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fight on !
my shoulders broad, i can carry much:
sticks and stones and dirt and such
secrets, burdens and wishes.
still i can carry so much more
but i cannot carry your absence
independent mark ramano from ' inside eden's gates ' !
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‘ stop punishing yourself. please. you don’t deserve it. ’
LIGHT HEARTED SUGGESTIONS STARTERS / still accepting!
The wind had picked up, blowing wildly at Sara’s hair, blonde locks whipping behind her head. If she lifted her arms she was certain she would fly, carried away like a leaf blown in the gust. But her arms remained slack at her sides where she stood on the edge of THE FATHER’S concrete words, his book opened and lifted up to the heavens where his statue would eventually reach. On her lips rested a smile, but it didn’t reach her eyes—eyes so dull they’d almost become a milky white.
“I have sinned, Mark,” she told the man before her. Was he really there? Or would he evaporate into green smoke the second her fingers brushed him? Sara didn’t test this theory. She didn’t care anymore. She was at the end of The Path. Soon she would pass through the gates and be welcomed wholly into Joseph’s family. Her chest warmed at the thought. She would finally be home.
“To atone I had to walk the path… Prove my loyalty to the Father.” Sara’s tone lacked any emotion, the words seemingly forced out of her by an unseen hand pulling at her strings.
“Stop punishing yourself,” Mark snapped, but he too was affected by the bliss, no matter how he tried to fight it. His movements were slowed, his vision dazed. He tried to take a step towards Sara, but staggered, nearly losing his footing. “… Please. You don’t deserve it.”
An unnaturally soft giggle escaped Sara, the sound echoing that of Faith, her newfound sister.
“This is not a punishment… I knew the Father was special. There was something about him. He has given me faith… He has shown me the way.”
Sara took a step back, teetering on the edge of the statue’s book. She began to hum and soon a song was on her lips, the sound hollow and distant.
“Help me, Faith… Help me, Faith.” Sara turned, looking down, ready to take the final step. “Shield me from sorrow… From fear of tomorrow…”
“Sara!” Mark slurred, but she was already leaning forward, arms spread, accepting her fate.
Sara was warm with the Father’s love as she fell. Before she hit the ground she felt the Father’s love envelop her, his promises true, and his word everlasting.
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standing in front of a full length mirror he tried on marks cowboy hat. humming absently. ' not bad. but really anything looks good on me. '
——— amusement. crooked smile lazily etched into pink lips. he watches john fiddle with the cowboy hat that, along with his flannel and pants, has been stripped off his person. the bubbly liquid from earlier courses through his veins, adding a dusty taint of pink to freckled cheeks, fuelling the soundtrack of laughter.
this…It’s different from other nights spent together, slower and more intimate. It’s just the two of them. mark’s nose wrinkles in distaste as he finds himself thinking he would enjoy more nights LIKE THIS.
( ❛❛ not bad. but really anything looks good on me. ❜❜ )
he decides to simply humour the lawyer, position at the head of the bed abandoned in favour of one behind john. ❛❛ look at ya’, cowboy. ❜❜
his face appears in the full length mirror as his neck cants to the side. A look of pure awe is mocked up, tongue caught between teeth to stop drunken laughter. ❛❛ y’know what they say, huh? ❜❜
fingers hook through john’s belt loop, guiding him to the foot of the bed where arms wrap around the thin torso, chin lifting to rest on his shoulder. playful laughter finally spilled, warm eyes crinkling as john heads tilts to look down at mark, blue eyes shadowed by the wide brim of the hat.
one hand moves from the cold torso to lift the brim of the hat, lips just hovering over john’s.
❛❛ save a ‘orse, ride a cowboy ! ❜❜
@gcdsaved / john duncan is always welcome !
#gcdsaved#idk what this is pls#dont @ me#he's drunk#and this had to be at john's place bc mark doesnt not have a full length mirror#but writing pre-game mark hurts#bc he was so happy and soft#thx for ruining my boY john
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‘ i love you so much ‘
——— softness. they’re enveloped in it, the clean linen wrapped around shivering bodies. bare legs interlocked, the soft sound of their breathing drowned out by the serene mix of the heavy rainfall and the pacific music playing. It’s the picture of BLISS, his little trailer a safe haven for the both of them.
trembling fingers draw patterns across the skin of her cheek, watching as curled eyelash come together and lips part, ( ‘ i love you so much ‘ ). words exhaled, voice vulnerable. love and safety, the two feeling coincide with one another. you cannot have one without the other. love and safety, it’s how she’s brought him back to life. revived what was lost and restored what was shattered.
he can only hope he’s done the same in her.
he burns to tell her she is all he needs but his voice is drowned out by the noise outside. the pitter of raindrops against his window reminding him that there is a world where the two of them have seperate engagements. her, her husband and the name they have built for themselves. him, well, he tends to carry a little bit of everyone else with him. atlas, who carries the burden of world on his shoulders, has now found some to share the load with.
one soul in two bodies separated by selflessness.
wet eyelashes come together, fingers finally stilling on the warmth of her cheek. tentatively her hand comes up to his SCARRED ——— TATTOOED ——— cheek, inducing a small flinch from the BRAVE soldier. this time, for the first time, he doesn’t guide the hand away. lets the cold metal of her wedding band rest against ENVY ——— HIS SIN ——— carved into the flesh of his cheek. perhaps, he’s finally owned up to it. given up on the fight and accepted it as the truth.
HE IS ENVIOUS.
envious that this trailer ——— this safe haven they’ve built ——— is all they will ever have.
blindly hands come up to collect hers from his cheek, interlock their fingers and guide them to his chest ; over his heart.
he didn’t want to fall in love, didn’t want to be fixed.
but she’s done and now he’s ——— they’re ——— left to pick up the pieces.
❛❛ he’ll be home soon. ❜❜ words exhaled, voice vulnerable.
@denyname / soft ask !
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Send Me A Ship & I’ll Tell You Who...
1. Made the first move:
2. The big spoon:
3. The little spoon:
4. The cuddler:
5. Cries during movies:
6. More affectionate:
7. Their favorite non-sexual activity:
8. More nervous to meet the parents:
9. More protective/jealous:
10. Sneaks into the shower with the other in the mornings:
11. Initiates sexy times the most:
12. Fuck or make love:
13. Behind the wheel more often during road trips:
14. Gives the silent treatment when they’re mad at each other:
15. Reaches for the other’s hand first:
16. Whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear at inappropriate times:
17. Comes up with cheesy pick-up lines:
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‘CAUSE IF YOU AIN’T GOT MONEY, IT CAN’T SAVE YOUR SOUL.
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BOLD what applies to your muse .
Pre-Seeds:
alcoholism. amnesia. anxiety. appetite loss. binge eating. codependence. cynicism. defensiveness. denial. depersonalization. depression. derealisation. devaluation. displacement.disassociation. drug abuse. dysphoria. emotional detachment. flashbacks. flat affect. guilt. hallucinations. hypersomnia. hypervigilance. hypochondria. idealisation. insomnia. intellectualize. isolation. low self esteem. narcissism. night terrors. obsessive compulsion. overeating. panic attack. passive aggression. paranoia. phobias. projection. psychosis. rationalization. regression. repression. restrictive eating. risky sex. self-harm/self-destruction. somatization. splitting. sublimation. suicidal ideation. sleepwalking. suppression. thousand-yard stare. triggers. trust issues. violence. whiplash. temper.
Post-Seeds:
alcoholism. amnesia. anxiety. appetite loss. binge eating. codependence. cynicism. defensiveness. denial. depersonalization. depression. derealisation. devaluation . displacement. disassociation. drug abuse. dysphoria. emotional detachment. flashbacks. flat affect. guilt. hallucinations. hypersomnia. hypervigilance. hypochondria. idealisation.insomnia. intellectualize. isolation. low self esteem. narcissism. night terrors. obsessive compulsion. overeating. panic attack. passive aggression. paranoia. phobias. projection.psychosis. rationalization. regression. repression. restrictive eating. risky sex. self-harm/self-destruction. somatization. splitting. sublimation. suicidal ideation. sleepwalking. suppression. thousand-yard stare. triggers. trust issues. violence. whiplash. temper.
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#look the impending fight in the eye & refuse to flee ━━ headcanons.#lbr hope county did nothing to mark#it was just the seeds#and one day i will write his post-game verse#my poor boy :((
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“I have to go…”
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MILITARY HABITS !
early mornings: on the rare event that he does go to sleep and stay asleep, mark is up at 0500 ( 5:00 am ) every single morning.
morning cardio: as soon as he is up, he is out the door for his morning workout. normally, he sticks to something light to warm up his muscles for the day ——— stretches, jumping rope, followed by a brisk five mile ( sometimes more ) jog.
sleeping anywhere: again, not something that happens often because he can’t get adequate sleep but when he finally does let himself rest, he can fall asleep anywhere. And when he does wake up, he is coherent and responsive within seconds.
whistling in the latrine: an odd one but not uncommon for veterans. most latrines on military bases don’t have locks, so soldiers on duty will often hum or whistle while using the john. mark is not exception to this odd habit, even if the door has a lock, he will be in there whistling ( or on a good day you can catch him humming ). he doesn’t whistle anything in particular, just whatever happens to spring into his head at the moment.
fast eating: given that downtime is very little when on a tour ( or even in basic training ), mark developed the skill of being able to finish a whole meal in six minutes or less. It’s a habit that he’s tried to break many times but it won’t shake.
scanning crowds: generally, he doesn’t like being in overcrowded places but when he has no other choice, he’s constantly checking his surroundings. watching people, scanning for threats and looking for exit points.
evening training: he likes to end his days the same way he starts them ; with exercise. his evening sessions are focused on weight / resistance training and are a little more loose given that he can pick and choose just what he wants to work out. if he still has energy to burn after the gym, he will come home and take a dip in the lake.
#look the impending fight in the eye & refuse to flee ━━ headcanons.#long post tw#basically he's a weirdo that eats really fast#whistles while he pees#but#he's super fit#so
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did you spit or swallow daddy john seed's seed?
#i have no words for this#whoever sent this + the other 12#you are going to hell#do you have a moment to talk about our lord n saviour josePH sEDd ━━ crack.#im gonna lose all my followers
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I’m very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very tired.
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I bend the definition
Of faith to exonerate my blind eye.
‘Til the sirens sound, I’m safe.
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Chachi, 2016
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Four Word . Prompts
“Please, come with me.”
“You’re always number one.”
“I can’t do this.”
“I won’t let you.”
“Maybe I’m just crazy.”
“I’m not even sorry.”
“Honestly, just stop it.”
“I believe in you.”
“Don’t be an ass.”
“Who were you with?”
“Please talk to me.”
“I can’t trust you.”
“I need you, though.”
“Don’t be fucking rude.”
“Is that my shirt?”
“So, it was you.”
“I need to go.”
“Just stay with me.”
“You can trust me.”
“Alright, I love you.”
“I’m sorry, but no.”
“Will you help me?”
“You’re a terrible cook.”
“Can you shut up!?”
“You love me, right?”
“I really need you.”
“I don’t love you.”
“I’m not doing this.”
“I really need you.”
“You don’t want me.”
“Let me help you.”
“You’re such a bitch.”
“I can’t do this.”
“You think you’re funny?”
“Hey, I said stop!”
“Will you marry me?”
“Wanna go out sometime?”
“I don’t want this.”
“You always this quiet?”
“Are you fucking insane!?”
“I don’t want you.”
“I’m not wearing that.”
“Sorry, were you sleeping?”
“This was never right.”
“You look really tired.”
“I’m out of here.”
“You need to go.”
#unholy sacrifices of blood and body ━━ memes.#im very aware that i am hoarding#just.. .#let me live
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50 oddly specific headcanon asks.
Send me a number! (some slightly nsfw) || specify muse if needed
How does your muse feel about seafood?
What is their favorite piece of technology?
When did they lose their virginity?
Was their anything their parents pushed them to do? (e.g. sports, theatre, band)
Describe your muse’s worst nightmare.
What is a deal-breaker when it comes to dating someone?
What was the most embarrassing moment in your muse’s life?
What keeps your muse up at night?
What chronic illnesses does your muse have, if any?
Does your muse get carsick?
Does your muse wear glasses/contacts?
What are some warning signs that your muse is getting depressed?
What is your muse’s favorite candy?
Does your muse have a “victory song” and if so, what is it?
Who do they tend to bicker with the most?
Has your muse ever been hospitalized or institutionalized?
Does your muse pray, whether it be to a god or some other force?
Has your muse ever lived in poverty?
Do they have any distinct voice mannerisms? (e.g. saying ‘like’ or ‘um’ a lot, stutters)
Where are your muse’s ancestors from? Do they keep any of their traditions?
When did your muse learn about sex?
What is your muse most thankful for?
What shoe size is your muse?
Does your muse hate their middle name? \ What is it?
How many hours a day do they spend on the internet/watching TV?
Does your muse have any trophies?
If your muse was given the opportunity to go sky diving, would they?
What is the most common lie your muse tells themselves?
Has your muse ever had a pet? If so, what type?
Who was your muse’s first kiss?
What is your muse’s first memory?
How does your muse feel about crocs?
What are your muse’s biggest pet peeves?
What was your muse’s happiest birthday?
Does your muse cross their legs/ankles when they sit?
What simple task is your muse surprisingly bad at?
Did your muse ever own a Tamagatchi?
What was your muses’s first job?
Does your muse usually go for truth or dare?
Has your muse ever been to a concert?
What is your muse’s favorite holiday?
Does your muse reply to scary chain emails/messages?
Describe the first person your muse remembers losing.
Would your muse ever roleplay?
What is your muse’s Hogwarts house?
What is your muse’s first thought upon waking up?
Name a song your muse can sing every word to.
Who would your muse sacrifice themselves for, if anybody?
How long is your muse’s penis? || What bra size is your muse?
If your muse could rid the world of one thing, what would it be?
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» send me ↕ + your muse’s height
I will compare your muse’s height to mine using this website.
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