#Betrayed and hurt a friend in doing so

[avisisisis]

I know everyone likes to make fun of Ezra for believing Maul, but I honestly really liked that, because. Like. He's been working so hard to learn to trust people again. His new-found family is teaching him how to open up and how to let himself love others without being too afraid of losing them to connect

And he doesn't immediatly trust Maul, which shows that even if his trust issues are much better now, he's still not stupid and knows to be careful around strangers, especially if you found them inside a Sith Temple

But. Maul shows and tells him what he wants to see; he acts kind with him, reassures him when he's in doubt, and manipulates Ezra (who is a CHILD) into beliving in him so he could get what he wanted

Then he betrays him, and by blinding Kanan, he proves Ezra's 'little me' right

#i actually think it's beautiful how he still keeps trying even after having been hurt so many times #and it's not even about maul hurting him. it's about maul hurting kanan #like if maul hadn't done that then ezra would've been perfectly fine w having him as a slightly evil friend that his entire family hates #part of the reason why i love ezra is because bc even though he's been betrayed #he still works to be better #he still fights for what's right #still helps others. he can and will jump in the middle of the battlefield to save a stranger because that's who he is #and he always trusts his family to watch his back #he's been tempted by the dark side so many times and yet he's still “dark side? never heard of it” #and even when he DOES use the dark side. he gets better. he realices that what he's doing is wrong and GETS BETTER #ezra's world was violently taken away from him when he was only a child #he lived on the street for years with nothing but himself. he learned to never trust anyone and to always think for himself #he couldn't afford to help others (unless it wasn't TOO dangerous and he could get smth out of it) because he can't put himself in danger #he learns to forget his parents's beliefs #then the ghost crew comes along and they show him that world again #and now that he knows it he will never leave it again #star wars #star wars rebels #sw rebels #swr #ezra bridger #darth maul #star wars meta #sw meta #twilight of the apprentice #avis' post

[lovesickeros]

in the meantime come to horrifying realization there's like zero yan clorinde content so everyone sit down and listen to my ted talk (this is a requirement I have locked the doors and blocked the fire exits)

personally don't think Clorinde leans towards threats to be honest. she'd feel horrible and guilty if she did and I don't think she could handle you hating her or being afraid of her (maybe if you pushed her far enough then maybe she could justify it because she's trying to protect you but you'd really have to push it).

imo? leans more towards following you around with a hint of subtle manipulation behinf the scenes0. even if it's within the confines of the Court of Fontaine and the place is swarming with Gardemeks you can never be too sure. absolutely fumbles the excuse if you catch her though (if)

the epitome of gentleman, too. she "bumps" into you a lot and always offers to help– even if it's just a few small bags she takes them from you to help ease your burden, basically following you around like a lost puppy. it's a lot easier to trust the nice, polite woman who helped you then the stilted, awkward woman desperate for your attention.

her reluctance to threaten you or force you to do anything doesn't extend to people you know, though. she can cook up any manner of crime that'd get them stuck fighting a duel with her or dealing with a trial that'd get them sent straight to the fortress.

of course, the first thing she'd do is make sure you're okay. she still cares about you (and she really doesn't mean to manipulate you, but really, don't you find it odd that everyone around you is so sketchy? you should be more careful about who you trust. you trust her though, dont you?).

clorinde is very much in for the long game, in the end. she'd only kidnap you as a last resort. she'd much prefer slowly getting closer to you and having you come with her of your own free will (even if it's because she's been planting ideas in your head that you really aren't safe all alone like this. all your friends turned out to be criminals, after all, and what if they start to blame you and try to hurt you? it's best that you stay with her for a while)

if you had a lover, though? oh, she's livid. she makes sure to pin an absolutely heinous crime on them– one that would involve you. after all, she could swoop in and play savior after killing that wretched pest. she did save you from their alleged plan, after all.

a bit awkward with physical affection to be honest, but she tries in her own way. she does what she can to make your life easier– protects you, makes sure you have a roof over your head and nice clothes, a bed and warm baths, expensive foods..anything you want, she would get you without even asking.

why would you ever want to leave? don't you know how dangerous it is outside? who would take care of you if not her? she provides you with all you need, and with only the best (please don't leave)

basically your personal guard dog. she won't bite if you just listen to her and stay put.

and she's just absolutely smitten. careful if you actually use her gifts, because she'll think you're reciprocating her affection whether you are or not. you'll be drowning in new clothes, always trying need food..and she'll always be hovering over your shoulder, watching.

#genshin yandere #genshin impact yandere #yandere clorinde #clorinde x reader #clorinde is so german shepard coded yknow.. #she doesnt want to hurt you but she will restrain you if she has to. and its something she is very good at #clorinde is a bit of a sweetheart. a gentleman. but shes also horribly manipulative even if she doesnt mean to be #she just cant handle seeing other people so casually interacting with you #they would probably commit a crime in the future anyway #so its fine if she frames them for something #and she just wants to comfort you after finding out your supposed friend is a horrible person.. #its not her fault you start to rely on her because everyone else betrays your trust #shes just trying to comfort you #i mean shes very self aware that shes a bad person for doing it and she knows shes doing it #shakes her around like a can of soda. fucked up yans who sre conflicted over their actions #but do it anyway because their rationalize it so much that they think their doing you a service by keeping you safe #this is all gonna be horribly ooc when we find out more abt clorinde isnt it. anyway #clorinde and the hunting metaphor they used in 4.2 w reader is so tasty though #mm thsts good food #where r my fellow clorinde enjoyers man #ughhhh its way past my bedtime does this make sense........idk im gojng 2 bed or snth

[finncakes]

"Nana lied to us. She hid the truth. She wrote the letters. She gave the gifts. Our parents ran."

listening to ExU after everything makes it 100% more painful! you should try it!

#critical role #exandria unlimited #fearne calloway #the worst thing is fearne follows this by saying 'i don't think you're telling the truth.' #god #i know the feywild door is yellow and orange glitters but i started the piece with cool tones so it looks off with those colors #also...maybe unpopular opinion but #i think this whole part may have been either the spider queen or morri's way to get fearne to put on the crown/come back home #cause i think morri might be a hag...of some sort. and she's clearly possessive of fearne so #idk i don't think it would be a reach for her to be extreme in her attempt to get fearne to come back home #also. this fight is exactly why i think fearne was right not to raise her hand. #she saw a fake evil version of her that actively tried to persuade her to betray her friends and she kept saying no #and when the spider queen offered her power if she wore the crown she said no #she may be chaotic and unpredictable but she would never hurt or betray the ones she loves #i genuinely can never see her attacking bells hells but...i might be alone in that ! #<- if she ends up doing this at some point i will be GENUINELY surprised #i feel like the group would have to be actively attacking orym in order for her to do so #i will keep it at that :) but i have a lot of thoughts abt fearne

[askthekirbysquad]

I've been working through RtDL DX's Extra Mode fairly slowly, so I'm only just getting close to finishing it up now. I got all 120 Energy Spheres earlier today, and uhhhhhhh

Fun fact: This dialogue is entirely new to DX! It's not in the original. I went back to my old file on the Wii and checked.

Haha yeah you little shit, we know you're planning to betray us soon (still love you though <3)

WHAT THE FUCK????????

EXCUSE ME????????

And then he goes on to explain a bit more, as seen above. But uhhhhhh,,, yeah!!! He's not actually Halcandran!!!! That's a new piece of Lore right there. My jaw dropped while reading it lmao

Anyway, moving on from that bombshell of a sentence, since we still aren't done with the full dialogue,

Remember that post I made a bit over a month ago talking about some of Manager Magolor's dialogue, where I was wondering if that dream of his regarding the theme park also applied to Main Mode Magolor?

I WAS FUCKING RIGHT!

Hell yeah this is such a victory for me I was so excited to read that dghsghfs

Magolor stole the Master Crown so he could make a giant theme park Confirmed and Canon and Real /hj

And then we also get a fun little reference to the Kirby Clash games!

A steal in Kirby's eyes, maybe, but that's only because he doesn't understand real-world currency.

And to close out this post, here are the last two lines of dialogue from this conversation!

Anyway. I'm losing my mind 💖

#magolor kinda reminds me of entrapta from she-ra in that first part of the conversation #just hangin' out in a dangerous land because Hell Yeah Cool Tech from ancient civilizations!!! #i adore them both <3 #magolor #not a comic or an ask #kirby's return to dream land deluxe #kirby's return to dream land #kirby series #it does kinda hurt though. like- he talks so much about being such great friends with kirby and caring about him so much #even telling him about his lifelong dreams and aspirations #only to betray kirby and try to kill him almost immediately afterward. #given that this dialogue doesn't become available until you're just about to take on landia #though it's funny because in one of the other two 120 energy sphere convos in extra mode he just straight up talks about the master crown #not by name but he does describe an artifact that would let you rule the universe that landia won't want to give up #like. damn bro you really aren't being subtle this time around huh dhsgfhsdgfhdgfs #i did also want to talk about one of the other conversations you get from 120 spheres in extra mode but i think i might do that another day #that other one is from the original rtdl anyway. unlike the dialogue in this post #also i know the post is a bit long so feel free to let me know if you'd like me to add a ''keep reading'' cut at the top! #it just messes up the positioning of the images on the pc dashboard so i deleted it. but if people want it back i can edit it back in!

[sirenofthegreenbanks]

i feel like the incident with the princess and the qing‘s prince regent rui gave the king the opportunity to apologize to mongwoo for failing her back then and to share with her his side of things and why he is shackled to making decisions that go against his true wishes. i feel like mongwoo clocked that. she‘s been unusually quiet these past few episodes, im curious what she‘s gonna do now that the situation got so out of hand. maybe she will let go of her stupid plans, maybe she will decide to give the king a chance and understand the situation better. but she is so blindsided, i dont think this is gonna be enough for her to make a complete turnaround. still, one can hope TvT

#captivating the king #ep10 #great prince jinhan mewly crowned king sentencing her for smth she didnt do #not giving her a chance to explain and severing ties so cruelly #i feel like that hit mongwoo so hard she‘s gone stupid #she‘s like the king honestly #his judgement is shot after his own brother accused him of high treason then died in his arms #so much so that the king doesnt even question whether his closest friend would betray him #its exactly like that for them both #there IS a misunderstanding #the fact that two reasonable people with good people reading skills have not resolved it #just shows how badly theyre hurt #my thoughts #reading & watching

[the-apocalypse-is-cancelled]

Had an acquaintance who I commissioned to knit me a cute hat ask me if I can draw their DND character for them and when I said I only take commissions they were like "oh okay I'll figure something else out then" AND LIKE!!!

#I EVEN PAID YOU EXTRA BECAUSE YOU WERE UNDERSELLING YOURSELF #i honestly just felt so betrayed bdbxnxbx #like my art isnt brilliant i guess but i think i still deserve to be paid for it if i take time to dtaw something that isnt my things #it was honestly just so hurtful like i spent all this time making sure you understand how valuable your craft is obky fir you to turn around #do this #like the only people id consider taken requests from are close friends but they would never ask for free art like that??? #like i just know she wouldnt appreciate the time and effort id spend on the drawing i did for her. i know my friends would though

[youareinacomawakeup]

Nobody’s going to get this comparison because I’m willing to bet the overlap of these two fandoms is, like, ten to fourteen people total, but

#tfw you trick a villain into thinking you allied yourself with them #but you start to actually care about them when you realize they're just kind of sad #but you still have to do something about the fact that they're hurting people #and they realize you were always planning on betraying them #but without the context that you're reluctant to harm them in any way #so they're even more sad and honestly hurt that their one friend turned on them #... #if the owl house ends with the collector dying to protect king and his friends from belos #or because of the whole 'titans and collectors have opposite energies' thing #like they can't coexist for long #the way shadow couldn't exist in the light #i'm gonna be sad #man the steven universe movie made me think of majora's mask #(little chaotic being who was going to destroy the world just wants 3-4 giant friends actually) #and now the owl house is making me think of four swords #all i need is for a third soft little gay cartoon to make me think of wind waker #then i'll have one for all three of my favorite zeldas #the legend of zelda: four swords+ #the legend of zelda: four swords adventures #vidow #the owl house #same fucking energy except king and the collector are too baby for me to ship them #those are just buddies #deified besties #omnipotent bffs

[imaginarianisms]

1 day i will make a meta of sansa's dynamic with her metaphorical champions/suitors & how that correlates to the ashford theory (i.e sansa being betrothed to joffrey baratheon, then promised to willas tyrell, then being married to tyrion lannister, then being married to harry hardying then married to aegon vi targaryen & aurane velaryon but it is not this day. lmao. when i make that meta it'll be so over for y'all.

#out of the galaxy. || ooc. #just know that. she never marries after aurane. btw lmao #like if he like g-d forbid ever died before she did she'd like. literally never marry or love again like. thats it lmfao #but anyway like. she has a complicated relationship w/ all of them tbh & reflects on them sometimes. #she obviously hates joffrey for him abusing her but like. she can't help but feel sad for him at times bc like. he was so young. #if he had the right people around him maybe he would've turned out okay eventually. but it didnt happen. she never met willas but sometimes #she wondered what it would've been like to be lady of highgarden but she hopes he's doing alright. her dynamic w/ tyrion is. complicated #like. he was never like openly cruel to her or anything & she's grateful to him for saving her life & standing up for her but like. #there's always that grief surrounding their families & i think she resented & mostly afraid of him at the time but in hindsight she's+ #grateful that he never hurt her or forced himself on her. harry she hardly knew unfortunately but like she disliked him at first #but then he actually seemed to warm up to her & she had him tied around her lil finger but she knows that she wouldn't like to be married+ #to a guy who actually has children w/ sb else. like. she's seen how that played out & while she wouldn't be mean it makes her uncomfortable #but especially surrounding aegon bc like. she's not naive enough to say she loved him but like. she actually LIKED him #like. while she was wary of him at first she warmed up to him & genuinely respected him as a person & most importantly aegon was her FRIEND #they got along rly well due to their similar upbringings & what they had to do to survive & like. he's actually a decent guy in canon. lmao #he's handsome & was chivalrous & honorable & sweet w/ her but also like batshit insane in a good way. like. #he was the golden prince she always wanted since she was a little girl; the prince that joffrey was supposed to be but never was. #he gave her a future as queen of westeros that was originally HERS. so when daenerys eventually executes him she has mixed feelings about i #aegon was good to her & she'd vowed not to betray him & she actually intended to keep that vow. to her she was forever in his debt+ #he gave her a future from her isolation & suffering @ winterfell bc of how much everything changed & he waited for her to love him back. #he actually showed her respect & gave her a solid future when she felt alone & abandoned & led her gently into a world of his own making+ #& gave her back her honor & a future. esp when the north was divided between jon rickon & herself. most preferred jon or rickon over her. #without aegon's intervention she probably would've had to marry some northern lord below her station. the winterfell succession crisis wild #but aurane velaryon? that's the love of her life. her bold captain. he taught her how to love & coaxed her in the sun to bloom & freed her. #freed her from the chains of her family obligations. he taught her to break the rules of tradition & follow her heart & trust her instincts #he was there with her in her darkest hour. he quite literally saved her life & defended her honor when no one else had the balls to do that #no one looks @ or touches her the way aurane does she loved him madly truly & deeply he took her girlhood in his stride but when autumn cam #she escaped & had to push him into the deepest recesses of her mind in the name of survival & pragmatism but she never stopped loving him. #& his sweet memory brought too much heartache & bittersweetness for her. she lowkey waited for him for years. & they EVENTUALLY reunited ! #he fought & got legitimized for HER. she's. so genuinely happy w/ that man. he's one of her best friends & the father to her children.

[wikipediary]

Don’t wanna be ‘friends’ (using this term extremely loosely) with this one girl i’m in the same cohort/course with…her belief system + the way she perceives other people and the world is so…i cannot think of a better word so: SHUDDERING. but she’s friends with my circle of cohort/friends so she’ll always be in my circle…?

#she cheated with her ex when her ex already had a new girlfriend and she didn’t feel any remorse at all #she justified her cheating by saying sex is just sex w/her ex & that she wanted her ex’s gf (which she hasn’t even met or known) to feel the #(same things she did hurt; betrayed; cheated on) and i’m like. you’re a fucking cheater? that’s so horrible for you to do? #you don’t even know this girl? she came to be with ur ex in an appropriate way? wdym she deserves to be cheated on because you did… #BY ANOTHER MAN? not even this specific ex? #literally so insane. and she’s like: im going to therapy blah blah blah but clearly you lack the respect and consciousness #me and my friend who listened to her said that she should confess that they cheated with each other to the poor girl but she’s like… #‘not my business’ uhm the fuck it is? you were a third party. and saying that the boy should be the one confessing…uhm WHY NOT U BOTH? #and their relationship (ex and girl) CONTINUED even after the fact and they broke up only recently (early march) and idk if the girl knew #like. truly. i’ve never met someone so incredibly…vile? i guess? what’s a better word for it 😭 #and what’s also so inappropriate about her is that she has like a bf and she keeps droning on about her ex like rent free in her mind #keeps flirting w other men; looking at them and saying she has crushes and all that and want to make a move. like. YOU HAVE A BF? #i don’t wanna be near someone like that. and what’s unfortunate is my close friend is close with her so i’m a ‘friend’ BY association #and that friend of mine also can’t disentangle herself from her bec she’s her first ever friend in uni lmao. so there’s sentimentality there #& we talked abt this w each other; how disappointing it was for her to be like that. and how my friend feels she’s complacent in being okay #with cheating (but she’s not) and i’m like…ugh. #probably one of the worst people i’ve ever met i’m so sorry to say that genuinely. when i’m with her in a grp (i NEVER hang out w her alone) #i feel like my principles r being hijacked and violated and being engulfed by something i’ve kept myself away from lol

[jdsmineralwater]

something something 'hes using you to get back at the gods-' 'good!' something something

#that and 'your the lightning theif' #THE ORACLE WARNED YOU #BETRAYED BY A FRIEND #YOU SET ME UP YOU WERE TRYING TO FREE KRONOS WHY #IVE BEEN HERE SINCE I WAS A KID I DID EVERYTHING THEY EVERY ASKED YEA I DID AND FOR WHAT? YOU KNOW THIS WORLD WILL NEVER BE OURS AS LONG AS #OUR PARENTS RULE OVER THE STARS SO ILL DO ANYTHING IDC IF I HURT ANYONE IT DOESNT PAY TO BE A GOOD KID A GOOD KID A GOOD SON THE GODS WERE #NEVER ON OUR SIDE SO I THINK ITS TIME TO WATCH THEM FALL SOON THEYLL ALL SEE WHAT I DID AND THERE WILL BE NO GODS AT ALLLLLL #pjo #percy jackson #cw percy jackson spoilers #the lightning theif musical #luke castellan

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Honestly, Roxy and Vanessa friendship, especially when Vanny and Glitchtrap are a thing, is really interesting to play around with. Roxy has no reason to talk to her and no reason to ever trust her, especially when she knows about Vanny. Vanessa has every reason to tell her to fuck off, to go away and never come back to keep her from getting attached and inevitably caught and virus'd, but can't bring herself to force her away.

Mixing things from my old horse girl Roxy fic with my current setups, Glitchtrap/Vanny and new ideas for their friendship, makes this even more interesting. It puts Roxy in a very vulnerable position, the prime target for manipulation and being taking advantage of, but it also puts her in prime position to give Vanessa hope.

Roxy can tell who's talking to her, she knows when it's Vanessa and she knows when it's Vanny. She's honestly probably the only person that would believe whatever Vanessa says about what she's going through. The illusion disks don't work on her and she can always see them so long as they're in the building. If she figures out the Princess Quest connection? If she starts working on freeing her? Well, Roxy's the first hope she's had in fuck knows how long.

And the thing is, because Roxy can see it all, she has the power to recognise that what's happening to the other animatronics, is what has already happened with Vanessa. Not only that, but Vanessa is an outsider going through it. She knows she can't say anything too important around her, but she's such a lifeline as an outside perspective to her. She can tell her things that Roxy wouldn't otherwise be able to find out about, and has offered suggestions and advice to 'get rid of her' that's actually helped a lot. With how everything is, Vanessa has become one of the few people Roxy can still talk to, even if she has to be careful about what she says with her.

What else is interesting, is the absolute fascination Vanny can have with her. Neither Vanny nor Glitchtrap know what Roxy's deal is. They don't know how she knows who's talking to her. The first time Vanny switched in to try and manipulate her as Vanessa, Roxy asked for her name and it threw them so fucking hard. Roxy vanishes all the time, she mentions things she has no business knowing, she asks about things that have confusing implications, she has higher security clearance than them, she can kill the cameras in an instant, she can't be tracked like the others and weirdly enough, she seems to actually like talking to them. Maybe not Vanny specifically, but Vanessa? Why does she like her so much? Why does she keep coming back? How does she always know where they are? How is she always there to stop them getting up to shit? What's her game and how the hell is she playing it?

She's just different, and Vanny finds it intriguing. She hasn't had many openings to catch Roxy off guard and infect her yet, but she's also never been able to be in control of Vanessa without her knowing. She's clearly been isolated from the majority of the other animatronics for things that Vanny didn't even have a hand in. She keeps sharing little, inconsequential things with Vanessa, and giving her random shit she finds that she thinks she'll like, despite Vanessa trying to push her away. She's openly admitted that she knows what Vanny is trying to do to her and it's somehow still not stopped her. Honestly, she's starting to think she's playing the 'power of friendship' game to try and friendship her way through all of this...

And it would be really funny if she thought it was working. Like Vanny would normally get rid of things Vanessa likes but because Roxy is throwing them both for a fucking loop, she's found herself unable to do it. Vanny fucking hates this horse plushie Roxy very enthusiastically gave Vanessa, but she can't rip it up like she ordinarily would because what the fuck okay?? Why is she like this??? And it's the first time Vanessa has smiled since this all started.

Vanessa is rooting for her. She thinks this is part of her plan. After all, Roxy couldn't possibly actually see her as a friend, right? Vanny's right, it must be part of some master plan to deal with all of this!

And then it's over. The next time Vanessa sees her, Roxy hugs her in tears, thinking the worst had happened after that night. Or if it was Roxy that freed her, she returns to the office, a new horse plushie she found in hand, and is there waiting for her when she clocks in for her shift after a long break away. Turns out, it wasn't part of her plan. She just needed a friend.

#fnaf security breach #do you see what i mean??? roxy is the most BAFFLING animatronic to them #i don't know if Roxy WILL do all of that stuff specifically but i know she would do some of it at least #this is NOT intended as a ship thing but you can interpret it that way if you want #I'm not judgy i don't really care #i just. they're so interesting??? #obviously it's not always possible for roxy to come and see her later on but she could always leave little signs in her office to say hi #that's the thing with the current setup. Roxy is so much more isolated than before #she has the minis of course and she has the construction staff in a way #but dogs and wolves are such social animals that she still feels so lonely #she's been betrayed already and she's hurting and she's angry and so much is happening it's overwhelming #who can blame her for trying to make friends? #AND this could be a really fun parallel to Cassie and another animatronic if it plays out a certain way #if that friendship is what ultimately leads to roxy getting caught? well yeah... parallels my man #very interesting stuff!! i love it all!!! #i am entertained!!! i just think they're neat!!!

[succubi-tch]

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#i miss having friends who gave a fuck about me #or....friends period lol. remind me to never seek comfort in another human being lest they make me out for being s moron #that's probably one of the worst things you can do to me actually #aside from straight up betray me or break my trust #is make me out to be an idiot lol. #i guess i fucking am one if i keep thinking ill find comfort in people when theyre the only fucking thing that keeps hurting me over andover #''sorry?'' yeah sorry. majorly sorry for bothering you #i can't wait until the day everyone finally forgets about me and i finally fully fade away where i belong. anyway #know no one cares so im just going to play skyrim. good evening to anyone reading until the end of this

[julie-loves-cake]

Me writing the sort-of Garten Of BanBan Rewrite and realizing the story not only is about a mother looking for her child but learning about the mascots’ trauma about being experimented on (to put it lightly) and how differently they react to an adult after so long:

#LISTEN #I DIDN’T MEAN IT #I DIDN’T MEAN TO WRITE IT LIKE THAT BUT NOW I’M ATTACHED TO THE IDEA BECAUSE YOU CAN DO SO MUCH WITH IT #Stinger Flynn is untrusting of humans (for good reasons) and refuses to believe they can be anything but stubborn #while BanBan puts way too much effort trying to see the good in people despite being betrayed by someone he saw as a friend #while the others are in their own worlds/trying to avoid being hurt again #meanwhile this mother is trying to find her kid and only now finds out these mascots need heavy therapy #no one’s really evil they’re just reacting I’m a way that to an outsider seems evil #and when they’re reasoned with they’re actually really friendly #garten of banban

[kethabali]

i feel like such a bad person i ghosted so many people because i couldn't bring myself to communicate a problem and decided they probably have other red flags and i should just stop talking altogether to avoid conflict.. i feel so bad about this bc some of them reached out unknowing i did it on purpose and it feels like i really keep misjudging people bc of my trauma and its stopping me from having genuine friendship because i no longer know how to open up and trust people wholeheartedly

#actually audhd #🧃 #on the other hand i doubt myself again bc what if im right for ghosting them #cant tell if its trauma or reasonable thinking at this point #most likely trauma bc #at the very least you can communicate problem with them... #at least then i can say i tried right #but no #bc last time i tried it went the worst it can and ive been scared ever since #bc it was the first time i decided to try in a long time #and it went so awful i got scared again #but maybe this time ill try one more time #i have to keep trying right #its just hard bc im so sensitive and scared of falling into a spiral #like ill get attached to someone theyll betray me or hurt me really deeply and ill fall into a spiral #which happened twice so far #but that happened bc i put everything on those people and like #idk i put all my expectations and standards onto one person instead of making multiple friends #i honestly do not know how to have multiple friends #or have friends that we aren't compatible in everything but we enjoy the time we spend together #its like i can only do all or nothing #i wish this could change right now #but i think this takes time #ok bye im done ranting #i just feel sick in my stomach bc i hate confrontation and conflict #SO MUCH #UGH ok fine i have to stop doing this to people its too mean #ok bye #im still feeling guilty

[siriuslynephilim]

you know it's bad when you hit the 30 tag limit

#like shut up i wasn't done #i feel so unbearably hurt and betrayed like how can i be SO. unimportant to him so less of a priority that he's literally organising his #desk instead of talking to me taking five mins to talk to an agent book a ticket in tatkal #i told him i had to be back by 20 even before coming here on like 5th #and ive been reminding hin this everyday since after diwali #still he just. doesn't care? #and im his daughter? am i his daughter? does it even mean anything????? #ive never felt more alienated from my family than today #isn't it sad i don't even expect anything from mom all she does is tries to lighten the mood by making jokes #im so sick of her even the sight of her her voice makes me want to shout at her #i don't do it ofc but still #everyone is so selfish she's so selfish too she's always complaining about how i don't love her how i don't give her a chance #but that she'll stay away from all important thinhs that actually matter to me like what's the point of having a mother then??? i have my #siblings to listen to me i have my friends you i need u to be an adult and fucking help me in real terms #nvmind that path is just hopeless #anyway in tired of my small fucking life and my same small fucking problems and my own fucking self #everything would be okay if i just studied a little bit harder #idk ive been practicing saying it out loud that i can't study more than tui and after seven times i can say it out loud now #without crying or my voice watering #so hopefully it will go well #tho in my experience i never actually get to sya the stuff i practice to say to him because he dominates the convo so early so fast im #left speechless and shocked and on the verge of tears AGAUN #it's fine im calm now #but after crying headache ugh i did not miss u at all going back to storing all breakdowns in a bottle

[yourqueenb]

Ngl though, I was very worried about Lancelot. I know he’s the best knight in the realm or whatever, but the writing for him is so good that I actually care about what happens to him and can feel the emotional conflict along with MC

#choices guinevere #choices lancelot #choices #choices stories you play #playchoices #being IN love with one man and choosing him #but *loving* another as a friend so deeply that you don’t want to see them hurt #esp not at your own hands because you don’t reciprocate his feelings #or maybe you do to an extent but you have chosen someone else bc you know that’s where your heart belongs #not to mention the fact that on top of beating himself up mentally over ‘betraying’ his friend by catching feelings for his betrothed… #he’s also been physically beaten 😢 #which is why I mentioned the best knight in the land thing #like ik Lancelot can take a few punches but I don’t like thinking about him being hurt 😞 #he deserves all the love and happiness and gentleness too! #but anyway kudos to the writing team for making me feel all these things about pixels again 😭 #choices app #pixelberry studios #pixelberry