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stealthy-chameleon · 20 days

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I have no hope.

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stealthy-chameleon · 27 days

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💐🌷spread the love to the people you’re glad you’ve found in this corner of the internet 💐

Super late on this but omggggggg thank u 🥹❤️

#I’m not on here much and I don’t really contribute besides liking things but #❤️❤️❤️#darktwistedgenderplural

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stealthy-chameleon · 2 months

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ahem

The Crown Jewels Of Manhattan:

-99c fresh pizza on 40th and 7th

-42nd and 5th dunkies

-bryant park

-cupcake cafe (rip)

-nederlander theater

-veselkas

-the new york public library

-the morgan library

-etc on 46th street

-the port authority bus terminal

-zuckers bagels bryant park

-american girl

-chrysler building

-empire state building walgreens (rip)

-grand central station

-william h sewards statue in madison square park

dishonorable mentions:

-the flagship puma store on 5th avenue

-the 5th avenue abercrombie and fitch

-times square

-99c delicious pizza on 40th and 7th

-penn station

#are you sure you don’t want to put the port authority bus terminal in dishonorable mentions #there is a lot of dishonor that radiates from that building

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stealthy-chameleon · 2 months

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I think I hit a new low.

I also just realized that being friends with my mom isn’t healthy for me. Which is kind of an issue, because I don’t have friends.

I’m queer as hell and I feel like never acknowledging or acting on it—for my own fucking safety!—is starting to destroy me. My highly religious culty mother, whom I really would give up my life for—will never accept me as I am. If I told her I fear I would be, quite legitimately, disowned. I would have nothing left. I have no support system besides her. My alcoholic father is largely absent. And yeah, should this even matter? The thing is, my job pays me so little that I can’t survive on it. But it pays just enough to disqualify me for any benefits. I will absolutely go hungry if I got kicked out, not to mention being housed.

I don’t know what to do. The plan was to live in this tiny conservative town only long enough to pay off some debt and then save up some money. But I can’t live like this. I won’t last. I can’t date—hello, queer here—or have sex with anyone, because culty religious parents. The town is so tiny that I know people from my childhood and I hate it. I don’t know how to find friends when I’m only working with a few thousand people. There isn’t even a club here. If you want to go dancing you have to travel 40 miles away.

Like, how do people even meet people anymore.

I feel trapped and stuck and so, so alone. So alone that even my daily crying isn’t helping. It just makes my face wet at this point. And I’m pissed. And scared. Mostly sad and scared though.

Thanks for reading if you did. I’m trying not to have another breakdown but it’s not working very well. :/

#personal

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stealthy-chameleon · 2 months

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#I was there for filming that day and it was March and FUCKING COLD #glee

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stealthy-chameleon · 2 months

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Via Edvin Ryding.

#omg lol #I missed this earlier #friends best #young royals

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stealthy-chameleon · 2 months

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they chose each other, finally.

but it's so much more than that.

in my opinion the underlying reason simon and wilhelm have always been drawn together, though of course they celebrate each other's strengths, is in the way they gently encourage each other to confront what might be holding them back from happiness and healing.

simon is a thinker - he's a top student, always intellectualising his next step. thinking for himself, thinking about what's best for sara, about his mum, about taking care of his friends. he feels so deeply - we know he does - but this is always secondary to what his brain tells him about a situation. and what his fascination, attraction and love for wilhelm stirs in him is a depth of feeling. he's not thinking when he's leaning in to kiss the prince at movie night! he's not thinking when he stumbles back to school with wille after the football field. he's not thinking when he abandons marcus to find wilhelm at the ball, when he agrees to keep things secret between them, when he tries to toe the line of the royal court so they can be together. and not that these feelings always lead to what's best for simon, but they start to be something he listens to and follows. he shifts from giving second chances because he thinks that's what should be done, to embracing his loved ones in their full selves because he feels a deep love for them and a love for himself that deserves them in his life.

and wilhelm? wilhelm is a feeler - wille does not for one second stop and think in that first season, hardly in the second and nigh on zero in the third, until that very last episode. wilhelm feels it all - anger, frustration, boredom, pride, arrogance, grief grief grief, loneliness, attraction, lust and love. he acts without second guessing why. he screams without caring who he pierces with them. but then ever so slowly, he starts listening to others and his brain zips online. he's taking note of those cleverer and wiser than himself. he's listening to his feelings and decoding them into the language of words, and most importantly, of considered action.

so we have a simon whose patient questions and careful soul encourages wilhelm to begin thinking for himself, and we have a wilhelm whose unyielding heart, affection and devotion encourages simon understand the value of his feelings, his understanding of himself and others.

thus wilhelm's last choice of the series - to consider simon's words, and those of others around him (boris, my man), and come to a considered decision to reject the institution he was raised in because it's harming everyone he loves - displays the enormous growth simon's catalysed in him. he's finally listening to his head.

and of course then simon's last choice of the series - to choose to let wilhelm in, to choose to stop the car, to once again let himself be vulnerable in the face of dizzying emotion - displays the depth of feeling wilhelm has helped him uncover within himself. he's finally listening to his heart.

they both had a choice, and they both chose themselves, and in choosing themselves, they chose each other.

but they never would have chosen themselves if they had not first chosen each other.

#what the FUCK #this is SO BEAUTIFUL #MY GOD #young royals #yr s3 spoilers #💜💜💜💜💜

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stealthy-chameleon · 2 months

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