olliexsmythe

[olliexsmythe]

tapdancingduval​:

Hearing the sliding door swoosh open, Noah turned his head and felt a smile finally come to his lips. Ollie could always bring a smile. He took the Yoohoo, though there was no way he could put anything into his stomach. He knew how tired Oliver must be. Not only did he have to worry about Noah being a wreck all the damn time, he also felt the weight of being a certain kind of submissive. People misunderstood him and with Nick being gone now he didn’t know where he got support for being himself. He stopped short and looked at Oliver, eyes wide. Our, he said our. He forced his heart to not beat out of his chest. He wasn’t saying he was done. “What… what do you mean?” 

He shifted forward. Their knees were touching now and he reached for his hand. He didn’t think he’d ever craved physical contact with someone the way he craved it with Noah; the comfort he took in feeling the heat of his skin, the firm grasp of his hand was immeasurable. ‘I don’t think we’re ever going to get what we need in this place. I don’t think we’re ever going to get the support or the guidance we need. I don’t think we’ve ever going to be able to fit into the neat little box they like to force Dominants and submissives into here. And I think there’s more out there.’ he said softly. His gaze never left Noah’s face. ‘I used to think about it all the time. Running away. Just picking up and running away and living the best life I could until they tried to bring me to an auction house. And then -- I never had any intention of letting myself go to an auction house.’ He traced a light pattern over the palm of Noah’s hand. ‘And then I met you, and I didn’t want to run from anything. I’ve been trying so damn hard to run towards something since I met you because fuck me, a lifetime doesn’t feel like enough time. And I don’t care how ridiculous that sounds. But I don’t think we can get the future we deserve here.’ His fingers moved to brush over his fiance’s cheek. There were shadows under his eyes and Oliver swore the stress was dulling the brightness in Noah he’d always been so drawn to. Like a moth to a flame. ‘So I think we should leave. And it’s not giving up or running away. Because a future with you is still all I want. I just think we’ll find it somewhere that’s not this utter hellhole.’

[olliexsmythe]

tapdancingduval​:

Noah didn’t know how much more of this he could take. He knows that people assume he’s not trying. He knows the teachers and the heads are probably pretty fed up with his behavior, though they haven’t said anything so really it could just be his overactive brain doing it’s thing. What none of them realize is how damn hard he is trying. But after the second panic attack in one day, he felt wrung out. He sat out on the balcony under a weighted blanket trying to gather himself, trying to build himself back up to keep going. He had to after all. There was no other choice. He had Ollie, his family, and others depending on him not giving up. He wasn’t going to give up. He couldn’t. 

Oliver wasn’t blind. He wasn’t oblivious. In spite of their reprieve from the last mass punishment, they were both drowning and the mask he’d spent years perfecting was slipping. He could no longer pretend that even attempting to masquerade as the sort of submissive this institute would approve of wasn’t grating on him. More than that however, Noah was slowly ruining himself. No. Not ruining himself. It wasn’t his fault. It was this place. He didn’t know how long he stood in the living room, staring through the glass doors at where Noah huddled outside. His back was ramrod straight, and he was tired. In his bones, he was tired. They deserved better than this. He took a settling breath and pushed himself forward. A quick stop in the kitchen, and he had a cold YooHoo in hand before he made his way outside. Wordlessly, he perched on the coffee table in front of Noah’s seat and handed him the chocolate drink. He studied his face. His eyes dropped to where a ring adorned Noah’s finger, then to where one decorated his own. ‘I think --’ he began quietly. ‘I think our time here is over.’

[olliexsmythe]

@tapdancingduval

I still remember the moment I realised I looked at you a little too long to ever be just friends. Since then, I think I’ve had one of those moments every day. I fall more in love with you every day. So much so that I don’t have the words to accurately convey everything you mean to me. Forever is a very big adventure and I can’t wait for that adventure with you.

Your Ollie.

#[ take this sinking ship and point it home ] #[ and suddenly all the love songs were about you: Noah Duval ]

[olliexsmythe]

There’s a bag left outside each person’s room, with a gift tag attached with their name and a description of the contents in the bag. @tapdancingduval​

Weighted Blanket

Selection of flavoured electrolyte drinks

Cereal Bar Snacks

Miniature First Aid Kit containing paracetamol, ibuprofen, antiseptic cream, burn gel, gauze, bandages, band-aids and arnica gel.

Boxed homemade chocolate truffles, with a note containing all ingredients used to highlight any potential allergens.

Also included is a $15 gift card for Breadstix/The Diner, and a $10 for Postmates. There’s also an invitation to hang out in Noah’s suite for pizza or games if anyone is feeling up to it/doesn’t want to be alone.

#school wide 02/2021

[olliexsmythe]

tapdancingduval​:

sigh of relief || nollie

He laughed. “Well, I’ve heard that it’s the happiest place on Earth.” He didn’t really buy into some marketing ploy, but on the other hand, after they were done here, he was craving just some plain, wholesome fun and Space Mountain seemed to fit the bill. He ticked his head sideways. “They have one in Paris, you know.” They hadn’t talked much about life after Lima. Maybe because it felt like a jinx. But in his heart he pretty much knew he needed to leave the States and he knew how much Ollie loved Paris. He nodded. “It’s like you were reading my mind. I don’t know if there’s anyone who will need us as their primary, but I was thinking we could post up something about our door being open. We can order in pizza and stuff, have movies going in the master bedroom and video games in the living room. I can order some air mattresses and we can just set up some kind of post punishment sanctuary. Maybe we can even hire some massage therapists to come in and give massages in the umm… you know.” He ticked his head over his shoulder toward the play room. The door had remained locked since that terrible night months ago. “We can clear it out so nothing is triggering to the punishment.” 

‘They do have one in Paris.’ he agreed. ‘I had a season pass one year. There’s something very freeing about being able to jump on the RER and spend the morning in Disney.’ he grinned. ‘I will absolutely add it to my very long list of things to show you in my hometown.’ He listened to Noah, eyes widening. He should have known that Noah, with his big heart, would go above and beyond. ‘I -- I don’t know about that.’ he admitted honestly. He’d never been a fan of having too many people over, not for any real length of time, simply because Noah’s room had become his safe space. Their safe space. A place he didn’t feel like he had to pretend. ‘I mean, if you want to have people over, then that’s okay. I was just thinking something smaller. Maybe restaurant vouchers so people don’t have to cook.’ he laughed weakly. ‘Weighted blankets and the like. We could offer to get people out of the infirmary. I feel like that’s not a place anyone wants to really recover.’

[olliexsmythe]

Text: I see you and Noah got to wear your passes out of this thing. I'm glad that's the case.

Text: It’s the only reason I’m glad that his brother officially left. He had two and opted to play guardian angel for both of us. How did you get out of it?

#dom-bastiansmythe #answered

[olliexsmythe]

Oliver’s lips kicked up in a brighter grin. ‘Disneyland?’ He said. ‘I had no idea you were a fan. But I think we can make that happen. California then any Disney park in the world. I’ll take you wherever you want Noah.’ He didn’t have the words to accurately describe the complete devotion he felt towards him, but he hoped he could communicate it. He fell quiet for a moment, enjoying the knowledge that for this, they’d be safe. ‘Should we be doing something? For the people who don’t have a pass?’ He asked quietly. He didn’t care on any deep level for the other students, but he wasn’t entirely unfeeling. He cared because he didn’t want to see anyone hurt. Especially not in such a ridiculous way. A way he felt always contradicted everything they were taught in their classes.

olliexsmythe​:

sigh of relief || nollie

Oliver took Noah’s weight when he launched himself, a broken laugh escaping his lips when he wrapped his arms around him. He squeezed tightly. The relief he’d felt when Nick agreed to using a pass for Noah had lifted the weight of the world off his shoulders. He’d felt confident that he’d have been able to cope, to box things off and push through but he’d known he couldn’t stand to see Noah hurt again. Knowing that Nick would also be using a pass for him was just the icing on the cake. His fingers tangled in his fiance’s hair and they swayed on the spot. ‘Your brother is a gift. A gift you deserve, but one I definitely do not.’ he muttered. He turned his head to kiss Noah’s temple. ‘We don’t have to go through it. You don’t have to be hurt, you don’t have to make a choice about me hurting or someone else.’ That was all he cared about. The friends he’d made here had left, and so selfishly, all his concern was devoted to the man in his arms. ‘We’ll go to California on our first freedom trip once we’re free of this place. And it’s so close Noe. It’s going to happen.’

Noah was just relishing the moment. A brief uncommon moment of safety. A beautiful unexpected gift from a very expected person. Something Oliver said finally got through to him. He pulled back and put both of his hands on Ollie’s cheeks cupping them gently but firmly. “You do deserve it. You do. You deserve all the good things.” He hated that his fiancé felt that way about himself. He smiled. It was hard to be hopeful that they were close. They didn’t feel close, but this gift from Nick gave him the boost he needed. He’d been trying unsuccessfully to build up his walls to prepare for having to hurt someone during the punishment. It was his worst fear. “Yeah. We’ll go to visit Nick and all them and then go to Disneyland.” 

[olliexsmythe]

sigh of relief || nollie

continued from here with @tapdancingduval

Noah was feeling a cacophony of emotions at the moment. Mostly he really was happy about Nick getting out of here. He’d finally really be safe. It sounded like the program where Mateo and Jamie would be finishing their Institute degree wasn’t like here. There wouldn’t be anymore punishments or crazy rules for them. They were moving on with their lives. But damn if it didn’t hurt. At this point nearly everyone he’d made friends with was gone and now he wouldn’t have Nick here either. And on top of it all there was this damn punishment was hanging over their head like the Sword of Damocles. He didn’t know if he could handle another one. What if he had to hurt someone again? What would they do to Ollie?  He was deep in these thoughts when Ollie handed him his phone. “Hmm...” He read the texts and his mouth hung open, tears coming to his eyes. He tried to hold back, but a single gulping sob broke free. “Oh my God. I... I... We don’t have to do the punishment?” Of course Nick had protected them as his last act at Lima. “My brother...” He stopped talking and just threw his arms around Ollie. He loved Nick so much. “I’m going to miss him so much.” 

Oliver took Noah’s weight when he launched himself, a broken laugh escaping his lips when he wrapped his arms around him. He squeezed tightly. The relief he’d felt when Nick agreed to using a pass for Noah had lifted the weight of the world off his shoulders. He’d felt confident that he’d have been able to cope, to box things off and push through but he’d known he couldn’t stand to see Noah hurt again. Knowing that Nick would also be using a pass for him was just the icing on the cake. His fingers tangled in his fiance’s hair and they swayed on the spot. ‘Your brother is a gift. A gift you deserve, but one I definitely do not.’ he muttered. He turned his head to kiss Noah’s temple. ‘We don’t have to go through it. You don’t have to be hurt, you don’t have to make a choice about me hurting or someone else.’ That was all he cared about. The friends he’d made here had left, and so selfishly, all his concern was devoted to the man in his arms. ‘We’ll go to California on our first freedom trip once we’re free of this place. And it’s so close Noe. It’s going to happen.’

[olliexsmythe]

submissivejberry​:

It must suck when you have to be concerned over someone like this. Sorry, man. Let’s just hope this whole thing end soon, right?

It doesn’t suck being concerned over someone. I love him -- I’d take moments of being concerned than not having him at all. Although I’d much rather I could have him and just enjoy him. Do you have some place to go after this?

[olliexsmythe]

switchhummel​:

I don’t know why goes through someone’s mind to do this, and from what I’ve heard some people had taken on their hands to make him pay already. Something about a beating, I don’t know- Either way, we’re all pretty much screwed. Did he get badly roughed up last time?

In my experience, it’s not the physical shit you need to worry about healing from. The mental shit is harder. We lucked out this time; we had a guardian angel who swooped in. Regardless of what happened last time, I’m not a fan of him ever being caused pain or discomfort.

[olliexsmythe]

dom-bastiansmythe​:

I think you’re offending sociopaths of the word there, brother. And that’s saying a lot. What that person is it’s a poor piece of trash, and a sucker for punishment. He did that knowing to a full scale what could happen. He told me that much. He wanted all of us to feel like he does on a daily basis. Like we could ever be compared to such a low life. But the way things are here, we just have to endure it the best we can while it lasts. Couldn’t you just get a pass for him this time?

Honestly, I told him as much, and I clarified that we would, in fact, be better off if he left again. He’s not new. He’s been here before, been through more than one of these from what I’m aware. Just get a pass -- like it’s so easy. They’re not like Pokemon cards. What is lucky for us however is that once I made my post, it emerged that Noah’s brother and his partners are moving, and had no need for the punishment passes they’d already earned. This will be the first one we’ve been able to miss out. 

[olliexsmythe]

submissivelynick​:

[Text] You know I’ll keep in touch, Ollie. With both of you. You’re my brother now too, y’know? And, um, speaking of that… I have two passes. I already told the heads I’d like you both to have one.

[Text] I’m quite proud to be considered your brother. You might just be the best one I have. You’re going to use one on me. Wow. I don’t have the words to thank you for that either. But thank you. 

Text: Do you, by any chance, have a get out of punishment pass? If you do, would you please consider using it for Noah. I will literally buy you your first home when you’ve all graduated if you do. -Oliver

[Text] Consider it done, Ollie. You don’t have to do anything like that. @olliexsmythe

[olliexsmythe]

submissivelynick​:

[Text] Just treat him well, yeah? I’ve never seen him as happy as I have when he’s with you. I plan to tell Noah at lunch today, so please don’t say anything to him yet, but Mr. Mateo and Mr. Jamie got this really awesome opportunity out in California, and we’re leaving tomorrow. It would help me a lot if I knew you were looking out for him all the time.

[Text] There’s nothing more important to me than protecting his heart. That’s great Nick. Really -- I’m glad you’re getting out of here and you’re doing to pursue something with the people you love. California’s great -- and he’ll miss you so make sure you check in. Often. You two have the sort of relationship brothers are supposed to have.

Text: Do you, by any chance, have a get out of punishment pass? If you do, would you please consider using it for Noah. I will literally buy you your first home when you’ve all graduated if you do. -Oliver

[Text] Consider it done, Ollie. You don’t have to do anything like that. @olliexsmythe

[olliexsmythe]

[Text] It’s absolutely dramatic and over the top, and probably not needed knowing how much you care about him but I swear learning that was coming was the closest I’ve been to a panic attack in years. I can cope with a punishment; I don’t think I could cope seeing him so hurt and broken again. He takes too much on his shoulders as is. I can’t thank you for doing it. I don’t think there’s anything big enough to say thank you.

Text: Do you, by any chance, have a get out of punishment pass? If you do, would you please consider using it for Noah. I will literally buy you your first home when you’ve all graduated if you do. -Oliver

[Text] Consider it done, Ollie. You don’t have to do anything like that. @olliexsmythe

[olliexsmythe]

domitxnate​:

Couldn’t agree more, Oliver. It’s one thing to make a mistake. It’s another to do something so completely on purpose, bring everyone else down with ya, then not give a single damn about it. 

There’s no reasonable excuse for it sir. It’s nonsensical and moronic. I’m sure if he wanted to be punished, there are a vast swathe of Dominants who would be more than willing to oblige.

[olliexsmythe]

submissivexxhart​:

Being hated can’t be a kink asshole. Well a failed trial because you weren’t ready is still a fail. Nothing about your anger is mature and you need to learn to stop being so aggressive. You know, before this, I would have said you were the least popular person here.

That’s rude -- that just might be someone’s kink. Honestly Frankie, are we intentionally shaming innocent people now? I think you misunderstand the point of a trial pal -- it’s there so you can get some real life experience, learn if you’re ready for such a life-altering decision at that moment in time. You can’t really fail it as long as you learn something from it. You’re talking as though my being angry is irrational. It’s not. And I’m not being aggressive. Was that supposed to hurt too? You seem to be operating under the misconception that I’m a teenager who cares about being popular. I don’t. I am who I am, and unlike you, I have a wonderful partner who loves me completely, exactly as I am. I may not have a huge crowd of friends but those I do have are ride or die. I’d rather be loved by a small circle than so twisted up inside that I feel the need to lash out, and cause harm just to get some attention.

[olliexsmythe]

submissivexxhart​:

Every last one of you that wants me to leave will be the exact reasons I am staying. Finish up… You’ve been here for a while and already have a failed claim right? Can’t see you finishing up soon.

Because being hated is your kink? I mean, no shaming here but that’s fucking weird. Oh, are you trying to hurt my feelings? Bless your heart. It’s adorable. I don’t have a failed claim actually. My Dominant and I had a trial claim, after which we decided we weren’t ready to pursue the real thing. That’s called being an adult and making mature choices. Mature choices would also include not spiking peoples’ drinks. I feel like that’s illegal.