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hihi tis the questioner of length, i'm waiting for the bus and i literally paused and muttered to myself, "does Bea even have a car? does Mary just chauffeur everyone around...?" and now here i am, asking you lol

anyway i can't believe feb is almost over?? time is ridiculous. i hope, tho, that things aren't too ridiculous for you!

it’s… it’s march now. BUT I’M TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT THAT SO 😂 no, bea doesn’t have a car! all of her money went into setting up her bookstore cafe and giving herself a mythical couch and heated flooring. so mary’s their default driver unless she borrows her truck, to which mary would say: “no funny business or you’re buying me a new one.”

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https://www.tumblr.com/lilkearnsie/742412949886566400 feels like an au to your lighthouse au

ANON HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH “MUTUAL PINING” 😭😭😭 THIS SHOULD NOT BE AS FUNNY AS IT IS IM FUCKING DEAD

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But what did Camila text Beatrice? Need whole chat history

camila: bea

bea

bea

have you romanced her yet?

i think she could be good for you

like a match made in heaven and the bedroom

she seems very eager

also bratty bottom vibes

beatrice: camila, you can’t assume someone’s gay because they said yes to a rainbow cardigan. also, i am working.

[topping mistake]

beatrice: this friendship is over.

camila: you wish.

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Happy v-day! I wonder if Ava and Beatrice did anything to celebrate the day in the lighthouse au?

jesus, it is now… march 💀 I AM SO SORRY BUT I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD VALENTINE’S DAY, ANON 😭 ava doesn’t really believe in it, but then she hears from camila that bea usually stressed herself out by planning for everything when she and lucia dated. so ava very specifically tells her that she doesn’t wanna do anything for valentine’s. bea’s sheepishly relieved, but oh, she has no idea that ava planned a whole day. she shows up at bea’s bookstore cafe with flowers and whisks her away for a hike and a picnic and then tells her, “you deserve every bit of love and effort you give.” does that work? 🥹

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hihihihihhi it's lengthy ask anon i am running off of too little sleep (nightmares still ugh) but also good news which is a danger combination lol

so part of how i've been dealing with my sleeplessness is rereading some of the lighthouse au until i finally feel fine enough to go back to sleep. so! questions. that you don't have to answer. really!

why did Bea never know she talks in her sleep? also, does Ava ever try to have a full on conversation with her?

Cam and Ava talk about the benefits of hugging a tree and with all the pine reference i have to know: has Ava ever hugged a pine tree??

when Mary almost asks Ava about moving in with Bea, do you think Bea had talked about it with her friends beforehand? like a am-i-being-too-lesbian worry?

what's something Bea and Ava eventually fight about? (and do they follow that "order" for making up)

do you think Chanel ever designs something for Jillian? how about Ava?

from last time - how you handled the main plot and subplots was amazing - did you have one of those (*virtual?) murder board-esque things to help visualize things? (*i'd never thought of using notion for fiction work!!)

i think i've reached my caffeine limit for the day i hope you are getting better sleep than i am! here's to having the crispiest vegetable of your preference! (i.e. not celery lol)

I’M ALIVE AND STILL EMPLOYED IDK HOW BUT OK 💀 hi hello, lengthy ask anon. how’s the nightmares? i hope they’ve left you alone? am i gonna have to have a Serious Talk with whichever god’s in charge of that? 😤 pls lemme know. but! i sincerely hope you’ve been sleeping since you sent this 🥺

and now (finally, idk how long it’s been), answers!

1. this… is a good question LMAO maybe no one brought it up to her cos she might get embarrassed? OR bea wakes up too early for anyone to catch her in the act 😂 and yes, i’d think ava would definitely try to have a full conversation with her like “bea, bea, what’s the weather like” and bea just randomly spouts temperature numbers and sea condition. or like “bea what’s your favorite sex position?”, which ends up with bea having a rather scandalous dream, much to ava’s amusement 😂

2. i’d say yes!!! except she hugs the smaller ones and ends up with pine needles everywhere. bea’s exasperated but ava just shrugs and says, “worth it.” on that note, hug a tree people. it’s fucking soul-healing.

3. oh, definitely. camila gives her twinkle eyes, mary’s like “what the fuck does that even mean, too lesbian”, and lilith doesn’t even dignify it all with a response 😂 which is to say… her friends weren’t any help at all.

4. i think it’d be something simple cos they’re good at talking to each other about their feelings. so stuff like ava leaving her shoes a mess by the front door, which means beatrice keeps tripping on them, or bea’s tendency to overpack, which almost makes them late for their trips. they’d snipe at each other because they’re human (bea: “what’s so difficult about putting your shoes away, ava?” and ava: “what the hell would you need a sewing kit for, bea?”) and probably get too irritated until one of them realizes it’s a ridiculous thing to fight about. probably won’t always make up through sex because bea got a concussion the last time she tripped on ava’s shoes and there was no time for even a quickie when they almost missed their flight, but someone will make a joke and they’ll laugh about it at least. (this… got unintentionally soft 😂)

5. omg, yes!!! what if they attend a gala and ava’s whole fam is wearing chanel’s clothes? literally A+++ publicity and just about launches chanel in the spotlight 😌 jillian in a suit and ava in a dangerous dress, what more can you ask for 🔥

6. lengthy ask anon, i had notion and phone notes and paper charts and i even tried using this free mind mapping thing just to keep track of everything 😂 i went full-on type A on this thing. i even had a mood board. and a playlist. and 2847293 drafts. i have so much content idk what to do with these now 💀

lettuce! i’ve been having so much lettuce! but omg pls, i really hope you’re sleeping well now 🥺 as always, thank you so, so much for this! literally the best thing to do after somehow crawling out of hell LMAO

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hi! i adore both your WN stories. would you consider writing more to either of the two - perhaps some one-shots to add to au?? 👀

🥹 i do actually have a snippet for sixth to the ninth set immediately after the war, like literal seconds after it 😂 it’s been sitting in my drafts for months. i might write it as a one-shot for the same universe, but no promises! but hey! thank you for reading both of them! 💙

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Chen Chen, from "weep ode #99"

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Do you ever just want to watch a fanfic

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Julian K. Jarboe, ‘First Contact, Communion’ from Everyone on the Moon Is Essential Personnel

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Bless the Daughter Raised by a Voice in Her Head, Warsan Shire

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SAVING FACE (2004) dir. Alice Wu

#due for a rewatch #but also lmao i still laugh at her just literally dropping to the floor #gay panic at its finest

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Tis your neighborhood lengthy ask anon - happy Friday! it's been a weird week, I had a nightmare and it threw me for a loop and off course - it also made me wish i had someone to make me cold hot chocolate. (i was rereading that chapter and there's a line "She could cry. She could laugh. She could run." and she does all three, doesn't she? but also: she stays 😭)

just three questions for you this time - you keep answering, so i'll keep asking! but as always, pick and choose what you feel like answering (i will say that ava getting arrested for streaking feels canon for every universe lololol ALSO worms are weird as heck ack)

In relation to the story, when did Lucia leave? like a year before it starts? months?

Was there any one scene or chapter that gave you a hard time?

You posted chapters almost exactly a month apart - did you plan that? if yes, how did you stay on track?

If you were to have art done for either the lighthouse au or sixth to the ninth, what would be your top 3 scenes?

also holy shit how is it february? what the actual hecking fuck. wishing you goodness and delicious food served at the perfect temperature!

i was responding to an ask before this one and happened to type “february” for it, and i had the same reaction you did. how??? did we get here??? rip my concept of time. also! of course, i’d keep answering??? this is genuinely so much fun for me and also reminds me that there’s more to life than trying to survive capitalism LMAO also, also literally projecting you the warmest, most comforting vibes i have for that nightmare you had 🥺 i’m sorry you had one, and i hope you’ve been having better dreams since! on to the questions!

1. you know, i tried to make a timeline for this to keep track, but HAHAHAHAHA I HAVE NO CONCEPT OF TIME. so let’s say like a year before lighthouse au. i’d imagine it should be enough time for bea to figure out how to live in the aftermath of her but also still carry the hurt lucia caused. oh no, that hurt me to write akdnskd moving on.

2. oh, there were so many. i had the hardest time starting the storm chapter because i’d been building it up literally and mentally 💀 so the brain went overdrive until i finally was like,,, fuck it 😂 also ava’s thoughts after she asked for space! character progression is hard. but i think where i struggled the most with this fic is handling both a main plot (getting them together) and the subplots (ava and bea’s respective character growths). i loved the challenge but it also hurt my brain 😂 i had to put the whole thing in an overly detailed database to keep track of everything 😂

3. god, no. i genuinely have no idea how i managed an update every month 😂 but i think the notion thing and have it all broken down there plus my mess of notes with all the fragments definitely helped. this fic literally taught me the magic of outlining.

4. fuck, lengthy ask anon. i would bawl and make a twitter purely to yell at y’all about any art related to my fics 😂 lighthouse au: i’d pass away if i ever see bea grounding ava during the storm, also them not making it to the bedroom, and also—for some reason—ava taking bea’s photo the first time. sixth to the ninth: i’d cry over ava’s return (the one where camila was there watching bea weep), bea in lilith’s wings, aaand bathroom scene (will break my goddamn heart but yep).

lengthy ask anon, i wish i knew how we managed to get to february but i’m glad we did 🥹 as always, thank you for this, and i deeply hope you’ve been having the best days 💙

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Hello! I've read the lighthouse au a couple times now. The first time was last December when I went to Japan and went on a roadtrip. It was the perfect companion fic and I just wanted to thank you for writing and sharing it. I may have pushed our itinerary to visit as much lighthouse as possible during that time. Do you have a favorite or memorable lighthouse that you've been to before? Or perhaps on your bucket list?

I hope you're having a pleasant week! And on a side note, I'm living for all those asks from lengthy anonymous haha! Thanks for sharing everything from that universe. Looking forward to read more of your work :)

hi!!! so sorry, this took a while, january had me digging my own grave 💀 BUT ANYWAY. omg??? did you end up going to any lighthouses? and also how was it? 🥺

as for lighthouses i’ve visited, i’ve been to exactly one 😂 it was enough to make me contemplate a change in career because it just seemed so… peaceful. well, i mean unless it storms, in which case, it’d be terrifying LMAO there are so many i wanna visit though. number 1 happens to be the setting inspiration of lighthouse au 🥹 i think it’s a bed and breakfast now but yep, will go there someday and prolly die in peace. there’s another one in the middle of the actual ocean, though i prolly won’t last like 2 hours in that scenario 😂

i hope you’ve been having a wonderful start to your year even though we’re literally in february now 😭 thank you for reading the lighthouse au and sending me this ask. it was an absolute joy to read 💙

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Vampire amoeba

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New Crow Time 🐦‍⬛🦊🌟

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“WHEN GOD MADE MAN SHE WAS ONLY JOKING”, in san francisco, california, c. 1983. via lgbt_history, c/o j. hair