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I have this one friend who's like 7 years older than me and I met during my undergrad while he was doing a PhD (probs not his first) but he's not creepy don't worry, and people would make fun of him because he's never had a real job and literally just jumps from one academic discipline to another, but like I've come to realise he's actually living the best life and I'm so jealous

#he's probably rich but also he got a ton of scholarships Somehow because he's really smart #even though he literally was doing a phd in german literature and then went on to study music #famously not the kind of degrees they give you scholarships for i would know 😭 #but anyways he texts me once every six months maybe I'm not exaggerating he's even worse than me #but he writes his messages like a postcard and then he sends pictures!!! agdjjekd what a man #i was really starting to make friends at uni right before the pandemic it was so sad I can't think about it nono pls don't #erola.txt #i just replied to his biannual check-in and I'm also having a life crisis hence the post

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the customer is always right -> hmm. I'm not sure about that

the pedestrian is always right -> this we cannot possibly refute

#MARTI AHEIDKEJDNKD

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#fun fact i went on not one but 2 ! museum dates and they were the worst out of all I've had not kidding #i lovelovelove going to museums but i need to be on my own not with annoying boys who either don't care about art #or will literally disappear three rooms ahead while i try to engage them in conversation about the art #not kidding i genuinely thought this one dude had ran away in the middle of the exhibit dhifkejfndks #dating is shit

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I don’t need a vacation when I have this view

#prev same dhdkslfn 😭😭 #jump scare

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i just wanted to have a chill quiet afternoon reading at home but I forgot I live in this city and there's construction work right outside on my street and they have music on so loud (+ the windows here are shit) since literally before 7am I'm not joking I didn't want to go out again but it's driving me crazyyyy

#the guys are having their own concert like singing and all and I'm like I'm happy that you entertain yourself at work #but I didn't sign up for a rave plssss #erola.txt

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nothing is funnier to me than the universal phenomenon of people telling stories of classmates who wronged them years prior but addressing those people by like, their entire name every time. as if they’re an old nemesis whose name hasn’t been uttered in thousands of years. people will recall to you in excruciating detail that time in the third grade that fuckin katie hughes pushed them off the swing during recess and you’d swear by the vigor and hatred in their eyes that this katie hughes girl is still out there to this very day, still tormenting other helpless people her age, still pushing them off of swingsets, and that she will never, ever be forgiven for the particular atrocity that she committed on that playground all those years ago

#***** ********** when he stole all my answers in maths because i was too shy to speak out #and the little shit knew exactly what he was doing #i no longer have any ill feelings towards him #and for all i know he's out there living his best life rollerblading in short shorts at the beach and not stealing maths answers #but I'll remember that forever

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Life is all about being really scared and wasting your youth

#ah yes being really scared and wasting my youth my favourite pastime

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saw challengers today and omg it was actually so good

#no one cares but i tried telling my flatmates and all i got is 'oh I don't go to the cinema anymore i just watch things at home' #so i needed to share and pls go support your local cinema bye #erola.txt

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saw a tiktok of a mother taking her very tiny daughter to an art museum and she’s just walking around going “whoooa” “woooaah” to everything but then they got to a marble statue of a nude woman lying on her back and the girl points and goes “mommy🫵” and i just immediately welled up with tears and all the comments are just laughing about it and of course it’s funny but how are you not insanely moved by the way art connects everyone on earth from a centuries-old sculptor to a toddler in 2023

#i love finding children in museums!!!! #i went to the miró / picasso exhibition in Barcelona last winter and this pair of little tourist girls were going around pointing out stuff #and their comments were so smart and funny actually i think children might get abstract art much more than adults and that's the whole point

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erola my beloved!!! im like almost a full month late by now i'm sorry but . happy birthday and happy spring!!! even though i didnt message you on the 21st i Did think of you a lot! i hope you're doing okay (- berryjaellie)

millie pls you're so sweet you didn't have to!! I barely even celebrated it myself dhdjsk but thanks so much i hope you have a fantastic spring too 🤍🩷🥰

#millie #ask

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“she should be at the club” well i should be in the green house party paintings by salman toor

#no because i would 100% be that one guy sitting on the floor on his phone and checking my emails or something #lit/art

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awful AWFUL times I've had possibly one of the weirdest worst weeks of my life and I'm questioning everything all over again and Now i go and learn that monsieur taeyong is enlisting like wow there's no end to the pain truly 😔

#wish him the best i may have no clue what his life is like anymore but once you've decicated a blog to a band there's no going back ig #i honestly only come back to tumblr in my lowest times it looks like I'm always going through hell which is it wrong maybe not #but also it's an inaccurate depiction of my life in any case I'm NOT having a good time and yes it's because of work #erola.txt #is it too late to start a new life at 27 i had my bday this past month 😔

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So I'm currently in Japan for a short holiday + then work (but pls don't mention it) trip and my toxic trait is I will 100% try to talk to the people in Japanese because why would I low miserable tourist have to force anyone to speak English, and then they'll reply in Japanese and 9.7 times out of 10 I will not understand a word because I, in fact, do not speak japanese

#i spent so much time looking for a plug adaptor in a store you have no idea #i asked 4 different people this is not a joke me and my social anxiety #i do understand sometimes some words and stuff like my basic skills are pulling through let's goo #erola.txt

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#i KNOW but like a couple things???? #robin hood fox meme pls

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#two girls from work have texted me asking if I'm okay in a very random way and when i text them back they give me no explanation #and yea it's true i missed an afterwork dinner thing last night but i thought it wasn't a big deal #because it's not like it was organised for me plus everyone's very busy at this time #so I'm thinking is this really what it's like to have people care about you #or am i dying or did i get hacked and started unknowingly sending weird emails what's going onnn?? #shjfigklhskf #erola.txt #the hacked thing actually seems plausible IT is ignoring me #anyways they've never done this before this is not usual what is this

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im like if a poet or perhaps another writer of some sort never wrote anything

#!!!!!!!!!!!! #litcherlee I'm like omg kafka and i same person his work resonates so much with mine except my work is in my head exclusively #vip access paywall for everyone except me

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Happy plagueiversary

#it can't have been 4 years already #no way no way NO wayyyyyjjtkt??????? omg