nekoma21

[nekoma21]

Ah shi- here we go again 😃

#low cal diet #tw ed diet #ana trigger #tw ana diary #food restriction #tw 4na #4na meme #4n4 diet

[nekoma21]

Y’all love these

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#low cal diet #tw ed diet #ana trigger #ed bllog #tw ana diary #tw depressing stuff #4na meme #tw ana shit #tw ed vent

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I hate myself for loving food

Why can‘t I hate food as much as I hate myself

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Every taste , adds to the waist

[nekoma21]

My brain thinks I will feel better if I eat.

I will not.

Hungry is better.

Hungry is best.

[nekoma21]

doing this because…

I want to be his tiny girlfriend, i want to be smaller than that fat slut he nearly got with. I want to be perfect for him. Even tho he’s already lots bigger than me I want to be even smaller, I want to be his dainty little girlfriend

[nekoma21]

I don't like food

I don't want food

I hate food

I know food makes me worse

So why do I keep eating.?

So why am I constantly wanting to eat. ..?

[nekoma21]

My Brain constantly

[nekoma21]

i’m so sick and fucking tired of people offering me food and snacks, get the FUCK AWAY FROM ME.

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[nekoma21]

I spent all the money my dad got me 💀 I got a sushi crab bowl and I was low key crying over it But it actually might have been a good choice! It's got a bed of rice and on top of that is cucumber, carrot, red cabbage, avocado, crab and salmon And kewpie mayo :3

If I eat a half or less it may not be all that bad of a purchase cause it won't be a ton of c@ls Plus this way I already have my lunch for school tomorrow too!

#tw ed diet #ana trigger #ed bllog #low cal diet #tw ana diary #tw ana shit #tw 4na #4n4 diet #4n0r3x14

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I normally love getting lunch money cause I can spend little to none of it So I get money and not eat Wonderful :D But when my dad gives it to me and wants me to go buy food that moment and come back with it Let the store have something low cal 😭

#tw ed diet #low cal diet #ana trigger #ed bllog #tw ana diary #tw ana shit #tw eating issues

[nekoma21]

Rules

Cause whenever I'm starving

my pain is hiding,

it's my stomach growling for success

not it begging for some plate.

Being empty makes me full,

being full makes me empty,

every time i sense food in me,

i can't help it but get angry.

Will I ever be enough?

Pretty enough,

skinny enough...

No, it will never be enough.

It's the numbness when I wake up,

the dizziness when I stand,

the cold when others are hot,

the love I have for control.

I feel my best when I'm at my worst,

I'm filled with excitement when I see the scale drop;

when the clothes don't fit me, and my bones start to show,

only then is when Ana tells me "good job".

[nekoma21]

Why even eat if you aren’t about to pass out?