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#i was raised by 2 smokers with several others in my family #i loathe the smell

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what the actual fuck

we did it everyone. we’re no longer allowed to talk about the CISGENDER MALE CHEST because it’s sexually explicit

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girls will be like “this shade of green 😍” about every shade of green they see, and they’re right

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HIM

#spn #sammy

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Why do you prefer Sam over Dean? (I saw you mention it in an earlier post, and being a Sam lover myself, wanted to know your reasons!)

What’s funny is my friend asked me the very same question the other day. I was talking about how jealous I was of Patrick, because his college essay prompt was ‘Choose a person or fiction character that inspires you and reason why.’ and I was like shit, I write that essay twice a week. Sam Winchester, man. 

To which she responded with, “But isn’t Dean supposed to be like the hero of the show?”

and I’ll tell you what I told her. 

Have you ever read that essay about how everyone is a Sam who wishes they were a Dean? Everyone is a Joe College who wishes they were a smooth talking, fast walking straight-shooter who’s brave and cunning and set in moral standards to a fault. But, shit, I’ve got charm and cunning in spades and upon occasion I’ve been seen to be brave. Dean is all of that, yeah, but that’s all potatoes to me.

What I admire is ambition. 

What I admire is Sam looking at something, some goal, some ‘I’m gonna get the fuck into Stanford and get the fuck out of dodge,’ some ‘I’m gonna find dad and kill a demon,’ some ‘I’m gonna save Dean,’ some ‘I’m gonna kill Lillith,’ some far off and away goal that’s maybe right and maybe wrong. And I admire the way that not hell nor high water is gonna stop him. 

He’s a force of nature. 

So Dean’s got the charm and the smile and the rage and the morals and the crushing defeat that tugs our hearts and jerks our tears. 

But Sam can get beat into the ground, crushed into the dirt and come up swinging, eye stone cold set on the target. 

That’s really it for me. That drive, that noprisonersnomercyiftheyreinmyway attitude. Hunt the trickster,  pull Dean out of hell, fight off Lucifer, keep the devil in the back of your mind, pull the devil out again because you need to find Dean, because there’s no such thing as failure and there’s no such thing as losing, just him and his goal, and everything he has to do to get there. 

#spn #sammy

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I love the way Dean tells Sam “ come here”

This is actually my third favourite hug of the guys, i will talk about first and second in later posts, but this hug is just awwwww

I love the way that Dean says “ come here” and Sam just goes, no awkwardness just right into his big brother arms.

I actually love the idea of Dean being the one who initiate the hug, the same guy with the “no chick flick moments” rule. He is the big brother, he started this stupid rule, but he is also the one who needed to have his baby brother in his arms, before they both go on the toughest mission ever. When it’s all said and done, we all need hugs. They both needed the assurance, and Dean not being on big words, this was “ i love u, i trust u” hug

I love how bitch/ Jerk is Sam and Dean way of saying “ i love u “ ❤️

#spn #sammy #deano

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[[@else: I suppose it's time to tell my abortion story. Of the abortion that didn't happen, that led to me.

A lot of anti-abortion people put words & thoughts into the mouths of the unborn.

Well, I'm one that was recommended to stay unborn, who got born, and here's what I say.

My mother found our very early in her pregnancy that there was an extremely high risk to her if she continued.

Terminating the pregnancy was floated by one of the doctors. It would have been legal due to the risk to her, but heavily stigmatized.

Her family was deeply Catholic. She was deeply Catholic.

She did not terminate. The risk became a reality.

So I'm here, and she's not.

I'm glad to be here.

It is hard to put into words the gratitude you feel to a mother who sacrificed herself entirely for you, and I'm not going to try here.

Because I'm also very angry.

Without in any way taking away from the courage and selflessness with which she bore her situation and which she showed in all aspects of her life

I don't believe she ever really felt like she had a true choice.

The stigma, the religious dogma, the judgement - everything she'd ever known - told her she could not save her own life.

Her parents would have, however sadly, believed she'd go to hell. Her family and friends and community would have judged her.

Everyone she'd ever loved believed it was wrong. And so she believed it was wrong.

Needlessly.

I don't know what choice she would have made if it had been a true choice.

Maybe she would have chosen me anyway. Maybe she would have chosen to stay for her two already-existing children and for all those who loved her so deeply.

But she should have had a real, true choice.

Would I trade being here for that?

In a heartbeat. Without hesitation.

My siblings could have grown up with their mother.

My grandparents could have seen their beloved daughter live out her beautiful life, instead of mourning her every day until their deaths.

Her brothers and sisters would not still thirty years later feel the pain of losing the sistre they loved so much.

She could have continued to bring the light to the world that she had always brought, that I have heard so much about.

My father perhaps would not have descended into the grief & guilt that destroyed him, our relationship with him, the innocence of our childhoods.

Now, I think about how my young nieces & nephews will grow up without her, without the kind of grandmother I had. That pains me too.

I grew up in the devastation of her death.

I've watched the consequences of it play out for thirty years.

I can see what might have been differently if she'd had a true choice and it snatches my breath away, to see the suffering that didn't have to be for the ones I love most.

I know that it is not my family, but it is also profoundly difficult to know that it is because of me.

Or to be more exact, because the world did not allow my mother her right to a true choice, and my being here is perhaps a result of that.

It's not a burden I'd wish on anyone

I wish that I could have told her. It's okay. Stay. Live. Be happy.

I wish I could know that she knew that that was more than ok.

Don't I want to be here? Don't I want to be alive, aren't I glad to live??

Now that I'm here, sure. But had I never been, what would I have lost? Nothing.

You can't miss what you never had. Can't lose anything when you never existed.

There's no pain or loss in not existing.

I didn't exist then, to want anything. I didn't exist to hope or wish or fear anything.

I didn't exist back then. Not me. There was a possibility. An idea, a hope maybe. Some cells, a process in her body. Not me, any more than a sperm was me or an egg was me.

*I" didn't become until much later. Til I was born.

My mother wouldn't have taken anything from me or cause me any pain by living for herself, because I didn't exist to lose anything.

There was so much pain, so much loss in losing her. Loss that will ripple down generations.

So I will say to my dying breath, as the person who only lives because she didn't abort, that whatever she thought or chose or did not chose, she should have had a real choice to abort.

That she should have felt that aborting me was valid and good a choice as not.

Everyone should feel that, and have real access to enact that choice without obstruction or shame or question.

Whether it is their actual life at risk, or not. A forced pregnancy can be the death of many things, not just the end of ther person's life.

Having me took away from the world everything that my mother could have given it.

Forcing someone to have a child against their will can take away what that person could be and bring if they had their choice, whether they live through the pregnancy or not.

Most of all it takes away their right - their inalienable right - to choose how they live their life in their own body.

A non-person, a hypothetical future event, the birth of someone who doesn't exist yet, doesn't have that right.

Other people, who claim to speak for the unborn do not have that right.

We all lose so much by it. It can cause such pain and suffering, for child-bearers, for children, for everyone.

Do not pretend to speak for the unborn.

Do not pretend to speak for the children born against their mother's will.

Do not pretend that you care for them while you hide misogyny behind dogma.

My mother deserved her right to a real choice.

Everyone does. Unconditionally.

As the child who could have been aborted, I tell you - to oppose that right, let alone work to criminalize it, is unforgivable.

I'd like to emphasize because I didn't say it loud enough in the original thread:

There doesn't need to be a tragic story or a threat to life to make abortion ok.

It can be simply because you don't want to have a child. That's all. You still have the right to a choice.

I told my sad story because:

a) it is important to me to counter the rhetoric of anti-choice folks, that claims that if the unborn could speak they would be anti-choice

b) forced pregnancies can really f*ck up lives in many ways and that needs to be recognized.

But:

There shouldn't have to be a tale of woe to justify bodily autonomy.

It's a right. An absolute right. It should be protected by law.

That's it. That's all.

Last thingL I want this point to be heard, but I don't particularly want to deal with blowing up on twitter.

I will probably lock my account down at some point, but I would like this still to be shared. Maybe use an unroll app and share from there if you would like to.]]

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Look I'm just saying if Jensen Ackles was allowed to make a Supernatural spin-off with Dean at the center then Misha and Jared should be allowed to make a spin-off with Sastiel at the center

#sastiel #spn #sammy #cas #jared #misha

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yeah the rich

i like when people say "how could you eat an innocent animal" because it implies it's okay to eat guilty animals

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So I have an absolute FAVOURITE little tiny detail from Baby that I have seen absolutely no one mention yet.

Its right when Dean starts playing Night Moves and the first lyric comes up. 

‘Was a little too tall / could’ve used a few pounds’ 

And then he points to Sam in this adorable little way.  “Bro, you’re tall and skinny, man.” But he’s got this cute little affectionate grin on his face like he adores that about Sam.  How Sam is a little too tall, and thinner than he had been a few years ago.  Like he realizes the song fits even after he starts it.  Its so cute.  And Sam’s little smirk, and shake of his head while he’s sexily buttoning up his rumpled shirt. 

Its just the cutest little moment, and I’ve seen no one mention the lyrics here and Dean’s point at Sam.

#spn #sammy #deano

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do you ever think about how sam loved the world so much he fought off the devil and dragged both him and michael into the pit? about how all his life he was convinced that he was bad but in the end it was sam winchesters love that saved the world

#spn #sammy

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“This character is dead in canon” to you. They’re dead in canon to you. To me they’re fine

#gadreel #also nomad!steve is with sam!cap and bucky