#I have no driver’s license because technically my dad isn’t my legal guard it’s my grandpa and he lives in a different city

[ace-culture-is]

I’m alive btw just having no energy, stuff on my situation in the notes ig

#not ace culture #sascha speaks up #tw from here mentions of emotional abuse ig??? #anyway I didn’t clean the house and my dad said the day before he’d drive me to see if I could get a job interview #he said he wouldn’t take me #and that I wouldn’t be allowed to use his name #if I wanted a job I’d need to find my own transportation #I have no money to my name except money that is in Eli’s home state and j can’t access that without downloading cash app and risking having #him find it #I have no driver’s license because technically my dad isn’t my legal guard it’s my grandpa and he lives in a different city #so I’m #screwed #I’m 17 with no job and I feel like a failure #because what kind of person fucks up right before getting a job interview #not to mention my dad said I would get fired in a few months anyway and that I’d ruin his reputation but it’s nothing personal #and now I’m being pressured to run away from home because oh yeah leaving my siblings behind when I’m eighteen isn’t damaging enough #I don’t know #I’ll figure it out #if I don’t snap and #ya know #*slicing motion against throat* #if I live that long I’ll cross that bridge ig #if you read this far down I’m sorry #it’s night for me so gn