#I complained about growing up queer and christian and she complained about her bible thumping sister so I complained about my little brother

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#tag talk #had a new therapist appointment today. she seems nice and I think we'll probably get along. #I complained about growing up queer and christian and she complained about her bible thumping sister so I complained about my little brother #who is the same flavor of dogmatic religious and as long as it doesn't ever turn into her genuinely complaining about stuff to me we're good #I'm always bad at open ended questions like “tell me about yourself” but I can go off for an hour with a prompt like “do you have any kids?” #I woke up my laptop an hour ahead because it's so fuckin old it needs the time to wake up but my pc doesn't have a webcam so laptop it is. #I got a headset that connects with a bluetooth dongle because my pc network card doesn't have onboard bluetooth and it's nice #cause I don't have to worry about audio cords and I can walk around the house while still connected to call. #so many people I vc with have issues with headphones and mics unplugging all the time and I'm like hah I'm better than you. #anyway. we'll see how it goes. she was nice and wasn't sarcastic or passive aggressive so better than the first person I saw here. #and she actually responds to my comments and asks questions instead of just silently listening so better than my last actual therapist. #fourth time's the charm maybe. we'll see. I'm also in a place where I can get even more done myself with just a little external motivation #so even if she's not remarkably insightful I'm in a better place mentally so with a bit of external impetus I can get even more done now. #I picked weekly instead of biweekly because I will forget stuff so fucking fast if I pick biweekly and I can schedule it further away later #if I decide that's what I want/need/can handle. but yeah. new stuff #I still to call their dental department about a checkup cause it's been since 2019 since I got an actual checkup. #I brush and floss and mouthwash because I'm paranoid of having an issue without immediate dental care so I'm prolly fine #but it would be nice to be sure about it instead of just presuming and guessing. #once again thanks for socialized healthcare even if it is pretty garbage in the US it's absolutely better than nothing. #if/when I want gender surgery shit it'll probably be a whole-ass issue but for the entry-level shit it's very manageable. #anyway. I almost forgot about my scheduled appointment because when my brain is nervous about stuff it chooses to forget about it #which has cause problems in the past and certainly will again in the future but I remembered early enough that I didn't try and shower #cause deadass one time I had to hop out of the shower to take a scheduled Dr call cause I forgot about it #if my music hadn't paused I wouldn't have noticed. #no big deal just me talking about important medical treatment stuff buck ass nude full thang swangin #anyway. hopefully good things in the future perhaps. #I have to go shower for real now. byeeeeee