#Autism? ADHD? Don't know her

[captainsweet]

Honestly, I'm sending out ROTTMNT friend applications because my friends don't know shit.

(I love them, I do, but I can't take another day of them not understanding the multitude of memes I send them)

So please, someone help a guy like me because I have no one to rave about my head cannons too, and have no reason to rave about them in the first place!

I'm tired, and honestly just wanna sometimes have matching pfp's with another person, and for us to not talk for a week but then we randomly send a fanfic we like and we rave about it together whether we like it or not.

I want to hear info-dumps, I want us to ask each other to randomly do this thing for a video we'll probably never see, I want to share my thoughts about the silly turtle show.

I want to hear someone talk about a story I've never even heard of, and instead of sending me a link immediately, they just weirdly explain it until they finally send a link and we laugh about how bad the explanation was.

I think I'm just lonely tbh but whatever.

Anyway, someone better wanna do this as well or I will cry.

#tmnt #rottmnt #My friendship is costly but for this? I'll be so unweird so fast #Like I'll act so Nero-Typical omg /j #Autism? ADHD? Don't know her #Anxiety? Wdym I'm so normal and average #Just kidding but I will go to extreme heights #Like please I need a ROTTMNT friend so badly #I have a Discord hell I'll actually use my FACEBOOK that I for some reason have an account on #Please spare friendship #I need it #This is so sad of me but idc I need those matching pfps like rn #Like I need to know if I'm truly a mix of Donnie and Raph #I NEED THIS #rottmnt brainrot #i haven't slept #it's 3am #I'll be embarrassed about that later but rn I CRAVE FRIENDSHIP #i saw a tiktok #Now I'm acting weird (er than usual) #friendship #i need friends #rottmnt friendss

[hellyeahsickaf]

Having grown up with pretty severe undiagnosed ADHD one of my core memories will always be the teacher in 6th grade that would go out of his way to humiliate students that weren't reading enough. Idk how common this was but we had AR points. Essentially a system where if you read a book you could take a quiz on it and get points if you passed, with each book being worth a different amount of points. A very short book might be 3 points, a book the size of Harry Potter might be worth 40-70. You get it

I was actually good at literacy, I had the highest literacy score in that class. But audiobooks weren't really much of a thing yet and sitting down to read a book was virtually impossible, it's something I still struggle with and thought I was stupid for. I knew how to read and was great at it, even liked the material, but physically sitting down and reading a book was close to impossible. There were kids with hundreds of AR points and I had idk, probably less than 25.

And every few weeks this asshole would have all of us line up from most points to least. He'd go through, first hyping up the front of the line saying how impressed he was. He'd tell the next few they were doing well, to keep it up. Further down tell them to pick up the pace, but god help you if you were within the last 6 or so (some of them had the same issue as me, VERY likely also something undiagnosed)

He'd spend most of this time on those last few students. Berating these 11 year olds individually and intentionally humiliating them, telling them how there are 7 year olds who read more than us. He'd say we had no future, at least nothing better than minimum wage at McDonald's. That or we'd be on the streets. He was the type to bully neurodivergent kids every chance he got and boy that was damaging.

Wasn't the first or last teacher of mine to bully and shame kids and other teachers knew he did this so they'd send them to our classroom. He'd sometimes take an entire hour (I'd counted) out of our class time just humiliating this kid or few kids sent in for things like not doing their work or causing disruptions. He'd sometimes put their sloppy unfinished work or something on the projector and make fun of it. If the kid started crying he'd tell them to suck it up or call them names. And he was actually really well liked by the students, just the ones he wasn't an abusive motherfucker to

#disability #actually disabled #adhd #actually neurodivergent #adhd brain #actually autistic #autism #autistic #actually adhd #ableism #i wish mr. Q a very kill yourself #you know the teacher that would pick a select few nd kids to target the whole year #yup that was him. fucked up part is i wasn't even in those few #just got called out when we'd line up but this one girl like #ok i don't like to armchair dx but that was an adhd kid if i ever met one #chatty with volume control issues. inattentive. couldn't organize. always got yelled at to #stop bouncing her leg or fidgeting. struggled to sit still #and boy did he target her #hope she's doing alright

[ferretwhomst]

asking a gravity falls fan their opinions on mabel pines is like a litmus test for seeing how they behave around people with personality disorders

like oh you hate when the 12-13 year old girl has emotional outbursts and is oblivious to people's emotions at times? you hate when she acts Irrationally? tell me more!

#not to get discourse-y on the dash but like. it's true #this applies to other stuff too like adhd autism the like. #i don't even want to think about how these people react to grown adults who have issues with emotional regulation #let alone personality disorders #and look i KNOW this post is a huge generalization #there's probably plenty of people with pds or adhd or autism or Whatever else who don't like her for their own reasons #and that's fine. nobody is morally obligated to like her #but you get what i mean right. #ferret rambles #<- this is it guys this is th epost. enjoy

[oh-meow-swirls]

i think this was funnier in my head.

#puppy draws #yo-kai watch #katie forester #jibanyan #whisper #whisper ykw #usapyon #hailey anne thomas #as a diagnosed autistic person i can confirm that the autism evaluation results #just being a picture of the autism creature with text saying you have the tism is accurate #i don't even remember how this idea came to me i think i was just overly tired this morning and then this happened #also ignore the fact that i refuse to accept nate as being canon protagonist katie is like way better sorry besties <3 #that's like 80% a joke. every main yo-kai watch character is my blorbo and nate is included in that #i just also prefer katie. playing 3 and rewatching the anime + reading the manga did endear me to nate more though #i like how he's average but also totally bisexual. no i will not elaborate #why do my tags always get so derailed. uhhhh back to autism. hailey is so fucking autistic ngl #there's like at least five different instances in 3 of her just completely failing to read the room #she's totally hyperfixated on sailor cuties and next harmeowny #she has adhd vibes too i think but. the tism is very strong #i can't decide my favorite part of this between the “yippee!! you have the tism” image and jibanyan asking what autism is #he doesn't know because he has autism by default through being a cat he didn't need a diagnosis #i feel like all of them are autistic tbh but that's probably just me projecting. i totally gave katie autism in the rewrite though #i wasn't even trying to i just don't know what neurotypicals are like because i got that autistic rizz. and adhd rizz. mostly the adhd #i am definitely also autistic but i think my adhd effects me a lot more in day-to-day life #since i usually just interact with my moms who know i'm autistic and are also both neurodivergent #and people online. most of who are autistic because it's mostly on tumblr and this is the autism website #yo-kai watch more like yo-gay watchtism amirite- #oh also very amused by hailey just poofing into existence in the second picture. as you do

[moe-broey]

LIKE something I think is all of the Askr family are like mirrors. Alfonse is a reflection of how much he loves Sharena and the summoner. Sharena is a reflection of how much she loves Alfonse and how, I think in the autistic sense, I think she mirrors A LOT. Henriette is a reflection of how much she loves Gustav (and seemingly, so severely that that love struggles to reach everyone else). Gustav was likely a reflection of how much he loved Henriette and his father. All of them are performing, adhering to SOMETHING. Their roles, and what seems to be The Correct Course of Action.

#fire emblem #feh #not a full thought but like. it's there #i see autism hcs for alfonse sometimes and regardless how i feel personally on that (as an autistic guy myself) #i think sharena is SO OVERLOOKED. for autism hcs. or at least the fuckinh tendencies. #i've seen adhd hcs for her too though and maybe that makes more sense (i have less info on that) #like it's speculated i might have adhd too but i was never diagnosed (only got the autism diagnosis) #which like obvs they aren't EXCLUSIVE like often times they're co-occurring. which i think is another hc route #you COULD take w sharena actually. #as for alfonse i do wanna say i completely get it and see why people do hc him autistic #he DOES have. tendencies LMFAO #but for me. alfonse is just as much a study in cis masculinity as he is a study in being able-bodied #there are a lot of things i need to reconcile with. often. and i need that tool to navigate my feelings #so like. i absolutely don't wanna invalidate anyone's takes on him and i know JUST as deeply how personal #and important hcs can be. #to me alfonse just. has Tendencies. that attract autistic people to him like moths to a flame. #regardless of if he is or isn't himself. #and he has so many problems. but i don't think he has The Horrors you know. #MEANWHILE i think takumi is so autistic he has ALL OF IT. ALL OF THE TENDENCIES. ALL OF THE HORRORS #that's how i feel anyway! #fe alfonse #sharena #fe henriette #fe gustav

[chemicalarospec]

The funniest thing I wholeheartedly believe is that I have a neurodivergency not catergorizable or diagnosable as any currently recognized disorder. (disorder emphaized because heavily impairing functioning is generally a requirement of the clinical definition and a condition of diagnosis, and although i'm vexed i still Get By Just Fine)

because like yes those probably exist; there's no way psychiatry is in its final form now and there are definitely levels of neuro-difference that don't qualify as disorders, but like. that's so random and it's kinda pretentious to make such a bold claim about yourself. like oh u wanna be special, huh? 🙄 just be AuDHD like everyone else (<- joking)

#look the Mental Illness is bad frequently enough the PMS prolly is exasterbating SOMETHING but what?? who knows #maybe testorterone would fix me... i'm afriad but i've been thinking about trying it a lot #i've been so clsoe to having persistant depression (looking back something was wrong with me in middle school???) #but it just isn't consistant and strong enough to be dysthymia #cuz like i don't feel sad so much as i just feel. psychologically unwell. maybe i've just always been stressed. #the lack of focus being a PMS symtpom is too real tho once i found that out i was like. damn that's why i thought i had ADHD sometimes and #then i wouldn't. #my autism score test ONLY being outside of 100% allistic range on the social stuff.... #but i'm not a poor enough communicator for that to be a disorder #like there's all these little parts and they don't come together in the shape of anything i know #anxiety but not as bad as my mom who can't even get diagnosed bc it doesn't impair her functioning -'trich' but i don't pull; i snap or cut #but i'm still going to see a gyncologist bc PMS is the only lead i've got #i am goign to bring up T but tbh i think that's outside of their domains.... #i wish menopause didn;t exist bc typical birth control is NOT an option bc high risk of hormone-positive breast cancer #but blocking my menstrual cycle would honestly be my dream outcome #but my understanding is if i don't replace E with T i just go into menopause and htne like. well my mom's going through it now and it #doesnt seem like. a good time. #I said this #personal

[foxgirlmoth]

I don't talk about this stuff on here pretty much at all, but a past relationship really broke a ton of bits and pieces of my brain and heart in weird ways (I'm finally thinking about him almost never but the shit he pulled was abusive as hell and still affects me sometimes). Being in love with my current girlfriends for a while felt almost. Painful? Almost like I should be ashamed I can fall so deeply in love with people, and especially how quickly that can happen sometimes too. Thats how it kind of felt. I tend to get overwhelmed with emotions if I'm feeling them very strongly, and that has been extremely embarrassing and also felt almost like I was being a burden to those I love (which love is the main emotion that can 'get dialed up to 11' for me). It IS debilitating in some ways!!! It hasn't gotten bad enough I've been nonverbal in a really really long time but that happened this past week and it was wild to me.

Things are getting better now though! Therapy in the past has helped, and honestly having such patient and understanding partners has made a world of difference ;w;. my wife is someone who was one of my best friends and I had a huge crush on and now I can ask for cuddles and we can nap together and I've fallen so much in love. Her and her presence are literally heaven for me, I don't know if anything has ever made me happier than just laying next to her and feeling her warmth.

Worries of course flare up and I feel like I need to lean on her a lot during those moments, but I don't feel like too much of a burden to her. I love seeing the posts that say stuff like 'Its okay to be a burden' or 'its okay to be annoying' because really truly I think I need to be those things to survive sometimes. I can be 'a lot' and I can be a little bit obsessive and those things aren't inherently bad or evil of me. I just make sure I'm feeling okay during and after and make sure I'm checking in on myself often. I'm a bit of a broken girl, but that doesn't mean I'm not extremely happy and living a life I love. I've written poems and everything about how it feels like it must hurt to love me and my broken jagged edges, but hey, even if it does a little bit, it doesn't mean someone like my girlfriend/wife won't go through a little bit of burden to love me, and I'm more than happy to return all of this and more for her as well if she's ever in need or feels broken ;^;

#Not to be too gay but I wanna build my life with my princess more and more #She's. So good to me and she's so pretty and she's so beautiful and attentive and she listens to me in ways I feel no one else has #She understands me so well!! And I hopefully make her feel the same #But yeah I've been a burden a lot to people due to autism (which I didn't know I had for fucking ages) adhd and physical disabilites #And she feels like she isn't taking care of me which is good because I'd honestly hate that #But she understands me and makes me a better person and that's exactly what I've wanted for forever. #And being demi/aspec is awesome with her since she's aspec too and there's no pressure for sex or sexy times but if we both want it #It can still be super fun!! We gotta figure more of that stuff out if we want but knowing each others kinks (and sharing a good bit) rocks #Idk its so so so so easy to love my wife Maxie #She's so dear to me and we've only been dating for 4 months but they've been 4 months I've felt the most alive and seen #Its so easy to be cringe but free with her too idk #She makes me better and I hope I do the same for her. I don't want either of us to stagnate yknow? #But anyways yeah this is just a big journal entry of some kind I might do these every once and a while #Not to like. Brag??? I guess. Or show my mental illness so much. Its just kind of nice if friends know where I'm at in my life I guess #And idk having outside input on thoughts can be good. If any friends see this and go 'Hey Runa this is real weird maybe tone it down' #I can look at that stuff a bit more #Gonna tag this in a way I can find it and others in the future too #Runa diary logs #But yeah you're not hearing this from me but I wanna be with Maxine for the foreseeable future more than anything. #Gotta get my degree and a good job too and she's ofc not the only person in my life (I have Sara who is so very dear to me too ;w;) #Nor is she the only 'goal' I have either. I wanna make games I wanna make art. I wanna make something that other trans people #And queer people and just minorities in general can look at or play or experience and just go. Life is worth living #I love my life right now and I'm so glad I've made it to my late 20's. #Its only uphill from here :3 #Wanna add on when I say she's not the only person in my life I mean that I have so many friends and people I love who love me too :3 #♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[magdaclaire]

okay so like people who have siblings who are married that are not friends with the person that your sibling is married to. what do you like. do?

#i'm friends with both neil and morgan so i have no idea what not being friends with them would be like #i call morgan the yee to my haw bc we have very similar senses of humor. i know her fucking bank pin. we've gone out without east #neil is one of my best friends i drag him places we traumadump on one another we have very similar autism and very different adhd #but the point is. isn't it awkward??? like you and this guy are the people who know your sister best. why don't you like. know the guy? #i could not have functionably let some people i did not know marry my siblings #it's wild to me #mer rambles

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#a little bit of a happy rant... (can rants be happy? if not i don't know the word then lol) #a while ago when i was deep diving into autism research because i'm 98% sure i'm autistic #i told my mom this and i also told her i wanted to go see a psychiatrist to get diagnosed #bad idea cause my mom is the type of person who thinks ''everyone is a little autistic'' which is stupid but anyways she didn't believe me #she thinks putting labels on things is bad and we shouldn't do it #but this is not a fun label... this is an actual diagnosis!! #i digress. the point is that i stoped talking about it because i don't have the energy or desire to try to convince my mother #that i know what goes on inside my brain. #but my brother! My brother is a sweetheart #he seems like he doesn't give a shit about anything but every now and then he will drop the cutest most affirming comments #(he did that when i came out as trans too) #i'm sure my brother has adhd if not autism or possibly both so maybe he has looked it up before or at least understands it better #but like for christmas he wanted to get me a weighted blanket because i'm always talking about how i need preassure and weight on me #and also that i like rocking myself to sleep (i need one of those automatic rocking chairs for babies but like adult size) #anyways he aknowledges (let's pretend i can spell that word) what i said and my suspicions of autism #today the noise of a tiny bit of air escaping from a badly close bottle lid was annoying me #i wasn't in the room i may add #when i complained my mom was like ''damn! that hearing!'' or somthing like that #and my brother. very casually said ''it's the autism'' which made me so fucking happy that is the first time someone fucking believes me! #but then my mom went ''naaah there's no autism here'' (or somthing amongst those lines) which took my excitement aways #but anyways i love my brother and his casual support <3 #angel talks #personal

[rigaudon]

I am holding myself together by a fucking thread and I just want it to break so i can get a break.

#i want to not be the fall guy for literally everything. i want some fucking nuance and to not be blamed for other people's actions #as well as my own. it's fucked up that im being told that it's both my fault for how i treated other people (valid and true) #and also being told that it's my fault for letting other people treat me the way they did and that i'm responsible for their actions too #just. so. tired. #just so tired. so. so. tired. #and people will see this and get mad at me and then that's my responsibility too #i want my animals to be okay #i want to be able to make rent and not owe my friends and family money #i dont know where im going to live in two months #i just want someone to care about me for me and not for what they think i should be #as if i am wrong or broken the way i am #why is forgiveness and understanding afforded to other people #while all i get is blame. always blame. it's my fault. i should have known better. the way i think or feel is narcissistic and fucked up. #over and over and over. #i dont want to leave my bunnies #my therapist does a lot of testing for autism and suggested i get tested myself #which i balked at initially because. idk. i don't... really like putting myself in boxes #but i brought it up with her this week and she gave me a referral to some places. #i dunno. maybe i'm desperately looking for something that people will actually take seriously #rather than telling me having adhd isn't an excuse for me to not be able to converse like a normal perspn #and that i can't have accommodations because 'that's how life is and it's not fair to everyone else to make exceptions for me' #the things i do for people i care about go unnoticed or get taken for granted #and i spend my whole life living to make other people happy/comfortable and compromise myself for it #and then when i advocate for myself i am being selfish and 'not everything is about you'. and just a complete rewriting of the things i do #i'm so tired. i'm lonely. i don't feel like im allowed to try and make new friends or reconnect with old ones #i should be posting this on my sideblog #fucking overwhelmed. the world is hopeless and im just going through the motions and keeping it all in because my feelings are inconvenient

[presentfuckingmic]

maybe it should be telling that i broke my phone and the only real reason im upset is bc i cant play ace attorney but whoever wants to contact me has to wait until i find out wtf phoenix is on that makes him Like That

#hes on undiagnosed adhd and autism btw #if u care #no but autistic phoenix is So Good but ive seen nothing #theres autistic miles (so true bestie) and autistic trucy (SO TRUE BESTIE) but phoenix? apollo? come ON #perfect examples of poor volume control and hyper empathy #not to mention literally no one can tell when phoenix is being sarcastic which indicates he struggles with tone #also autistic maya! she takes things so literally! #and both her and nick's unshakeable faith in their clients is so fucking autistic #not even as a hyper empathy thing but as taking advice (mia telling phoenix to believe in his client) and fully integrating it with no room #for doubt is SUCH an autistic thing! #like did u know that most ppl dont follow those little sayings they say to kids like don't lie to the t?? #like WHAT #anyway #ace attorney #phoenix wright #am i shitposting ace attorney on my shitposting mic account? yes #gonna turn this into a shitposting anime account just u wait

[katanathegaydemon]

I have to have silence to read but I have to have noise to read but it can’t be like music with words noise even if the words are in a language I don’t know because I’ll end up distracted trying to sing/mouth along or pinpoint the words I recognize or figure out the story of it instead of reading the thing I was meant to be reading and I can’t use white noise because most white noise makes me feel kinda sleepy but if it’s like specific white noise in a specific mood sometimes it helps and sometimes just the sound of my ac is enough to keep me focused but sometimes it’s so distracting but oh sometimes I really want to be watching a video or movie or show while I’m reading because I desperately need the dopamine from all the things but I can’t read with the sound I focus too much on trying to understand everything said and all the different noises or music and sometimes I want to be watching something and listening to music and reading and playing games all at once and I need to be doing all of them or I’m understimulated but I can’t be doing all of them because that’s way too overstimulating and I can’t stand it and sometimes I need to be in a call with my friends to be able to do things but I can’t be in a call with my friends I get too distracted trying to process everything they’re saying and doing

#H e l p #I think this is ADHD #it'd make sense #apparently ADD runs in my family #And my one great-aunt thinks she has it(Doesn't have a diagnosis but she's pretty sure and she's managed for 50+ years so she doesn't- #really want one or think she needs it) #and then my grandma has an ADHD diagnosis #And my mother seems like she might have it but no one's really sure whether it's ADHD or bipolar #And then my aunt may have it but it's the same situation for her as with my mother #then my dad probably has it but he doesn't really care enough to find out he is diagnosed dyslexic tho #then my great-uncle also probably has it but I'm not around him enough to know he just seems to have that hyper drive that I know I have #then also my great grandmother may have it but I don't know at all because she's old and a lot of her habits are weird because of that #Autism is also something shared by a lot of my family(And dyslexia and stuff but yk) #my older brother has a diagnosis of it #my one younger sibling scored a 220 on the raads-r test #I scored a 180 on it and have been going on and off in thinking I'm autistic since the age of ~9 #also my dad may be autistic I tried getting him to take the raads-r test just to see but he's dyslexic so reading isn't one of his favorites #oh and my baby brother acts very similarly to how I did when I was younger which could be both autism and adhd but he's very young who knows #and considering my siblings and I are all absolutely autistic I can't imagine it's the fault of our fathers as we have three different dads #unless somehow my mother is just an autism magnet of course #but it'd seem much more likely that she's autistic than just her boyfriends/husbands have been #Which to be fair I have met my older brother's dad and he is very evidently autistic #And I have a hypothesis that my baby brother's dad may be neurodiverse in some way due to how he experiences anger #Not sure about him though #He's kind of a mystery to me even though I lived with him for half a year #Oh there's also dyspraxia that both my father and I seem to have in common #Not diagnosed but it's the type of disability you can usually self-diagnose with given the way it works #There's generally a lot of neurodivergence in my family

[ourgoddessathena]

I uh... I think I have ADHD

#WAIT HEAR ME OUT #so #i don't know what is adhd until i made this tumblr acc which was like almost a year ago #i don't know what adhd was because in my country it's not common to talk about something like this #then one day i made this account and i read fanfic from here #and i read SOOOO much fanfic where Y/N had ADHD #and past me was like 'ooh she's like me fr!' 'i relate to her so much it's hurt i-' etc #WITHOUT knowing what ADHD was #then i search what is ADHD #or like writing tips 'how to write your ADHD character correctly' #the more i read the more i think that i have ADHD #then i search ADHD test in google #YES I KNOW SELF DIAGNOSE IS BAD I'M SO SORRY I JUST DON'T HAVE MONEY TO GO TO THE PROFESSIONAL :((((((( #/me being broke af #AND I'M CURIOUS OKAY SO PLEASE LET IT SLIDE #then i take four test #FOUR TEST #AND ALL OF THE RESULTS ARE 'you have ADHD' #edit : OH I REMEMBER THE BIGGEST REASON WHY I TAKE ALL OF THAT ADHD TEST #BECAUSE OF A POST THAT SAID 'when did the introverted extrovert kid realize that they likely have an adhd or autism?' #OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT

[six-improbable-things]

I don't have a problem, I swear.... (or: what happens when dnd is your special interest.)

#morrigan.text #it was so funny. I was in the car with my sister today talking about my adhd and autism and I was explaining stuff to her #and when I described special interests and said that mine is dnd she was like ''I was gonna say...'' #I am nothing if not predictable ig lmao #my sister can be a nice person sometimes. #that's a lie. she's usually nice. just not always to me. #but at the same time she does know me better than even my own parents. which is funny since as long as we live together we never talk. #we only ever talk when we don't live together (on the phone) or when we're stuck in a car alone together for a long time.

[miss-windsong]

@alicentsgf ty for tagging me my dear

Rules: list 5 comfort characters and tag 5 people

1. Adora - She-Ra and the Princesses of Power

2. Caitlyn Kiramman - Arcane

3. Ce’Nedra - The Belgariad

4. Sylvanas Windrunner - Warcraft

5. (young) Rhaenyra - House of the Dragon

Tagging @tripleburger @cuteinfodumpster @queenwillowisp @redisaid @orphanmaker

#for those of you who haven't read the belgariad #1. read it #2. ce'nedra is a tiny redhead half dryad who defies her gender role and mobilizes an entire continent to war to save her boywife #and is haunted by that decision every time they fight a battle #also i know rhaenyra is a very complicated person and a lot of people don't like her that much #but holy fuck i identify with her younger self in hotd so much like #she is so confident and self-assured and then her world collapses and she has no clue how to deal with it #same bestie #also she is gender #the other three are just different flavors of autism/adhd/idiot (loving)

[reserwrekt]

Went to a new mental health place yesterday. It's been weeks of phone calls and waiting. I mentioned I've been struggling with executive dysfunction enough that it's ruining my life. Explained I don't leave my apartment for weeks at a time. Explained I don't leave my room much less, bed.

The caseworker has been chronically late for our phone calls but this place strictly expects me to adhere to their appointment times.

I got tired when caseworker was 2 hours late for a phone call. Got depressed that I was forgotten about. Continued misgendering.

I told her I didn't answer the call that day.

She got offended and accused me of not wanting help. As if I didn't exhaust myself to get here.

Mental health facilities here suck.

#Like why have telehealth but force people to come in #People with mental illness #People who are agoraphobic or exposing themselves to triggers just to get help which is a mountain task #Then I wanted to do this right and be honest #So like I just told the psychologist all this stuff that's valid and working against me #Then she openly judged me for symptoms of my mental illness #She shut me down about a lot #She also has zero knowledge about autism she thinks its a disorder that needs cured #That's the education level im dealing with #I don't know how progressive people stay positive when I go outside this is the default #Like I've been seeing a psychologist for over a year that diagnosed me adhd too #But after telling her all my symptoms she didn't mention it but diagnosed me with several symptoms of it #Like idk how you can see me for an hour and prescribe medications that can really impact my life #But you're afraid to make diagnosis which doesn't help anyone at all #I mean I know who I am im just not in a mental state to deal with medical gaslighting #So now idk what to do but start over and try somewhere else #Dude im so tired I wanna cry