missxrivera

[missxrivera]

Bode’s Galaxy: Have you ever had a secret admirer?

" I don't know. I've had stuff sent to me from fans before, but a true secret admirer? I don't think so. It wouldn't be a secret than if I knew? "

#ask meme #meme day

[missxrivera]

🎶 - What kind of music does your muse listen to? Do they have a favorite genre? Do you think the aux cord would be taken away from them?

" I listen to a bit of everything, but my sweet spot is pop. I'm in my girly pop era right now, so I think I would be safe from the aux cord being taken away. "

#ask meme #meme day

[missxrivera]

Rosemary: what cartoons did you grow up with?

" My favorite show was the Powerpuff Girls, but I also used to watch stuff like Sailor Moon, which was how I got into fashion. Like did you know half of the characters clothing had been inspired by early 90s runway fashion? I also should have probably not been 6 years old and watching the MTV cartoons like Daria and Clone High, but I loved them too. "

#ask meme #meme day

[missxrivera]

Shooting Star: If you could bring back one thing, what would it be? 

" Just one? I don't know if I could realistically pick one cause then it would mean I'm placing more value on someone than the other. I couldn't choose between my twin and my child I lost. But if I had to choose, I would say my child, because of the fact losing them cost more than just me. It affected more than just Buddy and I. It affected my mom, and my brother because they lost me for a long time on top of it all. and maybe if I was still in town raising a family and preventing my brother from getting mixed up in the wrong shit; Graham wouldn't have gotten into the mess he had and lost his life. I would want to minimize the amount of pain I could towards as many people as I could and maybe this could have prevented so much @buddywellls

#ask meme #meme day #tw: miscarriage #tw:death

[missxrivera]

Status: Open Location: Food and Wine Tasting @aurorabaystarter

“ Do you want to try this” Ramsey replied with a smile as she held up one of the glasses. She liked to consider herself someone who has seen a lot of the world since she left Aurora Bay as a teenager, but there was something still so much fun about having new and fun experiences. “ have you ever had a floral liqueur, or at least one that tastes this great?” She added with a smile. It wasn’t that often that Ramsey was in one of her more positive moods, at least lately, it was nice to get out and have a little more fun.

#aurorabay.starter #auorabay.flowerfest

[missxrivera]

“ oh, nothing is better than like a fresh chocolate croissant especially when they’re still a little warm. It’s like a dream. I could eat like a dozen of them “ which was completely the truth, though she admitted that to her self, she probably would get yelled at by her agent, or something. “ is this like a celebratory croissant or I like I just need some sugar.? “ @gracecromwell

Open starter: @aurorabaystarter

Gracie was stressed, which was normal for her. She wanted to make sure her designs were good enough to not be rejected but of course it didn't go as planned so instead of crying about it, she decided to go grab baked goods to make herself feel better. Gracie turned to look at the other and waved the chocolate croissant. "I'm just saying, these chocolate croissants are the best."

#grace #pre event

[missxrivera]

Ramsey raise your bra with the idea of not being able to handle her tequila. She normally didn’t feel very competitive, but there were some thing about that that spurred the playful side of her to come out. “ unless the drinks made of the strongest tequila imaginable and it weighs about a ton then maybe I couldn’t handle it but it sounds pretty good right now.” @caprifm

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it had been a busy , but successful day for capri . she had signed on two new couples to her wedding planning business & she was at the best margarita spot in town . " i recommend the frozen margarita . " capri points out to the person standing beside her at the crowded bar . " unless you can't handle your tequila . " she says with a playful smile painted on her face .

#capri #pre event

[missxrivera]

👀+ would you ever want a chance with Buddy again?

"At this point I just want us to be able to be around one another without the grief and trauma of what happened tying us in this really upsetting way. I miss him and I've missed him for years, so to have him in my life in any positive way I would take it. I know there's this part of me that never stopped loving him, but I have to be realistic about everything and what I had done" @buddywellls

#ask meme #meme day #tw:trauma #buddy

[missxrivera]

👀+ What’s your biggest fear?

"To end up alone. Family wise all I have left is my mom and I'm single and I sometimes worry that I'm going to die one day and not have anything to show for it beyond my career. "

#ask meme #meme day #tw:death

[missxrivera]

☼ How does your character usually dress in daily life?

“ it varies between of Im in work mode or not. I like a lot of matching sets or corset tops with ones and shorts. Looks that are inspired by 90s runway fashion . Things that look dramatic because my image is part of my job. When I’m just having a casual day, and spending it around town I’m in a lot of tanks and jeans. Cardigans, shorts, and oversized jackets. Something that makes me feel comfy “

#meme day #ask meme #most of her day to day wardrobe looks

[missxrivera]

Maybe it was a good thing that she had been paired with Aiden tonight. She didn’t have the added pressure of running into someone that had an expectation of her romantically or even professionally. And he didn’t handle her like she was made of glass. He was matter of fact and I’m so many ways she needed that handling. It meant there was no bullshit from the man across from her and she could trust him to be honest. It was definitely a good thing she ran into him again.

“ no, I’ve never been the type to complain and them stay in the same situation. Sure my coping mechanisms suck, but I’m work on that too. “

She added before finishing off her glass at the mention to drinking to that. The night had been going well and Ramsey actually felt at ease for once, even with her ex that she definitely didn’t still think about a lot nearby.

“ I don’t but I’m not gonna be offended with you being bossy with my life. Someone needs to knock myself into reality once in a while” it was the fight she had with her twin that had in essence a lot of that topic being the key argument. She didn’t want to discuss it now but maybe some other time with Aiden cause she knew now he was safe but as it right now she just wanted to have a fun dinner with someone she liked; someone that was a friend and in Aurora Bay; Ramsey was short on friends. It seemed like the day was looking up and she welcomed it. @aiden-stevens

Nice dinner or not, Aiden is the last person to handle anything with delicate hands. Ramsey should consider discretion for his lack of tact, but she's taken him in stride so far. Perhaps there is nothing to worry about.

"You're working on it. Better than pointing out the cause and bitching about it but doing nothing, so I'll drink to that."

Once he gets a refill, that is. His welcome champagne had long since been downed in one single, fizzy chug. He thrums his fingers against the table top and takes a quick scan of the restaurant and all the other blind date attendees filtering in. There's disappointingly been no scene caused by anyone being matched with some sworn enemy.

"You'll figure it out. But you said you don't want to talk about it, and I don't want to keep bossing you around about what to do in your life."

For now though, he decides to put the topic down. Maybe, if there's a chance and he's open to it, they could touch upon it again. Aiden won't be the sort to put an effort into that, but he'd be open to listening. Tonight is about Valentine's Day and this nice dinner, and if he can be thankful for one thing it's that his mother's attempt to set him up backfired and he's having dinner with a friend. He can make the most of that. He just hopes Ramsey can too.

@missxrivera

#aiden #end on my end

[missxrivera]

As soon as Ramsey was seated and looking directly at Buddy her nerves got to her. He still had a way of making her heart beat so hard in her chest that it was going to threaten to burst. She knew deep down there were feelings about him that she never had let go of, but so much of it had been coated in the guilt of what she’d done and the trauma of losing a child before they ever got a true chance to be parents

It haunted her still and those apologies she had died on her tongue before she could say them. She wanted to tell him everything, just not in that moment. Not when she just sat down, and made eye contact with him and she was struck with that gnawing thought that would keep her up some nights thinking about what could have been to whether or not their child was gonna have his eye color.

“ It was beautiful but it wasn’t home. I lost myself in all that city life and I needed to be close by to be around my mom. “ she answered. It was the simple answer. The one that didn’t rip the bandaid off as to why she needed to be around her mom, because it would then reveal that Ramsey Rivera may have finally stopped running.

Her expression dropped as soon as Buddy mentioned his dad and she instinctively reached out for his hand, hoping he didn’t push her away but wouldn’t have been mad if he had. She knew all about his family back then and what he’d been through. She remembers the issues that had happened when she’d gotten pregnant and how he was butting heads with his dad. She still felt so much sympathy for him though because at the end of the day, that was still his father. “ I’m so sorry. I know it’s not much, but I would have answered. “ she didn’t know what else to say. Especially if his fathers death happened around when graham was murdered. “ I think just seeing your name pop up after all that time would have made me answer” ’because she still had this weird soft spot for him after what she’d done. She wasn’t there the last time and she would have tried to be there this time.

She blamed herself for everything, when she was literally just a scared teenager who didn’t have the tools to grieve back then and yet she felt like such a problem. She would have took any chance to answer him if he reached out. She could just say she’s fine and move on. She could lie and pretend that she’s having an easy time checking in on her mom, dealing with years of loss and trauma and keeping her modeling work, but she was getting so tired of running form people. And as much as she wanted to run from Buddy again. She didn’t have it in her heart to do that again. “ I’m figuring stuff out or really I’ve been finally working on some stuff I’ve been avoiding. That stuff that’s wrong with me. Graham died last April and I’m still not good at processing that, so I’ve been trying to get help. It’s been up and down since. I wanted to reach out to you too when it happened, but I owe you more than just saying that, I just don't know if here is the best place” she explains wanting a chance to fully talk to him and express how sorry she is about leaving but she could do it in public, when their situation had been such a private affair. @buddywellls

Her acknowledgment that she owed him apologies plural did little to ease the fact that they had never materialised, the hole left in his life from Ramsey had distorted into a question mark that he had to make some sort of peace with never truly knowing the ins and outs why it had come to be.

When she accepts his offer, he knows he could obtain something akin to those answers that eluded him if he wanted to turn a chance run in into an interrogation, but he refrains for the time being. The last year of his life had put the twenty seven that had come before it into some kind of perspective, mostly that he needed to put how he treated people under a microscope and figure out if he wanted to continue being someone who caused destruction in the lives of others.

( It's rarely intentional, though that provides little absolution. )

"Really? Didn't think this old place would have stacked up that well against New York City."

Try as he may, there's a bitterness that tinges his words so palpable he felt like he could taste it in his mouth even without the coffee. His knee bounces subconsciously under the table, his body and his mind on high alert around someone he once considered home.

"I'm fine, been fine. My old man died, thought about telling you when it happened but it seemed weird to. Don't really remember much from the months following it, it's a blur."

He's not certain why the impulse remained in the first place, it had been so long that she was hardly a source of comfort to him in dark times, but the pull had been there still on one of the worst days of his life.

She had been such a large part of the other worst day of his life, he can only wonder if that had been the cause. Maybe that's what they were to one another now, death.

Walking reminders of how fragile and finite it all was.

"What about you?"

@missxrivera

#buddy #tw:death #tw:miscarriage #tw:depression #agh im so sorry for the novel

[missxrivera]

“ how does that always happen? Everything falling in a bra out swim top. I can just look at the beach and I end up with sand in my top” Ramsey replied shaking her head. She thought being a nail tech was pretty cool though. There was a level of artistry that she admired with it. “ does it really fall out like that? That seems almost unreal but I buy it. What was the lie of you don’t mind me asking?” @victoriaxsanchez

"I'm a nail tech, and can confirm it's one hundred percent true. I find glitter down my bra at least once a day." Chunky, fine, holographic. It was always everywhere and it was one of her best weapons when it came to men. "He loved his hair, so he was very upset when it started coming out in chunks in the shower. Shouldn't have lied to me though." @missxrivera

#victoria

[missxrivera]

Ramsey needed to get out but she smiled a bit at the idea that her friend who seemed to dislike socializing was actively going out and having a drink. She did not want to pass up on the opportunity even if it meant that she was pretending she wasn’t dealing with some shit again. It was always easier for her to do out of sight out of mind when she had company or a drink in hand. “ what do you normally do then after you close the garage for the day” @pcrdita

starter: open, feel free to assume connections. @aurorabaystarter where: four leaf

it was certainly a sight to see jude out and about so willingly, perhaps it was the copious amount of alcohol that made the usual displeasure of being social somewhat tolerable. he needed to try, at the very least, to get out of pitstop every once in a while in a while. maybe it was something to do with a patrons comment recently that him having barely any friends would mean that if he kicked the bucket no one would realise until the body started to smell.

"five years in this town and i've never been in here." jude exhales towards his company for the night, stuffing his hands into his pockets.

#jude

[missxrivera]

“ Yes they are “ Ramsey said with a smile though deep down she knew she was often the problem when it came to her relationships and that the same sentence could have been applied to her. “ I’ve heard about the glitter too. Apparently people have been dealing with that stuff years after the explosions of craft supplies how’d the hair removal cream go? “ @victoriaxsanchez

"Well, men are....men," In Tori's experience, for the most part they weren't great companions. All of them had a habit of fucking up. "I'd be popping tires or something a little more sinister. I put hair removal cream in my ex's shampoo once, so that tells a lot. Glitter. Leaving glitter everywhere is also a really solid idea." @missxrivera

#victoria

[missxrivera]

“ I don’t like fighting at all so this is actually a great thing. “ Ramsey didn’t have an assertive bone in her body most of the time it was why her fight or flight instinct was dominated by flight. That was biting her in the ass a lot lately and she needed to work on that but that also tied into why she just wanted to have fun tonight. “ really? “ she asked as she moved with him to the music. “I’m happy to be helping you then” @maxxyrobinson

“I would never fight like that, no thanks I like dancing at least a little more than thinking it’s fighting.” He admitted with a chuckle. He might have been enjoying the dance a little more if he wasn’t admittedly a little distracted, but he was determined to at least have a good time, just allowing himself to move with the music and feel the rhythm. “Well, I can say the exact same to you so the feeling is mutual.”

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#max

[missxrivera]

Vanilla Chai Latte : Are you in love?

"Oh jeez. I haven't been in love for a very long time. Not for like ten years. " @buddywellls

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