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You take the girl out of the self harm, not the self harm out of the girl.

#self h@rm #self mutalition #tw self destruction #depressing shit #self h@te #su1c1d3 #su1c1dal #tw depressing thoughts #tw self h4rm #cvtaddict

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How much longer I can pretend to be sane?

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I wonder if she believes I'm strugging or thinks I'm an attention seeker.

#self h@rm #self mutalition #tw self destruction #depressing shit #self h@te #su1c1d3 #su1c1dal #tw depressing thoughts #tw self h4rm #cvtaddict

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I always feel like I'm not "sick enough" like sorry brain I didn't know it was a competition. I feel like I never have enough scars, cvts or whatever.

#self h@rm #self mutalition #tw self destruction #depressing shit #self h@te #su1c1d3 #su1c1dal #tw depressing thoughts #tw self h4rm #self half #selfharrrm #cvtt!ng #cvtaddict #sh cvt #sh things #sh twt #sh vent #shblrr #shblur #tw sh related

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#hoshino hidehiko #hidehiko hoshino #buck tick #vkeiband #vkei #jrock #visual kei #atsushi sakurai #sakurai atsushi #hisashi imai #imai hisashi #yagami toll #toll yagami #higuchi yutaka #yutaka higuchi #80s #rock icons

[livingonthenet]

If you read this please get help. It only gets worse if you don't get help. People won't help you unless you ask for it.

I thought someone would do something eventually when they saw my scars, but people are useless. Even people who should have helped me didn't. My friends, multiple teachers, and my school nurse have seen my scars and even cuts. I thought someone would force me to stop, but no one has and I have only gotten worse.

What I have learned from this is that you have to ask for help. People don't know what to do and it isn't always their responsibility. It's up to you.

#self h@rm #self mutalition #tw self destruction #depressing shit #self h@te #su1c1d3 #su1c1dal #tw depressing thoughts #tw self h4rm #cvtaddict #cvtt!ng #cvt #baby cvts #cvtting addict #sh cvt #i want to cvt

[livingonthenet]

It dosen't feel like I exist when I'm alone. I love it.

#depressing shit #su1c1d3 #su1c1dal #tw depressing thoughts #self mutalition #self h@rm #tw self destruction #self h@te #tw self h4rm #cvtaddict #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing stuff #depressiv

[livingonthenet]

He has been gone for a month. It still doesn't feel real.

#sakurai atsushi #atsushisakurai #atsushi sakurai #buck tick #yagami toll #higuchi yutaka #hidehiko hoshino #hoshino hidehiko #yutaka higuchi #toll yagami #imai hisashi #hisashi imai

[livingonthenet]

#buck tick #sakurai atsushi #atsushisakurai #atsushi sakurai #hisashi imai #imai hisashi #higuchi yutaka #yutaka higuchi #yagami toll #toll yagami #hidehiko hoshino #hoshino hidehiko #90s #jrock #japan #rock icons #rock music #industrial #alternative rock #vkei #visual kei #vkeiband #rock

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Why am I soooo fing ugly compared to other ppl [girls] my age. Like seriously. I look grotesque next to them. There is just something so fundamentally wrong with me.

I keep getting more reasons to kms.

#tw depressing thoughts #su1c1dal #tw self h4rm #self h@te #depressing shit #su1c1d3 #tw self destruction #self mutalition #self h@rm #body image #tw sui ideation #i hate my body #i hate everything #tw depressing stuff #sorry for being depressing #depressiv #d3pression

[livingonthenet]

I hate how mean I have gotten. The irritabilty aspect of depression and anxiety is no joke. I just snap at people.

#tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #anxitey #anxi4ty #d3pression #self h@rm #self mutalition #tw self destruction #depressing shit #self h@te #su1c1d3 #su1c1dal #tw self h4rm #cvtaddict #dpression

[livingonthenet]

Atsushi and Imai <3

#sakurai atsushi #atsushisakurai #atsushi sakurai #hisashi imai #imai hisashi #buck tick #90s #80s #rock music #vkeiband #vkei #jrock #rock icons #higuchi yutaka #yagami toll #hidehiko hoshino

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I hate how I never have enough scars.

#self h@rm #self mutalition #tw self destruction #depressing shit #self h@te #su1c1dal #su1c1d3 #tw depressing thoughts #tw self h4rm #cvtaddict #self half #selfharrrm #tw selfhate

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What an incredible person you were. Rest in peace.

7/03/1966-19/10/2023

#atsushisakurai #sakurai atsushi #atsushi sakurai #buck tick #hisashi imai #higuchi yutaka #yagami toll #hidehiko hoshino #jrock #visual kei #vkei #vkeiband

[livingonthenet]

Why don't other people find life as hard as I do? I think about death everyday. I'm so overwhelmed. Everything is sooo hard. I don't know if I really want to die or if I just can't live. I want someone or something to strip me of all my responsibilities, all the pressure. If that is death then so be it.

#tw depressing thoughts #depressing shit #su1cide #suic1de #tw sui ideation #self h@rm #tw self h4rm #tw self destruction #self mutalition #tw death #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing stuff #depressiv #su1c1d3 #su1c1dal #su1c1d4l

[livingonthenet]

I thought I was getting better. Maybe I should just ask for help. Do you really get better with medication, therapy and all that? I find that hard to believe.

#tw self destruction #tw depressing thoughts #depressing shit #su1c1dal #tw sui ideation #su1c1d3 #suic1de #su1cide #self mutalition #self h@rm #self h@te #tw self h4rm

[livingonthenet]

#atsushisakurai #hisashi imai #atsushi sakurai #vkei #visual kei #goth #alt rock #punk rock #rock music #hidehiko hoshino #yagami toll #higuchi yutaka #sakurai atsushi #jrock #90s