lovegirl877

[lovegirl877]

depression is addictive. it’s like the dead of winter. the summer heat and the smell of sunscreen has finally left your body. the tan lines have faded and you’re finally just used to the cold. the bags under your eyes are normal. the numb feeling has made itself a comfortable companion. days blend together in a way that makes you forget what day it is. it’s routine. depression is comforting. it’s consistent. it’s being sleepy all day with a social battery constantly on empty. it’s being awake till 4 every night because you finally have enough energy to be awake. depression is numbing in such a way that almost seems inviting.

(this is not meant to idealize depression or depressive episodes. if you are experiencing concerning thoughts, please seek help. this is simply meant to be relatable on some level. this is not meant to be an idealization because depression is not glamorous. you are loved. if you can’t think of a person you know who loves you, then i love you!)

[lovegirl877]

for my sam drake lovers…

if y’all have any requests for one shots,

i’ll write some. i have two fanfics posted on my wattpad that did pretty well. if you’re interested just send me a message! but please send me ideas and i’ll write some!

Xx -lovegirl ♥️

[lovegirl877]

another original by yours truly ♥️

i was held captive there. even years after, something would trigger me back to that room. back to the scared girl i was all those years ago. i was a prisoner in my own mind. i felt the tears run endlessly but i didn’t care. for this moment i was shackled in my memory. i was a caged bird edging to be freed. i remember feeling helpless. just as helpless as i do in this moment. i can’t stop the pain i feel. i can’t control when little, everyday things bring me back to that place. I’m haunted by that memory. I’ll forever be haunted by you. With each shiver that corses down my spine, each tear that parts from my cheek, each shake that rattles my hand, I’ll let the moment pass, but I’ll know it’s because of you. My eyes burn with the tears that stain them each night as I lie awake. I try to journal what I feel, but the tears overwhelm my eyes to the point where I can’t see the page on my lap infront of me. My brain could write until the ink in my pen runs dry, but I’m paralyzed in my memory. I can’t move or speak as my body is stunned with the same memory of you yelling my name. shrieking in pain. I left you there, but I was also left there. My body may have left, but my soul and my mind is still in that room. I never truly left that room. As hard as I try, I’ll never leave that damned room.

#short poem

[lovegirl877]

Hi, uhm… i dunno how to Tumblr, but i do know how to write. this is a short story written by me. if you like it i’ll post more.

what i would give to feel the warmth of your body seep into mine

i would give you anything

what i would give to feel your touch. just to feel your fingers graze ever so delicately over my skin

if i could freeze time i would freeze this moment just to have you with me a little longer. just to be in your arms a little longer.

what i would give to see your crooked smile as we laugh at a joke we said minutes ago that really wasn’t that funny but we just can’t seem to stop laughing

what i would give to feel the safety your hold brings me

what i would give to smell your sent that lingers on my bedsheets from the night before

i would give it all. i’d be poor because with you i’ve never felt richer in love. i’d starve because i’ve never been hungrier than the hunger i’ve felt after you’ve left for work the next morning. i’d be broken because with you i’m made whole. i’d die because i’ve never felt more alive until i met you. i’d go blind because you make me feel seen. i’d freeze because the way you look at me is all the warmth i’ll ever need. i’d be ugly because you’ve been the only person to ever make insecurities feel like the sexiest thing about a woman. i’d happily go deaf if it meant the last thing i heard was your groggy voice you used when you were tired. i’d never sleep because you are my rest. i’d be at war because you are my peace and i’d hate everything else in this damned world if it meant i could love you.

#short poem

[lovegirl877]

“Anybody can look at you. It’s quite rare to find someone who sees the same world you see.”

- Turtles All The Way Down by John Green

[lovegirl877]

Is anyone else in misery or is it just me and the guy from maroon 5

[lovegirl877]

“The sun watches what I do. But the moon knows all my secrets.”

— Unknown

[lovegirl877]

you’re holding me like water in your hands

-Phoebe Bridgers ♥️

#song lyrics

[lovegirl877]

“The marks humans leave are too often scars.”

— John Green

[lovegirl877]

ao3 authors be like “idk I made this while I was bored” and it’s some of the greatest pieces of literature ever written