring more and more, aggressively hitting the windshield. 

when one of your favorite songs came on, you hesitated a few seconds before reaching your hand out to increase the volume. you didn’t expect haechan to have the same idea as you.  

his hand bumped against yours and he quickly backed away as if the feeling of your skin against his had burned him. it stung a bit, that’s for sure, but you found it even sadder that he had to act like that because of your past behavior and actions. 

he opened his mouth to apologize but you interrupted him, “it’s okay. i’m sorry, i should have asked first.” 

he looked at you when you spoke before concentrating on the road in front of him, clearing his throat and nodding slowly. 

it was dead silent once again. why did the diner have to be so goddam far away. 

haechan clears his throat again and you remember he does that often when he’s nervous. he wipes his hand on his thigh, rubbing his palm on the soft material of his sweatpants. with a deep breath, you divert your eyes and focus on the road. haechan is wearing grey sweatpants for god’s sake.

he takes a turn left and suddenly lowers the volume of the radio, “so, is everything okay?”. you look him in the eyes quickly, surprised at his question. he can sense your confusion and continues, “i heard that you got stood up.” 

well, that surely was very direct. 

you don’t know why but your eyes fill with tears. you got stood up, that’s nothing new but someone else saying it hurts you much more than when you did. maybe it’s the fact that you had to wait alone for more than an hour, maybe it’s the fact that you were really excited for today or maybe it’s the way haechan says it, but it finally dawns on you. 

you got stood up. on your first ever date too!

you let out a loud whimper at the realization, covering your mouth with your hand as you burst into tears. you cry in front of someone who isn’t your mom or jaemin and the thought makes you feel even more pathetic as you sob louder than the rain. 

haechan is terrified. it’s not the first time a girl cried in front of him, he has a younger sister and he was and still is quite popular in school. but it is the first time he’s ever seen you cry. the saddest he’s ever seen you was when you had to stop playing volleyball due to your leg injury but even then you didn’t cry. 

he has absolutely no idea what he needs to do. he can’t call jaemin because the latter is busy with school and he doesn’t know how to comfort you without making you uncomfortable. his mom had always told him to be nice to you and do his best to take care of you with jaemin but never in a million years had she told him what he should do when your best friend's little sister is crying her eyes out in your car. 

with wide eyes and hurried movements he drives to the nearest parking lot. he turns his body towards you once he’s parked and he swears under his breath. his mom –and jaemin– would never forgive him if he just let you like this. he closes his eyes for a maximum of two seconds and he can already hear his mom –accompanied by his dear best friend– yell obscenities at him for leaving you like this. 

no way he can drop you off at home with teary and puffy eyes and a red nose from crying.

without thinking, haechan unbuckles his seatbelt and throws the door open, getting a free shower the moment he steps outside of his car. he rushes to your side of the car, almost slipping due to the slippery ground, before grabbing the door handle and throwing it open too. 

haechan wastes no time in taking your wrists in his hands, pulling you up and out of your seat. everything goes too fast for you to acknowledge what’s happening but you whine when the rain hits your uncovered arms. 

before you can even protest, haechan wraps his arms around you, shielding you the best he can from the cold rain. 

he holds you close to his chest, one hand on the back of your head so that your face is hidden in his sweater, cheek squished against his collarbone. his other hand is gripped on your top by your side, his arm wrapped tightly around your body. 

he shushes your cries and pats your head softly, his tight embrace calming you down slowly. you close your eyes and let yourself be comforted by haechan. he sways your bodies from side to side a bit, still holding you close to his body. 

he doesn’t say anything but the comfort he provides you shocks you. he doesn’t let go of you, even when your clothes get soaked and your hair is stuck to your forehead. 

you don’t know how long you two stand there in the rain but in the end you barely even register the raindrops hitting your skin. 

it’s haechan’s shivering body that pulls you out of your reverie, teeth clattering. after letting out a deep sigh, he lets go of you but his hands find their way on your shoulders. he squeezes them softly before hugging you one more time. 

when he pulls away, he leans down to be at your height, faces inches away from each other. his hand, however, doesn’t leave your arm, thumb rubbing circles on your skin, “i’m sorry. i should have been more considerate.” 

you put your hands up quickly, trying to wipe away the leftover tears, “no, no, it’s okay! i overreacted.” you try to smile a bit but it doesn’t look sincere so you opt for looking at the ground again, hands together behind your back. 

haechan’s eyebrows furrow, “what do you mean you overreacted? you have every right to be upset. he gave you hope and then stood you up like some typical american movie’s douchebag.” 

you snort at his comment, hand covering your mouth when you see haechan’s face. 

placing his hands on his hips, he suddenly asks, once again leaning forward. “what? why are you laughing?”

you giggle once more, “it’s just–” you can’t help but let out a laugh, head tilting forward and hitting his chest softly. haechan’s eyes soften at this. “it’s just that you look really angry right now. that’s all.”

you can sense haechan freezing up beneath you and you quickly lift your head off his chest, taking a step back to get out of his personal space. you don’t see it but haechan’s cheeks turn a bright red, the tip of his ears joining too. he rubs the back of his neck with his hand, the silence suddenly very awkward. 

haechan doesn’t really know why he got so pissed but he convinces himself that it’s because you’re his best friend’s little sister. and nobody can mess with jaemin’s loved ones. 

“hey, uhm should we, you know–” haechan points at the car and you eagerly nod. in an instant, he holds the car door open and you look at him. has he always been this pretty?

you shake your head to get rid of the thought and jump in your seat. haechan closes behind you and dashes to the other side before getting inside. he hurriedly increases the heater, fiddling with all the little buttons and controls on the dashboard. before you know it, warmth spreads through the car and you let your head fall back on the headrest. 

you can hear haechan shuffling next to you but don’t bother opening your eyes until he calls you name, handing you a small white towel. you take hold of it and dry your hair the best you can with it, glancing at haechan from time to time. he’s aggressively drying his hair, rubbing his towel over his whole head and swiping it across his neck. when he’s done, he puts the towel around his neck and turns to you. 

“you okay?”

you nod, mindlessly drying your hair when he suddenly leans forward. you try to protest but haechan is faster, grabbing the zip-up hoodie that is laying on the ground and at your feet, his face almost touching your knee. he again turns to you with the clothing in hand and drapes it over your thighs, covering your lap with it like before. 

he mutters a small “here you go” and settles back in his seat, leaving you dumbfounded. when you think you have finally gotten over his recent action and the shock that came along, you can see haechan removing his soaked hoodie from the corner of your eye. 

your eyes widen and you look away, closing your eyes shut and facing the window. when you open them slowly, you can see his half-shirtless reflection in the window as he’s putting his t-shirt back on correctly. 

when jaemin said he and haechan often went to the gym, he certainly didn’t lie. 

one hand on the steering and the other one laid out on the console in between you two, haechan begins to drive, getting closer to your home with each second that passes. 

when you finally arrive at your neighborhood and you can see your house from afar, you clap your hands together in exhilaration. haechan lets out a chuckle at that before he slows down, driving towards your two houses. 

“hey,” he taps the steering wheel with his fingers, biting his lip, “why didn’t you just go on a date with any of us?” 

you keep looking in front of you as you see your two houses getting bigger and bigger the closer you get. you don’t have to think about his question a lot, he rapidly figured that the main reason why you had accepted to go on a date today was to annoy jaemin. 

“because then nana would just continue treating me like a child.” haechan smiles at the nickname, content to hear you using something he invented.”plus, i don’t think any of you would have accepted going on a date with me.” 

haechan looks offended and you stare at him as he gasps in disbelief, “you really think that?”. you don’t answer him and he continues, “you really think nobody would accept to go on a date with you?” 

you cross your arms at his tone, “well, nobody has ever shown interest in me. i would have known if someone did.” you side-eye him, huffing in annoyance.

now, haechan looks even more offended and he begins to stutter, stumbling over his words.”that is not true.” he manages to say, insisting on the ‘not’, clearly showing his disapproval. “i know someone– this guy, who, uhm who would have liked to– to go on a date with you.”

you tilt your head to ask him who but he lifts his hands in the air, “i can’t– i can’t say. that would be like breaking the, uhm, the bro code, you know?”

you huff, holding his zip-up hoodie in your hands, “if none of you can tell me, then how could i have gone on a date with him?”. you get out of the car when you realize you have been parked in front of his house for the past five minutes. 

he gets out just after you, contourning the car and walking you to your house. “well, i’m– i’m sure the guy has shown– or tried to show his, uhm, interest in you.” his answer sounds more like a question and you can’t help but let out a little chuckle. 

with the way haechan is behaving –and looking at you–, you hope he’s the guy in question. 

when you step onto the driveaway of your house, you turn to him, his hoodie now hanging on your shoulders. “who do you think would suit me huh? mark? maybe renjun or jeno?” you can see the way haechan tries to divert his eyes from you, cheeks flushing a light red when the post lamp flickers above you.

you look up at him, smiling softly, “perhaps, you?”

that quickly catches his attention, “what?”

you grab his t-shirt, holding onto the fabric tightly, “hyuck,” you never used that nickname before and it greatly shocks haechan. “are you interested in me?”

haechan is speechless. he never thought those words would come out of your mouth, ever. he can barely register what is happening, uttering a small “what?”. it’s like he lost the majority of his vocabulary. 

you repeat the question and this time haechan manages to answer. “i think– i think you’re interesting, yeah?” 

you pat his chest, ”you know that is not what i meant, but it’s okay.” 

you don’t know how you still manage to keep your knees stable because you are literally trembling from the nerves. you’re fiddling with your fingers, looking at your shoes multiple times during the conversation. you glance at your house, making sure that he doesn’t see it. you’re around ten feet away from the door so you take a few steps back, haechan following you close behind. 

you’re suddenly shy when you notice how he is leaning over you, pretty eyes looking at you and waiting for you to speak up. 

you bring a thumb up and point at the door behind you, “i should get in.”

“yeah, you should.” his answer is simple and doesn’t add anything important to the conversation but his voice is so smooth that your mind goes blank. you probably look like a fool right now. 

when haechan notices your nervous stance, his confidence comes back and he smirks, hands stuffed in his pockets. you’re about to head in, fumbling with the keys a bit before you manage to find the right one and unlock the door, but haechan has another idea. he slowly and gently grabs your wrist when you’re in the doorway and pulls you back on the doorstep. 

he’s leaning against the wall next to you, arm pressed against the door and he’s unnecessarily close to you, not that you mind. he grins down at you, “didn’t you forget something?” he arches an eyebrow and his tongue comes out to wet his lower lip. “is that how you treat someone who helped you?” 

you blush, eyes widening in embarrassment. you quickly apologize and start thanking him for the ride but he stops you again. “is that all? we both know you can do better.” 

you gulp as his eyes bore into yours. with a sharp inhale, you nod. you don’t want to let him win, he’s never going to let that down if you do. 

so with all the courage left in you, you stand on your tip-toes and kiss his cheek, taking him by surprise. your lips hover over his skin for a moment before you pull away, not without whispering a last “thank you” right next to his ear. 

he certainly didn’t expect that. 

in less than ten seconds, you’ve waved him goodbye and entered your house, shutting the door behind you with a loud thud. 

you’re bold, haechan thinks. and that definitely doesn’t help his crush on you to fade away. 

with one last look at the door, he stuffs his hands in his pockets and leaves your doorstep with a smile, walking back to the comfort of his own home. 

it’s around eight pm when jaemin finally comes back home, the older boy discarding his jacket and shoes in the entry hall, pushing his sneakers in between two pairs of yours carelessly. 

you sit up from the couch the moment you hear his footsteps, turning towards him and immediately forgetting about the show playing on the screen behind you. 

jaemin can sense you looking at him as he puts his bag down on the counter. he had been worried all day and hadn’t been able to concentrate on his class at all but when he turns to you, he’s confused. leaning back against the kitchen counter, he crosses his arms and inspects your face. you’re looking at him with puppy eyes and he doesn’t understand why, it annoys him a bit if he has to be honest. 

pointing his chin at you, he breaks the silence. “why are you looking at me like that? you want something?” 

he knows that your date didn’t show up, that was made clear by how distressed you were over call. but he doesn’t understand why you’re not surrounded by tissues and sitting on the couch with blankets and ice-cream.

when he sees you shuffling on the couch and hesitating, he grows even more curious and suspicious. gone is the annoyance as he makes his way over to you. this time, his voice is much more gentle, “did something happen with hyuck?”

you quickly shake your head and he lets out a relieved sigh. he wouldn’t want to beat up his best friend. 

“actually, i was wondering something.” your voice is small, as if you are anxious or embarrassed to tell him. he replies with a quick nod and you continue. “do you still want to set me up with one of your friends?” 

he grows quiet at your question before a large smile makes its way on his face. wow, did he hear that right? 

he hops over the couch, landing next to you and grinning from ear to ear. “why do you ask?”

you groan at his teasing, falling back onto the pile of cushions and blankets. “just answer the damn question jaemin.” 

he lifts his hands up and you smile when you realize that both he and haechan have the same gestures, probably due to all the years of being glued to each other like some blood suckers.

jaemin pushes his head into the comfortable cushion of the couch, his words coming out muffled. “one specific and very close –in every sense of the word– friend. yeah.”

your cheeks turn bright red and you hide your face in the blanket next to you, too embarrassed to look your brother in the eyes. “does the offer still stand?” you meekly ask him.

you swear you have never seen jaemin so happy in his life before. he claps his hands loudly, pumping his fist in the air and standing up from the couch with a jump. he points at you and beams, almost jumping up and down in excitement. “oh, this is my time to shine!”

you can only whine in protest when he launches towards the hallway, leaping the stairs and giggling all the way to his room. 

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